Monday, December 18 was fine

My mother watched my brother and I close our eyes with a reluctant and unwilling look in the ward of the staff hospital at 3 a.m. last Tuesday, and left us forever. Mom's disease is not actually a stomach ulcer, when it was found in September, it was already an advanced stage of stomach cancer, my father hid from me and my younger brother to seek medical advice everywhere, until last month when my mother was hospitalized again I didn't know the truth, this month I came to the hospital every day to accompany my mother, watching my mother's painful moaning, thin body, every day is a torment, this more than a month of tears have drained me, my mother's departure may be a relief, but touching my mother's cold, thin palms, tears still can't stop flowing, I really regret that my mother asked me to do this and that, why always talk backNow look at who else wants you to do this and that. I used to make fun of my mother for being illiterate and didn't understand anything, but it was such an illiterate mother who supported the family with her hard-working hands, so that my brother and I had no worries about food and clothing, and spent a happy, warm, and carefree childhood, teenager.

I think of what Mr. Xiao Zeng once said, don't think that your family will always be by your side, don't take their existence for granted, once one day you lose their companionship and protection, it will be the saddest thing in the world. I have fully realized how sad it is, every day when I come home from school, I always call my mother, and now no one responds. It's cold, put on the sweater and pants knitted by my mother, where to find such warmth in the future, only to hold my mother's warm hand in my dream, overnight I seem to have grown up, I want to take care of my father and younger brother like my mother. At my mother's funeral, the leader of my mother's factory promised my father that I could go to my mother's factory to take a job, and after the New Year, I was 17 years old and could start as an apprentice. Because my mother's performance in the factory has always been obvious to all, it is an honor for my mother to let me work in the factory.

After my mother's funeral, my father asked me to go through the school withdrawal procedures as soon as possible, I was in a dilemma, in fact, from the bottom of my heart I still want to study, sitting in the bright classroom, listening to the teacher explain all kinds of knowledge with my dear classmates, how happy it is to broaden my horizons and understand the outside world. But my father wants me to go to work in the textile factory as soon as possible, so that the family will have a large amount of income every month and relieve the pressure on my father, what should I do?

At noon today, I went to Ms. Zeng's office to apply for withdrawal from school, and Ms. Zeng looked at me and asked me if I wanted to study? I nodded, and Mr. Zeng said that he would come to my house tonight to visit her and ask my father to wait for her at home, and I nodded again.

Tuesday, December 19 is fine

I don't know what Mr. Zeng talked to my dad about last night, but after I got up this morning, my dad asked me to continue to go to school, and I must study hard and stop being playful. After Mom left, Dad aged a lot overnight, watching him hunch slightly over and push the dilapidated bicycle out of the house I felt that my eyes were wet, from now on I will definitely redouble my efforts to study, and I will never let today's Dad regret yesterday's decision!

Today I went to Hu Bo's house to ask her to go to school with her, and she jumped up with joy when she saw me, and she thought that I would never go to school again. Because of my mother, I didn't come to school for half a month, and my homework fell behind a lot, and the first thing I did when I arrived at school was to ask Hu Bo to borrow class notes to copy, but Hu Bo's characters and ghost drawings were generally too sloppy, and it was really difficult to read. I opened the notebook and looked at it, but I didn't expect that Huang Cheng's notebook was a stroke by stroke, and the notes made by the teacher in class were neatly recorded in detail.

During recess, Hu Bo gossiped with me about my absence during this period of time, all kinds of news that happened in the school, Li Liling finally confessed to Huang Cheng, but unfortunately was ruthlessly rejected, and now Li Liling has a mysterious boyfriend, this boyfriend often gives Li Liling such and such gifts, which makes the girls in the class envious. Hu Bo's scarf has been knitted and is ready to be given to Jiang Wenbin as a New Year's gift on New Year's Day. There are still ten days to go until New Year's Day, and each class will still hold a tea party as in previous years, and everyone will perform at that time, Hu Bo asked me if I was ready, and I shook my head.

Suddenly, Hu Bo looked around and whispered something to me, which made me so shocked that I even stopped writing notes, she said that Teacher Xiao Zeng gave us four classes in the first year of high school, and after teaching English this semester, she was going to leave Jihong Middle School and go to Wuhan. Hu Bo said that in the half month that I was away, Mr. Xiao Zeng's boyfriend came from Wuhan twice to find Mr. Xiao Zeng, and asked Mr. Xiao Zeng to go to the United States with him, that boyfriend is really good, he has applied for a scholarship to a well-known university in the United States, and is about to go abroad, he asked Mr. Xiao Zeng to go to his former alma mater to go through some procedures, take a test called TOEFL, and then go to the United States together, who will miss such a good opportunity to go abroad! I opened my mouth wide in surprise, I don't want Teacher Xiao Zeng to leave us, Teacher Xiao Zeng is like a flag, a benchmark standing there, guiding me to learn from her all the time, how can this and the benchmark disappear like this! I feel sincerely resentful and reluctant!

After school, Mr. Xiao Zeng called me to the office and said to help me make up for the English class that I had missed in the past half month, let me listen to the tape for a while, and tell me tenses, words, English to Chinese, Chinese to English, Xiao Zeng teacher spoke very carefully, and I listened very carefully, but for some reason, I always remembered what Hu Bo said, and Teacher Xiao Zeng was going to go to the United States with her boyfriend after teaching this semester's English class. I couldn't help it, and when Mr. Xiao Zeng took a break, I asked, 'Mr. Xiao Zeng, do you really want to go to the United States with your boyfriend?' Teacher Xiao Zeng replied with a gloomy expression and said that she didn't know, she was very conflicted, and it was a rare opportunity for her to go to the United States this time, but Mr. Zeng couldn't bear to leave Mr. Zeng alone in China.

Teacher Xiao Zeng held his chin with one hand, his face was confused, and he looked at me with a melancholy expression, which made me feel pitiful, somehow, my mind was hot, and I asked a stupid question, 'Teacher Xiao Zeng, do you love your boyfriend?' Teacher Xiao Zeng was stunned, never expected that I would ask this question, instead of blurting out like most couples, 'Love, how can you be boyfriend and girlfriend if you don't love'! I only know that when I first entered college, Xu Weiming, who was the president of the student union, came to chase me, and he was the object of admiration of all the girls in the school. ''How is it possible, that is the plot of Qiong Yao's romance novel! There is a difference between fiction and reality. Silly boy!'

Although I haven't been in love, I always feel that Mr. Xiao Zeng doesn't seem to love her boyfriend, just passively accept his care, when it comes to going to the United States, she doesn't seem to be very happy, after finishing the class out of the office, the road is already dark, far away under the street lamp stands a handsome figure leaning next to a permanent bicycle, at a glance I know that it is Huang Cheng waiting for Mr. Xiao Zeng, I waved my hand and said goodbye to Mr. Xiao Zeng, only to see Huang Cheng riding a car with Mr. Xiao Zeng's figure drowned in the dim street lamp.