On the night of the burial of Meow, the rain poured down, and lightning and thunder roared. I lay in bed and watched the wind howling and the swaying lightning outside the window, listening to the sound of the rain washing over the earth, and my chest was filled with despair.

After waking up from the nightmare, he suddenly remembered the heavy rain last night and rushed to the place where Meow was buried. The small mound of earth has been washed away by the torrential rain, and Meowmeow's stiff tail is exposed to the outside with the soil, and she can't bear to see it like this, so she goes forward to rebuild a mound, and pulls out some weeds from the surrounding gravel pile, and puts it on top of the stone pile with the soil that she has followed, so that even if it rains in the future, at least it can ensure that it can have a stable resting place.

After all this, I wiped my red and swollen eyes and prepared to go back to the dormitory to wash up and go to class, and when I walked downstairs, Xiao Lin, who had disappeared for a few days, suddenly appeared in front of me, smiling lightly, and the corners of my eyes were full of contempt.

Then, in the tone of answering the phone that night, he said, "Zhen Rou, does it feel good to be my stand-in?"

I sneered, I really didn't know what the point of her showing off in front of my eyes at the moment, the person she wanted had already been obtained, so why bother to come to me, a loser, to show off her power again.

Xu Shi's reaction did not satisfy her, she fiddled with the curls in front of her and continued, "I have been very happy these days. I want to thank you for making us see each other's sincerity. Chen Mo has been with me, so he couldn't come to you, he said that he felt sorry for you and wanted to compensate you. You also know that he is a very gentle person who does not want to hurt others or owe favors to others. ”

Perhaps, she told me a few days ago that I would still cry, but now I can deal with her with a smile on my face.

Try to keep your tone without a hint of emotion: "I never like to force other people's things." But if you were really confident, you wouldn't have come to me today. I can't help but admire myself for being able to say such a thing.

"You!" Xiao Lin was a little irritated by me, but quickly regained her look: "Chen Mo's parents have always wanted him to study manager management and take over the company in the future, but Chen Mo has always liked design, and finally reached an agreement with his parents: he can continue to study design, but he will go to the United States for further study after graduation, he shouldn't have told you about this matter." He was born to be the sun, I have investigated you, you have a complicated background, and your family is poor, so you are not worthy of him. ”

I snorted coldly and didn't want to answer, Xiao Lin seemed a little bored when she saw that I didn't react, but coughed twice and continued: "We are going through the formalities of going abroad, and if it goes well, we will go to the United States together next month." I hope you don't take advantage of Chen Mo's guilt and sympathy for you to take advantage of him. ”

I gave her a big smiley face. "It's mine, I don't give up easily, it's not mine, and I won't force it. I suggest you follow my boundaries. Leave Xiao Lin and walk away.

It's easy to pretend to be strong in front of her, really don't hurt or not, go back to the dormitory and hide behind the bed curtain and cry silently, wipe your tears and take the textbook to class, life has to go on, studies have to continue, a person who is struggling in a difficult situation is not worthy of giving up himself for gains and losses.

Feeling trapped by love and disappearing for a period of time to heal this kind of plot is not suitable for me. The reality is that even if life hits me hard, I don't have time to lie down and heal, I have to find a way to improve myself and live well with my mother.

When I was working part-time, I served the wrong dishes to the guests several times, and the foreman scolded me a few times, and after seeing that I didn't seem to be in a high mood, I didn't say anything. On the way back to school at night, the other protagonist of this bloody plot finally appeared, the street lamp pulled his shadow to the length of his sleeve, and his always straight back also looked a little weak, looking a little haggard, as if he was waiting for someone.

Having made up her mind not to see him, she turned and walked in the opposite direction. I didn't take a few steps before a big hand rushed up from behind and grabbed my arm, Chen Moding looked at me, his eyes were a little shiny, and he looked like he was about to say something, but in the end he just shouted: "Arou." ”

resisted the urge to go into his arms and question, and asked, "Chen Mo, what are you looking for me? Are you here to break up with me?"

Without waiting for him to answer, he grabbed the white and said: "I think you and Xiao Lin are quite compatible, a natural pair of talented and beautiful women." Don't worry, even if you don't come to me for a showdown today, I won't pester you. ”

Chen Mo was stunned, thinking that he didn't think that I let go so happily and disrupted his rhythm. I grabbed my hand a little harder, and only asked, "What did you say?"

Is this because I am worried that I will regret it and force me to say it again? forced back the moisture in his eyes, sniffed, and then said: "Chen Mo, let's break up." ”

I could see some panic in his eyes, and he made a gesture to put his arms around me, and I jerked away. Chen Mo's tone began to rise, "Ah Rou, a lot of things have happened in the past few days, and I didn't do well and made you feel wronged." You give me a few days, and I'll take care of it. ”

How to deal with it?" "Chen Mo, I never thought of interfering in your relationship with others. Moreover, because of this, all the family affairs that I have been hiding and don't want everyone to know have been exposed, and now the school is overwhelmingly saying that I am the third party of the family history, and I am involved in your harmonious and perfect emotions. Besides, you don't know it yet, people even say that I was fostered at the same time as you when I was friends. Hehe, Chen Mo, isn't that ridiculous?"

pulled the corners of his mouth, squeezed out a smile, and continued: "Look, I'm with you, I'm under too much pressure, and in the future, I don't know what other slanderous legends will come out." It's disrupted my whole rhythm. Your world, I couldn't get involved in it in the first place, and I was naïve and delusional before. ”

Chen Mo came to grab me again, and I tried my best to break free of his hand, but Chen Mo still locked my wrist. "Arou, what's wrong with your hand. "My eyes flickered, the corners of my mouth twitched, if it wasn't for what happened before, I would definitely think it was distressing and unbearable. It's a pity that there are so many pities in the world, but unfortunately, it's not what it used to be.

"Oh, Meowth is dead, last night I buried it with my own hands, dug such a big hole, and put him in it. When it died, its eyes were wide open, and it was covered in blood, have you ever seen a cat that was stained with blood? ”

I gestured the size, but tears gushed out, thinking of Xiao Lin, thinking of the attack of the forum, I could not hold back crying, but thinking of Meow, I couldn't control myself.

Chen Mo came over and hugged me fiercely, this time I didn't hide, his hand gently fell on my back and forth, which only made me cry more sadly.

"Arou, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Chen Mo kept repeating this sentence.

"Chen Mo, I wanted to say this to you when Meow Meow died, let's break up, from childhood to adulthood, the people I love and the things I love have not encountered anything good. I heard that you are going abroad, Xiao Lin told me, she is going with you too, right, you two are a good match. ”

Chen Mo hurriedly replied: "What are you talking about, I'm done with Xiao Lin." ”

Is it, it's over? What does the kiss by the lake, and that ambiguous phone call mean? She can hold your phone next to you while you take a shower, and then it suddenly disappears for eight days.

I wanted to open my mouth to ask, but I was afraid that I would get a result that I didn't want to hear. When there is no continuation, there will be chaos after that. Even if it is really over as Chen Mo said, I don't have the confidence to accept that when I love him to the extreme, he has a skin-to-skin relationship with another woman. Moreover, as Xiao Lin said, Chen Mo is the sun, and I am just a small grass, unable to hold up the sun, and unable to withstand the scorching too close. He wants to go abroad, and he must have a big road with a smooth road. I couldn't keep up.

"Chen Mo, in the past eight days, during the days you have accompanied Xiao Lin, do you know how much I want you to come back and hold my hand and explain it to me? I was thinking, if you come back, I want to hear what you have to say. But I waited eight days for Meow to die before I woke up from my dream. ”

Trying to steady himself, he continued, "I told myself you weren't coming. You are one world. Even without Xiao Lin, there are others. ”

"I'll find a way to clarify it for you. Chen Mo tightened my arms tightly.

"I'm so tired by your side, there may be more things to follow in the future, I can't stand it, you don't have to feel sorry for me, I don't want to continue. ”

He may still feel guilty about me now, so a heart is a little swaying for Xiao Lin and me, and it is better to break it off now than for me to continue and force me to withdraw when he finally comes to his senses.

"Someday you'll understand me, Arou, don't talk so hard now, I won't break up with you, you wait for me for a year, and I'll settle this side of things." ”

"Chen Mo, I said, let's break up, we're not suitable. It's not your problem, it's mine. The terrible voice was louder at night, and within a few seconds of the shouting, it was still echoing in my ears, like this incomprehensible state of mind, uninterrupted, but also unclear.

"Arou, don't you love me?" The person in front of him seemed to have something to say, but in the end he only asked this sentence.

"Chen Mo, I loved you, because I loved you, I was also hurt, maybe I love myself more, you let me go. Xu is a bit heavy with my words, Chen Mo was silent, and finally let go of the hand that was clamping me, turned to leave, walked a few steps, did not look back, and sighed: "Ah Rou, I didn't think that you would be so ruthless." ”

You think of Xiao Lin but you still want me to love you, I love, what, don't love, what. I love, you are guilty, I don't love, are you unwilling?

After that, Chen Mo never came to me, and a month later, on a sunny day, I heard that he went to the United States, and of course, Xiao Lin went with him. For a time, the story of the prodigal son turning back and flying with wings became a good story.

I blocked all contact with Chen Mo, used MSN, the mailbox never logged in again, two months later Chen Mo began to write to me, but I did not open it, since it was going to be broken, it had to be broken.

If my father had decided to divorce my mother, my mother would have been able to find her happiness again if she had been killed, but my father had woven a cage for my mother with guilt and forbearance, and locked me for the rest of my life.

After Chen Mo left, my situation at the school was not much better, and the instructor came to talk to me, alluding to my personal style problems, and the hospital considered revoking my scholarship. Without a scholarship, I would have dropped out.

Life has to go on no matter what, but when you're unlucky, you can choke yourself to death if you really take a breath. When I was stretched, I lost my wallet, which contained half a month's living expenses for me, which is not important, and there were family photos of me and my parents.

After my father left, my mother burned everything about him, and I was spared this family photo by secretly putting it in my textbook. The only thing related to my father is gone, and I don't even have anything to think of when I miss him in the future.