It's the weekend again, I guess the things my mother bought last time should be about the same, I plan to go and see again, I lazily moved in Quan Yu's arms, and just about to get up, Quan Yu rubbed his eyes and didn't let me get up, I pillowed my head on Quan Yu's stomach, found a comfortable position and thought for a long time, and secretly made up my mind and said, "Quan Yu, I want to tell you about my situation." ”

Kwon Yu looked down into my eyes, paused with his fingers in my hair circles, and mumbled.

I gave him a smile back and said, "My family situation is a bit special, I hope it doesn't scare you." My father died when I was in high school, and my mother has a disabled leg, and now in a nursing home, I visit her regularly. However, my relationship with my mother is a little complicated, and she has not been very close to me in recent years. ”

This is the first time I took the initiative to mention my matter to others, originally I was going to use a declarative tone, but in the end, I actually cried a little, with Quan Yu, did I become more vulnerable?

Quan Yu put away the hand on my stomach, wiped the moisture from the corner of my eye for me, and then pulled me over and looked straight at me, "Rourou, I'm very happy that you can tell me this." It's a pity that I didn't have the opportunity to be with you in your most difficult time, but you believe in you, and in the future, I just want you to be happy. ”

I didn't speak, trying not to let my sobs go too hard. I don't know how long it took, but I felt a little wet sticky on my chest, and Quan Yu just hugged me and didn't interrupt.

intermittently explained this messy past, and his heart seemed to be a big rock falling to the ground. Quan Yu listened with bated breath and didn't speak, but when I said that I was excited, I vaguely felt that Quan Yu's hands unconsciously clenched his fists, as if he had something to say, but sighed and didn't open his mouth.

After saying that, he calmed down for a while and got up, and Quan Yu insisted on sending me over, and said that without my instructions, he would only wait at the door and not go in to disturb us.

In my selfish heart, I didn't really want him to see the atmosphere with my mother now, because I didn't know how to explain the reason for this atmosphere. I didn't want him to feel pitiful for me, for my mother.

Kwon Yu parked the car at the entrance of the nursing home, and as agreed in advance, he helped me take my things down and waited in the car.

Uncle Qiu greeted me happily when he saw me from a distance, and after walking a few steps together, Uncle Qiu sighed: "Child, your mother is the most."

It's not a good thing to remember lately, so you should come and see her more in the future. ”

These few words for no reason make me a little stunned, it's not too long since the last time I came, why did I start to remember badly. Nodding his head and agreeing a few times, he went to his mother's room alone.

My mother, still the same as before, turned her back to me, stared at the TV, and turned her wheelchair around when she heard a voice behind her. This time, his expression was different.

In recent years, my mother has always been indifferent, but today, the eyes I look at are somehow similar to the eyes I looked at my father ten years ago.

Then, suddenly, my mother grabbed everything at hand and threw it at me like crazy, and I didn't react and forgot to hide.

Until the water glass hit my head, my mother seemed to be a little satisfied, gritted her teeth and said, "Are you here to show off to me or something? You robbed my husband and put me in a wheelchair, and now you are here to see me lively?" and in a hoarse tone, if I could stand up at this moment, my mother should have come to devour me alive.

Life is really a mess of dog blood, and after a basin is poured, the next basin is already waiting for you. This vicious tone and expression, I know that it is not aimed at me, it should be regarded as that woman.

My mother has been tortured by this woman for a lifetime, hated for a lifetime, and complained for a lifetime, but she can't imagine that in her old age, she will continue to fall into her demons and never have peace.

There was a commotion outside, and it was the doctor who followed. After leading me to the office, he took out an ice pack and attached it to me, and stopped talking. I held the ice pack in my hand and tried my best to suppress my trembling body, "Doctor, tell me the truth, I'm mentally prepared." ”

The doctor sighed and said, "Miss Zhen, your mother, the situation is not too good. In the past six months, she began to show signs of Alzheimer's disease, which was only a brief period of amnesia at first, and she couldn't remember things, but later it became more and more frequent. We talked to your mother about her condition, and she insisted on not letting the hospital tell you the truth, and parents all think about this and want not to cause trouble to their children, but you met it yourself today, and we don't say that you must be able to see it clearly, and when she was sick, she had a problem in recognizing people, and we had given her medicine, but now there is no very effective medicine to control this disease. ”

The doctor had tried to speak as softly as possible, and the content was similar to what I had guessed, but my body still felt a little cold. It's one thing to be mentally prepared, it's another thing if something really comes, and whether you can stand it or not.

Walking out of the doctor's office, I wanted to see my mother again, even if it was something else that might have flown over. The doctor stopped me and said it was best not to provoke her anymore in this condition. I thanked him, stood in the hallway to stabilize my mood, and walked out of the nursing home.

Quan Yu leaned on the car and smiled very warmly when he saw me come out. As soon as I walked in, the warmth immediately changed to nervousness and anger.

I blocked his hand that reached out to check the red and swollen face, raised my head and squeezed out a smile: "Quan Yu, I'm fine, she mistook me for someone else." ”

Quan Yu didn't insist anymore, opened the car door for me, sat in and started the car, but stopped the car on the side of the road when he was halfway through. "Rourou, you have me now, don't hold on, cry out. ”

This sentence was like an introduction, which quickly fermented and swelled the unease and grievances in my heart, slammed around in my body to find an outlet, and finally completely vented out along the tears and cries.

I thought that I would never cry like this again, the initial sobbing and then wailing, the two hands tightly clasped on the shoulders could not calm the shaking shoulders, and then I simply let go and completely released myself with my emotions.

At first, Quan Yu just put one hand behind my knee, and then he simply held me in his arms, and did not speak, but gently patted my back.

After venting, the whole person seemed to have been stripped of a layer of armor, fluttering, drowsiness, when the consciousness was still clear, I remember that Quan Yu put me back in the seat and tied the seat belt, and then opened my eyes on Quan Yu's back, and the people below were snorting and panting and climbing the stairs. It's been years since I've slept so peacefully, and I don't have any impression of when Kwon Yu put me on my back.

The hand in front of Quan Yu tightened, found a more comfortable position, and was about to sleep again, when Quan Yu's hateful voice came from below:

"When you wake up, you don't plan to come down, do you? ”

I opened my eyes and looked at what was happening, and I was lying on Kwon's back, panting under me and leaning against the railing next to the hallway. I was a little weak but I didn't want to admit it: "It's okay, it's just a little panicked, if you get a little fatter, I'll be more comfortable." ”

Quan Yu was amused by me, and said with a sullen laugh: "You are not satisfied at all. ”

Not to be outdone: "Do you remember the first time you got drunk and asked me to take you home? The grace of a drop of water should be reciprocated by a spring, and now is the time for you to spring up."

Quan Yu was not suppressed by my momentum, gasped and said: "Do you mean that you came to pull my hair and pinch my face halfway up, so you have to wake me up? Quan Yu went up another staircase and stopped for a rest, but he didn't mean to put me down.

I almost forgot all these details, but he remembered them so clearly. "Aren't you drunk and completely unconscious?"

Kwon Yu replied, "Well, I was drunk and unconscious, and before I lost consciousness, I did something that I thought I was very proud of," and paused, "That is, put the keys to my house in your backpack." ”

The co-author calculated me, let me carry him up and down so many flights of stairs, and then successfully rubbed into my house, which is really ill-intentioned and unancient.

When I got home, Kwon Yu poured water for me and started to clean up and cook, which was no different from usual. I didn't mention what happened in the afternoon, my mind was in a mess, and I hadn't figured out how to deal with my mother's current situation, if my mother could really forget all the unhappy, it would not be a bad thing, but she was too obsessed, and what she forgot was me, a person close to me, and what she remembered was the origin of her pain.

I turned on the computer to check the case of Alzheimer's disease, but I didn't find any useful information, and I was about to continue to check, when Quan Yu asked me to go to dinner again.

Trying to squeeze out a smile and walk to the table, Quan Yu is still very worried about me, I can feel that he is always trying to observe my expression when eating, I don't know what the micro-expression on my face is like now, I still think about starting to open up to him in the morning, I have experienced my mother's affairs, and now I am starting to be scared again, he is so sunny and happy, I can't bring him into my gloom.

When we were together, I couldn't help it, and when it came time to face reality, I couldn't bear him. I despise my indecisiveness.

In the middle of the night, I felt a hand rubbing my eyes, and a trace of voice floated over, trying to hear clearly, but finally I fell asleep again, and since Quan Yu came, I was able to sleep very peacefully every day. Sometimes when I wake up from a nightmare, I see the quiet sleeping face around me, and I can quickly fall asleep with a flick of the broken hair between the sleeping face's forehead.

When I got up the next day, the traces of the depression on the pillow were still there, Quan Yu was gone, and I held the pillow with his body fragrance and smelled it, and felt a burst of comfort from the tip of my nose to my heart and lungs.

After getting up, the dining table has been set, but Quan Yu is not seen everywhere, after shouting, Quan Yu answered in the bathroom, the door was not closed, I just arrived at the door and saw Quan Yu's hands kept rubbing, the snow-white foam on his hands burst layer by layer, the whole person was a little crispy, after seeing the content of his scrubbing, the old face couldn't help but blush again, it was the underwear and underwear I took off yesterday.

This kind of intimate clothes, I wrapped them in my coat and threw them into the laundry basket after taking them off, just for fear that he would see them, but at this moment he calmly rubbed them here and then changed them to another side and there twice.

Quan Yu said with a wicked smile: "It is said that a man who does not wash women's underwear and underwear is not a good man, Rourou, you see, what a good man I am." ”

I pretended not to hear, grabbed my toothbrush and ran to the kitchen to wash, that small space was full of ambiguity~ ambiguity, which made me a little calm.