Since the afternoon time has been vacated, I don't want to waste it, I called the nursing home, and learned that my mother is in good condition today, and she has been very cooperative since the morning, and there is no misidentification of people, Quan Yu said that she wants to take her to see an authoritative doctor in the industry of Alzheimer's disease, I need to ask for her consent while my mother is sober, and I packed my things and set off when I made up my mind.

Unexpectedly, as soon as I entered the door of the nursing home, I saw my mother in the yard, looking at the birds pacing back and forth leisurely on the ground under the banyan tree, thinking about what to think very much. I used to want her to come out and soak up the sun more, but she was stubborn and never left her room. Although the sun was good today, the wind was still a little cool, and I don't know how long I sat there.

Take off the scarf around your neck and put it over your mother's leg. My mother looked up and saw that I was coming, and she smiled rarely, but she still didn't say a word. This smile made me a little overwhelmed, I was used to cold or a little crazy mother, this smile has not been seen for too many years, but I don't feel comfortable, I don't know what to say for a while, I can only bypass my mother, and push her around the yard with a wheelchair in my hand.

The mother suddenly spoke: "Xiaorou, don't go to work today?"

She has rarely taken the initiative to talk to me over the years, and I can't help but be a little flattered, so I quickly replied: "Well, I am on vacation today." ”

The mother replied: "Don't go out casually during work hours, young people nowadays just lack a spirit of professionalism." At that time, we were eager to work 30 days a month, just to respond to the call of the country and do our best for socialism, and social progress needed the strength of young people. ”

Although it was a reproach, it sounded particularly beautiful to me, and I replied happily: "Well, Mom, I will pay attention in the future." ”

"You've worked hard all these years. For no reason, my mother suddenly said this.

I never felt bad and wanted to cry when she didn't care about me, but this sudden care caught me off guard. Holding back the tears that reached his eyes, he forced himself to sound like he didn't choke: "No, Mom, I'm fine." ”

After saying nothing for a while, the mother changed her posture and looked into the distance. "Xiaorou, my memory has been getting worse and worse lately, and I often don't know where to put the things I just used, but I can always remember what happened when you were a child. At that time, we were happy together as a family. ”

The mother seemed to fall into a deep thought, the corners of her mouth curled up, and she said with a smile: "I remember when you were young, you always liked to run out, and often couldn't find you when it was dark. When I came back, I was always covered in dirt, and every time I made a gesture to beat you, you always made me angrier when you didn't say anything, so I beat you harder, and every time he came to protect you. ”

I don't remember the last time my mother took the initiative to mention my father, but today is so abnormal. But I was afraid that I would make her unhappy if I said something wrong, so I could only nod my head and agree, but I didn't answer.

The mother then said, "You are a stubborn child when you are young, and when you are happy, you want everyone to be happy, but when you are suffering, you don't like to talk to others. Actually, your temper is with me, I made a mistake when I was young, no matter how your grandmother beat me, I will not bow my head and admit my mistake, once I had a fight with a neighbor's child, and he was beaten out of the nose with blood, your grandmother asked me to go to the door to admit my mistake, I just didn't go. Later, your grandmother cut off water and food for me, and wanted to cure me completely, but I gritted my teeth and did not eat or drink water for two days, and finally the family of the boy who was beaten took the initiative to come to the door to persuade my mother after hearing about it, and then your grandmother called me out to eat I didn't even have the strength to stand up, she brought water to feed me, I just resisted life and death without opening my mouth, and then she called my grandfather back who was working in the field to persuade me to drink the first sip of water. My temper lasted for decades, and finally ended up like this. You are still young, the road of life has just begun, and it is still too late to change, don't insist on going your own way, and eventually harm others and yourself. ”

What my mother said today seemed to be explaining the aftermath, which made me very uncomfortable to hear, perhaps she felt that her illness was getting worse, and she wanted to explain something more to me when she was sober, but this word seemed to be pierced in my heart, and I would rather she live a long time, even if she was still indifferent to me.

I forcibly suppressed the anxiety and sadness in my heart, and pretended to be relaxed and said: "Mom, I have a friend who knows a more authoritative doctor in this field, let me take you to see it, now that the medical level is so developed, you will definitely be fine." When you're ready, you can supervise me to change it. ”

My mother withdrew her gaze from a distance, turned her face sideways, patted my hand holding the wheelchair, and said slowly, but loudly: "After you left last time, Aunt Liu next door told me what happened that day, do you know how much I hate myself after listening to it? For so many years, I not only failed to take care of you, but even hurt you with my own hands. I know what you're trying to tell me today. However, for me, forgetting is the greatest happiness. ”

I tried to interject but was stopped by her, she paused and continued, "For so many years, I tried desperately to forget all this, but I never did, and the things I wanted to forget turned into a karmic fire that roasted me and burned you almost from beginning to end. God may have taken pity on me and gave me this opportunity to forget everything, so, Xiaorou, just let me do this, it's good. You should come to see me as little as possible in the future. I don't want you to suffer for my injuries anymore, and I don't want to live in these painful pasts anymore. ”

I couldn't pretend to be calm anymore when I heard this, so I hurriedly interrupted her: "But, Mom~"

My mother interrupted me without waiting for me to finish: "Xiaorou, you don't have to say anything, if you really want me to be good, just listen to me." ”

I didn't dare to continue when I saw her insistence. "Mom, will you forget me in the future?" Tears finally welled up disobediently, and she lowered her head on her mother's lap and began to sob, and once it started, it was difficult to stop.

Intellectually, what her mother said was not unreasonable, and it was a relief for her. But as far as I am concerned, although my mother has not been close to me over the years, she has always been the closest person in my world, she was pregnant and gave birth to me in October, and she placed the best expectations on me in this life.

"Xiaorou, for so many years, every day when I close my eyes, I can see the picture of myself rolling down the stairs, for me, the pain from my body is far less corroding my body and mind than my heartache at that time. Looking back on what I did to your father and you in those years, I even feel that I am not worthy of being a mother, and it is already the greatest luxury and satisfaction for me that you can grow up healthy and strong like this. ”

I tried my best to change her negative opinion, "Mom, I know, you still love me, don't always think about the past, I understand you, so I never blame you, we still have a long time together, we can still care for each other and make up for each other." ”

The mother shook her head and said, "Xiaorou, no matter whether I can recognize you in the future or not, I will always remember that I have a well-behaved daughter in my life." I used all my strength to love her, and I once hurt her because of my narrow-mindedness. He lifted his head from his mother's lap and looked at the condensation in his mother's eyes, which were no longer clear, and for a moment did not know what words to use to comfort her.

Mother continued: "Xiaorou, your grandfather Qiu said that a boy sent you over last time, since you can bring him, it proves that you must treat him unusually." Since he can come with you, it means that he has accepted my current situation. Next time, when I'm sober, bring it to me. For so many years, I have never fulfilled the responsibility of a mother, and this time, let me take care of it for you. ”

I have been waiting for ten years for this conversation between an ordinary mother and daughter, and finally came, a little sour in my heart, a little happy, nodded and replied solemnly: "Next time, I'll bring him over." ”

Mother continued: "Over the years, I have never heard you mention any boy to me, I have always been worried that my relationship with your father will affect your emotional outlook, all these years I have been indifferent to you, on the one hand, because I hate your father, and on the other hand, I feel that I owe you too much, I feel that I have no words to face you, and I also feel that I do not judge your feelings. However, people are destined to live in groups in the world, and you have to find a single-minded boy to live a good life and support each other in the rest of your life. Although I hate your father for deceiving me, I thank him for allowing me to have such a good daughter. So there are two sides to everything, you don't have to be too pessimistic about feelings, there are still many good men, like your grandfather, isn't he loyal to your grandmother all his life? They live in an era of material poverty, but they have never caused emotional lack to each other, and it is also because of them, when I married your father, I was full of hope for marriage. Although our ending is not good, but it is also because of an accident, if I had known that he had a lover, I would never have entered his game, I would have buried my emotions in the bottom of my heart, and then choose to fall in love with someone else, and then stay together for the rest of my life. ”

I replied to her, "Mom, I know, I'll do what you say." ”

The mother nodded in satisfaction, and the breeze rustled the fallen leaves, startling the birds that were strolling again, and flew away with a smoke. After the last fallen leaves were quiet, my mother said slowly, "I'm a little tired from sitting, you can push me back to the room to rest." ”

Seeing her tired expression, I knew that she was really tired, and after pushing her back to the house, I took off my mother's shoes and socks, covered the quilt, and after thinking about it again, I couldn't help but ask again: "Mom, are you really not going to consider thinking about meeting the expert I told you?"

Mother turned over, turned against the wall, raised her hand and waved her hand, expressing her determination, I was unwilling, but I didn't want to disobey her. Turning around and closing the door, he stood in the hallway and wept at his mother's back. Wait until your legs are a little stiff before turning away.

When he walked to the gate, Grandpa Qiu at the door smiled kindly: "Little Zhenrou, your mother seems to want to open it, these years, it is not easy for you." ”

In the eyes of those who don't know the inside story, my mother's ability to laugh and talk with me in the courtyard is that she has slowly accepted my meaning, and only I know that this is actually a farewell.

smiled and exchanged a few words with him, and got into the car back to the city. The breeze came in and out through the cracks in the glass, and a large stone in my heart seemed to loosen a little.

This year's spring came very early.

got out of the car at the gate of the community, raised his wrist and looked at the time, there was still a short time before Quan Yu got off work, turned around and went to the vegetable market to pick up some vegetables and meat, the refrigerator at home was empty, and this god was newly added, so he wanted to stock up on more food.

After buying the vegetables and meat, washing the vegetables and meat, and steaming the rice, I will sit on the sofa and enjoy this quiet moment, which used to be unbearable, but now I feel that even the silence here has become a different kind of tranquility.

When I was lying down to sleep, there was a rhythmic sound of going upstairs outside the door, not light, not heavy, not slow, with a calm but powerful breath.

The heart was overjoyed, a spirit got up and hid behind the door and counted the steps, when the heart silently read to one, the knock on the door remembered, soft and rhythmic three sounds, imagining the look of Quan Yu knocking on the door outside the door, and the warmth in his heart still spread. I silently cut my hair and straightened my clothes before opening the door.

"You go back~" I only said half of the words that I had been brewing for a long time, Quan Yu had already strode in, closed the door, pressed me against the wall and kissed me deeply, and when I couldn't breathe, I was very reluctant to let go of me, my eyes flowed, the corners of my eyebrows rose, and I was a suave mess.

Quan Yu said in a glutinous voice: "Rourou, I've been thinking about you all day, should you make up for me a little" He gestured to hug me again.

Yesterday's soreness has not disappeared for a moment now, and he quickly stretched out his hand to block it: "I miss your cooking skills and have been thinking about it for a day, I have washed the dishes, and the rice has been put into the pot, chef, can you wash your hands and make soup for the slaves?"

Quan Yu shook his head helplessly: "Madame ordered, the villain naturally didn't dare to disobey, so I went to wash my hands and make soup for you." ”

He turned around and pretended to leave, but he turned around and bit me in the mouth before walking away. Alas, I sighed and turned around and walked back to the couch, and every time I tried to take advantage of someone, it ended up being me being taken advantage of.

When looking up on the sofa to see Quan Yu's constantly stir-frying back, what flashed in my mind was that when I watched the TV series in which the male protagonist was dressed in white and made breakfast for the female protagonist, the female protagonist had sleepy eyes and a half-open male shirt from behind the plot of surrounding the male protagonist.

What comes to mind is a very popular lyric, and now I am particularly taking advantage of the scene: "Shoot when it's time to shoot, and go to Kyushu in a hurry." Under the guidance of the lyrics, I couldn't help but get up from the sofa, stand on tiptoe and quietly walk behind Quan Yu, imitating the TV plot, my hands passed through my waist, my palms rubbed the cotton material, the soft touch brought a fresh warmth, and the two hands converged in front of Quan Yu, clasped tightly, and deeply surrounded him.

Quan Yu paused in the stir-frying action in his hand, and his left hand holding the handle of the pot came over to hold my clenched hands, and after stir-frying a few times with his right hand, he put the dish out.

I knew he was going to cook the next dish next, but I didn't want to let go. Quan Yu turned around and hugged me into his arms with open arms, and knocked his fingers on my head twice: "Madam, if you are like this, the villain will be distracted." ”

The head arched in his arms, and he laughed out loud: "If you don't worry, it doesn't taste right, and it won't kill you." ”

After Quan Yu pressed his nose to my hair and rubbed it left and right twice, he picked me up and gently put me on the sofa, and stroked the broken hair between my forehead: "Rourou, you wait for me, it'll be fine for a while." ”

The tone is ambiguous, the movements are intimate, although this is not the first time the two have been in close contact, but they still can't help but have red ears. After opening his mouth, he didn't know what to say embarrassingly, so he could only control his tongue and not speak, buried his head in the pillow, and nodded.

After eating, as usual, Quan Yu went to wash the dishes, I touched my round belly, and deeply felt that since Quan Yu moved in, my belly has become bigger and bigger, and my face has become more and more rounded, and I deeply feel that it is really bad to continue like this. In another year and a half, Quan Yu will still be the dashing and merry Quan Yu, and I will become the image of a middle-aged woman with a big belly.

After telling Quan Yu about the worries in his heart, he looked me up and down, and said thoughtfully: "Being said by you, it seems that there is really such a thing, recently I feel that your hand feels better than before, when I held you before, I felt that your bones were awkward, and now I feel that it is soft just right, and in another year and a half, maybe I won't be able to hold it." ”

I chased after him angrily, and he put down the dishes and chopsticks and ran away. Then I chased for a long time and didn't know why, it became him chasing me to tickle me, and I was encircled by him to practice and beg for mercy. Listening to his breathing gradually become thicker, I thought about the pain in my body and quickly diverted his attention.

I was just about to open my mouth, when Quan Yu suddenly said, "Rourou, the doctor I told you last time wanted to introduce you to my aunt, when do you mention it to my aunt."

Is that appropriate?"

"I was about to tell you about this, I went to the sanatorium this afternoon and talked to my mother about it," bowed his head and organized the next wording: "She is unwilling to receive treatment, this disease, he would rather think that it is a gift from God to her, you know, in this life, she is too sad, it is not a good thing to forget." He looked up and smiled and continued: "She understands the kindness, but I want you to be busy in vain." ”

"Then what do you think?" asked Kwon Yu as he stared at me.

"It doesn't really matter what I think, my mother won't listen to me, but when I think about it, what my mother said is not unreasonable, and forgetting it is a relief. ”

Quan Yu shook my hand that was clutching his knee, "Then respect Auntie's meaning, but if she needs anything in the future, I am willing to do my job." ”

I replied gratefully, "Well, next time if it's convenient for you, come with me to see her." ”

One sentence made Quan Yu almost jump up with joy, and he said excitedly: "Of course I can't ask for it, I want to thank her in person for giving birth to you, so that I can meet you and make my life worthwhile." ”

After that, he got up from his seat, rubbed his hands around his waist, and asked me in a rare and serious manner, "Then what clothes should I wear when the time comes? Will it be unstable to wear a T-shirt? Will it be too exaggerated to wear a suit? Does my aunt like to be mature and stable or sunny and lively? You see that I am both mature and steady

Can a promising young man who is sunny and lively, who is still captivating the country and the city, and has a lot of money, conquer my future mother-in-law?"

I pretended not to demolish him, and I pretended not to tear him down, holding my chin with my very serious hand and pretending to be thoughtful: "Well, I think so... You're pretty good, you're pretty good in everything. You're all good. ”

Kwon Yu's hands are changed to a posture of wrapping his left hand around his chest and touching his chin with his right hand. "Yes, but I think it's best when you're not wearing anything. ”

It can be seen that men are very persistent in this regard, even if you talk about the clouds in the sky, the trees on the ground and the fish in the river, he also has the ability to bring all these into the topic they like, and then he will personally bring you into his own topic.

Silently changed his posture on the sofa, picked up the book that Quan Yu put on the coffee table, and pretended to look at it twice. After reading it, it is indeed more embarrassing, and the title is: How to increase a woman's interest in the relationship between the sexes.

hurriedly put down the book, excused himself to go to the kitchen to pour water, and wanted to relieve the embarrassment, but he got up too violently, and accidentally stepped on a half-built blanket and fell into Quan Yu's arms. It seems that a woman who is carried away by hormones usually has a bad sense of balance, and then a man who is carried away by hormones can always take advantage of the situation to pounce on the woman who has fallen.

I hurriedly shifted his gaze again, "Quan Yu, I'm eating a little bit, why don't you go down with me for a walk and breathe?"

Quan Yu didn't answer, and then he wanted to take advantage of me, I changed my strategy, and learned from the little girl in the TV series to pinch her throat and say, "People beg you", after saying that, he stared at me with big eyes and made an innocent expression, Quan Yu stared at me for a long time and shook his head and said, "I really can't do anything about you." ”