I don't know how long I slept, but when Zeng Bixian woke up, she found that the lights in the room were on, and it seemed to be pitch black outside the window, and she vaguely heard the sound of wild cats chasing each other, seeking pleasure, and playing outside. The head hurts, and I want to reach out and press my temple, which is aching, and find that my right hand is being held together by the fingers of the other big hand, and I was shocked, as if the ethereal soul in mid-air suddenly possessed the body, and suddenly woke up, by the way, I seemed to be drunk and fell on the dinner table, and when I turned my head, Huang Cheng was lying beside him and breathing evenly asleep.

Secretly pulled out his hand and was about to get up and get dressed and go home, Huang Cheng, who felt the movement around him, rubbed his eyes and woke up,

"Wake up, get dressed, and I'll send you home!"

"No, it's cold outside, so don't go out!"

"Don't drink in the future, don't be reckless, this time it's fortunate that it's at my house, if I don't control it during the day, you're going to cry and go to the police station to sue me as a rapist!"

Zeng Bixian was stunned for a moment, not knowing how to answer,

"I believe you, you're not that kind of person!"

Looking at Zeng Bixian's sworn face, Huang Cheng felt an inexplicable rebellion in his heart.

"Why do you believe that I'm not that kind of person, I'm that kind of person, and now I've changed my mind!

After saying that, Huang Cheng's whole person pressed on Zeng Bixian's body, and there were countless scenes in the dream, and Huang Cheng finally made it a reality.

In the blink of an eye, the calendar card turned to New Year's Day in 1984, and after New Year's Day means that another month will be the Lunar New Year, and the school has entered a tense final review stage, and the teaching work in the first half of the first semester of high school will be over in two weeks.

I remember when I used to go to college, Xu Weiming and Zeng Bixian, who were already in a relationship, occasionally dated in the campus grove, the two held hands at most, if Xu Weiming asked for a hug or kiss, Zeng Bixian would sternly refuse, in the era when the social atmosphere was still relatively conservative, the dating of the two couples was usually a walk one meter apart from each other, for the conservative and reserved Zeng Bixian, Xu Weiming had a lot of complaints, but no matter how Xu Weiming took the initiative Zeng Bixian never let him cross the thunder pool half a step. But for some reason, his body is always not controlled by his brain in front of Huang Cheng, and he knows that it is a shameful thing to let a boy younger than himself embrace him, but his body likes to be embraced by him, and a faint soapy fragrance on his body is like a psychedelic drug, which makes him addicted to it and unable to extricate himself.

That night, after being robbed of the most precious thing by Huang Cheng like revenge, Zeng Bixian, who was crying silently under him, couldn't hate him, and under the stormy kiss, Zeng Bixian reached out and hugged Huang Cheng's waist. Just like the slow motion played in a movie, every minute and second experienced with Huang Cheng will invade Zeng Bixian's brain at midnight every night, and then make it difficult for people to toss and turn and find it difficult to sleep.

After spending the last two weeks of the first half of the semester of high school under the ambivalence of expecting to see Huang Cheng but afraid of seeing Huang Cheng, the final exam finally ended, and after reviewing all the students' test papers and doing a good job of handing over the work, Zeng Bixian carried a small suitcase and a bag of books and materials, and stepped on the long-distance bus to Wuhan under the eyes of Teacher Zeng.

Xu Weiming picked up Zeng Bixian, who was in the dust, at the long-distance bus station in Wuhan, and arranged Zeng Bixian in the pre-booked ECNU Guest House with a smile on his face, originally wanting Zeng Bixian to live at home, but Xu Weiming's mother disagreed, saying that it was not good for unmarried girls to live in the man's house. No matter where she lives, as long as Zeng Bixian is in Wuhan now, it means that Zeng Bixian has agreed to go to the United States with her, and nothing makes Xu Weiming happier than this.

In the small guest house room, Xu Weiming, who had a sharp contrast with Zeng Bixian's dazed expression, was very excited, and said with starry eyes that his parents were going to pick up Zeng Bixian in the evening, and the family had booked a whole fish banquet at the Great China Restaurant in Yuemachang, "Great China Restaurant", which was the leading well-known restaurant in Wuhan. The more Xu Weiming spoke, the more excited he became, but Zeng Bixian's mind was full of the scene of Xu Weiming's mother constantly wiping the teacups and dishes she had eaten in the kitchen. Such a mother who seems to have a morbid cleanliness habit makes Zeng Bixian feel unclose, and tonight's dinner is not expected at all in Zeng Bixian's opinion, no matter how she thinks about it, she feels that it is a torment of being forced to cater to people she doesn't like.

At six o'clock in the evening, Zeng Bixian and Xu Weiming came to the door of the Great China Restaurant early to wait for Xu Weiming's parents, Xu Weiming's father came as scheduled half an hour later, but Xu Weiming's mother didn't seem to be busy with work, so everyone waited in the restaurant for more than an hour before it was late, and at half past eight, a table of fragrant, exquisitely shaped whole fish banquet was put on the table, like a queen sitting opposite Zeng Bixian's mother Xu Weiming's mother looked at the future daughter-in-law in front of her from head to toe, in addition to having a beautiful face, this girl from a small place can not see any outstanding quality to make herself satisfied, first of all, the body is too thin, Lin Daiyu looks sick, how can such a physique adapt to the hard study life of international students. Secondly, the family conditions are too poor, it is a single-parent family, what kind of help can a middle school teacher in a small place provide to his son in his future career? Finally, the girl in front of her is majoring in English, looking at her enthusiasm for teaching in a small local middle school, you know that she is not an aspiring young man who wants to get ahead, full of ambitions, I really don't understand why my son chose her to accompany him to the United States, you must know that now is the period of crazy going abroad for the whole country, but all girls with ideas and conditions want to go abroad and experience the prosperity and strength of American imperialism, but this Zeng Bixian in front of her has always been the face of clear soup noodles, and she didn't see a trace of joy, and her face was full of sadness as if she had been wronged。

Zeng Bixian didn't say all two sentences after a meal, most of the conversation was between Xu Weiming and his mother, one was reporting on his visa process, and the other was admonishing the two to go to the United States, live in poverty, and plan to endure hardships, although Xu Weiming's tuition has a scholarship, but the living expenses have to be earned by themselves, and the help that parents can give is limited, Xu Weiming's food, clothing, housing and transportation are all completed by Zeng Bixian, who has no job and income, and said a lot of difficulties in this opportunity to go abroad, and the two should cherish this rare opportunity. After dinner, Xu Weiming sent Zeng Bixian back to the guest house, Zeng Bixian didn't say anything all night, from Xu Weiming's mother's mouth, Zeng Bixian understood that in her eyes, she was going to the United States to be a nanny for his son, and for this nanny or their family's reward for their favor, how many girls couldn't ask for an opportunity.

Zeng Bixian, who was sitting sullenly on the edge of the bed, felt at a loss and helpless about her future, but at this time, Xu Weiming, who was slightly drunk, sat beside Zeng Bixian with joy, and couldn't help but pick up Zeng Bixian and lean her head on her.

"Xiaoxian, I'm not going home tonight, can I sleep here?"

"No, you go home quickly, it's too late for your mother to talk about you!"

The smell of wine made Zeng Bixian frown, I don't know why, looking at Xu Weiming who was leaning on his shoulder, Zeng Bixian was full of thoughts about Huang Cheng, and they were also two men who loved him deeply, but Huang Cheng's thoughts and thoughts he could empathize, and the gentle and elegant Sven man with glasses in front of him had never really felt his inner world in the four years he had been with him, through the glass on the glasses frame, Zeng Bixian couldn't understand what thoughts were hidden in his brown eyes, if it was Huang Cheng who was relying on him now, would Zeng Bixian feel uncomfortable and disgusted？

Xu Weiming, who closed his eyes for a while, suddenly opened his eyes and threw Zeng Bixian on the bed, as if he had changed a person, and began to unbutton Zeng Bixian's chest rudely, Zeng Bixian was startled by this sudden move, and hurriedly pushed Xu Weiming's hands away, but he didn't expect Xu Weiming to be provoked by Zeng Bixian's resistance as if he had ignited excitement, and in the blink of an eye, he pulled out the belt and tied Zeng Bixian's hands together, making her unable to move, stroking Zeng Bixian's thick hair, full forehead, smooth skin, Xu Weiming untied Zeng Bixian's clothes three or two times, and the frightened Zeng Bixian looked at Xu Weiming steadily, Xu Weiming, who was paralyzed by alcohol, had no intention of stopping, and when he saw Xu Weiming taking off only a pair of underwear, Zeng Bixian shouted for help when he came back to his senses, and Xu Weiming, who was startled, hurriedly reached out to cover Zeng Bixian's mouth, not wanting to be bitten hard by Zeng Bixian, and then there was a hoarse shout, Xu Weiming shook his head,

"Xiaoxian, don't call it, it's the winter vacation, it's almost the New Year, there aren't many people living here? ”

Zeng Bi is weak and weak, thinking about the auspiciousness tonight, I don't know how Huang Cheng would feel if he knew that he was bullied like this, Huang Cheng's appearance just flashed in his mind, as if he was telepathic, Huang Cheng's voice came from outside the door of the guest house,

"Zeng Bixian, are you there? Open the door quickly, it's me, I'm Huang Cheng, I have something to look for you!"

As soon as the words fell, a raindrop of banging on the door followed, Xu Weiming stood by the bed and was stunned, he never expected that there were visitors here so late, and before he could put on his pants, the door was knocked open by a hairy young man with an inch of hair outside, only to see the man who came in heroically walked to the bed, punched Xu Weiming to the ground, untied the belt on Zeng Bixian's wrist, buckled his clothes, took Zeng Bixian's hand and walked outside the guest house, Xu Weiming's face was covered with blood lying on the cold ground, and his head was blank.

Huang Cheng took off his coat and draped it on Zeng Bixian's body, wiped the tears on Zeng Bixian's face, led her to a bicycle parked at the gate of the guest house, unlocked the car, and stepped on the saddle with one foot, Huang Cheng asked Zeng Bixian to sit on the crossbar in front of the bicycle, as soon as Zeng Bixian sat on the crossbar, Huang Cheng put his mouth and nose against Zeng Bixian's hair and kissed her,

"You still want to go to the United States with such a man? Are you blind!"

"He's not usually like this, and today he drank too much!"

"I also spoke for him, if I didn't come to Wuhan today, would it be if you were bullied by him like this!"

"He's my boyfriend, I can't help him if he wants this?"

"He's your boyfriend, so what am I? What was what happened that night? Do you really want to go to the United States with him? Would you like to go with him even if he was a pervert? If you wanted, what would you shout? If you don't shout, I won't rush in, you have to know that I have been waiting for you here since the afternoon, but the two of you walked into the room together, I have been waiting for him to come out of your room at the door, but he has not come out, do you know how uncomfortable I am outside, you know how long I endured it and did not rush in, fortunately, I heard your shouting later, don't fool yourself, you don't like Xu Weiming at all, if you like you will not call for help. ”

"Where are we going now?"

"Go to my house!"

I saw a permanent 28 bicycle on the streets of Wuchang on a winter night, carrying two young men and women with ears and temples grinding slowly in the direction of Luojia Mountain under the dim street lamp.