"Mom is hateful!" Walking out of the hotel door, Rong Anran finally let out the breath that was holding in his stomach.

"Do you know why Dad doesn't have friends?" Rong Zhihao said: "Because people and groups are separated, things gather like others!"

Rong Zhihao smiled self-deprecatingly: "Actually, they are normal people, but Dad is an anomaly!"

"Why?" Rong Anran was puzzled.

"Daddy will take you to buy shawarma first, and then take you to a place ......"

Although Yubing County is a big city, there is only one place where you can eat authentic Arabian shawarma.

Today should be an auspicious day for the zodiac, and there are a lot of people getting married, so there are a lot fewer people here, Rong Zhihao queued for twenty minutes, and it was his turn: "Big, two! I want a cup of cocoa milk and a cup of coffee!"

After paying, Rong Zhihao found a seat, put his son down, and sat next to his son.

After a while, something came up.

Not to mention that Rong Anran's saliva flowed, even Rong Zhihao saw Shawarma in front of him.

Soon, they finished eating the food in front of them.

"Let's go, dad will take you somewhere!" Rong Zhihao carried his son again.

A pungent smell of disinfectant water rushed into Rong Anran's senses: "Dad, where is this?"

"It's a hospital!"

In the children's medicine room, the sounds of crying, screaming, and coaxing children were accompanied by the screams of nurses......

Rong Anran has never been here, in the past, he was also sick for three days, but the Fu family has a full-time family doctor, and Rong Anran's headache and brain fever are usually done at home.

Seeing the children with needles on their foreheads, Rong Anran palpitated, and touched his forehead, as if there was a faint pain on his forehead.

"Dad is useless!" With deep apologies, Rong Zhihao said: "I know you are often sick, but Dad is not by your side!"

Rong Zhihao didn't care whether his son could understand it or not, he seemed to be explaining to his son, and he seemed to be talking to himself: "Birth, old age, sickness and death are inevitable in life, and this is understood in this way in science! But Dad doesn't think so, so Dad has become an anomaly -- an anomaly to science!"

"But what should we do in our lives...... Everybody wants to soar to the sky, and Dad knows that he knows that he is just one of the hundreds of millions ......of ordinary people! But Dad doesn't want to be a laggard."

"For example, money! Others have a family business, but Dad doesn't; even if Dad is the dragon and phoenix among people, Dad has already lost to others at the beginning, and it is impossible to really get ahead!"

"If I have children in the future, what can I give them? What can I give them in time? Can I give them a sense of superiority?"

After the accidental death of his parents, Rong Zhihao really thought so.

Unconsciously, Rong Zhihao carried his son to the lake in the central park of Yubing County.

At this moment, he entered endless memories, without considering whether his son could understand or not, he just wanted to say all the words in his heart......

I think back to the accident that happened to my parents. Thinking back to himself at that time, Rong Zhihao was indescribably heavy.

At that time, he thought a lot, and thought about himself from now on......

"Dad's academic performance has always been at the top, but Dad suddenly felt that it was because in the shadow of your grandparents, after your grandparents left, I suddenly felt that I no longer had the feeling of standing out from the crowd, and my grades were meaningless to me......"

Listening to his father talk about his grandparents, Rong Anran wanted to interject why he didn't have grandparents, but he didn't, although he was only five years old, he had read a lot of books, and he understood how to be a son described in ancient books.

"At that time, my father was still in college, and my father thought like this at the time: teachers have said that a person's life cannot be without dreams, and the greatest happiness in life is the pursuit of ideals, but what is my ideal?"

"I asked the teacher, but the teacher told me that my first task is to study, and when I finish my studies, I will return to the society to accumulate experience, and then my life goal will gradually become clear. ”

"The teacher told me that when we were young, we would have a lot of whimsical ideas, but they were unrealistic dreams, and we should be down-to-earth. ”

"I vaguely feel that there is something wrong with the teacher's words......"

"In the process of thinking about it, I suddenly thought of a question: why do many theories of experts and scholars need to be realized by others?"

"Then I thought that human energy is limited and cannot be given what is needed, and what surprised me even more was that I found the contradiction between knowledge and the ideals of real life......

"The more knowledge, the more troublesome, especially in school, where all classes are studied, the more knowledge, the more roads ahead, and the more feasible roads, I don't know which path to choose, because, to try each road, you have to pay a lot of time and energy, and people's time is limited......"

"Three hundred and sixty lines, the line of the champion, but who can know, in which industry can become the champion? Men are afraid of choosing the wrong line, and women are afraid of marrying the wrong line, in the final analysis, it is because of time. Because life is too short to have time to correct your mistakes!"

"I thought of the reason for the contradiction between improving social experience and increasing theoretical knowledge, that is, because of time. ”

So, I thought about the fact that when you enter society, you can learn knowledge while improving your social experience, but it is difficult to improve your social experience when you are studying in school. ”

"Even when I think about it, I still wonder if I'm right, and at that time, my mind was so chaotic that I put myself in front of the computer all day!"

"I didn't play games, I knew 'playthings are demoralized', but I was confused, and I didn't know what to do, so I started reading novels. ”

"I don't like to read romance novels because I feel tired with the joys and sorrows of the characters, so I read fantasy and fantasy novels. ”

"Those novels are really well written, and the author's imagination makes me feel immersed and fluttering! I don't know when I started my own fantasies...... I remember that since I entered my junior year, I didn't have a day to go to school......"

"Since I started my fantasies, I have been particularly interested in supernatural events and mysteries on the Internet, and I suddenly thought that if I became a "travel friend", could I explore those unsolved mysteries? I know that solving mysteries requires a price, and the price may be life, but I don't care, because I am alone!"

"As soon as I thought of this, I couldn't study hard, the teacher's painstaking persuasion, the kind persuasion of classmates and friends, and the good friends who knew my thoughts hated me and scolded me for 'going crazy', but they didn't change my mind, so a student who was loved by an excellent teacher became an outlier who was ridiculed and disliked - I left the school ......"

"There is no road in life, and knowledge is not a road, it is only used to open up people's dreams! Choose your own path according to the knowledge you learn from books, and slowly, you will no longer be yourself, because that knowledge belongs to others, so there are limitations...... Doesn't life need dreams and goals? In the ocean of knowledge of our predecessors, finding our own path is the ideal! Therefore, I once again affirmed the importance of social experience!

"When I stepped into the society, I suddenly found that this society is too realistic, so realistic that in addition to money, it is still money......"

"Indeed, in order to live, people must make money, but when they make money, they can also accumulate social experience, so I went to understand the way of cultivating immortals while working. ”

"In the book "Buddhist Zen Theory and Oriental Civilization", I found a sentence: 'When Dayu controlled the water, he passed through Tibet and found that some people sucked the wind and drank the dew'; you must know that when Dayu controlled the water, the writing system had not yet taken shape, how did they know about the wind and drinking the dew? If you don't guess wrong, then there must be oral transmission!"

"So, sucking in the air and drinking dew just to skip the meal? Surely not! So, I found out again: 'Religion originated in the Himalayas'......"

"Especially when I found out on the Internet that scientists guessed based on archaeology: 'There was a Xiuzhen civilization on the earth'...... That's when my dream took shape......"

"What if the body is covered with bruises and the body is incomplete? What can I do if I die without a place to be buried? A person's life, the stripes come and the stripes go, anyway, I have nothing to worry about......

"At the moment I decided, I began to sort out the various theories of cultivation, and it was from that moment that I began to call 'cultivation'. ”

"I don't regret giving up studying theory after working part-time, because I feel that cultivating truth is first of all to cultivate divine consciousness, that is, spirit and mind, which is the divine consciousness and mental power described in the novel, right?"

"I guess that when a person's divine sense is strong to a certain extent, there will be a drastic change in people's memory, and I don't need to say this, it has been confirmed in you!"

"When one's mind is strengthened to a certain extent, one should be able to feel the existence of the so-called 'aura'. This speculation, Dad is right again, we all feel it. ”

"When you discover the existence of Reiki, you can consciously absorb Reiki. At that time, Dad thought that when people had a smooth pulse and gathered aura, all diseases would begin to stay away, and this was confirmed again in your body -- you had been sick twice in the past three days, and you had never been sick again since you followed your father! But at that time, I didn't affirm my various speculations, so I still had to work every day, and I didn't let go of mundane affairs; although I knew that when you entered Bigu, people could skip eating, but that was only what the book said. Dad doesn't care about life and death, but he can't die meaninglessly, let alone be frozen to death and starved to death. ”

"So, my father still practiced while working. ”

"But because of this, my absent-minded work will often be fired by my boss. ”

"When I was a waitress in a hotel, I met your mother, your mother is not only beautiful, but also rich, so that I don't have to work anymore, I have more time to try, to think, and your mother's management ability makes me feel more gratified, so I let go of my hands and feet. ”

"I didn't expect that this release made me lose your mother, I'm sorry, child, you know, I didn't have much interest in money, and if I succeeded, then the first to enjoy my fruits was your mother and you, so I don't feel guilty about your mother's hard work;

As he spoke, Rong Zhihao put his son off his back, put him on a stone bench by the lake, and squatted down in front of him: "Don't blame Dad, Dad just wants you to live more freely, when you walk on Dad's path, Dad just wants to be your pioneer." Let you no longer have the confusion that your father once had, no longer have unsolvable doubts and entanglements, and let your mood fly freely. ”

"The greatest happiness in life is to go out of your own way, Dad never forced you, but you walked on Dad's way, this may be fate. ”

"Now that you've embarked on this path, you should listen to your father. Gently took the crystal ball in Rong Anran's hand: "Put away the crystal ball, you don't need it now." Thinking of his son who reluctantly put down when he ate shawarma just now, Rong Zhihao smiled, his purpose had been achieved: "You have completed your marriage, so you don't have to watch it every day." ”

"From now on, you enjoy your childhood, the road ahead, let Dad take a walk and explore first!"

"If one day, Dad is gone, you have to identify your own path and keep going. ”

"If one day, Dad is crazy and paralyzed, you don't have to pay attention to Dad, life and death are not the end, Dad believes that when people's minds are strong to a certain extent, they will be reborn with the memories of their previous lives. ”

"But Dad still hopes that there won't be problems too soon, and Dad wants to grow up with you a little bit and grow up a little bit more. ”

Speaking of this, Rong Zhihao touched Xiao Anran's head again and smiled; he smiled very heavily, with a hint of reluctance; he smiled very easily, and he had already said what he wanted to say to his son, although he didn't know if his son could understand him.

"Dad, I wrote it down!"

Yes, Rong Anran wrote it down, he was too young to feel his father's mood now, but he had read a lot of books, and he remembered it well.

He wrote it down, he didn't understand, but that was only now, it didn't mean that he wouldn't understand the love for himself contained in his father's words in the future.

"Just remember!" This time, Rong Zhihao smiled from the bottom of his heart: "Then, let Dad accompany you through your childhood, and tomorrow, Dad will send you to school, starting with kindergarten!"