Chapter 16: The Heart Is Like a Rock
Run, keep running, how hopeful, at the end of the road is another world, a pure world without discrimination and injustice.
It's just that no matter how hard I try and persevere, I will never be able to get rid of this tragic fate.
I thought that patience could be exchanged for peace, and I thought that peace could be exchanged for calm, but the snow in June always drifted on me inexplicably, making my heart more and more cold.
Once, whoever insulted me or beat me, I could bear it, and I could endure it, but why did even my most respected teacher hit me naked and wronged me like this? Is this school still a school?
I don't want to stay anymore, I don't want to stay in this suffocating hell on earth for a second, I just want to escape.
Out of school, I kept running, until my legs became weak and I couldn't run anymore, and then I stopped, panting.
At this time, I realized that the ringtone of my mobile phone kept ringing, I took it out and saw that it was a counselor calling, I didn't pick it up, let it ring, and then, I walked slowly in the cold wind.
I don't know why, but now the mood is a little more relaxed, there is a heroic sense of freedom and ease, perhaps, because I have been aggrieved too many times, no matter who beat me and scolded me, I have never resisted, always ended in patience, and this time, in front of the whole class, I refuted the teacher, said the words that have been suppressed in my heart for a long time, shouted out my grievances, and ran out of the school willfully, this feeling, very happy.
However, after the joy, the rest is confused and helpless.
The city is so big, but there is no place for me to live, I am at a loss, I have lost my direction, I don't know where to go, I am completely desperate for that garbage school, but I dare not go home, I don't want Uncle Lin to be disappointed in me, I don't have the face to face him at all.
What should I do?
The phone was still ringing, and I stared helplessly at the screen, distracted.
I don't know how long it was, but the bell stopped. I don't know how long it took, the bell broke the silence of the night again, and rang suddenly, this time, the caller ID was Uncle Lin's, my heart couldn't help but chuckle, the tension exploded instantly, hesitated for a long time, and finally pressed the connect button.
Immediately, Uncle Lin's anxious voice came from the other end of the phone: "Laizi, where are you?"
I swallowed my saliva, tried my best to control my sadness and pain, and said strongly: "I'm at school, what's wrong?"
Uncle Lin sighed slightly, and said with emotion: "Your teacher called me and said that something misunderstood you, you ran out of school in anger, she couldn't contact you, and she was very anxious." Laizi, I know you best, you have a good temper, you will endure anything you encounter, you have been obedient since you were a child, this time, you are so angry, you must have suffered too much grievance, tell your uncle, what happened to you at school?"
Uncle Lin's care touched the softest string in my heart, so that I felt the strong warmth of loneliness, I was like a child, the grievances in my heart were stimulated, I couldn't help but sob, my emotions were like a flood bursting the embankment, more and more collapsed, and finally I cried, crying so unscrupulously.
Uncle Lin was frightened and kept comforting me, but the more he was like this, the more sad I cried, just like being coquettish in front of my father, I only used crying to tell everything, all the sadness and pain.
After crying for a long time, I stabilized my emotions and sobbed softly, Uncle Lin on the other end of the phone may have felt my sadness and despair, he sighed heavily and blamed himself: " Laizi, you must have suffered a lot in school, it's all my bad uncle who only cares about work, has no time to take care of you, and makes you run so far away from your hometown to study, in fact, I can also see that you have no heart to study for a long time, otherwise with your learning ability, you won't be admitted to such a school, uncle is wrong, I won't force you anymore, if you don't want to miss it, come back, go home child!"
Uncle Lin's words touched my heart again, my cold heart was once again wrapped in warmth, I felt Uncle Lin's love like a father, I could no longer pretend to be strong, and asked Uncle Lin weakly, "Is it okay?"
Uncle Lin said sonorously: "Yes!"
Two words, loud and clear, made my heart more firm, I understood Uncle Lin's understanding and tolerance, perhaps, he wanted to see me grow up well, not bullied, not just for that bullshit diploma, thinking of this, my tears couldn't stop flowing, my heart was full of emotion.
After a short silence, Uncle Lin's concerned voice came again: "Laizi, do you want me to pick you up?"
I quickly wiped away my tears and replied, "No need, I'll go back to school and get my luggage!"
Uncle Lin cared: "Well, call me when you arrive!"
I said firmly, "Okay!"
After a pause for a few seconds, I unconsciously shouted again: "Uncle!"
Uncle Lin said softly, "Huh?"
I said from the bottom of my heart, "Thank you!"
After hanging up the phone, my tense nerves were completely relaxed, and Uncle Lin's phone call made me clear the direction, made me no longer hesitate, and made me make up my mind to leave this nightmare place, return to the home with Uncle Lin, and feel the only warmth in the world.
I exhaled deeply, and then I turned around and walked towards the school, at this moment, my back finally straightened, and my whole body seemed to be energetic, especially energetic.
After a while, I came to the commercial street near the school, looking at the stores on both sides, I was suddenly stunned for a moment, and at this moment, a distant but familiar female voice suddenly came from behind me: "Wu Lai!"
My body shook violently, and my whole body immediately fell into place.
Her voice was like magic, crisp and loud but tactful and soft, like a trickle of spring water, which easily melted my heart, I turned around slowly as if in a dream, and looked at the dream lover behind me, Su Xuejing.
At this time, she was still as beautiful as a fairy, looking so fresh and bright, beautiful and pure, but at this time, I didn't know how to face her, I turned around in a panic, accelerated forward, and soon walked out of the commercial street, and came to the path that had been ready to blackmail Su Xuejing.
What made me more and more nervous was that behind me, there was a magic voice like a clear spring: "Do you remember this place?"
I reflexively paused again, hesitated, and soon, Su Xuejing behind me walked in front of me and stared straight at me.
I didn't dare to touch her eyes, so I hurriedly lowered my head.
Su Xuejing still stood in front of me, didn't speak, didn't get out of the way, seemed to have been staring at me, staring for a long time, before she spoke: "Wu Lai, there is a question I have always wanted to ask you, I really can't figure it out, how did you become like this? In the past, you were always alone, you didn't deal with others, let alone get involved with bastard students, but now, not only are you with a bunch of bad students, but you also do such a despicable thing to me, why?"
Even if I didn't look at it, I could know how disappointed and speechless Su Xuejing's eyes were at this moment, but I still lowered my head and said softly: "I was originally this kind of person, but you didn't find it before!"
I know that this is a good opportunity to explain, which can completely eliminate Su Xuejing's misunderstanding of me, but, I am about to leave this city, I don't want to have any nostalgia, I don't want to have anything to do with Su Xuejing, and I don't want Su Xuejing to know the truth and form a bond with Wang Yadong, although Su Xuejing has a powerful cousin, but Wang Yadong is a ruffian after all, and it is inevitable to do unbelievable things to hurt Su Xuejing, so if I want to leave, I will completely disappear and leave no hidden dangers for Su Xuejing. It is impossible for me to have a further relationship with Su Xuejing, so what if I am misunderstood, as long as she is safe, it will be fine.
However, Su Xuejing listened to my answer, and she didn't give up, and continued to ask me: "Wu Lai, do you know? In high school, you have always been my role model for learning, with your grades, you can be admitted to a prestigious university casually, even if you encounter something in the next semester, you can't read books, but with your foundation, it is not a problem to be admitted to a key university, how can you not enter such a third-rate school, you did it on purpose, right?"
Listening to Su Xuejing's heavenly voice, I couldn't help but laugh at myself and replied: "You misunderstood, I'm not as good as you think, I'm not a good student, and I didn't perform well in exams, so I can only be admitted to such a garbage university!"
After speaking, I didn't wait for Su Xuejing to speak again, I raised my head directly, looked at her, and said firmly: "I'm sorry, I still have something to do, let's go first!"
Immediately, I bypassed her directly and strode forward, and said freely as I walked: "Su Xuejing, don't worry, I have accepted the lesson, and I will not bother you again in the future!" After speaking, I quickened my pace and gradually ran.
At this moment, my heart is as solid as a rock!