Chapter 140: You may not really know how much she means to me
"Yes, take it, it's a piece of my heart and your mother's heart. β
Han Jianye also followed the persuasion, and in the end, Nanqiao had no choice but to accept the red envelope.
"Eh, that's right, okay, let's all come to dinner. β
Liu Jinxiu is very happy today, she moved to a new house in the first year, her son Chen Fei found a good job, and the family rarely got together, which is really happy and worth celebrating.
Although it is not an official New Year today, Liu Jinxiu still made a table of sumptuous delicacies.
"Come, year after year, let's all raise a glass and celebrate together, after all, there are not many days to get together in the future. β
Liu Jinxiu picked up the cup, which contained red wine, this home is hers, and she already wants to be the owner.
"Cheers!"
"Cheers!"
Liu Jinxiu drank half a glass of wine, and she picked up chopsticks and sandwiched a piece of pig's trotters for Chen Jinhua and Han Jianye.
"Eldest sister, brother-in-law, don't be polite, eat more. β
"Good, good. β
Chen Jinhua was very happy, but she also felt that she owed herself a lot over the years, Liu Jinxiu and Chen Yong.
"Eldest sister, brother-in-law, are you going to Angola after the New Year?"
They were halfway through the conversation, so now they have continued the conversation.
"Yes, we are ex-convicts, we are not very employable in China, and we can only earn money by working a little temporary work for others before, and we are about to reach retirement age. β
Chen Jinhua and Han Jianye can only go abroad to work now, although they also know that the conditions in the non-domain are difficult, but they earn a lot of money.
Having said this, Liu Jinxiu really didn't know how to pick it up, she glanced at Han Zhi with her spare eyes, and seeing that he was silent, she couldn't say anything.
You can't persuade Han Zhi to support his parents so much, after all, their family is in a special situation.
"Oh, okay, then I wish the eldest sister, brother-in-law, you go well abroad. β
Liu Jinxiu drank another half glass of wine, and then she turned her gaze to Han Zhi and Nan Qiao.
"Ahh......h
Liu Jinxiu had just called their names twice, and the voice suddenly became choked.
"Eh, I said Mom, why are you still crying when you talk?"
Chen Fei felt a little embarrassed, he took out a tissue from the paper box on the side and handed it to Liu Jinxiu, "Mom, for the New Year, are you really good like this?"
"What's wrong with me? I just sigh, I'm happy. Ah Zhi has finally achieved a positive result with buckwheat now, and my mother is happy! This journey has not been easy, and I have watched them grow up. β
Liu Jinxiu still remembers how Nanqiao chased their family Han Zhi in the past.
"Yes, yes, okay, this is a good thing, then don't cry, my brother and sister-in-law are about to go to live abroad, let's say something happy?"
Chen Fei and the others knew that Han Zhi and Nan Qiao were about to immigrate to Budapest, and it was rare for them to get together when they came back this time, so they should be even more happy, right?
"Come on, let's have a toast to this rare gathering. β
This meal was quite satisfying, and before leaving, Han Zhi secretly stuffed a card into Chen Jinhua's bag, and the money on that card was enough for them to support their old age.
Han Zhi is like this, he doesn't like to let others know what he has done, he only asks for a clear conscience, and does not ask others to praise him.
Including the last demolition, it was the same, he paid so much money alone, but in the end, the credit was someone else's. Even Nanqiao didn't know about it.
In the blink of an eye, on the day of the thirtieth day of the Chinese New Year's Eve, Nan Qiao came back this time to accompany his grandmother for the New Year, after all, the old man is over eighty years old, he is a guest in this world, live a day, earn a day.
Han Zhi's plan is to spend the New Year and immigrate with Nan Qiao and Han Jiayu after the beginning of spring, which means that they will not have much time to stay in China.
So Nan Qiao wants to spend the New Year with her grandmother.
The old lady took a large amount of demolition money for the demolition of Trillium Lane, and she gave most of the money to her son Nan Zhiguo, and a small part to her daughter Nan Langui.
Therefore, Nan Zhiguo took the demolition money and borrowed some money to buy back the villa he had sold because he wanted to treat his son.
Now they live together as a family, including the old lady, so they all gathered in Nan Zhiguo's villa for the New Year.
"Buckwheat, what's wrong?"
In the garden of Nan Zhiguo's villa, Nan Qiao was in a daze with a cup of hot water.
"Ah, Brother Zhen, you scared me to death. β
"Hahaha, when did you become so timid?"
Nan Qiao glanced at Han Zhi, stuffed the cup into his hand, and turned around to go back to the villa.
"Buckwheat, it's too stuffy in the room, you sit with me. β
There was a swing chair in the garden, and Han Zhi led Nanqiao to that side.
The two of them sat up, and the swing was swaying, so comfortable.
"Buckwheat, what were you thinking just now?"
Han Zhi was chatting with Nan Zhiguo in the house before, and when he wanted to look for Nan Qiao, he found that she could not be found in the entire villa, so he searched everywhere, and then he saw her in the garden.
Nan Qiao turned her head to look at Han Zhen, then slowly leaned her head on his shoulder and spoke lightly.
"I was thinking about the past, Brother Zhen, you know what? The year I first went to Northtown, my dad bought this villa. I remember it was Chinese New Year's Eve, and I was standing alone by the window of the rental house, holding my mobile phone and swiping the circle of friends. That day, my sister-in-law posted a lot of small videos, all of which were scenes of the family celebrating the New Year in this villa, which was really lively. I just didn't expect that I would come here today and celebrate the New Year with them. β
Nanqiao still can't forget the day when she stayed alone in a boarding house in Beicheng, and on the other side of the Internet, her family gathered together to celebrate the New Year and celebrate the housewarming, just like today.
Han Zhen's heart ached a little when he heard this, he knew why that Nanqiao would stay alone in Beicheng during the Chinese New Year.
It was because they had said that they would go back to Jing County together, but Han Zhi left Nanqiao and Sheng Qiannuan and returned to Jing County.
Thinking of this, he actually wanted to give himself a knife.
However, Han Zhi still resisted the urge to apologize, and continued to follow Nanqiao's words and asked, "Then why didn't you come back here to celebrate the New Year with them?"
"Come back, brother, are you a noble person who forgets things? That day was the second day after I finished the abortion, I couldn't even walk steadily, how can I come back? In addition, my sister-in-law told me that my father didn't plan to take me over for the New Year, even if I came back, I would be alone, I don't know where to take me in, so it is better to be in Beicheng, of course I am not alone, I remember the day ........."
At this point, Nanqiao suddenly paused, she licked her lips, and bit her lower lip lightly, a little embarrassed.
She actually wanted to say that it was Gu Feiyi who accompanied her that day, and the man also comically blew up her kitchen.
Of course, Han Zhi also understood what Nan Qiao had to say, and the topic suddenly became heavy again when it came to this.
So, Han Zhi thought about how many sins he had created?
Nanqiao chased him to Beicheng, not only did he not take good care of her, but he also had an affair with others. not only left her alone to spend the New Year in a foreign land, but even when she needed him the most, she was not there.
Damn it!
"Buckwheat, you were scared and helpless at that time, right?"
"Well, I'm really scared. From the moment I had a premonition that I was pregnant, I couldn't find you, and I had to go to the hospital alone and accept the strange eyes of those doctors. I was afraid of having my blood drawn, but I had to take a blood test for early pregnancy, so I had to grit my teeth and face the things I was afraid of alone. Later, it turned out that I was really pregnant. Brother Zhen, do you know? At that time, I was both happy and scared, and I was happy that I actually had your child in my belly, and he was just an embryo at that time, and I began to fantasize about what he looked like, whether he was like you or me?"
"Hahaha, Brother Zhen, I'm really stupid, right?"
Nan Qiao leaned on Han Zhi's shoulder, and as she spoke, tears slipped out of her eyes and flowed down the bridge of her nose into the corners of her mouth.
She was looking ahead, so she couldn't see that Han Zhi also had two lines of tears on his face now.
"Yes, it's silly. At that time, I would not have let you give birth to this child at all, I don't love you, and I don't love him even more. β
Han Zhi still remembers that time, he knew how irritable Nanqiao was when she was pregnant, and he even wanted to strangle her at that moment.
"That's right, so then your phone call got through, and you told me that you would come to accompany me to have an abortion, and I believed it, even if I was really scared and reluctant, but I still waited for your arrival with a trace of anticipation. β
Nan Qiao stretched out her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, and continued: "It was the twenty-ninth day of the end of the year, and I remember very well that it snowed heavily in Beicheng that day, and there were few people in the whole hospital. Later, I came to the door of the operating room alone, and I was about to call you, but you turned off the phone, brother, in fact, you didn't plan to come that day, right?"
Nan Qiao heard Sheng Qiannuan say that he seemed to be accompanying her in the hospital.
Han Zhi swallowed with some difficulty, and he wiped away a tear that was about to fall out of his eye socket without a trace.
After a while, he spoke: "Yes, but ...... But in the end, I chose to hurt you. β
"Well, my brother is still so honest. β
Nan Qiao quipped bitterly.
"So he came, and when I walked into the operating room alone in despair, I had a sense of why I was living in this world. Really, Brother Zhen, do you know? The bed in the operating room was so cold, and the surgical forceps were rattling, and I was so scared. The female doctor was very heavy, and when I shouted that it hurt, she scolded me. Later, I didn't dare to shout even if it hurt thousands of arrows. I bit my lip tightly, and the bite was dripping with blood, do you know what I was thinking at the moment?"
"In ...... What are you thinking?"
Han Zhi twisted his head away slightly, and his tears couldn't be stopped at all.
"I'm wondering where my brother is going? Didn't he say that he would come to Beicheng to accompany me? Could it be that there was an accident on the way? Brother Zhen, do you know? Even if I am in pain, I have lost consciousness, but the first thought in my mind is that you must not have an accident. If there is really retribution for abortion, then retribution should be on me. β
"Hmm. β
Han Zhen's five fingers clenched into a fist and sent it to his mouth, his teeth clenched, and his Adam's apple sliding up and down faintly revealed his sadness.
"So, Brother Zhen, you say that time is not a terrible thing. Obviously, a few years ago, I was so miserable, abandoned by my family and lover, I couldn't have those things that I couldn't have before, but now I have them, you said that God still favors me, right? β
Nan Qiao didn't know, she only knew that the person she wanted could never have it anymore.
She loved him, he loved her, but in the end they didn't come together.
Nanqiao will remember for a lifetime, how Gu Feiyi carried her home from the hospital step by step on the Chinese New Year's Eve when it snowed heavily.
Retracting her thoughts, Nanqiao sat up straight and looked ahead.
"Brother Zhen, do you know, what I call it is worth it, and when I look back, I deserve it. I don't know why I lived my life the way I did. That's what I just thought. β
"Did you come up with anything later?"
At that time, Han Zhi had already hidden his sadness and returned to his former cold appearance.
"Well, I figured it out, that is, people will become, but they will definitely not change back to the past. β
"That's right. β
Han Zhi nodded, acknowledging this.
"Buckwheat, Brother Zhi has a wish. β
"What wish?"
Nan Qiao looked up at Han Zhi's graceful jawline.
How could she never know that Han Zhi still believed in this thing, hasn't he always been pragmatic?
"Get what you want. β
"Huh?"
Nan Qiao blinked in surprise, "What kind of wish is this?" β
"Well, it's a wish, buckwheat, do you know what is the rarest thing in this world?"
"What's the rarest?"
Nanqiao thinks that many things are very rare.
"From dawn to twilight, from youth to old age. I was the first to hold your hand, the first to hug you, the first to kiss you, the first to like you. So I hope I'm the first person to be with you to old age. That's what I wanted. β
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Nan Qiao was stunned for a moment, and she turned her head away a little shyly, "Han Zhen, you are a little too much." β
"Oh, what's too much? Mrs. Han. β
"Hmph, why didn't I know that your love words were so smooth, and at first glance, you said too much. β
Of course, Nan Qiao's words are a joke, she knows Han Zhi better than anyone else, and what he hates most is to say these crooked love words.
"Well, yes, I used to be an out-and-out bastard scumbag, I used to be sorry for a girl, and then I met a lot of people who were sorry for me, and I started to feel like it was all my retribution. So, now that I got that girl back, I swore that I was going to spend my whole life pampering her, loving her, accompanying her, and taking care of her. She is the daughter I have been through the mountains and rivers of the world, tossing and turning, and it is difficult to find the lost gold. β
Who does the "she" in Han Zhi's mouth refer to, Nan Qiao understands.
"What's the matter?
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Nan Qiao stared at Han Zhi, and she suddenly thought of a sentence, "All encounters in this world are reunions after a long absence." β
Han Zhi saw that Nanqiao didn't speak, he smiled and hugged her into his arms, and the two sat on the swing, watching the sunset, which was very romantic.
Suddenly, an incident from a long time ago flashed in Han Zhi's mind.
At that time, when they were still studying in Tianzhong, they were young and ignorant, and they seemed to understand love, and love songs were very popular in school.
At a school party, a senior sang a song "Fairy Tale", good guy, fascinated by a girl in the sky.
Han Zhi remembered that on the way home that day, Nanqiao kept pestering him to sing her this "Fairy Tale".
Then where would he sing "Fairy Tale" to her, and sing "Nonsense", it's almost the same.
"Brother Zhen, just sing it for me, I think you sing much better than that senior. β
At that time, Nanqiao was Han Zhen's fan sister, and to put it vulgarly, he let out a fart, and she thought it was all fragrant.
What's more, she often sees Han Zhi holding Daddy's guitar and singing on the river dam, so she has seen his skills, and singing "Fairy Tale" is definitely better than that senior.
"Don't sing. β
Han Zhi glared at Nan Qiao irritably, "Don't bother me. β
He thought that even if he wanted to sing it, he wouldn't sing it to her.
"Brother Zhen, please. I really want to hear you sing, but I can't do a word. β
Nan Qiao walked up to Han Zhi and pulled his sleeve, "Brother Zhi, Brother Zhi, good Brother Zhi." β
"Get out!"
Han Zhi angrily withdrew his clothes, "Nanqiao, why are you so annoying, why should I sing you a love song?"
"Because I like you. β
Nanqiao's eyes are full of determination!
"So?"
"So you're going to sing me a word, brother. β
Han Zhi sighed speechlessly, he turned his head to look at Nan Qiao with disdain, and said seriously word by word: "Nan Qiao, listen well, I don't like you, I don't like you at all, on the contrary, I hate you very much, I'd better you disappear in front of me forever." You don't want to think about it for the rest of your life, I'll sing you "Fairy Tale"!"
After Han Zhi finished speaking, he left Nanqiao and walked home, he remembered that it was the evening of school, and the sunset hung in the sky like a round of fiery red glass beads......
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Han Zhi came back to his senses, he looked ahead, what a coincidence, today's sunset and sunset are similar to that day.
"Buckwheat. β
"What's wrong? β
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Han Zhi took a deep breath, and slowly began to sing with thin lips:
"I want to be in a fairy tale, the angel you love, open your hands and become wings to guard you, you have to believe, believe that we will be like in fairy tales........."
Han Zhi hugged Nanqiao, and the two sat on the swing, watching the afterglow of the sunset together, and the warm golden sun sprinkled on them.
The swing swayed gently, swaying, Han Zhi sang "Fairy Tale" in his unique low magnetic voice, warm and affectionate.
Even if it is a cappella, without any mixed accompaniment, it can still make people feel pleasant to the ear, gentle as water, as if they are in the clouds.
Nan Qiao slowly rested her head on Han Zhi's shoulder, and she hummed along with him.
"Happiness and joy are the end, write our ending together. β
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Chinese New Year's Eve is a few lively, a few happy.
The fireworks outside the window are shining, and the people in the house are getting cooler.
Gu Feiyi stood in front of the window, smoking a cigarette silently.
Today is the thirtieth day of the Chinese New Year's Eve, and he remembers the Chinese New Year's Eve he spent with Nanqiao in Beicheng that year.
Two hundred and five takeaways, fried kitchens, and Nanqiao's scolding.
It's obviously all unbearable memories, why are they all sweet when I think about it now, is life too bitter?
Gu Feiyi raised his hand and looked at the wedding ring on his ring finger, his heart was like ashes.
"Tuk, tuk. β
There were two knocks outside the room, and the door was pushed open.
As soon as Liu Yi entered the door, he saw Gu Feiyi standing next to the window and smoking a cigarette lonely.
Her eyes darkened, and she walked toward him.
"Son, what are you looking at?" Liu Yi followed Gu Feiyi's line of sight, it was now dark outside the window, and no one set off fireworks.
"Stars. β
Gu Feiyi said lightly.
"Huh?"
Liu Yi's red lips opened slightly, and she glanced out of the window again in some surprise, it was raining in Guangde today, where did the stars come from?
"Son, aren't you happy?"
After Liu Yi asked this sentence, she regretted it, because this question was equivalent to nonsense.
Soon she added, "Mom thinks you've changed a lot, you used to be very lively and optimistic." β
That's right, Liu Yi remembered that Gu Shunshun would try all kinds of ways to make her happy, tell all kinds of jokes, and all kinds of Internet jokes. From time to time, they would give her some small gifts and accompany her to go shopping, and the mother and son were very happy.
Look at the current Gu Feiyi, the whole person is lifeless, although he is much more reliable than before, he does business seriously, does not mess with flowers and grass, reins in all the cynicism, mature, and steady, but only lacks happiness.
Liu Yi feels that the current Gu Feiyi is enough to describe it with the words "walking dead".
"Mom, you guys probably don't really know how much she means to me. β
If you knew, you wouldn't have asked him if he was happy.
Liu Yi's tears flowed out on the spot, she put her hand on Gu Feiyi's shoulder, and said in a deep crying voice, "I'm sorry son." β
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"Ah Yi, mom knows you're sad, but don't really think about it now, okay? Today is Chinese New Year's Eve, your father-in-law, mother-in-law and fiancΓ©e have all come over, they are downstairs, you go down with your mother, don't make your father angry again." β
Liu Yi regrets it now, she thinks that if she knew that Gu Feiyi loved Nanqiao so much, she would fight against Gu Changan even if she tried her best, let alone go along with him.
"Hmm. β
What else could Gu Feiyi say besides promising him?
Pressing the cigarette butt into the ashtray, Gu Feiyi put his hand in his trouser pocket and followed Liu Yi downstairs.
"Fei Yi. β
Ling Pan saw Gu Feiyi coming down from upstairs, she hurriedly stepped forward, Father Ling's expression was a little unnatural, he was actually very disgusted that the girl was too active.
He is a man, and this man naturally understands men. The more you can't get it, the more precious it is, and they won't cherish it if they take the initiative to send it to the door.
"Husband, I miss you. β
Ling Pan put his arm around Gu Feiyi and coquettishly coquettishly, "After today, I can move over." β
Yes, the rule of Guangde is that if you are engaged, you can live together as long as you spend the New Year together, so many people on their side will choose to get engaged on Chinese New Year's Eve, just to let the two newlyweds live together quickly.
Gu Feiyi nodded as if he didn't feel anything, "Well, it's good." β
Ling Pan is not a child, she is sincere and perfunctory She is very clear.
Last time he was engaged, he called his name wrong, and with such an alienated attitude today, Ling Pan knew that Gu Feiyi had someone in his heart no matter how stupid he was.
But what about someone? This man is now her husband, and no one can take it away.
Maybe Gu Feiyi doesn't like him now, but it doesn't mean that he will still be like this in the future.
There is a wise saying, how do you say it?
"Those who have a will, things can be done, the cauldron is sunk, and the one hundred and two Qin passes belong to Chu after all; β
It's just a man's heart, why can't she Ling Pan get it?
"Come on, come on, everyone is here, let's talk at the table. β
Gu Changan greeted Ling Pan's parents warmly.
Taking advantage of the absence of the Ling family's parents and Ling Pan, Gu Changan called Gu Feiyi aside to get a preventive shot.
"Gu Feiyi, I warn you not to give me nonsense, now that the wood is in the boat, it is useless for you to regret it, remember what your grandmother told you before she died!"