At 12 o'clock in the evening, all kinds of New Year's wishes on WeChat came like an overwhelming wave.

"Happy New Year. ”

"Student Shen, the New Year is auspicious, and the family is happy. ”

When he saw the words "family happiness", Shen Dushi's originally smiling face suddenly sank.

Since his mother passed away, he had no family joy at the twilight, and now this home is just an inn for him to come and go.

The fireworks outside the window continued, Shen Dushi raised his eyes lightly and looked into the distance, and his good-looking diamond lips slowly spoke: "Mom, Happy New Year." ”

“………”

When I was six years old, I came back from my grandmother's house at dusk, and as soon as I entered the door, I saw his mother Liao Juan sitting on the sofa with a haggard face.

"Mom, I'm back, you see this is the laser gun that my grandmother bought for me, tuk tuk tuk ~ beat the bad guys. ”

Six-year-old Shen Dushi, like all boys, is playful and mischievous.

Liao Juan slowly raised her head, her eyes filled with tears, "Twilight, you're back." ”

Liao Juan's voice was like a gossamer, and she looked bored.

Although Shen Twilight was young, he also saw that his mother was unusual.

"Mom, what's wrong with you?"

Shen Dushi put his hand on Liao Juan's forehead as he spoke, learning how Liao Juan usually took care of him when he had a fever.

"Mom is fine, just a little tired, Mom is tired of life in this world and wants to go to other places to see. ”

Liao Juan had a smile on her face, but this smile scared Shen Dushi.

"Woo woo woo, Mom, I don't understand what you say, what about Dad? ”

What the world, what tiredness, he can't understand, the only thing he can feel now is fear.

As soon as the word "Dad" was mentioned, Liao Juan's emotions began to become excited.

"Don't mention these two words, he doesn't deserve to be your father, he's just a beast, twilight, remember not to forgive him for the rest of your life. ”

Liao Juan grabbed Shen Dushi's arm tightly, her eyes suddenly became fierce, and her mouth stopped scolding.

Shen Dushi was so scared that he even had red eyes, "Mom, woo woo, Mom, I'm afraid." ”

Liao Juan let go of Shen Dusk, then leaned her head back on the sofa, her eyes stared blankly at the incandescent ceiling lamp on the ceiling, and her mouth repeatedly murmured: "Why, why are you so cruel to me? I love you so much, animal, you are an animal." ”

Shen Dushi didn't understand what his mother meant, he only knew that he was sitting on the sofa crying in a daze, and kept shouting, "Mom." ”

After a while, he saw Liao Juan close her eyes, and then blood flowed out of her seven orifices, which really looked like a ghost in a horror movie.

"Mommy, Mommy. ”

Later, no matter how hoarse Shen called at dusk, Liao Juan didn't wake up.

In this way, Shen Dushi's mother died, some people said that he was angry, and some people said that he was taking poison.

Since then, there has been one more sad day in Shen's twilight world, March 30 every year, his mother's death day.

Not long after, less than a year, his father married him a new mother and entered the door, Shen Dushi naturally thought that his father and that woman were the indirect murderers of the fuck, and since then he has hated his father and the woman who can never replace the fuck.

Every time Shen Dusk's mother's death day, he would find a place to cry secretly.

At that time, he was the announcer of the school radio station, and he usually liked to be alone in the radio room, where no one disturbed.

This day coincided with the death day of his mother's twilight, and when he was sorting out the manuscript, he found an article by a certain author to mourn his mother, and the heart-piercing words and sentences made him finally cry with his emotions.

It's the end of school, and no teachers or students will pass by.

So Shen twilight prostrate on the table and sobbed, he really missed Liao Juan.

After crying for about a while, he heard someone knocking on the window, Shen Dushi quickly wiped away his tears and gently pushed open the crack in the window, is she?

"Classmate, are you okay, do you need help?"

The person standing outside the window was none other than Nan Qiao, who had already noticed her at that time, and because of this, he would want to say a few more words to her.

"Well, I'm fine, thank you, today is my mother's death day, so I ......"

Originally, this kind of thing is the most obscure for a boy in the first year of high school, and no one will really talk about this kind of thing, but if the other party is the person he cares about, it's different.

"Oh. ”

Nanqiao outside the window replied lightly, and then Shen Du saw her come in with a lemon-flavored lollipop.

"Don't be sad, please eat candy, when I'm sad, as long as I eat a lollipop, it's fine, you try, and my grandmother said, in fact, the relatives who left didn't really leave us, but stayed by our side in a different way of being, cheer up, maybe your mother is watching from the side, she definitely doesn't want to see you so sad." ”

This was the most Nanqiao had ever said to him in Shen Dushi's memory, and he admitted that her words really warmed him.

Holding the lollipop, Shen Twilight knew for the first time that Nan Qiao liked lollipops, and he kept this in mind since then.

*

"Twilight, why haven't you slept yet?"

A person who suddenly broke in interrupted Shen Dushi's memories, she was one of the people he hated the most, Xia Jieying, Shen Donghai's new love, and the culprit who was fucking angry.

Xia Jieying stood next to Shen Dushi with a glass of milk, and her uninvited arrival made Shen Dushi feel bored.

"Didn't anyone teach you to knock on the door when you enter someone's room?" Shen Dushi's tone was as cold as December frost, and he had always treated Xia Jieying like this.

"I knocked, but you didn't respond for a long time, I was worried that something would happen to you, so I opened the door with a spare key. ”

The reasons are very good, but people do not accept them.

"Get out. ”

"Shen Dusk, how did you talk to your Aunt Xia, what kind of attitude do you have?"

At some point, Shen Dongfeng also walked in, and behind his rimless glasses was a pair of angry eyes.

"No attitude, Dad, I'm tired and need to rest. ”

Shen Twilight will not lose his temper with Shen Dongfeng, he is his father, and his character upbringing since he was a child has not been able to be presumptuous in front of his father.

He hated them, but he never acted aggressively.

"You!"

"Okay, Lao Shen, let the child rest if he wants to rest, let's go out. ”

Xia Jieying pulled Shen Dongfeng with one hand and put the milk on the table with the other.

"At dusk, the milk is on the table, don't forget. ”

The two of them left Shen Dusk's room, and Shen Dongfeng looked at it and his anger had not subsided.

"A-Ying, don't get used to him too much, look at what he has become now, drop out of school if you want to, do whatever you want, speak disrespectfully, look angry, is he still my Shen Dongfeng's son!"

Shen Dongfeng works as a secretary in a middle school, and there is a sense of decency between his words, and his son and work are the two things that make him proud in this life.

"Say less, the child is older and knows what he wants. ”

Xia Jieying spoke very much for Shen Dushi, she has been very oriented to him for so many years, she can be said to be a very qualified stepmother.

"It's all you're used to. ”

Although Shen Dongfeng buried Xia Jieying in his mouth, this hand hugged her into his arms, which showed that they were very affectionate.

Xia Jieying put her arms around Shen Dongfeng's neck and said seriously: "Dongfeng, I know that I have hatred in my heart at dusk, she thinks that I forced Juanzi to death, although I have also been sad, but I think he is still a child, it is normal to protect his mother, he lost his mother at the age of six, and his childhood is incomplete, so I can only try my best to make up for it as a stepmother." ”

Speaking of this, Shen Dongfeng sighed deeply, that incident happened too suddenly, everyone was caught off guard, and everyone was a loser in that war without gunpowder.

"A-Ying, I really wronged you. ”

Xia Jieying shook her head, her grievances were nothing compared to another person, the person she was most sorry for in her life.

On the first day of the Lunar New Year, at nine o'clock in the morning, Nan Qiao was about to go out to buy vegetables, and as soon as she got off the elevator, she saw Han Zhi walking towards her in the dust.

She rubbed her eyes, swallowed her saliva, and said in some incredulity, "Brother Zhen, why are you here?"

Han Zhi took a step forward, took the umbrella from Nan Qiao's hand, and responded in a relaxed tone: "Come and atone for your sins." ”

It's not to atone for his sins, he committed a crime, which made Nanqiao injured, suffered a lot of pain, and owed a lot of debts that should indeed be repaid.

"Are you going grocery shopping?"

Without waiting for Nan Qiao to respond, Han Zhi immediately asked.

"Yes. ”

You can't eat instant noodles every day, but your body still has to be cherished.

"Okay, I'll go with you. ”

Han Zhi opened the umbrella, and the two went to a nearby vegetable market, and they patrolled the vegetable market like an ordinary young couple.

Han Zhi has a lot of life experience, which is related to his previous life experience, since he was a child, his uncle rarely cared about him, and his aunt was even more unreliable, so he relied on himself.

What kind of pork is fresh, live shrimp and dead shrimp, he can tell at a glance, what kind of sweetness to buy oranges, and how to match meat and vegetarian nutrition.

This is also what Nan Qiao likes about Han Zhi, she thinks that if anyone is lucky enough to be his wife in the future, he must be a very blessed person.

She wanted to be that person, she wanted to.

Unlike Gu Shunshun, who doesn't know anything, Nan Qiao doesn't have to worry about him blowing up her kitchen at all.

When visiting the vegetable market, Han Zhi would ask Nanqiao what he liked to eat, and he picked it very seriously, such a gentle brother would be a deadly poison for Nanqiao.

After the purchase, the two returned to the apartment where they lived in Nanqiao.

This was Han Zhen's first time here, and he could see the charred kitchen at a glance.

"You got this?"

Han Zhi pointed to the kitchen and asked in some surprise.

Nan Qiao was stunned for a moment, then shook his head, "It's Gu Shunshun." ”

Han Zhi seemed to understand a little, "So, he signed the words that were in the flow of people that day, right?"

Gu Shunshun's interest in Nan Qiao had already surprised Han Zhen, and he was actually reluctant to believe that Gu Shunshun was sincere to Nan Qiao.

"Yes. ”

Nan Qiao didn't know how to deceive people, especially how to deceive Han Zhen, she nervously grabbed the corner of her clothes, wanting to explain but found that she was speechless.

Han Zhi pulled Nan Qiao to sit down on the sofa, he reached out and stroked her delicate face, and said softly: "Nan Qiao, listen to me, you shouldn't get too close to Gu Shunshun, although I am not a good man, but he is worse than me, you are not his opponent, his heart is beyond your imagination, and you won't get any benefit from pestering him." ”

Gu Shunshun's heart is well known to everyone in Beicheng University, he has money, so he has the capital to pick up girls, Han Zhi does not exaggerate his prediction, Gu Shunshun's harem can definitely form a club.

When Nan Qiao heard Han Zhi say this, she thought that he had misunderstood something, but she was not calm, "Brother Zhen, I didn't want to entangle with him, how did he appear, I don't know, and I didn't call him here." ”

Han Zhi nodded, "Well, it's okay, stay away from him in the future, I'll go cook." ”

Saying that, Han Zhi got up, he took the dishes into the kitchen, and in a moment, he cleaned up the kitchen and sorted out everything that could be cooked.

Nan Qiao watched him proceed in an orderly manner, and suddenly she felt that she really liked this boy.

For eleven years, Nanqiao's liking for Han Zhi has always been only rising and not falling.

She silently walked up to Han Zhi, took out a tomato from the plastic bag and handed it to Han Zhi.

"Thank you. ”

"Brother Zhen, you asked me that just now because you care about me and are good for me, and you don't want me to be deceived by Gu Shunshun, or are you actually jealous?"

Han Zhi frowned, he didn't think it was, the correct statement should be that Nanqiao was his thing, and Gu Shunshun was the person he hated, even if he didn't like such a thing anymore, he couldn't cheapen the person he hated.

"Both. ”

After some consideration, he still chose to deceive.

Han Shu washed the tomatoes, then took the freshly boiled water and scalded them to remove the skin.

"Then you care about me and are jealous because you also like me a little bit, right?"

Nanqiao struck while the iron was hot and asked relentlessly.

The tomatoes have begun to peel under the soaking of boiling water, Han Zhi thought, everything that originally grew together may be separated by external forces, not to mention two people who are not related to each other in the first place, Nan Qiao is still too persistent to see through, she thinks that if she likes it, she can block everything?

Besides, Han Zhi didn't like her at all.

He carefully peeled off the tomatoes, and only when they were done did he respond to her question.

"Nanqiao, I have feelings for you. Han Zhi put it another way.

Well, there are feelings, physical feelings, but likes and loves, can't talk about it.

This kind of simulated answer is easy to give people an illusion, and Nanqiao's heart that was originally disillusioned because of Han Zhi's failure to make an appointment ignited again.

"Really?"

"Well, give me the chicken. ”

Nan Qiao happily took out the live chicken that had just been killed in the vegetable field from the bag.

She healed the scar and forgot the pain, Han Zhi casually gave her a candy, and all the pain in her heart was melted away.

Han Zhi planned to make chicken soup for Nanqiao, and he felt guilty about Nanqiao's flow, but he was also afraid that she would leave any sequelae because of this accident, and it would not be good if she relied on him for the rest of her life.

Nan Qiao watched Han Zhi neatly chop the chicken, and then put it in the pot to blanch the water and filter the blood.

Because of his answer just now, Nan Qiao had the courage to ask further.

She took the orange next to her, held it in her hand, picked the skin with her fingernails, and was silent for a moment before she mustered up the courage to ask, "Brother Zhen, you and Sheng Qiannuan are okay now, right?"

This is what she cares about the most and is also the most afraid of, Sheng Qiannuan is like a time bomb between her and Han Zhen, it will explode when she says it, and it may blow her to pieces.

"Of course. ”

This time Han Zhi replied quickly, he really had nothing to do with Sheng Qiannuan, if there was really anything, he wouldn't be here, but he knew that sooner or later they would have something, and this layer of paper was too thin, and it would break if you poked it.

Nan Qiao smiled like a child, but immediately Han Zhi's words made her fall to the bottom.

"I don't want to be in a relationship right now. ”

The person he likes has a heart, Chen Yong began to let go of him, and the pressure on his shoulders suddenly became heavy, what kind of love to talk about.

It's the truth, and it's also an excuse to block the buckwheat.

Han Zhen's movements were very fast, chatting and chatting, his chicken soup was stewed, the dishes were washed, and everything was being carried out in a rational and orderly manner.

"Oh. ”

Nan Qiao was a little depressed, she followed Han Zhi to the living room, the two sat on the sofa, and a variety show was playing on the TV.

Suddenly, Han Zhi caught a glimpse of the flowers and gift boxes next to the sofa, and he wondered if this was also Gu Shunshun's masterpiece?

"This is also sent by Gu Shunshun?"

Following Han Zhi's line of sight, Nan Qiao saw the bouquet of flowers and the lollipop gift box.

She shook her head, "No, it's twilight." ”

Han Zhi laughed lightly, Shen Dusk's incident surprised him, when did Nanqiao become so sought-after?

Gu Shunshun provoked Nan Qiao, he could understand that he wanted to sleep with her, but why did he want to sleep with her?

Han Zhi is a man, and he knows very well that a man will never be bored enough to give gifts to a girl he is not interested in, so the answer is obvious that Shen Twilight is also interested in Nanqiao.

Regarding this, Han Zhi was very unexpected, Shen Dushi turned out to be a man of the hour in the sky who wanted wind and rain, how could he look at Shangnan Buckwheat.

But none of this matters, the important thing is that Nanqiao is still a girl with only him in her eyes.

Thinking of this, Han Zhi felt a sense of pride rise in his heart, this girl who others tried their best to chase, but now she loves herself with all her heart, sometimes this life is really interesting.

may be with these episodes, Han Zhen's heart has changed a little, it turns out that Nanqiao, who is dead to him, is not unloved.

Nan Qiao saw that Han Zhi had been in a daze with the box of lollipops, she couldn't guess what he was thinking, would he blame herself? Or did he actually feel nothing?

All kinds of questions lingered in Nanqiao's heart, and she could only find something to do when she was upset.

"Brother Zhen, you sit down first, and I'll wash my hair. ”

Nan Qiao was about to get up, but Han Zhi suddenly grabbed her hand and said thoughtfully, "I'll help you." ”

In this way, Han Zhi patiently helped Nan Qiao wash her hair, he rarely treated her so patiently, this probability is similar to winning the lottery.

In the process of washing his hair, Han Zhi suddenly said to Nan Qiao:

"Nanqiao, in fact, Shen Twilight is very good. ”

The implication, you think about it.

Han Zhi was also conflicted in his heart, he wanted to get rid of Nanqiao, but he also felt that he couldn't let go, because he knew in his heart that he would never be able to be with Nanqiao, and it would be better to leave early.

He couldn't let go because he knew that he might never find a girl like Nan Qiao who was dead to him.

In a word, contradictions.

"Brother Zhen, I don't like him. ”

Nan Qiao sat up straight with excitement, the water droplets from her hair soaking her collar as Han Shu put her back in place, "I know, but you always have to try to reach someone other than me." ”

At this moment, Han Zhi felt that he still had a conscience, you see, he persuaded her not to say anything about him being a scumbag and being selfish in the future.

"I don't want to, and I don't want to. ”

Nanqiao is very stubborn.

Han Zhi took the towel and carefully wiped Nanqiao's hair, "But what if I can't give you anything in the end?"

This is a truth, a truth with a capital letter.

After holding it for a long time, Nan Qiao spoke, and she threw herself into Han Zhi's arms.

"Brother Zhen, maybe you will be a mistake when I was young, but I am still willing to make a mistake now, because I really like you too much, but if I can like you a little less, I will not wait until now. ”

Well, this is a beautiful sound, in fact, Han Zhi was also a half-truth and half-false temptation just now, and his heart was still a little throbbing when he heard Nan Qiao say this.

Han Zhi knew that he shouldn't give Nanqiao hope, but he still couldn't help but give it.

"Well, come, I'll blow your hair. ”

Han Zhi took a hair dryer to blow Nanqiao's hair, he did not hesitate to give his gentleness to Nanqiao, he, like Nanqiao, knew that it was wrong, and he wanted to go to the end.

After washing her hair, Nanqiao's hair exuded a fresh fragrance, and the little face that had been baptized by the hair dryer was flushed, and Han Zhi looked at her with some obsession.

Something that was sleeping in the body was hooked up again.

However, he just kissed her and did not move on to the next step.

Han Zhen's kissing skills are getting better and better, from the first year of high school to the present, Nan Qiao is the only girl he has ever kissed, and she is the most vocal.

In this way, Han Zhi took care of Nanqiao quietly for half a month with the psychology of atonement, and the two lived like a young couple for fifteen days.

Nan Qiao felt that this period was her happiest time, if she could, she hoped that time would stay here forever, for a lifetime, but where would God give her such a good thing, the beauty of thought, life and fate were waiting for her.

After the Lantern Festival, Peking University opened, Han Zhi returned to school, Tianyue Hotel opened, Nanqiao returned to work, and life returned to the original state, looking the same, but it seemed to be different.

At that time, Nan Qiao thought that although Han Zhi didn't promise her, he at least gave her hope, and he took care of himself so carefully because he was also trying to like her.

In unbalanced love, this is what I am most afraid of, Han Zhi's casual words may make Nan Qiao go to the soup for it, not to mention, he gives a beam of hope, which can ignite the spark of Nan Qiao's entire life.

Time passed unhappily and slowly, and Han Zhi was still inseparable from Nanqiao, occasionally intimate, often cold, indirect enthusiasm, and continuous indifference.

Shen Twilight would come to Nan Qiao, but she refused for various reasons, and Gu Shunshun, he didn't seem to appear in front of Nan Qiao again.

Spring passes and summer solstice, and the annual college entrance examination ends.

Nanqiao recently welcomed two old friends, the chicken and the horse.

After the college entrance examination, Ma broke and decided to travel to Beicheng, and by the way, Ji Ji also wanted to enjoy the scenery of the big city, so they discussed it and came to Beicheng together.

On this day, Nanqiao deliberately took a holiday, and she waited outside Beichengnan Station early.

The high-speed train from Jingxian County appeared on time at Beicheng South Station, and Nanqiao was waiting at the exit of the station.

"Break, Fence Chicken, here. ”

Nanqiao waved her hand excitedly.

"Eh, buckwheat. ”

Ma broke and threw the luggage to the fence chicken, and ran out of the station first, and she came to Nanqiao and hugged her hard.

"Bastard, I want to kill you. ”