The buzzing sound echoed in my ears, and the plane slowly took off and left JFK Airport, a forest of steel stretched out beneath our feet, and the blue Hudson River flowed quietly, like a glacier that had been precipitated for billions of years, encircling Manhattan Island, lonely and isolated from the rest of the world. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

The cold and gloom of winter, under the blue-gray buildings and gray-blue sky, slowly spread, and the imprint of the city is always so vivid and profound. When I live here, I always want to leave, and when I leave, I start to miss it again.

Today, Lan Li left New York and traveled to Seattle to prepare for the filming of "Fighting Cancer".

was originally scheduled to attend the Gotham Independent Film Awards this weekend, but the plan could not keep up with the changes, and the sudden unexpected situation finally made Lan Li absent from the awards ceremony.

For this reason, Lan Li personally called the main committee to apologize and regret.

The organizing committee of the Gotham Independent Film Festival is quite unexpected, they are not Golden Globes or Oscars, their influence is very limited, and there are really no fewer guests who are absent every year, and the best is that the agent sends an email to apologize, and more often than not, they are silently absent. Lan Li's solemn and thoughtful behavior showed enough respect.

Not only that, but when the organizing committee learned that Lan Li had to be absent because he was filming another independent work, it was even more empathetic.

In the end, Paul attended the awards ceremony on Saturday night in place of Lan Li, and took the stage to receive the Breakthrough Actor of the Year award.

The results of the award were announced a week before the awards ceremony, and Lan Li won the recognition of the independent film industry again with an overwhelming victory over Jennifer Lawrence with her wonderful performance in "Buried Alive".

The absence of the Gotham Awards was indeed quite embarrassing for Lan Li, but sitting on the plane, his mind had already entered the state of performance in advance, or rather, the state of reminiscence.

"Anti-Cancer Me" and "Detachment" are two completely different works, not about the film style, theme, genre and the like, but about the way of acting, especially the way Lan Li performs.

So far, Lan Li has starred in four works, each with its own merits and challenges, but one thing is certain: he has been groping for the fusion of expressionism and methodology.

How to find the right balance between loss of control and control, between explosion and convergence, between devotion and objectivity, between madness and reason, is not only to interpret the role, not only to dedicate the performance, but also to inject a distinct and full tension into the character, so that the character and the story play a complementary role, or to integrate a unique and profound personality into the character, leaving his own personal mark.

This is not an easy task.

Now Lan Li goes back to look at his previous four works, especially the three that have come out, all of which have different degrees of flaws. If he does it all over again, it will be more mature and the details will be different.

"Pacific War" is too restrained, more than delicate, and the outbreak is insufficient, and the character lacks a force that bursts out instantly from a clenched fist.

"Buried alive" is too release, and after some emotional details are deliberately magnified, the drama is increased, but it also appears slightly distorted, and the traces of carving become obvious.

"Love is crazy" is too involved, his own personal characteristics are gradually blurred, and the shadow of Derek Doremus can be seen at some moments, which is slightly less recognizable.

Of course, Lan Li also knows that on the road of performance, he has just started, it is impossible to become a fat man in one bite, he must move forward step by step, the accumulation of experience and the polishing of experience, there is no shortcut, down-to-earth, sincere polishing skills, this is the only way.

Therefore, Lan Li also realized that he was in a bit of a hurry. Before you even learn how to adjust your breathing, you already start to think about flying. In just one year as an actor, he has made a lot of achievements, but he can also see the urgency accumulated in the two lives, eager to prove himself, eager to realize his dreams, and eager to advance in strength, which is instead putting the cart before the horse, ignoring the solidity of basic skills.

This is also one of the important reasons why Lan Li did not hesitate to take over the "detachment" script.

"Detachment" can be regarded as the graduation examination of Lanli, which really allows Lanli to strip away all the fancy work and return to the stage of formal learning in the college.

Starting from the basics, learn how to analyze the expression of each emotion, as well as the beginning and end of emotions, in-depth gradation, rich layers, and explosion and convergence;

Predictably, this will be a daunting challenge. Any actor who puts his performance under a magnifying glass for review is an incomparably terrifying thing, and the slightest mistake is not tolerated.

And "I fight cancer" is the other extreme, which can be said to be a new and unfamiliar field, but it is a familiar field that we are accustomed to: methodological acting.

The reason why it is strange is because Lan Li has never really studied the system of methodological acting, let alone signed up for methodological training classes in the United States or Russia, and has studied systematically. How to study the role, analyze the script, and expand the background of methodist acting, Lan Li has no idea, and can only rely on his own understanding and guessing.

But what Lan Li can be sure of is that the most important thing about methodological acting is to put yourself in the shoes of the character, put yourself in the position of the character, and re-examine the world - at least the world constructed in the script.

That's why I say familiar.

In the story of "I Fight Cancer", Lan Li will play himself, at least the former self, or a part of the former self. It doesn't take any effort for Lan Li to resonate with the character and empathize with it.

This means that in the process of performance, the boundary between reality and illusion does not exist.

But the problem is that this is not the story of Chu Jiashu, this is not the story of Will Risel, this is the story of Adam, even if the script is derived from life, it is still the story of a movie, and the details and plot will inevitably deviate from life. Therefore, the boundary between reality and illusion must exist.

How to devote yourself wholeheartedly, how to tell a story in the midst of madness, how to avoid turning Adam into a Chu Jiashu...... Needless to say, this is an unimaginably daunting challenge for Lanli.

Lan Li wanted to polish his basic skills, and now, he had the best opportunity.

One work is the pinnacle of expressionism, the other is the pinnacle of methodism, and before trying to merge these two methods of performance, Lan Li won the opportunity to polish, ponder, and experience both methods in detail. When both skills are mature, perhaps Lan Li will have a completely different experience and get a glimpse of the higher realms of the performance world.

Looking out the window, the gradually small New York City is like a toy city, as if it were an artificially created virtual society in "Truman's world". This caused Lan Li to gradually detach herself from reality and enter a wonderful state of illusion, and that unreal sense of drama was surging in her mind.

When he opened his eyes, in fact, the first thing to wake up his brain was not vision, but hearing, and there were all kinds of noisy sounds in his ears, including angry cursing, irritable nagging, and sad sobs, all the sounds mixed together, making people indistinguishable, and only felt that they were in a place that did not look like a vegetable market but looked like a vegetable market.

Then he heard the doctor's explanation, the explanation of the car accident, the explanation of the operation, the explanation of the current situation...... He didn't hear a lot of chatter, as if he was sitting in a big bubble and could see some scenes, but the scenes were all covered with a halo, and he could hear some sounds, but the sounds seemed to have an inaudible echo.

Out of the corner of his eyes, he saw Ding Yanan's figure standing at the end of the bed.

The hair that had always been neatly combed and neat became messy, there were some messy strands on the sides of the cheeks, and the bun was loose, but there was no time to tidy it up, the right hand covered his mouth, and most of his expression was hidden, hiding his true emotions, and his thin shoulders stood up stubbornly and strongly, but the heavy despair overwhelmed people, and his shoulders were almost unable to support him.

And those eyes, bloodshot eyes, tears that had just been wiped away were still wet, and the sadness and pain that flooded in the depths were overwhelming, and you could even see the grandeur of the whole world falling apart.

Then he heard the doctor's words, "High paralysis." ”

He wasn't a medical student, but he understood the term, he knew what it meant, but he didn't have any sense of reality, and he was still thinking about other trivial things.

The first thought that popped into my mind was, "What about the interview? I missed that interview today, do I have to call and apologize? Otherwise, this is too rude." ”

It wasn't until a long time later that he suddenly felt a burst of urine and wanted to get up to go to the toilet, but before his body could move, he had already started to urinate. The sudden sense of shame struck him hard, and he tried to struggle, tried to control it, only to find it all in vain, and then he froze.

He was so stupidly stunned, it seemed that even the operation of his brain had stopped, he just froze in place, all the sounds, all the colors, all the dynamics disappeared, and the world disappeared into chaos, leaving only the sense of shame, which swept from the soles of his feet to the door of his head, suffocating.

He moved his fingers and felt nothing, and moved his calves and still didn't feel anything. He began to struggle, desperately as if his body had been tied up with five flowers, and struggled with all his strength, trying to break free from the restraints, but his body did not react at all. That panic began to spread in the limbs.