In the afternoon, she went to see Fang Cao. It had been a long time since she had come to see Fang Cao. At that time, after graduating from college, the two girls set up camp in a strange city, talking about ideals, love, the present, the past and the future. At that time, all the expectations for life seemed to be good, as if as long as two people were willing to move, willing to keep walking forward, life would open a beautiful chapter towards them, they once thought that everything was good even if it would not be at their fingertips, at least they could get it by tiptoeing or jumping high. Now that I think about it, they still don't know much about life. Life is that even if you try your best, you may still lose your wife and soldiers in the end.

The wind is still cold, and it is not the season to sweep the tomb, the cemetery reveals that it is even more deserted, the withered grass is one after another, the small pool under the cemetery is frozen, and the Buddhist music is played in the cemetery repeatedly, one by one, and I don't know if I can survive the soul lying under the ground. There are some pine and cypress trees planted in the cemetery, although they are not as haggard as the trees next to them, but they also look like a pale green that makes people unrefreshed, and there are some crows resting on the dead branches in the distance, and the crows are heard one by one, and in Mofei's ears, there is no other kind of desolation, gloom and horror. When she came, she felt as if she had a stomach to say to Fang Cao, this world is too hot, there are so many men and women in the world who are steaming hot, none of them can complain to each other, she Chen Mofei is so miserable that she wants to come to this cemetery to talk to the dead. She seemed to have prepared a lot of words to say to Fang Cao, but when she stood in front of Fang Cao's tomb, she felt that the words full of stomach seemed impossible to talk about. Where to start?

The wind, still cold, scrapes against the flesh. The hem of the clothes was blown from side to side by the wind, and the hair was fluttering and tangled.

Chen Mofei stood for a long time, only to realize that she had neither tears nor words in front of Fang Cao's grave, so she simply helped her clean up the grave, and then carried the paper money to the place where the treasure was turned in, and then remembered that it was about to be the New Year. Licking outwards in a bluff, the fire reflected her face red, and red sparks and black ashes flew out of it, and the smoke smoked her eyes. She hid, and greeted, and suddenly remembered a sentence inexplicably, six ways like a fire house.

Six ways are like a house of fire. This sentence was read from a Buddhist book, and when she first looked at it, she didn't understand it very well, and if she didn't know how to do the six realms, it was like a fire house, and now she finally understood a little. People are roasted, boiled, and fried inside, hiding and having nowhere to hide, and having nowhere to hide, so they have to stand facing each other and face you, but the tongue of fire licks your whole body, burning your flesh and skin and hurting your heart, but you can't shout. You shout, don't say who cares or not, who can hear?

Maybe that's the real life.

Chen Mofei finished turning the treasure and walked back, and when he returned home, it was sunset again. It's sad and good like this, and people get through it day after day. At night, she couldn't sleep, and her head was messed up with no rules at all. At this time, I really want to pass the year, but at the same time, I also complain about the passing year. However, the most resentful is himself. She really couldn't understand why she had waited for this man for so long, and insisted on being with him all these years, she thought that she must have lost her mind before, otherwise her life would never have reached this point. Like a dream, those joyful, thick and strong arms picked her up by the waist and laid her on the bed. At that time, she felt that her life and destiny in this life, even her bones and blood, could no longer be separated from the man in front of her, and nothing could separate them. However, one after another accidents occurred, and the relationship between them faded quietly and without warning. She also took out the marriage certificate of the two people, in just one year, what is a relationship?

She remembered that year when her mother smashed pots and pans outside, and scolded Huai Huai in pain, saying that she knew that it was better to have a son, and she thought that giving birth to a daughter, and that a daughter is really strong is no different from a son. Looking at it now, women are born cheap, and when they think about spring, they don't care about it, the emperor can throw it away, and a few good words will sink in the bones.

She thought her mother was saying something really ugly, like she had slipped her clean in front of people. She listened in the room, she didn't cry, but she bit her lower lip so white that it even oozed blood, and at that moment, she hated her mother, and felt that she couldn't forgive her in this life.

Of course, she didn't dare to tell her mother these rebellious words. But if these words are not spoken, they can be poured out of her stomach and in her heart with a murderous aura. At that time, she hated to kill herself. She felt that the words that flew out of her mother's lips, which were all knives, could swallow her alive, and she could even imagine her own flesh and skin blurred under the knife, and since then, she has suffered from insomnia, and she often lies on her back on the bed in her bedroom, staring at the ceiling of the black hole, and she can see the whole night. Then she fell asleep in the early hours of the morning, and when she fell asleep, she said to herself in her heart, just go to sleep like this, don't wake up again.

What a painful time it was. At that time, she was looking forward to the start of college every day, and Chen Mofei swore in her heart that she would never return to this home again in her life. She is a ruthless person, and she has really done this kind of thing, from college to now, she has only been home twice. Just those two times, once because of the death of my grandfather, and once because of the death of my grandmother, I had to go home, otherwise she still refused to go home. Her mother was also a stubborn person like her, and refused to bow her head to her, she went back, and hurriedly attended the funeral, and came back, she came back overnight, and she only went in to look at the room, and saw that it should remain the same inside. Chen Mofei knew that her mother missed her, and they were just a girl like her, so it was strange that she didn't want her, but when she thought of her mother's face to her during that time, she was cold and cold, and everything became unforgivable.

On the day of her grandmother's funeral, her mother cried and fainted several times, her mother was dressed in linen and filial piety, with a heavy white bun wrapped around her head, sitting on the ground and crying with her eyes closed, crying so much that she was out of breath. At that moment, her heart did not tremble, she knew that her mother missed her mother, of course, she was crying for her own deceased mother, but at the same time, she had all the grievances that she could not be humane for outsiders in her speechless confrontation with life, and these grievances could finally turn into tears and flow in public, her mother, or whose mother was not the same miserable person?

However, she still can't forgive, when her mother cried and went away, she stood far away, she didn't even want to give her mother a hateful look, she just wanted her to know that if you hated me at the beginning, then today I want you to show you what it means to be a stranger. Strangers are the most lethal weapons, and if there is hate, it is because of love. She didn't want to give her mother the slightest bit of hate and love. Many years ago, she hurt her by cutting flesh and skin, and many years later, she will quietly return an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.

Thinking of this, Chen Mofei suddenly cried, tears flowing out of his eyes. She wiped away her tears with her middle finger, and smiled bitterly in her heart, God has eyes, retribution came so late, and she only began to regret it now. She hated how unfair fate had been to her, but how could she be just? She was also unfair, not only to her and her mother, but also to herself. If nothing else, isn't this life in her hands right now? No one forced her. At first, she thought it was called deep love, but now she realizes how naïve she is.

At first, she thought that her love with Liunian was unforgettable, but after the reality slapped her mouth and beat her unconscious, she smacked the taste. She remembered her mother's words again, this woman was born cheap, a few good words from a man can be coaxed away, and because of this, it seems that she has made some big enmity with her family. Girls are extroverted, girls are outgoing.

She was even kind of an auditory hallucination, like she heard her mom crying and screaming under her window. How she hated it then, but now she hates herself for not understanding it. It's not that the harsher the voice, the more ruthless, but the harsher the voice, the more because of the seriousness of the emotion.

She threw herself on her knees, and if the night was destined to be long, then many years ago it was destined to be her regret today, although there is no regret medicine in the world. She cried and sobbed, she never missed her old days, her hometown, her mother.

Those words, in the past, seemed to her to be like knives, she used to think that those words were used by her mother as a weapon to stab her in the heart, but now she finally understands that those words, her mother stabbed not her, but herself.

If a man gives a few good words, he will die or live, and his bones will not sink in twos or twos. So cheap!

She was not convinced at the time, but now she knows that she is really cheap enough.

She still remembered that her mother had said something to her in a heartbroken manner. She remembers the scene of that day very clearly, she and her mother were the only ones left at home, and when school was about to start, she sat alone in her room and packed up.