Chen Mofei tried to change the subject.

"That's when I first found out that we were both old. These people, who were young and ignorant, have changed a lot. Of course, most of those people in my hometown have become married, and that Li Dan even has a second child. But married happily. Speaking of this, my family also persuaded me to go back to my hometown. Seriously, after so many years of fighting outside, I am as tired as a donkey all day, but I really don't have a comfortable life as these people who are still in my hometown. Look at me, now I just buy a small two-bedroom second-hand house, and there is a loan, and the car belongs to the company. But look at the people in my hometown, housewives live in houses of 100 square meters, and they are multi-storey or elevator houses. Basically, it's all in full. ”

Chen Mofei lowered his head and stroked the cup, leaving some loneliness in his eyes. Her loneliness is not all fake, she also wants to go home, and she also thinks that everything can be done again, but how is it possible?

She sometimes resents her old attachments, but after all, time is hard to come by.

Time is hard to come by.

She, not them, was the only one who could never go back.

Kang Ruoran touched her hand, "You will come often in the future, and I will not have any companions, if you don't mind that you are my own home." You don't know, I wish I had a brother or sister who could talk about the girls' hearts and help each other. ”

Chen Mofei threw a grateful glance at her and held her hand with his backhand.

"There is no need to sympathize with me, many people are like this in a foreign land, where it is home, and where it is not home. I once read a book---- "The Blind Spot". A book written by a female writer in Taiwan, there is a sentence in that book, which says, 'Nothing belongs, no place to belong, just like that.' When I saw that, I felt that she was writing about me as I am now. ”

Kang Ruoran looked apologetic, "I really shouldn't have aroused your sadness." She sighed, "It's good to introduce you to me early, I must let him help you Zhang Luo early, why wait for Chen Qiao to appear? But Chen Qiao is great, and it's worth waiting for you for so long." ”

Chen Mofei didn't know how to answer, she knew that the reason why Liu Nian introduced her to Chen Qiao was because she had a request for Chen Qiao, if Liu Nian really had the heart to match them, it was also because he wanted to get rid of her, not out of concern.

So Chen Mofei pursed his lips and laughed, "I guess he is not so kind to me, maybe I want me to bother him less in the future." ”

The two were delighted.

That night, Kang Ruoran went back and bought a copy of "Blind Spot", and when she watched her read this book, she asked her, what kind of book is good?

Kang Ruoran didn't raise his head and said, "It's okay, Mo Fei introduced it." She said that she liked the sentence in it: It doesn't belong anywhere, it doesn't belong anywhere, it just exists in vain. I don't think it's easy for her to survive alone in this city. I want to get to know her. ”

Liu Nian didn't speak, he chewed on that sentence carefully, thinking that if it weren't for fate back then, maybe she wouldn't exist in this strange and cold city now.

However, now he can't give her any salvation.

So he said to Kang Ruoran, "Why do you know her? You don't marry her." ”

The implication is "you know me." ”

Kang Ruoran turned his head and smiled, "Fool, if you understand her, you can understand your past, I want to understand you completely." ”

That night, Liu Nian sent Kang Ruoran home and went straight to Chen Qiao's house, he had no intention of visiting suddenly, but it was the same as the previous time, he didn't call to inquire and went straight to his door.

Will there be Chen Mofei inside? His heart beat like a drum, he felt that he was becoming more and more shameless and despicable, he didn't know what he wanted, but he couldn't help himself, he couldn't seem to control himself. He felt more and more like a tired traveler stuck in a swamp, he struggled desperately, sometimes he wanted to accept his fate, and just like that, he didn't want to struggle anymore.

Chen Qiao didn't come to open the door, so he called him and asked him where he was.

Chen Qiao lowered his voice.

"Dude, what's the matter? ”

When Chen Qiao first came here, he had a lot of things to take care of. He wanted to ask him if Chen Mofei was with him, but hung up the phone.

He listened to the blind tone on the phone, went downstairs alone, and walked out of the community alone. Looking up, it is rare to see the night sky of "Geng Geng Milky Way Dawning" in the city now, but looking up at the past, the winding and chaotic city is also brightly lit.

He drove around, and received a call from Kang Ruoran, asking him if he had arrived home, and he told her that he had arrived home and asked her to rest early.

However, he did not have a good rest. These days he has been dreaming, always dreaming of the past, and he used to ask him from time to time like a creditor. He was exhausted by those dreams.

He dreamed that he was in elementary school, junior high school, and high school, and that he dreamed of Chen Mofei, and that he was playing basketball on the playground, surrounded by many girls, who screamed when he threw a long-range three-point shot.

The young Liunian is naturally very useful, but he always can't see her in the crowd. He always looks, always looks into the crowd, always looks, and he even took the initiative to invite her: Let's play, you go and see!

She replied, "Okay."

He thought she would come, but she didn't show up. The last free throw turned out to be a three-point shot.

The whole field boils, like boiling water. He gasped, sweat dripping down his hair, and he turned his head to look at the audience----- there was no Chen Mofei.

There is no Chen Mofei.

It's heartbreaking.

The racket was on the floor, making a thumping sound. Each blow was like a knock on his heart, and he got up, then he took aim, and he shot.

But, this time, he let everyone down.

A teammate came over and put his arm around his shoulder, and as the game continued, he was in a trance and was hit by the opponent's dribble and broke his ankle.

At that time, he hated Chen Mofei so much.

Love and hate are direct and intense when you are young.

However, when Chen Mofei chatted with a large number of classmates and appeared in his hospital room with a smile, he felt that the whole world was clear.

They bought fruit and flowers. Because she was the class leader, she handed it to him, and when he took those things, he pretended to touch her hand inadvertently.

At that moment, he felt that it was worth it to let him die now.

smiled and smiled, how pure it was back then, how stupid it was back then.

He extinguished the fire and stopped the induction, and he remembered what Kang Ruoran said to him: Nothing belongs, no place is a destination, just such a vain existence.

He thought that Chen Mofei sat down in the restaurant with a big grin, and then didn't look at him and said, "If you have something to say, if you have a fart to talk quickly, the old lady is busy." ”