"Forget it, just talk nonsense like I took medicine. How could I, like you?"

Chu Hemeng's knees were weak, her body staggered, and she suddenly remembered Xing Haodong's words.

It turns out that it wasn't a confession just now, it's just a means to use!

It turned out that he was not qualified to keep pace with Anya at all.

It turns out that it has always been self-inflicted!

Chu Hemeng roared angrily in her heart, looking at Xing Haodong and Anya who were kissing affectionately in front of her, her tears were like a flood that burst the embankment. She finally couldn't stand it anymore, she finally couldn't bear it anymore, she grabbed the door frame with sawdust in her fingernails, she turned around angrily and ran away, her heart was like a thousand cuts in pain, but she couldn't find where the wound was. can only let it drip blood like this, dripping blood, isn't it, she will sleep forever in the vicious curse of love?

"Chu Hemeng ......"

Heka called in a low voice, ignored Xing Haodong and Anya, and ran out after Chu Hemeng.

Xing Haodong opened his eyes slightly, looking at Anya who was kissing deeply in front of him, but Chu Hemeng's innocent and carefree smiling face appeared in his mind for no reason. Outside the ward, the sky was overcast and it was about to rain.

Chu Hemeng ran wildly in a hospital gown, and several doctors and nurses wanted to stop her, but they raised their eyes to look at a crane behind her who shook his head vigorously, and they finally let her out. Originally, she only had a minor injury on the skin, but after resting for so long, she was already much better, and there was no need to be hospitalized at all. So the first thought that sprouted in her heart turned out to be "running away".

She doesn't know how to face Xing Haodong anymore, she can't go back to the past, since she can't go back, she can't face it, she can only slip away. But the world is big, where can she, Chu Hemeng, go? Where is the place where Xing Haodong can't find herself? Where is the place where she can come back to life?

Oh, my God!

"Chu Hemeng, you are the stupidest and stupidest big stupid hat in the world!"

Chu Hemeng ran to the main road of the hospital, stood in the endless sea of cars, and roared with all his might. The wind blew her long hair with teeth and claws, and she looked like a madman who had escaped from a mental hospital in a hospital gown. The cars avoided her, but she looked indifferent, tears had long blurred her vision, and in her eyes, the world was a hazy fog.

"Dididi!

A large truck frequently honked its horn at Chu Hemeng, and the piercing sound of sudden braking seemed to foreshadow a bloody end.

Heka, who had just found Chu Hemeng's figure, was so frightened that the three souls disappeared, and suddenly, like an arrow from the string, jumped forward and fell to the green belt in the middle of the road with Chu Hemeng in his arms, which was not dangerous.

"Chu Hemeng, are you crazy? Don't be at the gate of the hospital if you want to kill yourself! Who is watching?"

Chu Hemeng barely stood up on his own, and his chaotic consciousness gradually became clear. She staggered as she looked at the big truck that had stopped with emergency brakes, and the traffic that had become a dead end because of her, her heart suddenly panicked, and her nervous back was in a cold sweat.

"Follow me!"

Heka gritted his teeth, grabbed Chu Hemeng's wrist, and forcibly took her away from the scene.

Chu Hemeng followed behind him in a daze, and suddenly caught a glimpse of his elbow bleeding, and immediately gasped and shouted, "Heka, you are injured!"

Heka frowned, and at this moment he felt a faint pain in the wound.

But he frowned and forced himself over, and did not take Chu Hemeng back to the hospital, but went around to the park not far away. It wasn't until he found a remote and quiet corner of the park that he let go of Chu Hemeng, turned around and glared at her rather disappointedly, and roared, "Do you want to kill yourself?"

Chu Hemeng was stunned, don't look around, and replied categorically: "No!"

Heka didn't ask, but suddenly asked, "Do you like Xing Haodong?"

If it was before today, Chu Hemeng might have answered him "I don't know" or "How can I like him?", but at this moment, in the face of Heka's question, Chu Hemeng actually replied frankly: "Yes, I like him." I don't know when it started, I don't know how much I like him, and I don't know how long I will like him, but in short, I really like him now. ”

Tsuruka grinned, but there was not the slightest hint of a smile in his eyes.

He turned around, sat down on the bench next to him, and said lightly, "It seems that we are all in love with someone we shouldn't love." ”

Chu Hemeng looked at him puzzled, sat down next to him, and said, "The person you love is ......"

"I, Xing Haodong and Anya were once very good friends. It can even be said that it was the arrangement of fate that brought the three of us together. As if talking to himself, Tsukaka told his secret story, "Anya and I met in Sri Lanka, and we are both tourists there. Sri Lanka is a niche tourist and I didn't expect to meet her there. Even what the sun was that day, and what the fragrance was in the garden, I still remember it clearly. ”

Chu Hemeng drooped her eyelids, the smell of tobacco on Xing Haodong's hands, the smell of cologne on her clothes, and even the scent of toothpaste and mouthwash between conversations always lingered in her heart. It turns out that remembering all the details related to that person, or what happened, is the beginning of a crush. She smiled lightly, finally understood.

"After returning home, we still kept in touch. Because I almost fell in love with her at first sight, which is ridiculous, right? I never believed in love at first sight. But I now believe, even believe in the existence of fate. Because one day when I went to look for Haodong, I found out that she was Haodong's new girlfriend for a month. That is, they were together after Anya returned from Sri Lanka. You say, if I confessed to her in Sri Lanka, wouldn't all the storylines be different? Is it fate, or is it irony?"

He Ka sneered at himself, and a drop of rain on the tip of the leaf fell on his face with a "snap", and in a trance, it slid down his face like tears. Chu Hemeng looked at him with flickering eyes and muttered, "Why are you telling me this?"

"Because I want to tell you that I know your pain very well. ”

Heka turned his head to look at Chu Hemeng, this was the first time he had stared at her eyes so seriously and so attentively.

"So how did you get out of this pain?"

"I never came out, I just learned how to be in control. ”

Chu Hemeng blinked his eyes and asked puzzledly, "Control?"

He nodded, took a deep breath, and replied, "I don't like to drink sour things, but I force myself to eat a lemon or drink a glass of vinegar every day. While enduring physical and psychological resistance, I silently said to myself, "It's not sour, it's not sour at all!" At first, my sour tears flowed, but I kept repeating it, and until now, sour or not, I don't feel it at all. ”

"Sour, can be said to be not sour. It's obviously love, but it can also be said that you don't love?" Chu Hemeng asked in disbelief.

"Yes, whether it's evasion, paralysis, cowardice, or incompetence, that's how I've come over the years. It's obvious that it's missing, but it doesn't matter, it's obviously what you want to get, but it's dispensable, and it's obviously that it's love, but you have to say that I'm not interested in her. I talk too much every day, and what is false has become true, and what is true has become false. ”

Chu Hemeng frowned slightly, covered his heart and said, "Can it really be like this?

Tsuruka shrugged his shoulders and said, "At least, it works for me." ”

"But you still love Miss Anya, don't you?"

Chu Hemeng's words once again stabbed Heka's injury.

His eyes sank slightly, and he looked at Chu Hemeng and smiled bitterly: "This is the disadvantage of this method." The more you talk like this every day, the more you try to become insensitive, the more you emphasize how important this person is in your heart. It can't negate what has happened, it can only allow you to find a haven of your own for the time being, and lick your wounds alone. ”

Chu Hemeng didn't speak, just stared blankly at the splashing droplets in the puddle in front of him, not knowing when it would rain.

"If you still want to stay and have to face Haodong, you can try this method. At least, it will make you less sad. Heka patted Chu Hemeng's shoulder, with his brother's doting and care for his sister.

When Heka got up and was about to go back to the hospital, Chu Hemeng suddenly said: "I don't think that the person we fell in love with is not worthy of our love." ”

Heka shuddered and looked back at Chu Hemeng. She still looked at the puddle intently, and said slowly: "The reason why we fall in love with someone is naturally because of their goodness. If they have such a shining point, why is it not worthy of our love? Whether it is worth it or not depends on whether we have it in the end, right?"

Chu Hemeng retracted his gaze, also stood up, pointed to the abrasion on Heka's elbow, and said with a reluctant smile: "As a thank you, I'll send you back to the hospital! Let you all be injured for me, I really, very sorry." ”

"So, you don't hate Haodong's use of you?"

Chu Hemeng's heart twitched, but he tried his best to hide it on his face: "The shopping mall is like a battlefield, and the soldiers are not tired of cheating, I understand." ”

"So soon, you started using the method I taught you?" Crane Ka smiled lightly, "Sure enough, it's a famous teacher and a high apprentice!"

"Less!" Chu Hemeng choked back tears, tried his best to return to his old tone, and said, "This is the master who led the door into the cultivation of individuals! However, our method of self-paralysis should always have a name!"

Heka smiled helplessly: "I call it Ah Q Psychotherapy." I've never told anyone about it! Sometimes when I'm practicing, I secretly use Ah Q's spiritual therapy!"