Chu Hemeng looked at him, Lin Sen always stood in the shadows with his head down, half smiling wryly and half choking up: "Because I don't have confidence in myself! I don't trust you, it's not you, it's me! Because I know that I have been your substitute for forgetting Xing Haodong from the beginning, because I know that you work very hard to love me, but the harder you work, the more I can feel that you have never had me in your heart......"

Chu Hemeng's eyes flashed, she never knew it would be like this.

"So...... So I easily believed the picture. Lin Sen slowly raised his eyes and said helplessly and painfully, "For the first time, I felt inferior and helpless. Angry, it's just because I'm angry with myself! For more than a week, I calmed down and thought about it for a long time, I didn't want to break up with you, I just ...... I'm just too scared to lose you!"

Chu Hemeng looked at him in a daze, and he didn't know what to say.

Lin Sen stepped forward and said expectantly: "Let's reconcile as before, don't break up, okay?"

The breeze ruffled her long hair, and Chu Hemeng paused for a moment, but it seemed to have been half a century long, in fact, it was only a short ten seconds. She knew that Lin Sen was waiting, she knew that she had to give him an answer today, and she knew that she had already thought of the answer.

"I'm sorry......" Chu Hemeng turned around, "I'm sorry, please forgive me for being selfish." ”

Lin Sen stumbled under his feet and took several steps back, as if he had been struck by lightning, and his world completely collapsed.

"Actually, in the first place, I shouldn't have promised you that I gave you hope, and now, I have to destroy this beautiful hope with my own hands. Really, I'm sorry...... I don't know what else I can say, but, Lin Sen, please believe me, this is the best ending for you and me!"

Chu Hemeng turned around nervously, but Lin Sen was already leaning on the lamppost softly.

She frowned, raised her steps and wanted to step forward, but the step she had just taken, she immediately retracted it, held back the tears she wanted to shed because of the guilt in her heart, and said, "I'm really sorry!" and turned around and ran out of Lin Sen's sight.

She knew that Lin Sen would hate her, and she knew that she had lost him forever.

Love...... Oh my God, are you a good medicine or a poison?

"Headless and brainless, where do you want to run?"

Chu Hemeng suddenly bumped into a person's arms, and his arms were tightly grasped by him so that he did not fall.

She raised her head suddenly, looked at Xing Haodong with teary eyes, took two steps back in surprise, and wondered, "Why are you here?"

"It's too stuffy in the office, I'll take a walk in the garden, can't I?" Xing Haodong looked at her, his eyes were complex and deep.

Chu Hemeng immediately wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand, and said recklessly: "I won't hinder you, I'm going back to the room." ”

"Is this the way back to the house?"

Xing Haodong turned to look at Chu Hemeng, she was stunned, and looked over quietly, there was an artificial river in front of her! If, if Xing Haodong hadn't stopped her just now, she would definitely have fallen into the river without a head. Oh my God! Chu Hemeng subconsciously retreated, she couldn't swim, and even had a sense of fear of water, now just thinking about it made her feel afraid, she suddenly weakened her legs, and suddenly slumped on the ground.

Xing Haodong was surprised to help her, only to realize that her forehead was covered with crystal cold sweat.

"What's wrong?" he hugged Chu Hemeng's shoulders in a panic.

She looked at the long river sleeping in the dark night in front of her in confusion, raised her hand tremblingly, and reluctantly said, "River...... Water ......"

Xing Haodong looked over puzzled and said, "Is there anything wrong with the river?"

"People drowned in the river...... Drowned! Come on, everyone!"

A chaotic noise suddenly rushed into Chu Hemeng's memories, she was only seven years old at that time, but she was full of deep impressions of the person who committed suicide by jumping into the river. Because that person is none other than her grandfather, who has been living with her day and night. She remembered that her grandfather's body had been soaked in the river for three days and had rotted and stinky, and that when her grandfather's body was carried in front of her, his stiff arm suddenly hung down from the shroud and hung down in front of her eyes......!

"Don't ...... Don't ...... the river."

Chu Hemeng couldn't stop trembling, and the documents in his arms were scattered messily on the ground.

Xing Haodong immediately took off his coat and draped it on her body, then hugged her violently, and walked towards the hotel quickly with a frown. Chu Hemeng's consciousness was already in a semi-comatose state, but she still hugged Xing Haodong's neck tightly, the familiar smell on his body reassured her, and his broad chest made her feel safe. It's her safe haven, and she doesn't want to leave.

Xing Haodong carried her back to his presidential suite and wanted her to sleep in bed, but she still refused to let go.

"It's safe here, I'm going to pour you a glass of water. Xing Haodong comforted her.

But Chu Hemeng sat up suddenly, hugged Xing Haodong from behind, and sobbed, "Don't! don't leave me...... Why did you all leave me? Grandpa...... Dad, Mom, and Brother, why don't you want me ......?"

Xing Haodong's body was stunned, and he kept standing like this, letting her hold him like this, until she had to let go of him because of exhaustion, but she was still persistent, holding his hand and refusing to let go.

Xing Haodong covered the quilt for her with his other hand, and sat on the edge of the bed next to her, the soft bedside lamp shone on his affectionate side face, and the love in his eyes continued to be revealed. Now he can no longer say to himself that it is impossible to like Chu Hemeng, he loves her so obviously, but he has to lie to himself again and again!

You big idiot!

You desperately try to save her from the fire, but you want to lie to her that you are only using her. Where can you think so much in such a tense situation? You idiot...... Xing Haodong gritted his teeth and kept scolding himself in his heart, the more he scolded, the more sober he became, and the more he felt the crazy love for her in his heart.

But this kind of love is only because he doesn't want to lose to his father, and he doesn't want to admit to his father that he is in love with Chu Hemeng, who he forced on him, and he has been denied again and again. So far, can he still get her heart?

"Because I know that I have been your substitute for forgetting Xing Haodong from the beginning, because I know that you work hard and hard to love me, but the harder you try, the more I can feel that you have never had me in your heart......"

Lin Sen's words resurfaced in Xing Haodong's mind, if she tried hard to love because she didn't love at all, then, she tried so hard to be so cold to herself, could it be because she had always loved him in her heart? Xing Haodong guessed wildly, a heart, never so flustered as now.

He raised his hand and stroked the broken hair in front of Chu Hemeng's forehead, since he met her, he didn't know how many unbelievable things he had done.

But only now did he dare to confess to himself. It's just, is it still too late?

Xing Haodong was secretly sad, and his mobile phone on the side suddenly buzzed, and the caller was Anya.

He sneered at himself, "It's already too late. ”

He withdrew his hand, got up, and stood on the balcony to answer Anya's phone.

From beginning to end, he was the one who pushed Chu Hemeng far away, and now he still wants her back?

The night breeze whispered the soreness of the breakup lovers, but the fragrance of roses echoed in front of Chu Hemeng's nose for a long time.

She frowned, slowly opened her eyes, and found that there was only an orange floor lamp in the room, but she didn't remember that there was such a lamp in her room? Chu Hemeng was startled at first, but when he looked at it, he saw that it was Xing Haodong's head lying there.

How could he be in my room?

Chu Hemeng turned over and wanted to get out of bed, but woke up Xing Haodong who was sleeping lightly.

"Are you awake? What do you want to eat? I bought a lot of snacks and came back. Xing Haodong rubbed his sleepy eyes, lifted three or four plastic bags from his feet, and said with a smile, "I'm afraid that you will wake up hungry in the middle of the night, and there is no one in the kitchen, so I prepared it in advance." ”

Chu Hemeng was puzzled: "Why am I here?"

"You almost fell into the river and then passed out. ”

"River ......"

Xing Haodong leaned over and asked in a low voice, "Are you afraid of water?"

"Do you want to use my weakness against me?" Chu Hemeng raised his eyebrows vigilantly.

Xing Haodong snickered: "Why should I deal with you?"

"I don't know! Maybe in your eyes, I'm a tool that can be discarded when you're done with it!"

Chu Hemeng suddenly pushed his hand to open him, and when she got out of bed, she realized that this was not her room, so she ran away without looking back. Xing Haodong looked at the petite canvas shoes beside the bed in a daze, and reluctantly and affectionately called her name.

When it was dawn the next day, Chu Hemeng was already standing at the door of the Holiday Inn, and it was Xing Haodong's Land Rover and driver who came to greet her. She sighed lightly, remembering the incident of last night, Lin Sen was afraid that she would never appear in front of her again. Chu Hemeng looked back slightly, lowered his eyelids, and sat in the back row of the Land Rover with a solemn heart.

The dust raised in the wind slowly landed after the Land Rover drove away, and Lin Sen walked out from behind the big pillar on the side, his face haggard, but he looked at the Land Rover that gradually disappeared in front of him affectionately, and the whole person's heart seemed to have been hollowed out.

"If you can't control your feelings, you won't be able to do anything else. ”

Lin Sen's eyes trembled, and when he turned around, he saw Xing Hao standing straight behind him.

Lin Sen frowned, and whispered fiercely: "You don't even understand feelings, do you dare to tell me to control feelings?"