The moment my body fell sharply, the corners of my mouth hooked up a smile of relief, and with this smile, I fell into complete unconsciousness.

When I woke up, my consciousness was still vague, what caught my eyes was Uncle Lin's anxious and haggard face, he saw that I was awake, and immediately showed a relieved smile, tears of excitement appeared in his eyes, he sighed excitedly: "You finally woke up!" and then quickly called the doctor, and soon a group of white coats walked into the door, they first examined my whole body, and then asked me questions.

I am still in an ethereal consciousness, for the doctor's questioning, I either ignore it, or irritably, in my consciousness, everything in front of me is illusory, I don't want to face this illusory world, I am only immersed in my own world, the world that can do as I want, the world where I can walk with a straight waist.

In my world, there is no discrimination, no injustice, I live a very happy life, special happiness, so, my face, always unconsciously appear happy smile, sometimes stupid laughter, now I, has forgotten whether I am alive or dead, I seem to be cut off from the world in front of me, my heart, in this world without waves, only in my own world, will always be excited.

The doctors were helpless against me, saying that I had a serious mental disorder, and I could understand what they were saying, but I didn't care, and even I thought that these people who said I was sick were really sick.

I don't know how long later, two more policemen came to the ward, they asked me something about Wang Yadong, originally I was still immersed in my own happy world, but as soon as I touched this matter, I suddenly became furious, very excited, shouting: "He should die, damn, everyone should die!"

My emotions became more and more excited, and the police were helpless.

Later, a female doctor came to talk to me a lot, she is a psychiatrist, she enlightened me for a long time, and I was a little more stable, but when it came to some sensitive topics, I would still become manic, I couldn't listen to anything, I just wanted to vent.

Eventually, the psychiatrist came to the conclusion that I, suffering from schizophrenia!

Two days later, Uncle Lin took me back to my hometown, at this time, Uncle Lin, compared to the time when Duoduo ran away from home, was much more depressed, his face was sad, full of guilt, he kept apologizing to me, saying that he didn't take care of me or something, but I didn't have any feelings at all, just occasionally smiled stupidly. When Uncle Lin saw me like this, he couldn't help but burst into tears.

On the advice of the doctor, Uncle Lin sent me to a psychiatric hospital for rehabilitation. The days in the psychiatric hospital are the happiest days of my life, here, there are no worries, no sorrows, no intrigue, no deceit, cry when you want to cry, laugh when you want to laugh, call when you want to scream, make trouble when you want to make trouble, here, really happy, as long as you eat on time and take medicine on time every day, everything will be fine.

The friends in this hospital are also very simple, they don't deliberately bully me, and they always smile at me, I get along with them quite well, but my own brain will always be cranky, always immersed in their own world, entertaining themselves, unable to extricate themselves.

Every night, I have all kinds of dreams, sometimes I will break out in a cold sweat, sometimes I will tremble with fear, sometimes I will suddenly laugh, sometimes I will cry, and I will be moody.

In this way, day after day, unconsciously, I spent two months in a psychiatric hospital, after drug treatment, my impermanent emotions gradually stabilized, my thoughts, will not be so extreme, I finally began to understand, that desperate jump, I did not die, but mental problems.

However, I have fallen in love with the so-called abnormal state before, but now that my mind is clear, my mood is melancholy, and I no longer have a carefree sense of happiness, every day, I have to think about such and such things, every day I am a person in a quiet daze, and I don't speak, I am almost dumb, even Uncle Lin came to see me, I didn't care.

I am sober, I am very distressed, I have not been able to get out of the original shadow, I don't like that complicated world, I just want to be a quiet and lonely person, even if I stay in this psychiatric hospital, it is better than the terrible world outside, I have an extreme fear of the outside world, it is too terrible, I dare not go out to face it.

So, even though I was almost back to normal, I still chose to stay in a psychiatric hospital, still thinking about all kinds of things, still dreaming about all kinds of things.

This lucid but troubled day lasted for a month, that is, one night after I had been in the psychiatric hospital for three months, I had a dream again, in which I saw Duoduo, and as soon as she came to me, she didn't say anything, she gave me a loud slap, and after hitting me, she said sharply: "Waste!"

Me: "I'm not!"

Duoduo: "If it's not waste, don't hide in mental illness, go outside!"

Me: "I've stabbed someone, I'm afraid!"

Duoduo: "Afraid? You dare to commit suicide, you are not even afraid of death, what else can you be afraid of? In the end, you are still a waste, hopeless!"

The dream is very short, but it is so profound, seeing Duoduo gone, I struggled and yelled, trying to keep her, but I couldn't make a sound, and when I finally shouted out, I woke up, only to find that it was just a dream, but why, it was so real? Even my eyes were still hanging with residual tears, and my face also had the spicy pain of being fanned.

This dream is so real, so real that I clearly remember what Duo Duo said, what she said is, what am I afraid of? Why don't I dare to face the reality? I am not even afraid of death, what else can I be afraid of?

Is it really necessary for me to stay in a psychiatric hospital and die alone? This not only wasted my life, but also burdened Uncle Lin, to raise me such a waste, the most important thing, I really don't want Duoduo to look down on, Duoduo is a strong and independent girl, she used to hate my ugliness is just the surface, perhaps, she hates my cowardice and incompetence even more, if she comes back, she sees me in the psychiatric hospital, she will definitely look down on me even more, and will blame me for dragging Uncle Lin down.

Thinking about it, the idea in my heart slowly firmed up, I unconsciously walked out of bed, came to the mirror, looking at myself in the mirror, my heart couldn't help but burst, at this time, I found that my hair was half white, and my beard was old, I was less than twenty years old, but I looked like I was forty, I couldn't help but show a self-deprecating smile, this wonderful face, I really couldn't look at it anymore, and quickly left the mirror, took out his mobile phone, and dialed Uncle Lin.

On the phone, I said, "Uncle, I want to go home, come and pick me up!"

I was stunned by Uncle Lin's speed, and in less than half an hour, he arrived at the hospital.

As soon as he saw me, he was so excited that his voice trembled: "Laizi, how are you?"

I nodded indifferently and said, "Well, I want to be discharged!"

Uncle Lin's old tears rose again, he hugged me excitedly, and kept saying, "Good, good, good!"

It took a long time for him to let go of me and yell, "Doctor, doctor!"

The doctor came, and Uncle Lin told them about my condition.

The doctor gave me another comprehensive physical examination and asked me a lot of professional questions, and only after everything was passed did he give me a certificate and allowed me to be discharged from the hospital.

As soon as the discharge procedures were completed, Uncle Lin led me home, and along the way, Uncle Lin kept talking, saying that he had been sad these days, and he didn't have the face to see my father, and he kept it a secret, and he didn't tell my father in prison, and he was embarrassed to say it.

Uncle Lin, who usually doesn't talk much, this time, he said a lot in one breath, and his excitement was beyond words.

But I didn't talk much, just smiled and responded to everything.

When I got home, Uncle Lin bought a big firecracker, washed the dust for me, and cooked for me.

And I went straight to the bathroom, took a hot shower, and only came out an hour later, feeling relaxed all over, and there was a refreshing feeling of rebirth. After that, I had lunch with Uncle Lin, and the normal life of a normal person is another taste of happiness.

In the next two days, I lived a normal and warm life with Uncle Lin, Uncle Lin was not very worried about me, he didn't go to work for the past two days, and he stayed with me and was inseparable.

On the third day, I adapted to the life of a normal person and began to face the reality with a calm heart, so after dinner, I asked Uncle Lin directly: "Uncle, how is Wang Yadong in my class?"

Uncle Lin couldn't help but be surprised when he saw me suddenly ask this question, but soon, he regained his composure, and then slowly told me about the school.

It turned out that I happened to fall on the fire air cushion laid by the fire brigade that day, and I picked up this life, and Wang Yadong did not die, but he was not lightly injured and had been lying in the hospital, as for whether he came out now, Uncle Lin didn't know.

Originally, this matter could not be easily passed, but on the one hand, the school did not dare to make a big fuss and kept pressing, on the other hand, I was indeed diagnosed as a mentally ill person, and Wang Yadong was the first to bully, so I don't need to take any responsibility. As for me, the school did not deal with me seriously, and still retained my student status, only suspended from school.

Uncle Lin was quite satisfied with this result, but as soon as Wang Yadong was mentioned, Uncle Lin became angry and said that if that guy hadn't been taught a lesson, he would definitely help me get justice.

I just smiled slightly, and when Uncle Lin finished speaking, I solemnly said to Uncle Lin, "I want to go to school!"

Hearing this, Uncle Lin was stunned again, and he immediately said seriously: "No, you can't go, your illness is just right, it's not stable, you can't go to school anymore to be bullied, besides, the kid surnamed Wang, you must know that you go to school, I will definitely not let you go, you must not go." Laizi, don't worry, you just need to stay at home, don't do anything, your uncle will raise you!"

I pursed my mouth and replied seriously: "Uncle, I thought about this for a long time before I told you, I can't escape anymore, I have to face the reality, if I sit at home and wait for death, then I might as well stay in the hospital and not come out, I don't want to live like this, it's too unlike a man." As for the school, uncle, don't worry, they are all bullying the weak and afraid of the hard, who dares to bully a madman who doesn't want to die?"

My words are the first to say, but Uncle Lin is still not at ease, afraid that I will be retaliated against and bullied, and afraid that I will accidentally have a big problem, so he kept persuading me not to go.

I couldn't resist him at all, and in the end, I simply stood up and said in a tough tone: "I must insist on finishing three years of college and getting my graduation certificate, for my father, for you, and for Duoduo!"

At this moment, my eyes were unusually determined, and there was a strong light in my eyes.

Uncle Lin stared at me for a long time, and finally, he agreed to me, and then, he helped me contact the school leaders and told me about my situation, the school did not embarrass me, and allowed me to continue to go to school, as long as I made up for the credits I fell in the last semester, there would be no big problem.

After saying hello to the school, I was off for a moment.

Before leaving, Uncle Lin took me to buy a few sets of new clothes, and also accompanied me to cut my hair, because my hair was messy and mixed with countless gray hairs, so I directly asked the barber to shave my head.

Although the bald head is conspicuous, with the cap and sportswear I just bought, I can always see the past, although the scar on the face is still there, but at first glance, it is also quite sunny, a bit of a young boy's taste.

Everything was ready, I put on my backpack and set off for school, Uncle Lin had to send me, I refused him, and said meaningfully: "I've grown up!"

Uncle Lin had no choice but to compromise!

The next day, at noon, I arrived at the main entrance of the school.

Standing in this familiar and unfamiliar place, looking at the campus inside the gate, my heart was flooded with a thousand emotions, and the scenes that had happened flashed in front of my eyes one by one, things are still those things, people are still those people, the school is still that school, but the difference is that my state of mind at this time is surprisingly indifferent.

I no longer feel afraid of this school that used to be like hell, I am no longer afraid of the people I am about to face, and I am no longer worried about my future life here, but I am looking forward to it.

It took me a long time before I bent down, fastened my shoelaces, got up, lowered my cap, lifted my foot, and stepped into the campus world inside the gate.

The world on campus is still the same, the people on campus are also living a normal life according to their original trajectory, the waves caused by my jumping off the building, seem to have been forgotten, and now they are still playing, making trouble, coquettish, showing off, for a passer-by like me, all are indifferent.

In this way, under the ignorance of others, I came to the door of my bedroom in a low-key manner.

Standing outside the door, I could clearly hear the voice of my roommate inside, and the first thing I heard was the voice of the four-eyed boy: "Chen Tao, you piled all your luggage on Wu Lai's bed, what should he do if he wants to come back!"

Immediately, it was Chen Tao's disdainful voice: "Come back to Mao, are you stupid, do you say that neuropathy can be cured if it is cured? Even if it is cured, do you think he still dares to come to school? Brother Dong must not skin him alive!"

As soon as his words fell, there was a burst of laughter in the dormitory, and with this laughter, I gently pushed the door open and walked in.

As soon as I entered, the laughter inside stopped abruptly, and several of my roommates looked at me in unison.

Under their inexplicable gaze, I took off my cap, revealing my shiny bald head, and then, I raised my head, stared at Chen Tao expressionlessly, pointed to my bed, and said word by word: "Take it all!"