Chapter 193: Shameless
Liu Nian noticed his wife's move, and looked at his wife along her arm. That subconscious movement should say something, at least, she wasn't happy.
However, he didn't know how to make her happy, and he gave her marriage, but it seemed that he had nothing else to do. Yes, it's not that he doesn't want to give, it's that he's himself a bottomless black hole, and so far, he hasn't found anything to fill him up with disappearing.
There are many helplessness in life, and you need to face it alone. In the past, he thought that after he was with Chen Mofei, he would bring her happiness, and he would bring her happiness, and he would heal the injuries she had suffered in the past, and he thought that Chen Mofei would be happy as long as he was with him. Later he sadly discovered that it was not.
He really wanted to take her into his arms, but he was very clear that his arms were really unreliable, and he was going to leave again in a few days, and he didn't know how to talk to her or what to say. said that she should take care of the child and go back to help him take care of his mother, he couldn't say it, but he had no one to count on or entrust, and the most important thing was that no one could really reassure him.
How did life come to this day?
He couldn't understand it.
However, there is nowhere to complain.
Complaining about life?
Joke!
He knows.
The confinement lady came out of the other room, holding a diaper that the child had just changed.
"Slept?" asked Chen Mofei with his eyes, they had formed a unique way of communicating over the past few days. Chen Mofei sometimes thinks that now her communication with her confinement lady is even smoother than the communication with Liu Nian. It's ironic, she once thought that there was no one in the world who could replace the passing years.
Feelings are a complex and confusing proposition.
The most important thing is that she has little interest in studying this proposition in depth now, and she is not interested. She was very strange that she had been so attached to her feelings, and it seemed like something that had happened in her previous life.
The confinement lady nodded at Chen Mofei, then walked into the bathroom, put the diaper in the trash can in the bathroom, and when she came out of the bathroom, she saw that the young couple was still silent in the same posture. She is a person who has come over, and she knows that now is the high-risk period for the relationship problems between the two people, she hesitated whether to go over and give advice, but her feet have already walked to the door of another room again.
There is no way to persuade this kind of thing. She said to herself, pulling the doorknob open and entering the room.
The child slept soundly, sleeping soundly, unaware that the relationship between his parents was being tested. She reached out to help the child tuck the quilt corner, the child does not make trouble at night, she has also brought a lot of such a big child, this child is worry-free, sleep at night, and drink milk, she is not so tired, and she does not need to stay up late, so she is not sleepy, the living room is quiet, the living room is not close to this room, but she does not dare to breathe, as if she can hear how she breathes in the house. The confinement lady thought that they would not come to the step of divorce.
Thinking like this, her eyes were once again fixed on the baby's pink little face, and the confinement lady couldn't help sighing, thinking that it was really a sin. However, this is fate, she is the age of this year, and she has already tasted the fate of the incomprehensible saying, life is suffering, without exception, suffering, even if your parents do not divorce, you should suffer the same sin.
The confinement lady put her hand into the child's small quilt and gently held the child's little hand, the little fingers that had just been born were one by one, thin and long, and now he was fat. Yuesao was glad that he didn't know what was going on outside and what it meant. It is good to be ignorant and ignorant, and life is troubled and literate.
When people are sensible, there is no longer anything satisfactory.
She couldn't help but sigh, the child squirmed uneasily twice in her sigh, and the sister-in-law gently hummed two unnamed tunes in her mouth, and gently patted the child twice, and then he quieted down.
"Have you decided to leave when you want?" asked Chen Mofei.
Liu Nian shook his head and answered the question. "If you don't let me go. ”
She smiled, if it weren't for her, he and Kang Ruoran would have been engaged. This is her, oh no, it's the passing years and what she owes Kang Ruoran, and she has to pay it back. It's early and early.
"Go ahead. Chen Mofei said softly, "She's fine, and we can rest assured." ”
Chen Mofei thought that Kang Ruoran would recover physically, and then take Old Man Kang over, maybe what would happen to their lives. Fate is a matter of which can be said for sure.
The phone vibrated on the coffee table a few times, and Chen Mofei caught a glimpse of the incoming call on the screen, it was her mother. She didn't want to answer, once she answered a call from her mother, and the day after she was discharged from the hospital, her mother called and asked her if she was okay.
"What could it be? Why are you asking this all of a sudden?"
Chen Mofei's mother was silent on the other end of the phone line, and after a while, she said, "I dreamed of you a few days ago, I dreamed that you had an accident, and you were covered in blood, I woke up in fright, and shouted out, and woke up your father." Your dad has been babbling a lot lately, saying that girls are outgoing. ”
Chen Mofei knew what her mother wanted to express, and she wanted to prevaricate like before, but she didn't want to brush her tears and come down, the old lady was very sensitive, "Xiaofei, I think something is wrong with you lately." Did something really happen? That dream came true. ”
She glanced back at her son on the cot, he slept peacefully, she understood her mother almost at that moment, and she had completed the reconciliation with her parents for so many years.
She remembered that she fainted outside the examination room, and then that incident caused a storm in the city, her parents knew that she was with Liunian, she was lying on the bed, her body was very weak, the wind in July was so hot, but she often felt cold, she felt that the whole world was cold, she was like losing her soul after the exam, Chen Mofei only had a body left, there was no soul wrapped in it, the soul is the most luxurious thing in the world, she Chen Mofei once had a soul, but with a man gone, the man took away her soul.
Young Chen Mofei has a separate bedroom with pale blue curtains, the windows are bound to be opened in the summer, the wind stirs the curtains, and sometimes she can look out to see the passing years.
She didn't know how long she had been waiting for her, maybe he had just arrived, or maybe she had been waiting, she wanted to put down the pen, open the door, run out, don't change shoes, and then open the door, the corridor was so dark, she could only hear her own breathing, her breathing was like the wind, like the wind back and forth in her body, she felt that she was full, and felt that she was empty, only one person could fill her. Without him, her life would not be complete.
She imagined two people meeting in a dark stairwell...... How could she forget? She didn't dare to forget, forgetting was betrayal. She couldn't betray him, she couldn't betray their feelings, and most importantly, she couldn't betray herself.
She grabbed the corner of the quilt and cried.
Her parents didn't know it at first, and when she didn't know it, her life was not so difficult. Later they heard more details.
Chen Mofei remembers that her mother's face sank into her room one day, silently and silently, she adjusted the position of the chair, sat on the chair that her daughter had always sat on, facing her daughter's bed, and she turned her head.
It all went on in one go and quietly. When Chen Mofei reacted, she didn't know how long her mother had been there.
"People say you're pregnant. You are in confinement. Mother said that the sound was so fluctuating that she probably couldn't even imagine it, and maybe she didn't know how it vibrated the vocal cords. She looked at her daughter with a strange, unbelievable, incomprehensible, inexplicable, and finally painful look. No, no, no, it's not looking, it's observing, studying, like looking at a monster, and that look makes her unbearable.
Chen Mofei realized that something must have happened, she wanted to sit up, but found that she had lost her strength all over her body, just like the disappearance of the passing years, her strength seemed to have disappeared suddenly, like ice melting into water.
She struggled, trying to make her eyes look firm and honest, and soon, Chen Mofei realized that she couldn't do it. She couldn't do it, no matter how hard she tried. Life is like a play, it all depends on her acting skills, but she never thought that she was going to be the protagonist, not to mention that she was still young, and life had not had time to temper her into a woman full of dramas.
She couldn't.
Chen Mofei's desperate discovery. She didn't know how to deal with her, she didn't know how to deal with her falcon-like eyes, she had to deal with her cold and serious look, she was full of suspicion and suspicion about her. Stranger? No, no, no, enemy. She felt more like her enemy. Chen Mofei was surprised at how she positioned her relationship with each other at this time. That person was her mother, and she should be the closest person in the world, and she shouldn't have thought like that about her.
She felt her face feel a little hot, and her heart was beating fast, and she could hear the sound of blood flowing in her veins, as if she could hear them rushing out of her veins.
"Shameless. She glared at her, word by word. But she didn't see her lips opening and closing, she didn't see her lips moving, where did this sound come from? She didn't say? Is it her own heart weakness, is it her own auditory hallucination?
Sweat scrambled out of her pores, and soon, she felt that the clothes on her body were soaked with sweat, drenched, slippery, sweaty, she didn't dare to move, she would feel cold when she moved, and the cold was the cold that penetrated into the bones.
"Shameless!" This time she saw her mother's lips move, they opened and closed exaggeratedly, revealing the white sharp teeth inside, like animal teeth, and a crimson tongue, she was angry with a pair of eyes, leaning forward, Chen Mofei felt that something was being dug open by her mother in such a cruel way.