I always thought I wouldn't fall in love with someone.

My father said, that's because of this person, I haven't met yet.

I didn't believe my father's words, because I was very young at that time, so young that I didn't know what hunger was, what it meant to be loved, what happiness meant to be happy, and what it meant to be tomorrow.

It has always been a day with or without tomorrow, fleeing famine, fleeing, fleeing debts, evading the pursuit of the government, and evading the encirclement and suppression of the imperial army.

Later, my father and I had nowhere to escape, and we were besieged in that city by officers and soldiers, and watching my father's men die one by one, I suddenly felt a little nostalgic for this world.

Because in this life, I have never fallen in love with anyone.

My father was not afraid of death, and I was naturally not afraid of death, and my father did not know how to explain to me the meaning of the word death, which seemed to me to be something that would happen a long time before I was sixteen.

Many of the younger Yellow Turban warriors died in this battle, and all I could do was play a song of sorrow for them.

I felt like I should do something.

I went to find that person, hoping that he could help my father, now he is the only one who can help my father, he is only seventeen years old, but he has a rare pride, martial arts and strategy are outstanding, and he also has a group of reliable soldiers, the most important thing is that his attitude towards the yellow scarf is different from others.

But once again he refused, just as he had when we first met, and he was clearly deeply wary of me and my father.

I asked my father, why must it be that person, my father closed his eyes and didn't speak, I could vaguely feel that my father was also making a bet, betting on whether he had chosen the right person, betting on whether this person could afford the destiny that my father said?

I asked my father, will this person be the person I will fall in love with in the future?

The father smiled: "Child, love is not such a simple thing!"

I don't know, and I don't have the opportunity and time to know, just like I never saw my own mother after I was born, and my father said that she died because she gave birth to me, so I always felt that I was a sinner.

Later, when I grew up, I gradually understood that what my father did was an earth-shattering thing, and others respected him as a great sage and good teacher, a general of heaven, and only I knew that my father was just an ordinary person, a weak scholar, he had his own dreams, and he often described to me that he wanted to create the yellow world for the common people in the world, how beautiful, how moving, everyone was equal, everyone respected and loved each other, there was no oppression, no war, no evil, no conflict, the mountains and rivers were quiet......

So beautiful, so good, so desirable, but my father and I both knew that such a world of yellow heavens would not exist and would not come.

My father's power was once very large, affecting the whole country, known as a million soldiers, and many of them were speculative people, my father knew, but at this time, he was no longer able to control the overall situation.

I can't help but think of a sentence, its rise is also vigorous, and its death is also sudden.

My father didn't see this day, the official army was stronger than we thought, and there were many traitors within us, my father finally fell ill and fainted, and the second uncle lied that my father was sick and died in order to cover our breakthrough, attracting the main force of the official army, and I was able to leave with the remnants of my father like a lost dog.

I will never forget this day, my hometown was raging with fire, and I almost fainted, but I knew that at this moment I was the backbone of the survivors, and if I couldn't support it, my father would really die without a place to bury.

"If you want to cry, cry out, no one will laugh at you!"

When I was sleeping in the wild at night, a voice came inadvertently, which made my floating heart feel a little warm.

When I looked up, he had already walked past me, leaving only a vague outline of his back.

His name is Chen Kun, and he was a teenager rescued by his father in Jiangxia, and I was also there at the time, and I was very surprised to see my father bring back a man covered in blood.

At that time, he was very seriously injured, and his father knew some medical skills and saved him from the ghost gate.

From then on, he recognized his father as his master.

His father didn't ask about his past, and he didn't ask his father what earth-shattering things he did, which seemed to be a tacit understanding, so when he later learned that his father was the Taiping Taoist leader who was feared by the imperial court, he didn't even have a trace of abnormality.

"If you leave now, I will definitely not keep you, and you don't have to delay your future for the sake of me being a traitor!" said his father to him solemnly that day.

He just smiled: "Without the master, I wouldn't be standing here alive now!"

My father and I didn't know that Chen Kun had an excellent martial arts, to be exact, if it weren't for the secret lure of Gao Yi, I wouldn't even know that Chen Kun's martial arts would be so good, Gao Yi's martial arts were already among the best, and Chen Kun actually relied on a tooth flag in his hand to snatch Gao Yi's never-ending moon spear within a few moves!

Falling Moon Gun, this is the first time I've heard this name, of course I've seen the person Falling Moon again, although she didn't admit it at that time, but I can guess that she has become Gao Yi's confidante.

And before, she had saved her father's life, and even had many conflicts with a person named Liu Bei.

Gao Yi would actually use her name to name the weapon!

"Sister Luo!" I stopped her while no one was paying attention.

She is still so beautiful, heroic, and outstanding, she naturally noticed me, and smiled: "Sister Ning, long time no see!"

Long time no see, I muttered this, and somehow tears flowed.

"Why are you crying, I remember that you don't shed tears, you are the goddess in everyone's mouth!" Her words were so warm, as if the fight between Gao Yi and Chen Kun had nothing to do with the two of us.

Yes, I am a goddess, the daughter of the general of heaven, I can't cry, I can't be confused, I can't be strong.

"Sister Luo, Brother Gao Yi is a very good person, you have to cherish it!" At that time, when I said this, I felt an inexplicable loss in my heart, she should have fallen in love with Gao Yi, and I still don't know who the person I love is, where he is, and I don't even know if I can survive tomorrow.

"Yours is not bad, handsome, martial arts are better than horse thieves, don't be robbed by others, think about everything in a good place, we will always be the best sisters!" Luo Yue said this, I didn't think about it carefully at the time, only remembered her last words, the best sister.

"Well, we will always be the best sisters! Sister Luo take care!" I nodded, and left with the defeated centaurs, not even having time to listen to what Sister Luo said later.

The competition between Gao Yi and Chen Kun is debatable, because later our granary was burned, so although we took the initiative at the beginning, in the end it became Gao Yi to take the limelight, and Gao Yi lost to Chen Kun, which was more like a battle of deception.

But what's the matter? Even if we don't burn the granary, we won't be able to last long.

"Brother Kun, if you decide to leave now, Ning'er will definitely not keep you!"

I slowly walked behind Chen Kun, his back was so unpredictable in the night, the official army could catch up at any time, and my father and I had no way to retreat, and even I hoped that he was sent by the imperial court to lurk beside my father, and would pick up a knife to kill me when I was most defenseless, and then cut off my head to think about the court's contribution, how good.

yes, how nice that would be.

I've always thought that I can't fall in love with someone, so why should I have to fall in love with someone, and how far and how long can I take these people with me on my own?

"If I decide to leave, I won't wait until now!And if I really leave, not to mention living up to the sect master's trust, am I really ashamed of you?"

Suddenly, Chen Kun turned his senses, although the night was heavy, his eyes were so bright, giving people firmness and peace of mind.

Yes, he is my brother Kun, I am his Ning'er, he said that he knew that I was miserable, he said that he would be by my side to protect me at all times, he said that he would give me a shoulder to lean on, he asked me not to press everything in my heart, he said that people should not be so tired in life, cry if you want to cry, laugh if you want to laugh, be true to yourself, in order to live a real life.

Live a real life, is it okay not to have the identity of this so-called celestial girl?

Always by my side to protect me, what about the time when Ye Seventeen designed to separate me and Chen Kun?

I will never forget that time Ye Seventeen's eyes, cold, greedy, treacherous...... That time, when no one was by my side, the moment those soldiers rushed towards me, my mind was blank, I naturally knew what they were going to do, I didn't plead, because I knew that pleading was useless, my heart was like ashes, in the end I was still an ordinary person, I couldn't do anything, the goddess was just a joke.

The moment I bit my tongue and committed suicide, I was relieved, I looked up at the clear blue sky, there was a cloud on it that kept changing, gradually becoming a human face, and it reminded me of my mother, whom I had never met.

My mother was laughing, and the face that was almost carved out of the same mold as me slowly came to me, stretched out a pair of transparent hands to take me into her arms, touched my hair and said quietly: "Child, don't cherish yourself so much, you are the meat that fell from my body, you are the continuation of my life in this world, you should live well, only by living, can there be hope!"

It's not the first time I've heard this, but it wasn't until this time that I realized how important it was.

I didn't expect that I would survive, it was an old man named Zuo Ci who saved me, and with him was Zhang Zhongjing, who had saved Gao Yi, but I didn't expect that now he would come to treat my injuries.

Zhang Zhongjing said that fortunately, my tongue was not broken at that time, but it is certain that I can't speak for a long time, I recuperate in their nameless valley, I thought that I would be isolated from the world, until one day, a group of familiar figures came from outside the valley, and they carried the person who had said that they would protect me whenever and wherever they were!

Brother Kun!

"Brother Chen rushed back from Youzhou, didn't believe that the Heavenly Maiden died violently, and wanted to confront Zhang Yan, but he was framed by design, and his life was in the ......" Everyone told me the reason before and after.

I was stunned for a moment, and my tears once again lingered, why is he so stupid, and we have worked so hard for so long, isn't it just to gain Zhang Yan's trust? I am a useless person, where is it worth him like this? In the end, everything has become a void?

"Ning'er, Ning'er, I don't want you to have anything, I don't want you to have anything!"

Once again, I froze, he had never said such a thing to me, was that what he was saying?

I always thought that I would not fall in love with someone, and I still think of myself as such to this day, but why do people who see him and hear his words feel as if something has changed somewhere?