After despairing of love, what kind of mood would it be to suddenly see the hope of love?

Regarding this, Jimmy once had a classic quote: All sorrow always leaves a clue to joy. All regrets will always leave a perfect corner. I'm in the frozen deep sea. Look for the gap in hope. But when I woke up in the middle of the night, I suddenly caught a glimpse of the beautiful moonlight.

Xu Nan at this moment is the beautiful moonlight.

When I just understood love, love left me, Xu Nan gave me the deepest love, but also gave me the deepest sadness.

I'll never forget how desperate my heart felt that evening when she said you weren't worthy. I was so desperate that I fell into the abyss of inferiority again, thinking that a love between me and Xu Nan was nothing more than a bubble, too fragile to withstand the slightest test. After that night, I no longer believed in love, and even felt that Xu Nan had not been in love with me, just impulsively, but at this moment, I seemed to be really in the frozen deep sea. A gap of hope was found.

I didn't expect that Xu Nan would suddenly go up to this rooftop, and I couldn't imagine that I had become like this, and she could still shout Wu Lai to me. She made me suddenly have a hallucination at this moment, I think that people who love each other are telepathic, I think, Xu Nan has not forgotten me, she really loves me.

After this slightest hallucination. My heart was suddenly full of emotion, especially when I turned my head and touched Xu Nan's eyes full of expectation and deep emotion, my heart jumped even more uncontrollably.

She gave me hope of love again.

She once again let me see the true love in the world, the love for the saddest Wu Lai at the beginning, the most real and precious love, this kind of love, so rare. I was so moved.

But I was scared. I'm afraid that this is just a momentary delusion on my part, and I'm afraid that I don't know enough about women and love. I'm afraid that I will be like Wu Lai again, I finally believed in love and immersed myself in love, but in the end I was injured and my body was incomplete.

Therefore, even if my heart fluttered again at this moment, I still maintained my apparent composure, and then, I turned around and faced Xu Nan who was standing at the top of the stairs, and then pretended to be surprised to look left and right, and then asked her in a puzzled tone: "Classmate, who are you talking to?"

When Xu Nan saw my face, the expectation in her eyes suddenly turned into disappointment, deep disappointment.

She glanced at me in disappointment, and then replied weakly: "Sorry, I recognized the wrong person, your back is very similar to him!"

At this moment, I don't know if I should be happy or lost.

Fortunately, Xu Nan didn't recognize me, but the loss is still that Xu Nan didn't recognize me. If she can continue to ask me a few words, maybe I will admit it, maybe I can ask her, if she really loved me at the beginning, if she loved me, why did she care about my life experience, did she have any hardships, or did her love for me really ethereal?

However, these are just ifs, after all, she still doesn't recognize me, after all, there is no bullshit telepathy in this world, perhaps, I have another delusion, another self-inflicted amorous. I've learned enough lessons, it's time to wake up, but why, why am I still a little unwilling?ad_250_left();

Thinking of this, I continued to be in front of her, keeping the clouds calm and light, and pretending to be casual and said: "Oh, it turns out that the Wu Lai you shouted is a personal name, I thought you were calling me a scoundrel, by the way, I seem to have heard that there was a neurotic in the school before, and it was called Wu Lai, it can't be him, right?"

asked so much, but in fact, in my heart, it was so serious, I cared, and I cared about what kind of feelings Xu Nan had for me at the beginning. I care if she still misses me today.

And, what made my heart tremble suddenly was that Xu Nan listened to my words, her emotions were suddenly excited, her eyes were red, and she shouted at me without any scruples: "He is not a psychopath, you are a psychopath, you bullies are neurotic!"

Xu Nan's sudden shouting really set off a crazy tide in my heart, it turned out that in her heart, she still cared about the toad who worked hard for her, the toad who did not hesitate to block the knife for her, the toad who had spent the best night with her, and the toad who waited in front of her house for her perseverance, but since you cared, why were you so ruthless?

I couldn't figure it out, I suppressed the turmoil in my heart, continued to hold an indifferent attitude, and said loudly: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scold him, I haven't seen him, I've just heard about it!"

Hearing this, Xu Nan's emotions gradually calmed down, and she also realized that she was out of shape, so she whispered, it's okay.

Immediately, she walked straight from the staircase to the center of the rooftop, then turned to my side and looked into the distance, stunned.

That place is the place where Ding Wudi and the purple-haired girl bullied me at the beginning, in that place, Xu Nan took my hand and told Ding Wudi loudly that I was her boyfriend, in that place, Xu Nan took my hand and kissed it without hesitation, in that place, Xu Nan and I faced the dilemma together, and it was in that place that I tried to be a real man for women.

In the past, Xu Nan asked me when I started liking her, and I vaguely coped with the past, but it wasn't until this moment that I suddenly realized, perhaps, it was here, on this rooftop, that I was moved by this girl who shared the hardships with me, and her kiss on the back of my hand destroyed all the defenses in my heart, and made me fall in love with this girl who always cares about me without hesitation.

Now, time has passed, and the Xu Nan in front of her is no longer the original Xu Nan, she has changed, she has become gloomy, her original impulsiveness, liveliness and flamboyance are completely gone, and the whole person seems to have lost her luster and is a lot haggard.

Why did she become like this? Why did she look so sad?

Isn't it true that I'm not being sentimental? Is she really still nostalgic for me at the beginning? Could it be that she became so sad because I got out of school lonely? Could it be that she didn't transfer schools and continued to stay in this garbage school just to wait for me?

No, no, if she really cares about me, she can contact me after I leave school, if she still loves me, she can go to my city to find me, I have been in decline at Uncle Lin's house for a few months, she has not contacted me once, let alone looked for me, not once.

I shouldn't have fantasized about her, but I had to care, I wanted to know why she was standing on this rooftop with our memories, why she was so gloomy, so I took out a cigarette again and took two puffs to ease my mood.

Then, I pretended to gossip in a playful tone: "Hey, classmate, I see your reaction, it seems that I care about Wu Lai, who are you?"

After saying this, my heart was about to jump out of the excitement, and I smoked a cigarette to hide my excitement, but my ears were already erected, waiting for her answer.

It's just that after waiting for a long time, I didn't wait for Xu Nan's answer, she didn't seem to hear my words, or maybe she was too lazy to reply to me.

However, when I was halfway off the cigarette in my hand, she suddenly replied: "He's a poor man!"

Suddenly, my hands trembled, and the ashes fell suddenly, drifting in the air with the wind, and the excitement in my heart instantly turned to disappointment and a faint anger.

She didn't admit that she was Wu Lai's former girlfriend, and she even said the word pity again, and at first, she was sympathetic to me. Because I was pitiful, she sympathized with me. Perhaps, in the end, all the love she felt was just pity.

I hate pity, I am even more unwilling, I am not willing to think that the love that I once thought was so deep is just sad pity, I took a deep breath of cigarette, and then suppressed the frenzied pain in my heart, pretending to be indifferent and answered: "Well, I heard that he was quite miserable, abandoned by others, insulted, and kicked out of school!"

Listening to my words, Xu Nan's body trembled obviously, but she still didn't turn her head to look at me, only immersed in her own sadness, and after a long time, she whispered: "I hurt him!"

Her voice was even a little choked, but my heart was getting more and more lost. I can almost be sure that she is indeed going to the rooftop for me at this moment, but so what? From her words, I only feel her sympathy for Wu Lai, guilt and self-blame for Wu Lai, but I just don't feel love. Dirt and garbage.

Really, too tired, the gap of hope has been blocked again, the love I thought was only my love, and the love I had experienced was indeed just a sad joke. The corners of my mouth couldn't help but show a wry smile.

I directly threw away the cigarette butt in my hand, stepped on it hard, with the cigarette butt extinguished, the illusion in my heart was also shattered, I know, I can no longer have hope for Xu Nan, since she abandoned me, I can no longer have any nostalgia, now I am a new me, will usher in a new life, I must not be immersed in the past can not extricate myself.

So, I looked at Xu Nan's depressed back again, and said casually: "Goodbye!" and walked silently towards the staircase.

And, when I happened to rub shoulders with Xu Nan, suddenly, a person popped out of the staircase in front of me, and a panting voice: "Xu Nan, why are you running to the rooftop again!"

This person is none other than Fang Zixuan, who hurriedly ran up, as soon as he came up, he saw me walking past Xu Nan, at this moment, he was stunned, he glanced at Xu Nan who was sad, and then glared at me who was handsome. On the empty rooftop, Xu Nan and I, lonely men and widows, couldn't help but form a landscape that is very easy to misunderstand.

Suddenly, flames came out of Fang Zixuan's eyes, and he ran towards me without saying a word.

And I, the moment I saw Fang Zixuan suddenly, I was also a little stunned, and before I could think about how to deal with him, he had already rushed in front of me and shouted at me angrily: "You fucking dare to provoke my woman!"

Anyway, he didn't wait for me to explain, he flew up in anger and kicked me in anger...