She was stunned for a while, leaning against the door, leaning on that way, until she saw that the sky was getting darker and darker, and the balcony opposite was lit for the first time, she walked into the living room, sat on the sofa, and felt that the whole person was tired enough, and her whole body was sore and tired, and her bones seemed to be about to fall apart.

Hungry? maybe, but no desire to eat. Life seemed to change all at once, she always thought she was ready, but it didn't seem to be.

There must be none.

Chen Mofei leaned heavily into the sofa, which was a little soft, causing her whole body to sink in. The room was very messy, those footprints were clearly printed on the floor, messy and chaotic, next to the sofa and on the coffee table, there were also those scattered pieces of paper, the pieces of paper had been torn to shreds, she sat up, feeling a little panting, so she tried to pull her back up, and her legs were very spread, as if sitting in this way made her feel a little more comfortable.

She picked up those pieces of paper, saw that there were words on them, and picked up another piece, naturally there were words on it, but they were all words, there was no way to connect them into sentences, Chen Mofei looked at the underground, there were a lot of shredded papers, she originally wanted to put them together into a complete letter, so as to see what kind of information stimulated the old lady, but looking at the wolf in his eyes, he felt a little disappointed, so he put the scraps of paper back.

I got up and went to the kitchen first. Chen Mofei felt that her mother-in-law was a person who loved cleanliness, everything in the kitchen was clean, and all the sundries were placed in an orderly manner, she opened the spice bottle and found that the old lady was actually very particular about eating, and the old lady's kitchen did not have so many messy seasonings, even monosodium glutamate, There are no seasonings for chicken essence, she turned on the stove, put a little water in the pot, just bought two packs of instant noodles, took out a pack, and then thought that she should be hungry, so she took out another pack, both packs were opened, the soft light in the kitchen tilted her shadow, Chen Mofei kept staring out the window, and her brain was blank.

Emptying herself like this made Chen Mofei feel a little rejuvenated, until the water in the pot reminded her.

She lifted the lid of the pot, put the noodles in it, followed by the seasoning, boiled for about three minutes, removed the noodles, and poured the soup on them. Originally, I didn't feel hungry, but as soon as I smelled the aroma of instant noodles, the Five Organs Temple protested straightly.

She held the big bowl, which was full of noodles and soup, the heat of the soup came to her face, mobilizing her taste buds, Chen Mofei took two steps quickly, the bowl began to burn, she quickly put the bowl on the table, and then pinched her ears with the fingers of both hands, sat down, the noodles looked particularly delicious because of hunger.

Originally, I was thinking that I had the strength to eat something, so that I could do some housework---- at least wipe the floor, except for the floor, other places were actually okay, Chen Mofei saw that the old lady was an old woman with a slight habit of cleanliness. Also, places like fireworks stoves can be seen by light, not to mention other places.

After eating, but I feel that my body is too lazy to die, I heard that when you are pregnant, you always feel that it is very likely that you are lazy and pregnant with a daughter. Chen Mofei stroked his belly with one hand, and asked the one in the belly with his eyes: You, you, are you a boy or a girl?

Chen Mofei is not very interested in the gender of the child, but she still retains enough curiosity that she still wants to know whether she is pregnant with this little guy is a good boy or a little girl. She also bought some baby products herself, and Chen Qiao also helped to buy some, including Chen Mofei's proprietor, she also helped to draw some. These people rely on their own speculation to determine the sex of the baby.

For example, Chen Qiao bought the little girl's equipment, mainly pink.

"I failed to marry you, and in the future I will let my son marry your daughter. Chen Qiao was joking.

Chen Mofei said that his joke was not very scientific.

"If we were a daughter, how many years older would you have to be than your son? Your son doesn't want a wife, men of all ages like to be young and beautiful. ”

Chen Qiao disagreed.

"But not necessarily, you see Nicholas Tse and Faye Wong, now that they are young heroines, men like to find someone who is a few years older than themselves. ”

Chen Mofei's proprietress bought sky blue, saying that the color can be used whether it is a girl or a son. At that time, Chen Mofei didn't know that her boss would not be able to have a baby in her life, and the boss lady proposed more than once, saying that she would be the baby's godmother when the child was born.

Chen Mofei's own purchases are more casual, mainly looking at practicality. There is no routine for buying these things, but after buying and buying, I bought more and more, small beds, and gadgets, and colorful little toys, all of which have been done a lot. Chen Mofei sometimes looks at those things, and still feels a little regretful, because none of them were bought by the child's father.

Of course, she also understands him, and for a long time, he has done enough bad things.

The body is getting heavier and heavier, the TV is turned on by her, there is no computer in this room, the only thing that can move is the TV, although Chen Mofei is used to living alone, but it is the first time to stay alone in her in-laws' house, and a little movement seems to be able to strengthen her courage. People are still social animals, and having a companion is steady, which is also the basic reason why most Chinese family couples can still get along in the end, or some housewives are very close to their children, not necessarily psychopathic, unable to deal with separation or each other's roles, may just need a safe intimate relationship, in short, a companion.

Her eyelids gradually became heavier, until she was woken up by a long and strange dream, Chen Mofei suddenly opened her eyes, the lights in the living room were still flickering, there was a noisy TV sound around, and the ground was still a mess, she touched the phone from the sofa, looked at the time, it was more than two o'clock in the second half of the night, she remembered, there was a bowl in the kitchen that had not been washed, she had just eaten the bowl of instant noodles, and those footprints on the floor, which looked extremely uncomfortable, but she shrank her body deeper into the sofa, and retracted her feet into the sofa。

The lights weren't turned off, and neither was the TV.

If you can't sleep, get up, and if you do, wait until the next day.

The couch is a sponge, and the more you sleep, the hotter it gets. In a moment, Chen Mofei fell asleep again, and his dreams were scattered and chaotic.

That night, when he had not closed his eyes all night, and had always wanted to take a nap, the old lady called to him in an ominous voice, and he sat down at her bed, and took her hand, but her face showed great pain, and she was evidently unwilling to endure as before.

"Passing years. She shouted, and then looked up at him, her head covered in white gauze, a drainage bag on top of her head, and a nasogastric tube in her nose, all of which must have made her very sad. She had a clip between her index finger, and the nurse told him to monitor the old lady's vital indicators at all times, including her breathing, heart rate, and blood pressure.

Her blood pressure is not low, and she can't understand what high blood pressure can bring to a person, and her breathing sometimes stops, and she doesn't sleep, and when she is most painful and uncomfortable, she wails one after another, and those voices pull up the heart of Liunian.

I thought that people should suffer such a great sin in order to live.

Many years after that, I watched a drama in the past year, which was quite famous and had a very clear theme, that is, ----- died like this, or suffered a lot of sins and suffered a lot and then died.

This is a big question that there is no way for people to face up to and understand correctly.

The author and director of the play have not been able to give a final answer, which is intended to provoke discussion or thinking.

But who can really think of the answer to this question?

The old lady struggled painfully, and she was actually a little helpless in the passing years. Seeing sick relatives lingering on the bed, it's okay to have shallow feelings, but I really can't stand shallow feelings. Illness and suffering are something that you can't feel for someone no matter how much you love him, which is similar to how parents look at their children. When the parents looked at their children, they saw that her head was broken and bleeding, but they couldn't help him, and their hearts hurt as if they were helpless.

Liunian's mother is still quite conscious, and she also knows that she will find a doctor when she is uncomfortable, and the doctor will come to see her and say that there is no other way, she has survived like this.

I thought about it for a long time, life is actually cruel. Like this disease, you have to survive it, and you have to be able to get through it.

Sending the doctor away, he saw his mother's eyes spinning around, he felt that kind of eyes made him feel strange, as if his mother was possessed by something, she raised her eyes and stared at Liu Nian, scolded him for not being good, and asked him to go out again to help him find a doctor, she felt too painful, and she felt that the pain was a little unbearable, but she could only endure it, she hoped that someone would give her salvation, and the doctor was her only hope.

However, she didn't know that doctors also had too many physical pains that could not be solved.

After so many years of development in traditional Chinese medicine and Western medicine, a simple woman's dysmenorrhea is still unresolved, let alone a situation like an old lady.

He narrowed his eyes at his mother, doubting every decision he had made. Is it right not to bury my father in time, is the reason why my mother is like this today directly related to him, and is it good or bad for her to go back in time to save her mother?

He crouched down, his knees half-kneeling on the floor of the hospital bed, the coldness coming through the fibers of his pants, and he held his mother's hand and cried.

His mother looked at him blankly, and there were no tears in her eyes. She may not understand what her son is crying about. She just felt pain, she simply wanted to get rid of that pain but couldn't. It made her feel so desperate.

"Don't cry, what are you crying about, go find me a doctor. Mom is going to die!"

She tried to withdraw her hand, only to find that it was clenched even tighter by her son.

"Go to the doctor, wreck!"

She had never scolded her son so harshly.

Liunian raised his head.