Chapter 193: The Decision to Let Go
Chu Xinran graduated, Leng Yehan out of protection for her, and did not let Chu Xinran work in the intended unit according to her original intention, so she spent most of her time painting in the room every day.
Although Leng Yehan and Chu Xinran got along with each other with occasional friction and small quarrels, it was simply too harmonious compared to before, and more than a month of such days passed unconsciously.
On this day, Leng Yehan sorted out the documents in the study, and looked up to see that there was still an hour before Chu Xinran finished painting today. He didn't want to disturb Chu Xinran while he was painting, so he hesitated and his eyes fell on the bookshelf full of books.
Since using this study, so many years have passed, and the bookshelves have always had a study room in it, but it has never been organized. Thinking of this, Leng Yehan couldn't help but smile self-deprecatingly, got up and walked to the bookshelf, ready to use this time to tidy up the bookshelf.
In fact, although this bookshelf has not been organized, because life is orderly on weekdays in the cold nights and cold days, it doesn't take much effort to organize it. Leng Yehan was purely looking for something to relieve his loneliness during the time when he couldn't see Chu Xinran, and it didn't take long for him to finish it.
Looking at the last diary in his hand that was not put in, Leng Yehan's heart began to fluctuate again. This is Leng Xiyan's diary, he usually takes it out and looks at it, since Chu Xinran lived in this house, it seems that he has seen it a year ago.
More than a year has passed in a flash, and too many things have happened in this year, which makes Leng Yehan sigh in his heart, "Do you want to end this diary?"
Leng Yehan muttered to himself, took the notebook and walked back to the desk to put it in the drawer, but when he bent down and reached out to twist the drawer lock, the diary suddenly slipped out of his hand, and just as the back rushed up and fell to the ground.
Leng Yehan smiled bitterly, picked up the diary and was just about to put it in the drawer, when he found that the bookmark on the back of the diary fell out, Leng Yehan frowned and pushed the bookmark back, he knew what was written in the back, and it was something he didn't want to think about now.
But sometimes, the more you don't want to think about something and don't want to mention it, the more it will pop up in your mind, and then you can't control your subconscious actions, such as now......
As soon as the bookmark was pushed back, Leng Yehan found that there was a mezzanine on the back pages, "There is actually a mezzanine here," Leng Yehan was very surprised, he knew the content of the bookmark specially marked in the back, but what was in the mezzanine, Leng Yehan was very curious.
Facing this diary, Leng Yehan thought for a long time and finally decided to open it to see the contents of the mezzanine, he took out a blade and gently cut the mezzanine, and inside was indeed a diary recorded by Xu Qiuwen's handwriting.
Leng Yehan took a deep breath, and the contents of the mezzanine jumped into his eyes, reflected in the pupils full of surprise......
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Chu Xinran's painting time for today was over, she looked at the quartz clock on the wall, and couldn't help pouting, "Leng Yehan, this guy, I was late again today, hmph, when you come, I will definitely ignore you,"
Although Leng Yehan would come to Chu Xinran's room every day after finishing painting, it was inevitable that she would come later for some reasons, often at this time, Chu Xinran would take out the little woman demeanor she was accustomed to in front of Leng Yehan, and be coquettish and angry.
Leng Yehan has never liked women like this, but for Chu Xinran, he gives special "care", he likes to watch Chu Xinran make a little mood and be coquettish, and every time at this time, he will find a strong sense of existence of this feeling.
Chu Xinran has been immersed in the emotions given by Leng Yehan recently, and she seems to have completely lost her mind about the reason why she was close to Leng Yehan in the first place, and just wants to keep the bits and pieces of being with Leng Yehan deep in her heart.
Seeing that the cold night and cold had not come, Chu Xinran complained and then continued to paint, "Forget it, it doesn't mean anything to complain alone, I'll paint for a while, and when the time comes, I'll paint on your face, paint, hahaha,"
Chu Xinran used a paintbrush to add oil and color to the sketch she painted on Leng Yehan, the feeling was as if it was painted on Leng Yehan's face, which made her so happy that she didn't even notice that Leng Yehan opened the door gently Wang Li glanced at it, and then closed the door again.
Leng Yehan leaned against the wall, his face full of pain, and his mind recalled the contents of the diary he had just seen......
It turned out that ten years ago, Chu Xinran's mother Weng Di accidentally hit Leng Xiyan's car, which eventually led to her death. Leng Yehan knew about this matter, and it was also what he had seen in Xu Qiuwen's diary.
It is precisely for this reason that Leng Yehan hates Chu Xinran, although the person who bumped into Leng Xiyan is Weng Di, but when Leng Yehan knew that Weng Di was no longer alive, he extended this resentment to Weng Di's daughter. Coincidentally, it happened that at this time, Chu Xinran wanted to kill him because of Chu Tianxi's matter close to the cold night, so they had their subsequent intersection and those injuries.
This is what Leng Yehan first knew, but he never knew how Ondi died. If it weren't for the fact that he accidentally saw the content deliberately pasted by Xu Qiuwen in the mezzanine of the diary today, I'm afraid he would never know in his life that Weng Di was killed by Xu Qiuwen.
Back then, Xu Qiuwen's loss of her beloved daughter was greatly stimulated, so when she found out who was the person who accidentally hit Leng Xiyan's car, she planned for a long time and finally drove to kill Chu Xinran's mother in an accident. However, Chu Xinyue was also in the car at that time, although she escaped by luck and survived, she stopped talking because she witnessed the accident scene.
During the relationship, Chu Xinran once mentioned the reason for Chu Xinyue's aphasia, and Leng Yehan didn't expect that the car accident was caused by Xu Qiuwen. If the responsibility is really investigated, in fact, Wendi's so-called mistake is not entirely caused by her, and it is also inseparable from Leng Xiyan's driving mistake in an angry state.
After that, Xu Qiuwen killed Weng Di for the sake of her daughter's accident, this is the real murderer, but he hurt Chu Xinran for so long because of Chu Tianxi's affairs and those past captives. Thinking of all this, the guilt in Leng Yehan's heart became stronger and stronger, and he slapped one hand on his forehead and groaned, "Leng Yehan, what Chu Xinran said is right, you are really a bastard,"
After struggling for so long, Leng Yehan could finally face up to his feelings and confess to Chu Xinran. He really likes Chu Xinran and has reached the point of deep love, but when he knew that the initiator of everything turned out to be his mother, Leng Yehan's emotions and conscience were greatly condemned, and he couldn't accept such a dirty self to monopolize Chu Xinran.
"Leng Yehan, you love her, right, for sure, no, but...... Can you really bring happiness to Chu Xinran, is it really you that she loves, or is all this just the result of your forced purchase and sale?"
Suddenly knowing the truth, Leng Yehan, who had always been entangled, fell into the whirlpool of emotions, and he even felt that it was really undesirable to have Chu Xinran's feelings, if he loved her, he should let go and give her the freedom she wanted, that is true love.
With all kinds of tangled and awkward emotions in his heart, Leng Yehan left here and walked downstairs.
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Another month has passed, and City C is once again welcoming the late autumn season. After the golden harvest, it brings with it a depression and a sad scene of longing for the autumn wind and falling leaves.
Thinking back to this time a year ago, the feeling of being a world away made Chu Xinran dare not look back. But a year later, she thought that this relationship would go all the way, but in such a short period of time, the two of them had a disagreement.
Leng Xixi walked out of the foyer and came to the garden to see Chu Xinran, "What are you doing standing here, it's very windy outside, you are dressed so thinly, be careful not to catch a cold." ”
Hearing Leng Xixi's words, Chu Xinran's heart palpitated, she took a deep breath and turned to look at Leng Xixi, a bitter smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, "Do you know, it's also here in winter, your brother said the same thing as me, it's a pity that ......"
Chu Xinran shook his head, in the past month, Leng Yehan's attitude towards him has cooled down all of a sudden, and the two of them have not even had a warm relationship this month, and there has been no major disagreement, but Leng Yehan's attitude towards Chu Xinran has cooled down unilaterally.
Looking at Chu Xinran's lost look, Leng Xixi also shook his head with a tangled expression, "Don't say it's you, even my younger sister, who grew up beside him, can't figure out what my brother is thinking now, have you quarreled?"
"Quarrel, it would be nice if the quarrel became like this. Chu Xinran sighed, although she and Leng Yehan were both arrogant and awkward personalities, and they often broke up unhappily in getting along before, but this time the estrangement was not the case at all. Things changed too suddenly, so that Chu Xinran didn't wait to recover from the gentleness of the cold night, and he poured a basin of cold water on him.
"I guess a guy like him who gives him the nickname Cold Ice must have grown tired of me after a long time together. But it's good that it saves my heart from falling for him more and more. Chu Xin then had something to say, but she didn't say it clearly, mainly because she was afraid that Leng Xixi would be worried.
"My brother is not that kind of person," Leng Xixi defended Leng Yehan with a little anxious face, but she was also a little unsure in her heart, and immediately changed her words after speaking, "At least for you...... My brother would never do that, absolutely,"
"Isn't that so, hasn't he already done it, and it's not like I'm framing him. Chu Xinran originally wanted to pretend not to care too much, just like she did every time in the past, but today she couldn't disguise it at all, and she started crying as she spoke.
Seeing Chu Xinran crying, Leng Xixi panicked all of a sudden, and hurriedly took out a handkerchief to coax her, "Chu Xinran, you ...... Don't you cry, okay, my brother must not be that kind of person, I ...... I use my personality to vouch that he's not that kind of person, and ...... When he comes back, I'll ask you what's going on with him,"