There are a few plums in the corner, and the cold opens alone.

In the season of snowflakes, in the foggy small village, a few dogs barked from time to time, Ke Xiao put his hands in his pockets, wrapped them tightly, and walked over from a distance with his head down.

Quietly approaching the red-smoky fire, absorbing the slightest warmth, listening to the nonsense of the people around him, he suddenly felt that it was not so cold.

"Ke Xiao, where are you going to go to work now? When will you bring a girlfriend back? I'm waiting to drink your favorite wine!"

As soon as Ke Xiao stood still, Lao Wang next door showed off a thick smoke voice, which seemed to be quite concerned, but in fact he was full of mockery.

"Hehe, don't worry, I'll talk about it in two years!"

Ke Xiao, who was not in a very good mood, was embarrassed and polite and perfunctory, and he was particularly disgusted with this kind of guy who ate salty radishes and didn't worry about it.

If it was in the early years, he would naturally not be so indifferent, but since graduating from college and working in the magic capital, Ke Xiao, who felt that life was not easy, slowly began to know how to be silent.

The city where money and desire are intertwined, and the honesty and kindness that it has always upheld, seem so out of place. In the gentle countryside where materialism is rampant, coercing and scheming, and hidden under the mask of hypocrisy, he is like a little sheep that has fallen into a wolf pack, being played with without knowing it.

When the bubble of dreams bursts, Gentle Township is a hero, even if he is not a hero, but he can't escape the fate he deserves, and he can only drag his broken body and flee in a gray embarrassment, and he is not good at speaking from the beginning.

I got up and pretended to stretch my hands and feet, and felt warm, so I went upstairs alone to pack my things, and never chatted with anyone else.

"Leaving tomorrow?"

Ke Dad cautiously showed concern, for fear of stimulating the fragile Ke Xiao.

"Well, the job has been found, it's in Zhengdong, it's close to home, don't worry. ”

In the face of his father, Ke Xiao always has a little more words, after all, his father has been the most spoiled since he was a child, even if there is a little brother in the family, this favor is also increasing.

Ke Xiao, who came home from the magic capital with scars all over his body, in this year, in addition to regretting his self-righteous innocence, he still felt that he couldn't live up to the ardent expectations of his family, especially his father, Ke Xiao didn't want to disappoint him.

"Dad...... Do you feel tired? I mean, you feed our two brothers and take care of the family. ”

Ke's father, who always had a smile on his face, was obviously unprepared in the face of his son's sudden heartfelt inquiry, and he moved his steps in surprise, frowned and thought for a while, looked at his son in anticipation, and still said calmly.

"Actually, there's nothing to be tired of, your mother and I can't give you much, and you will mainly rely on yourself in the future. You are still young, and now you are suffering a little loss, the last time is nothing, these things are indispensable sooner or later, just pay tuition, there is nothing you can't get by, just pay more attention when you go out. Besides, you have grown up, you have to learn to distinguish between right and wrong when you encounter problems, and you have to learn to take responsibility, and you can't always rely on me and your mother!"

After speaking, he patted him on the shoulder, then walked out of the room and closed the door, ending the short father-son communication session, leaving him a space to think about and grow.

The next day, at the Yingxian bus station, Ke Xiao dragged a heavy suitcase and walked in behind his father.

"Help me get a ticket to the provincial capital, I'm going to go on a high speed, thank you!"

Ke Xiao looked at his father's familiar movements, and suddenly felt that his nose was sour, starting from high school, plus four years of college, to graduation and work, every time he had a New Year's holiday, his father drove him off. Buy tickets from the town to the county seat, buy tickets from the county to the provincial capital, and buy tickets from the province to outside the province, time is like a white horse, I gradually grow up and go farther and farther, and my father's temples have been slowly mottled, I never think about whether my father has felt sad and reluctant to do this in the invisible corner.

"The ticket is purchased, let's enter the station and get on the train!"

Ke Dad shook the ticket he had just arrived, and naturally pulled over the heavy box, as if he was sending him away from home and school for the first time, smiling and pushing his child into the car, and then waving goodbye.

Ke Xiao sat in the window seat, looking at his father who was still standing and waving in the snow, his nose was sour, and he lowered his head and didn't dare to look. Snowflakes fell one by one, and with the cars that drove out, they gradually drifted away and became silent.

The lights were dim, Ke Xiao dragged his heavy luggage and got off the car, standing in the square in front of Zhengdong Automobile Center Station, looking around, with the cold wind fluttering in the noisy waves. took a breath, took out his mobile phone to open the navigation, first found a braised noodle restaurant, rested and comforted his tummy at the same time, took advantage of the gap between meals, Meituan found a place to stay, placed an order quickly, and then went straight to the destination.

Simple bunk beds, with a place to sleep, Ke Xiao held his old antique notebook, constantly refreshing the page, eager to find a job as soon as possible, preferably to provide accommodation.

This notebook was bought by him in his first year of college and working as a summer job to earn money. In the middle, because of improper operation, he also changed the motherboard once, and he could buy a new one after adding some money, but he was reluctant to throw it away, in his words, there are many good memories stored in it.

The advertisements on the webpage are more eye-catching than the content, scroll the mouse and quickly pull down the page, carefully inquire about every job opportunity, resist the desire to complain, fill in a resume carefully, click to refresh, and look forward to Bole appearing sooner.

Life is like this, there are some things that you don't like, you have to bend to cater to them, but fortunately, God is merciful, and after experiencing everything unsatisfactory, we can still sit down and have a beautiful meal, counting the pleasant times on the road to growth.

Wrapped tightly in the futon, the heating in the room was as if it was not turned on, and it was not powerful at all. It's ridiculous to think about it, the cold winter wax moon, the New Year is coming soon, and it is rare to come out to find a job at this time.

The corners of Ke Xiao's mouth rose, he smiled bitterly and laughed at himself, clicked on the mailbox, looked at several credit card bills inside, and silently complained about his financial difficulties, a little sour and didn't want to trouble his parents, and he didn't want to be an old man, not to mention that it was not allowed in reality, so it should not be a problem to have a college diploma, and it should not be a problem to work hard and support himself.

A slightly shabby small hotel, the Internet is not bad, in the hip-hop variety show, the old stalks are constant, barely relieving boredom, and steaming noodles drive away the fatigue of the day.

When I'm alone, I'm always cranky, and yesterday I swore that I was looking for a good job, but I just didn't want my family to worry. Smoking a cigarette, the smoke was filled, he choked and coughed, and he refused to admit defeat as if he was angry, and smoked two cigarettes in a row, his mouth full of bitterness.

Lying on the bed on his back, wrapping his head in the quilt in annoyance, Ke Xiao's mind was full of entanglements, the past, the present, and the future, repeatedly intertwined, good and evil, good and evil, constantly conquest, this helplessness that could not forget the past, but could not see the future, made him very panicked.

Ideals and reality are falling, even if you tell yourself not to forget your original intention, but life is too lonely, the hideous demon has long been waiting, want to take him into his arms, how to break free from the shackles of desire, tossing and turning in thousands of sorrows.