The time to return to the cold city is three o'clock in the afternoon.

A hotel with 501 rooms.

After a simple wash, Lu Siyu asked Dong Chenfeng if he wanted to sleep for a while, Dong Chenfeng sat on the edge of the bed and shook his head at her, patted the position next to him, and let her pass.

After Lu Siyu walked over, he leaned on his shoulder, Dong Chenfeng hugged her and said softly: "Gu Lan's wedding, you can go with me." ”

Lu Siyu didn't speak, Dong Chenfeng glanced down at her and asked with a smile: "What's the matter, afraid of meeting my mother?" Lu Siyu nodded, "Then you plan to never see her?"

"No, I just don't know how to face her. Lu Siyu fiddled with the ring on his hand and said worriedly, "What if。。。。。。 ”

Dong Chenfeng hugged her tightly and promised: "Don't worry, I will solve your worries as soon as possible, although my mother is a little strong, she is not an unreasonable person, you will know if you have more contact with her in the future." Dong Chenfeng hesitated for a moment and asked Lu Siyu, "Do you still have contact with your junior high school homeroom teacher?"

"Yes, he used to take good care of me when I was at school, so I would go to see him every year on Teacher's Day and New Year's Day, why did you suddenly ask this? Do you know my homeroom teacher?" Lu Siyu looked at him curiously.

"Oh, I know him, but I don't have his contact information, can you tell me?" Dong Chenfeng said and took out his mobile phone.

"Yes, but why do you want my homeroom teacher's mobile phone number?" Lu Siyu asked as he opened his phone's address book.

After Dong Chenfeng wrote down his mobile phone number, he said to her with a smile, "It's a bit of a private matter, I'll tell you later." ”

Lu Siyu looked at the time on his mobile phone and said silently: "Grandma, they should have taken the high-speed train back to Suicheng by now, and I can go home tomorrow." ”

After hearing this, Dong Chenfeng frowned, "For more than 20 years, have you always been like this?"

Lu Siyu smiled helplessly, "Yes, every time my dad comes back with Aunt Su Qin and them, I have to pack up all my things in advance, and not only that, but I also have to wipe off the traces of my life in that house, pretending to be that only my grandma lives there." I'll go back when they leave. Basically, my dad and they will come back every year during the Qingming, Mid-Autumn Festival and New Year, and sometimes they will take my grandma over during the Mid-Autumn Festival or the New Year, so I don't have to move out. ”

The smile on Lu Siyu's face was a little bitter, and she asked Dong Chenfeng, "Does it sound a little incredible?" I myself sometimes think back to it, and I will be shocked, I actually grew up like this, living like an 'invisible person'. ”

Dong Chenfeng's eyes were full of distress, he hesitated for a moment and continued to ask, "Haven't you ever resisted with your uncle? This kind of life is indeed very unfair to you." ”

A hint of loneliness flashed in Lu Siyu's eyes, but his tone was a little relaxed, "It doesn't matter, I think my dad probably doesn't care if such a day is unfair to me, if he really feels guilty about me, he should come to see me, but for so many years, not once, we have never seen each other face to face." ”

Dong Chenfeng was even more surprised, "Isn't it just necessary to hide Aunt Su Qin and Lu Yiqing, why have you never met your uncle?"

Lu Siyu frowned, and once again showed a helpless look, "Actually, it's not like I've never seen it, ten years ago on the first day of the Lunar New Year, I saw them once, that morning, the sound of firecrackers on the street came and went, crackling and noisy so that I couldn't sleep, after getting up, I walked back to the community like a ghost." As I was strolling around the neighborhood, I saw my dad come out of our unit with a tray of firecrackers in his hand. Before, I knew what he looked like through the photo album at home, that day, when I saw him with my own eyes, it felt very different from the photo, he himself looked taller and more heroic, I was standing not far from him and looked at him, my heart actually sprouted a trace of emotion, there was a voice in my head constantly echoing 'That's my dad, that person is my dad' My heart was beating very fast, and a warm current inexplicably grew in my body. ”

When Lu Siyu said this, she lowered her head and smiled, but her eyes were full of sadness, she sighed and continued: "Originally, I thought I would cry, but no, just when I had mixed feelings, Aunt Su Qin walked out from behind with Lu Yiqing, and the feeling that sprouted subconsciously suddenly disappeared. My dad spread out the firecrackers and put them on the ground, the moment the firecrackers sounded, they all quickly covered their ears, Dad pointed to the firecrackers on the ground and said something to Lu Yiqing, he was smiling very happily, and Lu Yiqing's eyes were full of love. It didn't take long for the sound of firecrackers to disappear, Dad walked over and squatted on the ground and made a gesture of picking up something and pretended to throw it at Lu Yiqing, Lu Yiqing was so frightened that she quickly hid behind Aunt Su Qin, Aunt Su Qin pulled her into her arms, and kissed her on the head while laughing, that picture looked really beautiful, and it didn't take long for them to go back, looking at the back of their departure, I quietly walked over and stood in the position where Dad was just standing, looking at the red fragments all over the ground, I was stunned for a long time。 ”

Dong Chenfeng took her hand, feeling distressed and didn't know how to comfort her.

Lu Siyu continued, "When I looked at them, I didn't know what I was thinking, it was strange, I was obviously very uncomfortable, but I didn't cry, I think at that time there was more envy than jealousy, loneliness was more than resentment, after returning to the hotel, I wandered around the room like a walking corpse, and finally turned on the TV, sat on the bed and watched the replay of the Spring Festival Gala, and kept recalling the picture I saw, the more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I became, the more I thought about it, the more lonely I became, when I heard the host say' This is a day of family reunion', I immediately couldn't hold back, and cried very loudly, I don't know how long I cried, I only remember that the hotel waiter came to knock on the door several times, probably afraid that something would happen to me, the hotel manager sent me a plate of dumplings at night, I held the plate of dumplings with red and swollen eyes and kept saying thank you, and couldn't help crying for a long time after closing the door. ”

"If it weren't for my grandmother coming to see me at noon, I would have been ready to pack up and go home, I really felt very wronged, and I had a lot of resentment towards my father, I don't understand why it's not my fault, but I have to bear the consequences, why I have to live this kind of disgraceful life, why I have to spend every year in the hotel, I obviously have a father and a mother, but I have to live like an orphan. ”

The corners of Dong Chenfeng's eyes began to burst into tears, and he asked Lu Siyu, "So, it was grandma who didn't let you go back at that time, right?"

"Yes, grandma told me a lot of things that I didn't know before, she cried and begged me not to go back, grandma is my dearest person, she has done a lot for me, so when I saw her crying in front of me, my heart softened. Lu Siyu was silent for a while, and continued, "It's good that I didn't go back at that time, otherwise the person who regrets it must be me." ”

"Why?" Dong Chenfeng was a little puzzled.

"Think about it carefully, if he recognizes me, what changes will it bring to my life? Except that I may call him a dad justifiably, it doesn't seem to have changed much, we haven't gotten along together for more than 20 years, and I don't have any feelings with him except for blood relations, so can I call him justifiably, he is my dad, as for the three words 'illegitimate daughter', I can't take it off if I recognize it, why bother. ”

"But don't you feel wronged?"

"Of course I will be wronged, I have suffered too much for more than 20 years because of the identity of 'illegitimate daughter', but it is better to be wronged by myself than by everyone else. ”

Lu Siyu breathed a long sigh of relief, "For a woman, the relationship from the beginning should be the happiest for her, if Aunt Su Qin knows that she has inexplicably been a stepmother to someone else, and the person my father loves in his heart has always been my mother, how do you think she will react? If Lu Yiqing knows that her name is her father's first love in honor of her first love, what do you think she will think?" My father is working in a government unit, and now he is in his forties, which is the golden age of his career, and suddenly there is an illegitimate daughter, does he still have a future? After deceiving everyone for so long, how will Aunt Su Qin's family view and accuse my grandmother? What's more, although my father personally works very hard at work, if it were not for Aunt Su Qin's father, my father would not have the results he has today. Therefore, the rational decision is like now, and I can't make up for what I owe me anyway, so it's better to fulfill someone else. ”

"So you're not expecting your uncle to recognize you, are you?"

"Yes, because I know that he won't admit me, if this kind of thing is not honest at the beginning, then if you want to be honest later, the price paid is too great, instead of expecting it, it is better to think about it a little freely, if he really admits that I am his daughter, of course I will still be very happy, but if it makes his life a mess, then I will have a great sense of guilt, so, forget it. ”

"Then when they come back, do you want to move out?"

"Yes, in fact, it's not just me who is working this matter, but also my grandmother, every time it's time for me to move out, she can't sleep well a few days in advance, and she will get up many times at night, no matter how calm and accustomed I have become in the face of the need for me to move out, my grandmother will say sorry to me many times every time I leave, and then cry and watch me leave, every time. When he said this, Lu Siyu suddenly raised his head and looked at the ceiling, but tears still flowed.

After several deep breaths in a row, she continued: " My grandma often takes advantage of the time to buy vegetables to come to see me, bring me food and snacks, she has a bad waist, walks very slowly, every time I see her faltering back when she leaves, I feel distressed by myself, when I was a child, every time my father they left, there will be a lot of delicious food at home, grandma said that this is my father specially bought for me, when I was in the third year of junior high school, Liao Jie and her mother went to the supermarket to buy things, and saw my grandma pushing a cart full of snacks at the cashier to line up to check out, when Liao Jie told me this, I realized that those things were not bought by my father at all, but my grandmother moved back from the supermarket by herselfThe supermarket is really far away from our house, she just wants me to feel that my dad cares about me, but in fact, I would rather accept the fact that my dad doesn't care about me, and I don't want her to work so hard, can you imagine how she is the age, carrying so many things to and from the supermarket several times? I can't help but want to cry when I think of my grandmother walking back with so many things!" After saying this, Lu Siyu really cried.

Dong Chenfeng hurriedly got up and went to the table to get a drawing paper, looking at Lu Siyu's uncomfortable appearance, he was also very distressed, but at the same time, he was also a little puzzled, since his uncle can be very fond of Lu Yiqing, then why is he so cold to Lu Siyu?

Dong Chenfeng looked at Lu Siyu and thought: Forget it, maybe even she doesn't understand why.