The moonlight shines on the windowsill, illuminating all the memories.

When he was in college, Dong Chenfeng often took the train to the school to find Lu Siyu, and every time Lu Siyu saw him, he was like a kindergarten child, seeing his parents, running happily and throwing himself into his arms, even if sometimes they would meet once a week, she would say: "You are finally here, I miss you so much." ”

At that time, I always felt that she was too clingy, and once jokingly told her: "You rely on me so much, if I leave you one day, do you have to cry to death?"

"Why do you suddenly ask that?" Lu Siyu's expression was nervous, as if he was really leaving.

Dong Chenfeng patted her head and said in an extremely doting tone, "Fool, why are you so nervous, I'm just assuming." ”

"It's not okay to assume, if you say you'll never break up, don't cheat. Lu Siyu was particularly righteous when he said this.

At that time, not only Dong Chenfeng, but even his friends and classmates felt that as long as he didn't mention breaking up, they would be together forever, because Lu Siyu always looked like he had followed him in this life.

Gu Lan listened on the side, and said with a smile, "It seems that you used to be quite sweet, and I can see that she is a very simple girl, but I have also heard some things about her from my aunt, but I always feel that my aunt has some personal emotions in her evaluation, especially when she is cold-blooded and ruthless, I think it must be an exaggeration, as far as my contact with her this afternoon, I don't think she is that kind of person, if she really is, you will not like her for so many years." ”

Dong Chenfeng nodded, "Yes, if she is really so cold-blooded and ruthless。。。。。。 Dong Chenfeng was silent for a moment, "However, she is indeed quite ruthless when it comes to breaking up." ”

The two of them continued to stroll in the snack street, Dong Chenfeng told Gu Lan about Lu Siyu's life experience, "Lu Siyu's parents have been together for a long time, her father has been working in Suicheng and has a new family, her grandfather passed away when she was two years old, and she has been living with her grandmother." Before junior high school, they had been in a small county town below the cold city, and they only moved to the city later. ”

Gu Lan nodded, "Oh, no wonder, my aunt said that she came from a small place." ”

Dong Chenfeng shook his head, "My mother always has some strange prejudices, but when it comes to Lu Siyu's cold-blooded ruthlessness, I think part of the reason may be because of me, on the day I brought Lu Siyu home to meet my parents, I told them that as soon as my 22nd birthday passed, I wanted to go to the Civil Affairs Bureau with her to get a certificate, and the wedding would be held after we graduated." But before I could get to my birthday, I was broken up, and my mom was very distressed when she saw how I was out of love, and felt that she had hurt me, and I think it was probably because of that. ”

"Part of the reason is that I don't believe it, my mother learned from Lu Siyu's junior high school homeroom teacher that Lu Siyu has never been able to accept her stepmother, and she can't forgive her father for separating from her mother, so Lu Siyu often speaks ill of them, and even sometimes fights with her stepmother, my mother thinks she is a little disrespectful and ignorant. ”

Gu Lan's eyes widened, and she looked at Dong Chenfeng in disbelief, "Really, it's fake? Lu Siyu will beat her stepmother? Oh my God, it's really unimaginable." ”

Dong Chenfeng nodded slightly, "You don't believe it either, in fact, I don't believe it either, but my mother is convinced and thinks that the teacher doesn't need to lie to her." ”

Gu Lan dragged her chin and looked thoughtful, "It's not unreasonable for my aunt to think so, after all, your father is the director of the Municipal Education Bureau in our Hancheng, and your mother is the vice president of the bank, and this matter came out of the mouth of a teacher, don't believe it, I think it seems that they really don't need to lie, but it's really hard to convince people, so have you asked for verification?"

Dong Chenfeng shook his head, "No, my mother only told me these things after we broke up." ”

Gu Lan frowned and asked, "They all broke up, why did my aunt tell you what she was doing?"

"Maybe I hope I can get out of that relationship as soon as possible, at that time she always felt worthless for me and said that I had a bad vision. Dong Chenfeng smiled bitterly and said to himself, "Love is love, how can it be worth it." ”

After Gu Lan heard Dong Chenfeng's mother's words, she said helplessly, "Aunt always has some family concepts. However, if Lu Siyu's relationship with her stepmother is so bad, is it because of her biological mother? Or is it because of her grandmother? Have you seen them?"

Dong Chenfeng thought about it carefully for a moment and told Gu Lan, " I think both of these situations are impossible, I have seen his grandmother, a very kind old man, growing up in such a family, Lu Siyu's personality can still be so good, I think it definitely has a lot to do with her education, and when I took Lu Siyu to my house, her grandmother cried and told me, let me take good care of her, said that she was a very poor child, and asked my parents not to dislike her background, as for her mother, Lu Siyu had never seen her before she went to college. ”

"Never seen before, that is, she has never lived with her parents?" Gu Lan expressed surprise again.

Dong Chenfeng nodded.

Hearing this, Gu Lan was a little worried, "Then she is really pitiful, and her grandmother is really not easy." It is really sad that left-behind children can wait for their parents during the Chinese New Year, so how did she meet her mother later?"

On the day she received the university acceptance letter, she told me that she wanted to find her mother and wanted to tell her the good news, but she only had a photo of her mother when she was young, and she didn't know anything else. At first, we thought it should not be difficult to find, but after searching for more than half a year, we have not been found. ”

Gu Lan suddenly interrupted at this time, "Her grandmother must know where her mother is from, don't you know where her mother is if you look for her grandmother's house?"

"I told her the same thing at the time, but her grandmother told her since she was a child that she would not let her go to her mother, and her attitude was very strict, and every time she mentioned it, her grandmother would lose her temper very much, so she must not let her grandmother find out about looking for her mother. ”

Dong Chenfeng continued, "One day during the summer vacation of her freshman year, she called me very excitedly and said that she had found her mother in Lixian County, but she had been uncomfortable for a long time since she came back, and it was the kind of discomfort that she would cry when she mentioned her mother, and I asked her what was wrong, and she only said that her mother was not easy and had a very hard life. Every time I saw her sad look, I didn't dare to mention it again. I wanted to go with you to see her mother, but she refused. ”

After that, she began to do all kinds of part-time jobs, saving money, saying that she wanted to save money, during that time I called her, seven times out of ten times she was working, I wanted to give her some money to go over, I didn't want her to work so hard, but she didn't want to, the attitude was very persistent. On the National Day of her sophomore year, she sealed a big red envelope for her mother and bought her a lot of clothes. ”

Gu Lan didn't expect Lu Siyu's family to be like this, and she didn't expect that when facing a mother who had never raised her, she not only did not complain, but also understood her difficulties, especially that she must use her hard-earned money to honor her mother. Such a sensible girl, why does my aunt still dislike her so much.

Gu Lan looked at Dong Chenfeng and asked, "Such a good girl, aren't you going to chase it back?"

Dong Chenfeng had a helpless expression, and his tone was full of sadness, "She doesn't love me anymore, and it's not interesting to be reluctant." ”

After dinner, Lu Siyu and Liao Jie sat on the rest chairs in the snack street, chatting about the interesting things that happened to them before, and laughed heartily from time to time.

Liao Jie asked Lu Siyu: "Do you remember the scarf I knitted for Chen Xiaoyi one winter?"

Lu Siyu suddenly laughed, "Is it the one that Chen Xiaoyi suspected after receiving it that you gave him a hanging rope?"

Liao Jie smiled and nodded frantically, "Yes, yes, he took a picture of me when he was packing up at home a few days ago, I didn't expect him to keep it until now, and her mother thought it was a rope, and said that she wanted to tie a quilt for it, which is so funny." ”

Lu Siyu also laughed after hearing this, and comforted her: "It's the first time, it's good to be able to insist on weaving, don't be too strict with yourself." ”

Liao Jie said: "But I really admire you, you learn and knit fast, and you take those knitted scarves to the nearby night market to sell, which is amazing." He gave her a thumbs up.

Lu Siyu smiled, deliberately slapped Liao Jie's hand, saying that she was exaggerating, and then lowered her head, her eyes also dimmed, at that time, it was during the winter vacation of her sophomore year, and there was no part-time job to do in Hancheng, so she could only earn a little money by doing some manual work.

In the winter of that year, at the coldest time, it was more than ten degrees below zero, and my feet were frozen and unconscious, and the wind blew on my face, as if I was being slapped by someone. When I go home at night, the road is too slippery, and many times I don't dare to ride a car, so I walk back.

In Lu Siyu's memory, he has never encountered such a cold winter as that year.

On the car back, Liao Jie asked Lu Siyu: "Tomorrow, my uncle and aunt will come back from Suicheng, right?

Lu Siyu nodded, "It's booked, the things are packed, grandma said that they will only stay for one day when they come back this time." ”

"Is grandma going back with them this time?" and why?" asked Liao Jie curiously.

Lu Siyu thought for a while and said, "I think it's probably because of Lu Yiqing, a month ago, when my grandmother was about to go to Suicheng, she only told me that my father's daughter was sick, but she didn't say what the disease was, I think it should be very serious, otherwise they wouldn't have stayed for one day this time." ”

Liao Jie nodded and continued: "How good it would be if they didn't come back, when I went out today, my mother asked me if I was here, saying if you should move out again." ”

Lu Siyu suddenly laughed when he heard the words "again", his eyes turned red when he smiled, so what can he do, in fact, he is also used to it, "I have already packed my luggage, you can go up and help me take it down in a while, I will wait for you below." ”

A hotel, on the same street as Lu Siyu's house, where slightly more senior employees know her.

After settling everything, Liao Jie told Lu Siyu to let her rest here tomorrow, but after she looked at Lu Siyu's legs, she was a little worried, "You are like this now, how can you leave the county to see Yu's mother the day after tomorrow?"

Lu Siyu picked up the umbrella that Liao Jie bought for her, "Just take this, it's really not okay to rent a wheelchair?" ”

"Okay, then tomorrow I will buy the things you need to prepare to leave the county and send them to you, you don't go out, have a good rest, maybe the day after tomorrow, your legs will be much better." ”

Lu Siyu hugged Liao Jie with emotion, and thanked her with tears in her eyes.

"Hey, thank you, friends say thank you and see you outside, call me if you need anything, it's not early, let's rest." Liao Jie patted her back distressedly.

After Liao Jie left, Lu Siyu took out a frame containing a black-and-white photo from her suitcase, and the person in the photo was her mother.

Lu Siyu looked at the photo and posted it for a long time.

Although many people say that her mother's departure is actually a kind of self-liberation, Lu Siyu still feels that if she hadn't gone to her and didn't recognize her, she wouldn't have made her already unfortunate life worse again, and if she hadn't said those words to her mother at the beginning, she might not have chosen to commit suicide.

It's been three years, and this is the deepest thorn in her heart.