Chapter 182: Staying Together
Li Mu's question made Su Yingxue's expression flash a trace of panic.
For Li Mu, he has always felt that he was a failure in his last life, so he has an instinctive lack of confidence in many memories of his previous life, his freshman starts on the afternoon of the last day of the college entrance examination, which is his life fault, after that, he is confident, resolute and tenacious enough, but before that, he is not sure.
In my memory, I was lackluster in the three years of high school, whether it was study, appearance, clothing, or family, I could only barely be considered average in the class, but Su Yingxue was different, her every move, smile and smile touched the hearts of the boys in the whole school, so Li Mu in the previous life always felt that his unrequited love for Su Yingxue would not bear fruit, even if he occasionally coveted her and had some confidence in this life, it was after rebirth.
However, Su Yingxue's words just now subverted Li Mu's consistent cognition, Su Yingxue was able to tell so many details in her three years of high school, which is enough to show that she paid attention to herself back then.
Seeing that Su Yingxue didn't speak, Li Mu said: "Let me tell you from the heart, I have actually been paying attention to you for three years of high school." ”
Su Yingxue smiled slightly, the previous panic disappeared, her face was filled with a different kind of confidence and relief, and she said to Li Mu: "Me too." ”
As she spoke, Su Yingxue picked up the can in her hand and said, "Let's drink one and make up for the previous one." ”
Li Mu said: "You just finished speaking, it was a parting wine before, why do you make up for it now?"
Su Yingxue said with a smile: "It's wine, as for the prefix." That glass of wine was a parting. Now this cup is ......"
Su Yingxue in front of Li Mu suddenly fell into thought.
She subconsciously said a comparison. I wanted to tell Li Mu that this glass of wine was no longer a parting wine, but had the opposite meaning, but when the words came to my mouth, I didn't know what words to use to describe it.
In her heart, there was a word, but she was too embarrassed to say it.
She felt that the missing cup was parting. The cup that was made up was to keep together......
Staying together is waiting for each other, which is very appropriate to the current situation between herself and Li Mu, but she also feels that the word "stay" is always used in love, and if she says it, will she be unreserved, and will it be misunderstood.
Li Mu saw Su Yingxue's words and fell into thought, and he knew in his heart that he was short of words. Su Yingxue didn't know how to run out of words, she must have thought of what to say. But just can't say it.
It just so happened that Li Mu also thought of that word.
So, he pretended to be casual and said, "Now this cup is together." ”
Su Yingxue was slightly stunned, Li Mu suddenly said this word, which happened to be what she was thinking, the reserve just now was swept away, she held her wine glass, nodded and said, "That's right, it's to stay together." ”
Li Mu raised his head and drank a bottle of wine again.
Looking at Su Yingxue again, she frowned and took a big sip, but she didn't expect to choke when she was about to finish drinking, causing a violent cough.
Li Mu gently patted her back and said, "Just take a sip and drink a little meaning." ”
"Not good. Su Yingxue's voice was a little coquettish: "I've never indulged myself so much, you just let me do what I want." ”
Li Mu nodded slightly, feeling a little more regretful about his attitude and performance towards Su Yingxue after he went to college, at least he should continue to pay attention to her like he did in high school, this is not forgetting his original intention.
The more and more wine he drank, when he thought about it, the amount of alcohol would become extremely poor, and a few bottles of beer in his stomach had already made Li Mu a little drowsy, but his mind became more cranky.
Looking back on Su Yingxue's life in her previous life, except for her love life, which seemed to be blank, she did very well in other fields, and she was successful in her studies and career.
It is also the impression of the previous life that troubles her, Li Mu has always felt that Su Yingxue is a very assertive woman, she sees problems much more thoroughly than her peers, and it is also much more long-term, so he has always thought that Su Yingxue is the kind of woman who does not rely on feelings at all, and the satisfaction of her life will never be provided by the opposite sex, but by hard work to realize her own values and dreams.
However, he didn't know that all along, Su Yingxue had just buried her dependence on feelings.
It's not just that she has quietly paid attention to Li Mu in her previous life, including these days, Su Yingxue has been thinking about him almost every day in her heart, but she feels very rationally that Li Mu must be busy these days, and he is entangled in all kinds of things, although he can't bring any substantial help to his career, at least he can't hold him back.
Su Yingxue was this kind of woman as light as water in her last life, even if she was concerned, she only kept her concern in her heart, and rarely let the other party know.
In the last life, the two tacitly concealed the concern in their hearts from each other, the night when Su Yingxue took the train north to study at the National People's Congress, she was thinking about Li Mu who was about to go to Jinling.
He wanted to know the news about Su Yingxue, so he found a spoonful of the poolside, because Su Yingxue was very famous in the school, Li Mu could see countless information about her directly on the edge of the pool, but Su Yingxue wanted to know his news, it was always difficult under normal circumstances.
She also paid attention to the forum of Li Mu's school, but throughout her freshman year, she didn't see any news related to Li Mu on it, and it wasn't until her sophomore year that she saw a photo of Li Mu's college band debut on a post, and she was still slightly lost at that time, because she knew that there were always a lot of girls around college students who played music.
Both of them are concerned about each other, but they both feel that the other party has long forgotten themselves, in life, there are countless men and women who have not been able to come together because of this, and the magnetic fields between each other are too similar, and sometimes they can be counterproductive.
So Li Mu chased Su Yingxue to Yanjing, but found that Su Yingxue went abroad, and the news that Li Mu stayed in Yanjing to develop was learned by Su Yingxue, and Su Yingxue gave up the dream of Wall Street and returned to China for development, but in the end, when the two finally took root in the same city again, Su Yingxue never waited for any news from Li Mu.
Like Li Mu, she also felt that there was probably nothing left in each other's hearts for a long time.
is still the same sentence, the huge Yanjing has never given the two of them a passing fate.
In the end, Su Yingxue devoted herself to her career, was forced by her family, and married the younger brother of a good sister when she was studying in the United States.
She and her good sisters both knew that the other party was gay, and Su Yingxue was going to get married, until the moment she put on her wedding dress in the United States, she still had a regret in her heart for many years: at the casual dinner after graduating from high school, she wanted to have a parting drink with Li Mu, but at that casual dinner, Li Mu was drunk too quickly, and when Su Yingxue just made up her mind to take the initiative to go to him for a glass of wine, he was already broken.
It's a pity that Li Mu doesn't know the inside story of these past in his previous life, and it is even more impossible for Su Yingxue to know the life trajectory she has gone through in her previous life at this moment.
However, Li Mu suddenly found something that he had never found on Su Yingxue on this night.
It's faith.
Perhaps, Su Yingxue is not the kind of strong woman who only cares about her career and dreams in her imagination; perhaps, she also burst out with the same thoughts as herself when she quietly paid attention to herself; perhaps, she also has the same longing for love as other girls.
The parting of the previous life, the stay of this life......
Li Mu repeated this sentence countless times in his heart, his life has already had such a big reversal, why not grit his teeth and turn him upside down? !
For a while, Li Mu seemed to feel his ambition, he suddenly raised his head, his eyes burst out with scorching brilliance, stared at Su Yingxue and said, "Yingxue, I'll chase you from now on!"
Su Yingxue was stunned as if she had been struck by lightning, she was surprised by Li Mu's words, why did he say that he would chase himself from now on, instead of directly saying that I like you like you like other men, you should be my girlfriend, the latter is the usual routine of confession, right?
What's more, she likes Li Mu, since she saw this guy who was groggy all day looking at her, the different kind of brilliance in his eyes, she found that somehow, she would be attracted by his small but dark eyes, sometimes, the feeling of liking a person does not need material, appearance or even ability to support, a long time can not forget the look back is enough.
However, Su Yingxue quickly figured out that if Li Mu directly said "be my girlfriend" like others just now, she would probably hesitate and struggle, after all, she not only promised her parents not to fall in love in college, but even she didn't make any preparations to fall in love, if Li Mu suddenly skipped the confession and asked for a clear answer directly to herself, I was afraid that she would be scared by him.
Li Mu now says that he wants to start chasing himself, this should be regarded as an alternative confession, right? This guy doesn't even take the usual path to confess.
Su Yingxue thought so, and her heart was also full of shyness and joy, she once read a sentence in a magazine, which probably means: If you like someone when you are young, the happiest thing is not that you can be together soon, but that you know that you like each other.
Su Yingxue blushed and asked Li Mu, "Then how are you going to chase me?"
"I don't know. Li Mu spread out his hand and smiled bitterly: "I haven't thought about it yet, you have to let me think about it." ”
Su Yingxue found that Li Mu usually does things very assertively and discerningly, but now she doesn't know why, she is full of dazed energy, and the whole person looks stupid, but she is still very cute.
Su Yingxue asked Li Mu with a rare shyness: "What is your purpose in chasing me?"
Li Mu said lightly: "Keeping each other for a long time, is it a test, anytime, anywhere, for a lifetime ......" (to be continued.) )