Chapter 132: A Feeling of Feeling
Leng Xixi took Chu Xinran into the exhibition hall to show the essence of the part to watch, and it was not until he entered here that Chu Xinran finally understood what Leng Xixi meant by what he just said, because there was only one painting on display here, and the huge picture was a woman.
When Chu Xinran saw this painting for the first time, she subconsciously glanced sideways at Leng Xixi beside her, and couldn't help but sigh heartily in her heart, "Like...... It's really like ......."
There is no need for Leng Xixi to introduce Chu Xinran and know in her heart who the model on this screen is, that is, Leng Yehan's sister and Leng Xiyan, Le Jingwen's beloved wife who can't be forgotten.
Although Leng Xiyan and Leng Xixi sisters have almost similar faces, Leng Xixi does not have the gentleness and elegance of Leng Xiyan, because she is more lively and cute, and that kind of recklessness and Leng Xiyan are completely two characteristics.
In addition, Chu Xinran also saw a slight similarity with Leng Yehan from Leng Xiyan's face in the picture, that is, her wise and mature eyes were very similar to her younger brother, and this feeling was also something that Leng Xixi did not have now.
Thinking of Le Xin'er, who had only met once that day, Chu Xinran felt that she had indeed inherited many of Leng Xiyan's advantages, but naturally she would also have the shadow of Le Jingwen, but her personality was more like Leng Xixi.
Chu Xinran felt that the reason why Le Xin'er was like this might have something to do with her since she was a child. It's not that those who are close to Zhu are red and those who are close to ink are black, the environment is really important for the development of people's character.
"How is it? Isn't my sister very beautiful?" Leng Xixi obviously didn't guard against Chu Xinran at all, and even her sister, who Leng Yehan had never mentioned, had no sense of privacy at all in her.
"yes, it's beautiful. Chu Xinran is sincere appreciation, Leng Xiyan's beauty cannot be described in words, her beauty is not only in appearance, but also in that kind of elegant temperament that no one can match, this is a model of a famous lady.
Looking at Leng Xiyan's portrait, Chu Xinran thought of the contents of the diary, and her body could conjure up Leng Xiyan sitting on the soft back of the bay window in front of her eyes, holding the diary in her hand to imprint her mood, emotions and Juanxiu handwriting into it.
"My brother-in-law has been preparing for this exhibition for a long time, but he didn't plan to hold it at first. Speaking of this, Leng Xixi's face showed a look of pain.
Chu Xinran looked at Leng Xixi's expression, she didn't expect that the third lady of the Leng family, who had a big personality and was a little crazy, would have such an emotional and heart-touching side. It can be seen that Leng Xixi's feelings for Le Jingwen are far deeper than Chu Xinran imagined.
For a long time, my brother-in-law's love for my sister has always been hidden in my heart, and no matter how sad he is, he will not say it easily. Every time I see my brother-in-law sitting alone in the studio, thinking that he used to have his sister by his side, but since then he has only been alone, I feel so sad that I want to cry. ”
Leng Xixi's emotions came quickly, tears overflowed as she spoke, Chu Xinran felt that she was thinking too much about Leng Xixi, after all, her feelings were all true.
"This painting, in fact, ...... Since my sister left, my brother-in-law has been painting. ”
Leng Xixi's words made Chu Xinran surprised, "What......? So many years?"
"Well, that's true. Leng Xixi nodded in affirmative.
"Oh my God......" Chu Xinran couldn't find the human language to describe his mood at the moment, "I felt when I saw it for the first time just now that this painting was definitely not something that could be completed overnight, but I didn't expect it to take so long." ”
This dedication and skill shows that Le Jingwen has a deep affection for Leng Xiyan. But thinking of this, Chu Xinran couldn't help but feel distressed for Leng Xixi, "According to this, have you been accompanying him to complete this painting all these years?"
"Hmm. Leng Xixi nodded lightly.
Although her answer was short and calm, Chu Xinran could imagine what kind of emotional experience it was.
Although the person in the painting is Leng Xixi's sister, and she is a person who has passed away, but seeing that the beloved man has been thinking about Leng Xiyan all the time, he can't respond to her feelings, and only Leng Xixi himself can feel the bitter mood.
"Xixi, it's really hard for you. Chu Xinran felt something, and couldn't help but hold Leng Xixi's hand, and her eyes became moist because of this feeling.
Seeing Chu Xinran so moved, Leng Xixi suddenly laughed, "Being able to watch him accompany him and not be lonely is actually a kind of happiness for me." ”
Leng Xixi wiped her eyes, although she was smiling, her tears were uncontrollably flowing, "I want to ...... And I believe that if my sister had a spirit in heaven, she would also hope that her brother-in-law would be able to get rid of her sorrows, that he would find his own happiness and live happily every day, instead of living in memories and melancholy for a long time, don't you say?"
In this case, only Leng Xixi can say it without scruples, Chu Xinran is very envious of Leng Xixi's casual personality, which she does not have.
"I feel so lucky to know you, because as long as I hear you talk, I feel that the sun is shining in the sky, the sun is smiling at me, and my mood is inexplicably better. ”
"Are you living a miserable life?" Leng Xixi suddenly asked, Chu Xinran was stunned, "I always feel that there seems to be some uncontrollable worry and sadness on your face, you don't seem to be very happy." ”
Leng Xixi's unintentional words just hit Chu Xinran's weakness and sore spot, she couldn't help but raise her hand and touch her face, squeezing out a smile as if she was fine, "Aren't I happy to make you look happy?" Maybe I was born with a face like this, but I was misunderstood." Hey, it's really helpless to think about it, do you want to go back to the furnace and reshape it?"
"Come on, you, go back to the furnace to reinvent it, your joke is really big!" Chu Xinran just said a few simple and common words, and made Leng Xixi laugh, and the low tone that she had suppressed as much as possible before couldn't help but increase slightly.
"Shhh
"Not only did I get my brother-in-law to agree to hold an art exhibition, but I also laughed here. I'm so unserious, and I don't know if my sister would scold me in her heart if she knew I was like this. After Leng Xixi finished speaking, he looked up at the portrait with many connotations and stories, "Sister, don't blame me, I also want my brother-in-law to open the knot in my heart." ”
Leng Xixi's mood changed very quickly like the clouds in the sky, and Chu Xinran felt that his thinking couldn't catch up with her. But even if Leng Xixi is like this, she is still a good girl with a very delicate mind.
"I wanted my brother to come and see him, but he said he was busy and wouldn't come. Leng Xixi suddenly said that Leng Yehan was cold, as if a needle had pierced Chu Xinran's skin at once, causing the pores of her whole body to instantly tighten together.
"It's certain to be busy, and I can end this, but I also know that my brother is more or less intentionally or unintentionally deliberately avoiding such occasions, because he can't control his emotions when he thinks of his sister. ”
Speaking of Leng Yehan's emotions, Leng Xixi's face became very solemn again, "I will never forget that day, although my brother did not shed tears, but the pain in his heart was as sad as if he had broken the most important part of his heart." ”
Leng Xixi sighed softly, "Alas, who made my sister the most important person to him, my sister is the only person who opens the lock of my brother's heart, except for her, no one can make my brother show his true heart and feelings." Since my sister left, my brother seems to have changed as a person, and he has become ...... It became unpredictable, and sometimes it was so irritable that it even felt unreasonable, and of course the relationship between him and my parents was just as incompatible. ”
Leng Xixi's words couldn't help but make Chu Xinran think of the cold night when he was grumpy, his cruelty and ruthlessness to Chu Xinran was perfectly reflected at that time, and it really made people unable to tell whether it was a person or a devil in front of him.
However, in addition to these, Leng Xixi's words let Chu Xinran know another thing, that is, the reason why Leng Yehan became what he is now is mostly because Leng Xiyan's departure has caused him a great psychological blow and damage.
Leng Xixi was completely caught up in the world of her own memories, and she didn't notice Chu Xinran's emotional changes, "Not long after that, my family decided to leave because they couldn't continue to live in this sad place. That evening, when the weather was getting colder and the autumn wind was setting, my brother stood alone in the lonely courtyard and watched everyone leave, but he still stuck there. ”
Leng Xixi couldn't help but shed tears, "After all, the main mansion ...... It can be closer...... Touch the place where the memories are matched, where the words and laughter of the older brother and sister remain. I know that my brother just doesn't want to fade into his heart with the passage of time, and gradually forget those memories and the real him and real feelings in his heart. ”
Chu Xinran's nose was also emotionally moved, and it seemed that he could see another picture in front of him, wearing a camel-colored plush sweater, standing alone in the lonely mansion of the Leng family in the autumn wind and falling leaves.
With sadness in his eyes, he silently watched his family leave one after another, and then turned around with a lonely expression, stepping on dry leaves and walking into the house, leaving only the sound of leaves squirming one after another......
Not only that, Chu Xinran couldn't help but think of the sad expression when he saw the violin playing the violin in the cold night that day, "It turns out ...... He's a guy with such a scar on his heart, and I'm ...... Never knew ......"
Chu Xinran hadn't noticed his muttering yet, and Leng Xixi let out a questioning voice, "Hmm, what did you just say, what did you just say, ......what didn't you know?" Brother Yifan, did you also take you to meet my brother?"
"Huh?" was asked by Leng Xixi, Chu Xinran came back to his senses suddenly, "I...... No...... No, I felt it because I heard what you said, so I felt it......" Chu Xinran hurriedly shook his head and denied it, complaining in his heart about how he could be so careless.