Zhuo Qun's life was completely eclipsed.

For him, everything around him has become black, white and gray.

The flowers have lost their fragrance, and the birdsong is no longer pleasant.

This rebirth made him lose interest in everything, and it can be said that he doesn't care anymore.

Because he has really tried his best to correct his life, to try to obtain the most valuable things in the world, to achieve all the things that a man expects.

But it's a pity that whether it's fame and career, or family, friendship and love.

It's only a temporary hand for him, and in the end it will be the moon in the mirror.

At a fixed time, he must return to the place of origin.

I couldn't grasp anything, like I had never touched it.

Then let's ask, if all the efforts will inevitably come to naught, and turn into nothing.

So why did he still try to get started, desperately fighting for and maintaining?

Isn't everything he has worked so hard to create meaningless?

And at this point, there is nothing more painful for him than the loss of his children.

Whether it is Zhuo Yue or Zhuo Zhi, it is a masterpiece that he is proud of and has created.

are all close relatives who are connected with him and infused him with infinite effort and affection.

Sincerely, in order to play the role of a good father.

He is really willing to sacrifice his life for the children if necessary.

But what is the result?

Two of his children didn't even grow up.

He will never see them form their own families, marry happily or marry each other, and continue their bloodline.

The reason for their existence seems to be just for him to watch them be erased from the world in vain.

The two children never existed in anyone's memory except himself, as if they had never existed.

So what is the meaning of these two children's lives?

As a result, he was filled with guilt, as if he was creating evil by giving birth to two children.

How could anyone be willing to leave the people they loved and created in an absolutely forgotten time and space?

He didn't dare to imagine what would become of his daughter and son after losing him.

Therefore, it is impossible for him to bear to see Guo Yue again, and even lose the idea of renewing his marriage with her.

Because the facts are right in front of you.

This sweet-faced girl was not the woman he should love.

She is nothing more than a blank slate for the woman, a projection of his psyche.

To put it bluntly, with his current situation, he should not form a family at all, marry a wife and have children.

Since I know that the result will only be emotional and spiritual death.

Insisting on repeating the process of shaping one's life is not only meaningless, but even bordering on masochism.

Why did he delay himself and harm others?

Such a mood can be described appropriately.

I'm afraid it's just like the poem chanted by Zhao Linger in the most popular computer RPG game "The Legend of Sword and Fairy" at this time.

"If you don't look back, why don't you forget, since you don't have a chance, why do you need to take an oath. Today's variety, like water without a trace, tomorrow and night, you have been unfamiliar. ”

Of course, no matter what, Zhuo Qun will not be short of money.

As a veteran reborn person who has gone through three lifetimes, he is too good at making money.

The process of obtaining the first pot of gold can be completed almost with your eyes closed.

This time he didn't even have to go to any market to find out.

He directly rewrote three reports on Zhongguancun, the postal market, and the stock market.

Then cast a wide net with the determination to buy and sell with a hammer.

In a reckless manner, postage stamps were mailed to dozens of newspapers.

Within half a month of the next month, he received remittances from manuscript fees in turn, and received nearly 100,000 remuneration at once.

Then he threw away the pen and paper, and only focused on using the money to enter the stock market to "play tricks".

As a result, in just three months, he had another five million, and he became a rich man who could do whatever he wanted and fully meet his material needs.

So at the end of the summer vacation of his freshman year, he quietly dropped out of school, disappeared from the National University of China, and never came back since.

He moved into the Zhaolong Hotel alone, planning to make a fake document to perfunctory his parents after graduation.

But since then, he has completely lost all other goals in life.

No one can understand, a twenty-year-old lad.

The feeling of being energetic all day long, but having nothing to do, wandering around.

No one knows that this young man still has the heart of an old man who has experienced vicissitudes.

Almost every day, I drank expensive vodka until midnight, desperately reminiscing about the past, not knowing the meaning of my existence.

Zhuo Qun is not even willing to see everyone he once knew again, so as not to cause too much emotional burden on himself.

And this creates a more unique and pathological psychology for him.

Don't look at him in the capital of the country, every day to eat and pass the time, he is in the most lively place for business and trade.

There are almost always people around him who provide him with thoughtful service, and are even willing to accompany him for pastime and chat.

But he couldn't find anyone to talk to about his predicament.

So he felt more and more loneliness and inexplicable depression.

And for this reason, he further needs to rely on spending money, relying on tobacco and alcohol, relying on materials, and relying on stimulating enjoyment to anesthetize himself.

To put it bluntly, people live with a heart, and a life without a goal is just like sailing without a compass.

It is most likely to lose one's way and indulge in the vortex of negativity and materialism.

Under this vicious circle, Zhuo Qun inevitably degenerated and became a Ximen official.

In the content of his life, more and more dewy marriages began to appear and accommodated.

It's not that hard at all.

Zhuoqun's final bottom line is never to make money transactions for this kind of fun.

But in certain places, such as nightclubs with bright lights and neon lights every day.

It was far easier for him to find a girl to sleep with than he thought.

Zhuo Qun's first target was met in a bar, which was completely temporary and absolutely accidental.

It was about eight o'clock in the evening, and when Zhuo Qun pushed the door open and came in, the band performance had not yet started.

From the crowded bar, he spotted a good-looking long-haired girl sitting alone on the bar counter, drinking a bottle of Corona beer stuffed with lemons in the mouth.

From time to time, her gaze drifted to the location of the door, and everyone who came in had to take a look.

It's like I've made an appointment with someone, and I'm waiting.

But whenever a man deliberately talked to her, she waved her hand and drove her away.

Zhuo Qun dared to go over at that time because it was purely boring, not because he liked her very much.

Because her face is too Internet celebrity, it is the kind of Korean face that is said to be beautiful, but it is difficult to remember, and it is distinguishable from the crowd.

Maybe at that time, his real thoughts were instead thinking about the boyfriend who could provoke this girl to fight.

He doesn't care, he beats or is beaten, for him now, the entertainment is almost the same.

Whatever the outcome, it has the effect of making him feel that he is still alive.

Unexpectedly, the Mercedes car key he put on the bar worked wonders.

He sat next to the girl and before he could speak, the girl asked him first.

"Is the car you're driving a Mercedes?"

"yes, you're interested in cars. ”

"It's okay, why don't you drive a BMW? Mercedes Benz seems to be liked by old men. ”

"Haha, that's a saying, but Mercedes Benz pays a lot of attention to safety and comfort. Besides, I drive a Mercedes-Benz trot, the kind of car that can be open-topped, and it is also driven by young people. ”

"Huh, Mercedes-Benz still has this kind of car?"

"yes, I don't believe it, how about I take you out and have a look?" ”

"That'...... All right. ”

In this way, when the two of them went out to take a look, Zhuo Qun naturally invited the girl to get in the car for a ride.

Maybe because Zhuo was handsome and handsome, the girl didn't refuse,

And in this way, the two of them listened to music and chatted in the car, and the girl forgot about waiting for others.

Even my boyfriend called and hung up.

Then the two of them went to drink in another place.

Finally came out of the bar, and the two of them went around again, and the girl turned herself into a car and agreed to let Zhuo Qun drive.

Even Zhuo Qun didn't expect that there would be a girl who likes cars so much.

It can be seen that some people claim that "they would rather cry in a BMW than laugh in the back of a bicycle", which is indeed a heartfelt statement.

But it's a pity that Zhuo Qun was so focused on driving that day that he even forgot the girl's name.

The phone was left, but because there was a new partner soon, it was never contacted.