Zhang Laohan looked at Xiao Mu's smiling face, and felt a lot more comfortable in his heart, which can be regarded as satisfying Xiao Mu's small wish.

"Let's go, let's go buy fried buns. Zhang Laohan said to Xiao Mu.

Before Zhang Laohan finished speaking, Xiao Mu ran forward with a toy.

Zhang Laohan shook his head and muttered, "This silly boy, a toy for him to enjoy." ”

It seems that because he had just been discharged from the hospital, Xiao Mu was extremely excited, chattering all the way, not saying that he was tired, nor letting Zhang Laohan carry him home, but walked home with his legs.

After arriving home, Zhang Laohan gave Xiao Mu a thumbs up, "Xiao Mu, you have grown up, your grandfather is almost unable to catch up with you, and you are also a man." ”

It is false to say that Xiao Mu is a man, but it is true to encourage and comfort Xiao Mu, adults like to listen to praise, let alone a child.

After eating, there was basically nothing to do, and of course Zhang Laohan would not let go of such a good time for chicken soup.

"Xiao Mu, come here, move the stool here, grandpa will talk to you. ”

Xiao Mu put on the appearance of a literati and inkman, his hands were half-clenched into fists, and he bowed slightly, "The contemptible person will come immediately." ”

"Silly boy, don't go yet. ”

was yelled at by Zhang Laohan, Xiao Mu could only obey, and ran to get a stool and sit next to Zhang Laohan obediently.

"Xiao Mu, do you know why grandpa beat you so angrily?"

When Xiao Mu, who has not yet been involved in the world, hears such a question, he will naturally think that he has lost other people's crops because of his own mistakes, which makes Zhang Laohan angry.

"Didn't you beat me because I you off, and I lost so much of my crops. Xiao Mu replied confidently.

Zhang Laohan glanced at Xiao Mu, and his eyes were full of innocence.

"I said Xiao Mu, what you said is right, it was because you were wrong and I beat you when you made me angry, but this is only one of the reasons. ”

"And what's the other reason?"

"You said, in this situation of our family, you have been adopted by us since you were a child, and when you were adopted, how many people in the village said not to let us adopt you, do you know how much pressure we have?"

Xiao Mu naturally couldn't feel the invisible pressure, what he saw was what he was, and he didn't think so much.

"And you don't want to be angry, but you always want to be angry with me, you always make people feel uneasy, and you are a laughing stock in the eyes of the villagers, you know?"

The atmosphere gradually sank, and Xiao Mu, who was originally elated, was eclipsed at this time.

"What we hope is that you will be obedient and not cause trouble, I hope you will grow up healthy and happy, and I hope you will be safe and sound, but what about you, how much trouble have you caused us for so long?"

Xiao Mu shrugged his head, hung his head in frustration, and let Zhang Laohan speak.

"Think about it, if we hadn't taken you in and gone back with your father, what would have happened, do you think it would have been better than here? No, let me tell you, your grandparents are so vicious, and your father is timid and cowardly, he will only listen to your grandparents, and will not protect you at all, maybe he wants to protect you, but he doesn't dare. ”

At this time, Xiao Mu remembered the days with his father in his mind, he clearly remembered how Ah Wen slapped Xiaoying before returning to Zhang Laohan's house, and he also remembered how disgusting his grandparents' ugly faces were.

"If, again, your mother takes you away, but your mother can't read a single word, how far can she go, even she can't take care of herself, let alone take care of you. She may have found a new father, how good can your new father be, your mother's conditions are there, besides, in the eyes of your new father, you are just your mother's child, not his child, that's all or whether he treats you well or not is another matter, maybe he will abuse you, who knows?"

Indeed, Xiao Mu's mother is a little stupid, saying that one is one, and never thinks about two, but Xiao Mu didn't feel it at that time.

"You once said that we don't let you play, you can't be as free as other children, I admit that we are selfish, we are afraid that you will be bullied by others, bullied by other people's children, because you don't have parents, others have parents. When other children have accidents, their parents are on top, but what about you? You only have us, we are the ones who take care of everything for you, your grandmother and I are old, and we can't stand it, so we didn't let you go out and be the same as other children, so free, indeed, we are selfish. ”

"But what about when we let go of our selfishness and give you freedom, so that you can arrange yourself freely like other children? Look at how many troubles you have caused and how many troubles we have solved for you, and you will know how much trouble you have caused every day. ”

Xiao Mu lowered his head and didn't say anything, just picked his nails with his fingers, and the corners of his eyes were a little red.

"Child, don't say that we are too you, we don't want to do this, but we just want you to live a better life, and we also hope that you can grow up healthy in the future, your grandmother and I are still a little young, but without us, what about you, if something happens to you, who cares about you? No one will care about you, only when you are strong can you protect yourself." If we don't do this now, you won't even have a future, so what can you talk about protecting yourself?"

Although Xiao Mu was not very sensible at that time, people have feelings, and Zhang Laohan's words may have just hit Xiao Mu's heart, and tears dripped down and dripped on the worn flip-flops.

"So, whether now or in the future, you must not blame us for being too cruel to you and failing to give you and other children such a good childhood, your childhood is destined to be a lot less happy than others, and a little more sad. I think one day, you'll understand, I don't know if you're listening to me, or if you're listening to a little bit, even a little, and I'm already satisfied. ”

After speaking, Zhang Laohan took out a cigarette stick and lit the cigarette, maybe today's smoke is a little smoky, and the corners of Zhang Laohan's eyes are also a little moist, whether it is smoked, it is unknown.

The two were silent and stalemate for a long time.

"Okay, the cigarette is finished, and the things that need to be said have been said, stop sitting here, wash and go to sleep, I'm going to sleep too." Zhang Laohan walked straight to the room, without looking back, maybe he was worried about the flowing water, and it was shameless to cry in front of a child. He still muttered, "Why am I so embarrassed by a child like a." ”

After Zhang Laohan left, Xiao Mu also went back to the room. The moment he lay on the bed, he couldn't hold back any longer, and his eyes were like a dam bursting the embankment, and he couldn't stop gushing out.

At this moment he couldn't cry anymore, he wanted to cry out loud, but he couldn't, he tried to make his cry quieter, and bit the pillow.

My mind was full of what Zhang Laohan had just said to himself, and the pictures of the past emerged one by one. Evoking memories, wet pillows.

Even though Xiao Mu had tried his best to restrain his movements, Zhang Laohan next door still heard the crying, how could he sleep peacefully.