58. Heart-wrenching
Although her mouth was a little harder, in her heart, she was very grateful to her brother, without her brother, what would she have?
Who can know her Li Qin?
Such an old-fashioned name?
Or is she a country girl in northern Anhui?
All her starts are at the lowest level, and it is only because of the existence of her brother that her life is counterattacked!
"I know he's working hard. Li Lan put down his chopsticks, "Mom has always told me that my father has never been really happy in his life, and I don't know why he is unhappy, but he is unhappy, so he hopes that we will be happy, but what he thinks is happy is not what makes me really happy." ”
From the time he could remember seriously, he thought he didn't understand anything, so he often sighed in front of him, smoked, drank, and cried so much if he didn't pay attention, he didn't understand.
When he slowly grew older, he was giggling in front of him, and he became heartless.
By now, he has become a feudal patriarch who likes to do things, which makes him even more incomprehensible.
- "Don't blame him, it's not the same era as us, he, seriously," Lao Wu shook the red wine in the cup, "cry, get through, your grandmother didn't say anything, your aunt secretly told me, he..."
The words didn't come out, but the tears came out first.
Phuntsok watched blankly.
Li Lan was even more at a loss.
"I'm sorry to let you see the joke. Lao Wu wanted to endure it hard, but the more he held back, the more uncomfortable it became, and the more tears he felt.
"Aunt Li, I'll go to the bathroom first," Phuntsok realized that it was inappropriate to stay here any longer, "It's okay, Auntie, I'll go by myself." ”
After speaking, I hurriedly went to the back bathroom.
"You see, I'm ashamed to drink this. The fifth child smiled reluctantly embarrassedly, "Old nephew, don't dislike your aunt, your father is wronged by us, even if he is wronged by your two children, I really don't know what else he has in this life." ”
"Auntie, what do you want to say. Seeing her aunt like this, Li Lan panicked and didn't know what to do, and hurriedly handed her a tissue.
"Don't look like a person now," she didn't take the tissue, and the tears still flowed down her face, "You've heard his nickname, second-rate, don't care about anything, your grandmother raises five children alone, your aunt is the oldest, and she does all the heavy work and hard work behind her,"
Her favorite sister still has severe frostbite scars on her hands.
"As for your father, to be strong, is to study to find a way out, he can see farther than anyone else, your grandmother, your aunt, try your best to raise tuition for him, give him food and drink....."
"Cry, I've heard my mom say that. Li Lan was really uncomfortable seeing his aunt like this, in his impression, his aunt was an optimist, and he had never seen her cry.
This was the first time he had seen her snatch her snot and tears.
"There's more you don't know, your dad is 13 years older than me, and I know that he is good for me in everything, but I just can't help but calm my temper, and I want to go against him for everything, once, during the Spring Festival, I and your dad were angry again, I was angry that I didn't eat for a day, and your aunt brought me food and coaxed me to eat. The old five's cries grew louder and louder.
"I beat the rice bowl with a wave of my hand, and at that time, your aunt cried," Lao Wu wiped his face and pointed at Li Landao, "Your aunt pointed at my nose like this, you girl, why is it becoming more and more disagreeable!
"Aunt...."Li Lan felt that she was in an emotion.
"Your father will be in high school in the county, there was a heavy snowfall one year, your grandmother's house had no food, the whole family had nothing to eat, your grandmother wanted to be close to me, and your fourth aunt, so she didn't send steamed buns to your father.
Later, your aunt really remembered it in her heart, and she couldn't bear to see your father hungry, so she borrowed two yuan and a few steamed buns from your aunt Qiufen's house, braved the snow, and almost broke her bones, so she sent them to your father.
Do you know what your dad was starving like?
He was lying on the bed, rotten cotton mattress, for three whole days, freezing and hungry, no one asked him, when your aunt went, he was already hungry, but he was hungry like this, he didn't ask anyone, he didn't take soft clothes with anyone..."
It's already silent.
"Nobody told me..."
At this moment, Li Lan's tears came out, and he pressed his throat, without a sound.
"What your aunt said, he almost starved to death, your father's life, everything is on the verge of life and death. Yes, I know, I'm not a good thing, but I really beg him to leave it alone!" The fifth almost yelled, "the more he treats me, the more uncomfortable I feel, and I have the heart to die." ”
"Auntie, it's all my fault...."Li Lan wiped her tears or not, he didn't know if his aunt was angry at his ignorance.
"Do you understand why I always quarrel with Fang Tangjin? I care about him well, but it's a bit of a big fart, he wants to find your father, your father is hard enough, I still want him to worry about me, I really don't want to see him frowning again, I want to cry when I see him once, the more I want to cry, the more I want to cry, I want to scare him, I just want him to understand, it's time to live for himself, we people are not worth his effort..."Lao Wu lit a cigarette, "Your father was already gray-haired when he was less than thirty years old...."
"Dad, it's still...."
Li Lan lowered his head.
"He's only less than thirty years old..... Lao Wu ignored the eyes of the guests next to him, and finally cried loudly, "It's all over my head, I want to pull it off, but I don't know which one to pull...
Your mother's temper is violent enough, but think about it, why your mother can stand your father, is because your father has been bitter enough in his life, no one can bear it anymore, and he continues to be wronged!"
"Aunt, don't talk about it...."The knife, with a prid of thorns, twisted his heart.
"I'll say this last sentence again, maybe your father is dead to us brothers and sisters, but you are his son, he has to live no matter what, and if you don't understand him, what's the point of his life?" She really doesn't understand what her brother is trying to do all his life!
She can only feel sorry for her brother!
"Auntie, let's have one more drink," Li Lan held up his glass, "I'll go home tomorrow." ”
"No, you have to bow your head so quickly, and make him proud, there are some things that you can keep in mind and understand the difficulties of your father's life. ”
When Phuntsok came over, the aunt and nephew had already drunk six bottles of sake, not counting the red wine.
Fang Jintang came to pick up the fifth child.
Li Lan smiled at them and left secretly.
Hiding at the intersection, he secretly watched his aunt's anxious appearance. 、
Sent a message: Aunt, I have arrived at school.
ps: I know in my heart, everyone is annoying me, and the old hat will finish the book as soon as possible...