"Do you know why Leng Yueming and I divorced?"

These incomprehensible words made Song Xijun a little overwhelmed. Especially mentioned that sensitive person, Song Xijun didn't feel good in his heart. So there was no squeak.

"There was a time when I just wanted pure love. I don't think family differences can cause emotional distress for two people. But I was still wrong after all! The superiority of their family is in their bones, and the more humble I am, the more I am lost. After all, the relationship between two people can't compete with the contempt revealed in those trivialities. ”

Song Xijun wanted to say that he wouldn't! He would never! He would never let such a thing happen. But Wen Qingshui obviously didn't want to hear him.

"You know what I'm going to say, Heejun, though I know it's highly unlikely that you'll like me. ”

Song Xijun was obviously dissatisfied when he heard this. Why is it so little? I already like you. You just don't know.

"But I'm going to make it clear. I hope you don't do too much for me, even if it's the slightest chance that you don't like me. Because I can never respond to you. You're so good, if one day I find out that I like you, I'll just run away. Escape to a place where there is no you. ”

Song Xijun was very hurt when he heard that she was going to run away from him. But he had to restrain himself as much as he could.

He looked at Wen Qingshui calmly, but he was actually sad as if he was frying. In addition to feeling sorry for myself, I feel more distressed. I feel sorry that she was hurt so deeply in her heart, and she has endured so much. So much so that in his heart he no longer accepted his feelings. What did he have to do to open the barrier in her heart.

"Heejun, as a friend, you have done so much for me. I just wish you could pay less, because I really can't afford it. ”

"I never wanted you to give anything back. Song Xijun said a little angrily.

"You don't want to, but I think, I can't allow you to give so unequally, and I'm indifferent. But I can't get the same amount of your efforts, even if it's a lower one or two returns. But there's so little I can do for you. Although I sold the house, it was only enough to cover the medical bills you paid for me. ”

Seeing what Song Xijun wanted to say, Wen Qingshui hurriedly said: "I know you are not short of money, but now, I can't do anything except pay you back some money?"

"Xijun, listen to me, I used to think I was a downright woman. But now I look down on myself! I don't know how you define a friend. Maybe it's because you're capable, and that's how you treat your friends. But in my heart, I have always felt that only equality between friends can last. Not only the equality of status, but also the equality of pay. I know that you have done so much, and I am powerless, but I still have to enjoy everything you have done for me with peace of mind, and I still have to say these things to you. I felt selfish and mean. ”

"I don't understand why someone would want to treat me against me, I'm just an ordinary person. I simply couldn't figure it out. What saddens me even more is my incompetence. Faced with such a situation, I was completely overwhelmed and had no power to fight back. ”

"Remember being in the parking lot of the hospital? I was scared. If those two people were coming to catch me, and I couldn't move my hands and feet, I wouldn't even have a chance to run. I can't do anything right now but accept your protection. And everything you do, the only thing I can do is to keep it in my heart first. If one day you really need me, and what can I do for you, I will definitely be obligated to repay you as much as I can. ”

"Qingshui, I'm kind to you, not to make you repay me. I did all this without thinking about getting an equal return from you. I think of you as someone very important to me, and I want to do something for you? ”

"I know that you are a competent friend, and it is because of this that I can't let you lose. ”

Wen Qingshui is a friend when she opens and closes her mouth, and it seems that she has drawn an insurmountable gap in the relationship between the two people. If he confesses now, I'm afraid she won't even be able to live here!

Song Xijun really felt nerve-wracking. When he could go further, because of his cowardice, he made up the character of Mr. and drew himself outside. Now it's harder to get in again than to climb to the sky. Thinking of this, he went on to say:

"Qingshui, I don't need you to repay me. I've always treated true friends like this. Song Xijun pondered the words helplessly. "Like you said, I'm very good, it's easy to find a girlfriend, not to mention that your conditions are not very good. So you don't have to worry I'm going to like you. ”

"That's good!"

Wen Qingshui said, but his heart was a little sour. It's one thing to want him to like you or not. But the thing that came out of his mouth seemed to be something else. After all, there is vanity at work in it! She found what she thought was the best explanation for her sourness.

Wen Qingshui was still thinking nonsense, and at this time Song Xijun continued.

"Also, you don't think you can match my efforts, but I really need your help. And so far you are really the only one who can help me. And this is the biggest thing for me about my future happiness. Would you be interested in helping me?"

"Really, did you say this on purpose just because I could feel less pressure?" Wen Qingshui was a little curious and incredulous, what could she do to help him?

"Of course, it's not a random one. When it comes to what I need you for, you can't keep it a secret from me! It's been my secret for so many years, and it's my hidden disease. ”

"I promise, what you say to me, I'm rotten to the stomach, and I won't say it to anyone. ”

Song Xijun saw that she was really attracted and wanted to help him wholeheartedly. I almost swore an oath, and I didn't know whether to be happy or sad. Even if he had already said it, he had no choice but to bite the bullet and continue. but in his heart he despised himself even more.

"I met a girl when I was in junior high school. She is as pure as the moon in the sky. We've had the best three years together. Something happened to my family. I thought everyone had betrayed me, and neither would she. But I heard that she did not hesitate to slander me in order to please the person who had put me in trouble, and even degraded my relationship with her to worthless!"

"Then I gained momentum again. If she stays away from me, maybe I will still retain a touch in my heart. After all, I can understand that she chose that way at that time. But she came back to me. The world was peaceful with that thing whitewashed. ”

"And in order to win me back again, she even used the eyes of thirty-six tricks. I looked at her indifferently from beginning to end, I didn't expect a woman to be so realistic. Calculations, chain calculations, and even everything can be done. I was utterly disappointed. Not just for her, but for all women. ”

"In my opinion, women are really the most terrible creatures. Since then, I haven't had a woman around. Until now, I have all kinds of women around me, but I still feel nothing but disgust. Any woman who comes close to me for a meter and I'm going to be grumpy. You know it's a serious mental illness. I've seen a doctor for this, but to no avail. ”

"But I am a man, the pillar of the Song family, I can't live a lifetime alone, I want to marry a wife and have children. But the way I look, it's impossible!"

For the first time, Wen Qingshui knew that a strong man like Song Xijun also had such pain in his heart. There is also such a hidden disease. Looking at him calmly, her heart tingled. What is a friend for? It's about comforting, it's about helping. But she didn't know what to do.

But was that really the case? She never thought he had such a problem! He had kissed her, albeit on the forehead. How could he explain that? He was false? Then why did he say that, just to make her feel better? But what if he hadn't made it up casually?

"Qingshui, you are the only exception!"

"Exception, the only one?" surprised her.

"Yes! Ever since I saw you in the library, I didn't reject you, but I always felt like I wanted to be close to you."

Song Xijun didn't fail to see her puzzled eyes. But in reality he didn't lie either. It is true that he rejects women, and it is true that he has not had a woman by his side for so many years, except for her.

"You don't believe what I said?" Song Xijun asked with some injury. "You can check with Tang Bowen and everyone you know. Believe it or not, no one has spent the night in the villa where I live except you, not even my aunt. ”

"Are you sure you didn't say this to comfort me? Did you say this because you saw that I was stupid and had helped Long Xiu? Actually, I already regret that incident!"

"Don't I have any credibility with you? Not at all what you think. Do you remember that I didn't know you for long, I was always capricious! Actually, I was confused at the time. On the one hand, I want to stay away from you, and on the other hand, I unconsciously want to get closer to you. So every day I'm at war. In a moment this side wins, and I will take a few steps in your direction. After a while, the other side won, and I'll push you away again. ”

Song Xijun was a little helpless. I don't blame her! In fact, what he said was a secret, and where was a hidden disease! Tang Bowen knew all of them, and it was not as serious as what he wanted to say. But now in addition to saying this, what better way can Wen Qingshui reduce the burden on his heart?

"No, I didn't mean that, but what was so special about me? ”

"I don't know, that's why I'm going to stay close to you. I'm looking. When I find it, maybe I'll be normal. ”

"You see, I'll cooperate with you!" Wen Qingshui said firmly.