Ordinary and happy days are always easy to pass.

Just when Zhou Heng lived a dull life every day and waited for the birth of his child with peace of mind, a news was suddenly exposed on the sheep farm, which was concerned by countless people.

The development of things was unexpected and completely unexpected.

The total number of sheep farms is now more than 1,000, and the number of sheep seedlings that entered last year was 500, but until now, the total number has reached more than 2,000 after breeding once.

But until now, in addition to offline hotel orders, they are also sold online, and they are already in the food center of the village for tourists to taste, so there are only more than 1,000 left.

The sheep in the sheep farm have increased, and Zhou Heng has of course increased the manpower to take care of the lambs and ewes.

Originally, everything was quiet, but the sheep farm suddenly attracted people's attention, but I didn't expect it to be because of Wang Caijun.

Before the Chinese New Year last year, Zhou Heng received a request from this fan, saying that he wanted to live on his sheep farm for a period of time, because he was depressed, and he thought of living in a place where there were no people.

Zhou Heng agreed with him, and then the guy came over in the snow, he hadn't been at home for a year, and he also brought tents and other equipment that had lived here for a long time.

After arriving at the sheep farm, Wang Caijun, who had never done any farm work, couldn't even sweep sheep, and later learned all the big and small affairs of the sheep farm, and could help Zhang Yunxi and them do anything.

Probably this kind of labor and farm work, as well as the free living environment, made him slowly cheerful.

Especially a while ago, he picked up three birds that had just come out of the shell and were blown down by the wind, and he tried to raise them himself, which probably broadened his mind more and let him get out of depression.

Everything was fine, and suddenly something was put on the network and spread like a bomb.

It turns out that Wang Caijun's depression is for a reason.

Three years ago, he had a girlfriend, fiancée to be exact, and they had reached the stage of talking about marriage and working hard for it.

One day, he was so busy working overtime that he forgot the time, and his girlfriend came to him with a birthday cake, but he didn't wait for her, but waited for the news of her car accident.

It's so unfair in this world, she carried a birthday cake, walked on the sidewalk with a green light, didn't provoke anyone, and a drunk luxury car rushed over.

For a while, time seemed to stand still, and the people who were going to get married were separated by yin and yang.

At that time, Wang Caijun was very sad, and when no one was around, he often washed his face with tears all night.

The bed that you are used to sleeping in every day is destined to be one less person forever. The cup in which she drank water would never wait for her master, and her bags would never be carried again.

And when he returned to the company, his mind couldn't calm down and couldn't work properly.

used to work hard and desperately, just to find a way to make money and earn their future, so busy that she couldn't even go back to celebrate her birthday in advance.

If it weren't for that, she wouldn't have had to rush over with her birthday cake, and she wouldn't have had an accident.

They should have been together and lived happily, but now he was left alone.

So, what's the point of such work?

He blamed himself very much, if he hadn't been too busy and didn't even squeeze out a little time, she would definitely not have died.

I wanted to use my job to dismiss, but it turned out to be even more depressed and I couldn't continue, so I quit my job and went home.

When his parents saw him, they were also very worried about him, and took care of him carefully every day, for fear that a sentence would arouse his sadness, and made him laugh every day.

However, it is precisely like this, which reminds him more and more of their every expression: Your girlfriend is dead, but you still have to live well, don't think about it, otherwise we will be very worried.

He couldn't see them like this, but he had to squeeze out the smile that had let go of everything to comfort them and reassure them, because he was not too young to let his parents worry about him.

So, he was cheerful and sunny on the surface, and continued to look for a job, but his heart became more and more depressed, sometimes he felt breathless, every time he stood by the window of the high-rise, or stood on the bridge, looking at the gurgling water under the bridge, he couldn't suppress the urge to jump.

Sometimes when he sees a knife in the kitchen, he wants to cut his own artery again.

When he saw the wine in the house, he thought that if he burned some charcoal and drank some wine, he might die unconscious.

He didn't want to see the sympathetic look of others when they looked at him, he didn't want to hear the comfort of others, and he didn't want to say to others at such times, "Don't worry about me, I'm fine, the past is gone."

By chance, I saw Zhou Heng's video - of course, he would also watch other people's videos.

One day he suddenly had that thought, like a sheep farm where there are no people, it's really good, free every day, maybe it will be his paradise.

Death can't really die, and he still has the last line of defense psychologically, that is, his parents.

If I die, what will happen to my parents?

So he contacted Zhou Heng to see how it was here.

It's really good here, he doesn't have to force himself to laugh, he doesn't have to talk a lot to others, and Zhou Heng doesn't look at him with sympathy or comfort all day long, which makes him really relaxed.

He has a habit of often sending something to his girlfriend's WeChat account, such as "I have fish for dinner today, it's okay, it's more to your taste", or "It's windy today, it's a little cold, and I'm wearing a coat".

It's the kind of daily chatter, as if the two are still together.

Because she used to complain that he ignored him, it was rare to say three sentences all day long, treating her like transparent air, and she didn't even quarrel with her.

Now, let's add back all the things I haven't said before, doing these things can make him feel a little better.

Sometimes it's a sentence that doesn't matter about the weather changes, and sometimes I send a picture to tell me where I went to play today and what I saw interesting.

It's as if she can still receive it.

After coming to the sheep farm, he continued this habit.

"It's snowing today, it's cold, I went to the sheep farm, it's very quiet, the snow hasn't melted at all, it's white, there are no footprints, if you come, you will definitely like it here." ”

"Today I swept sheep for half a day, and I was sweating on such a cold day. Sheep stinks!"

"The moon is so full tonight, if only you could stay with me. ”

"The grass on the ground is starting to turn green, and it's growing so fast, I've never seen it before, and you haven't seen it either, have you?"

"I folded a handful of flowers and handed them to a very beautiful little ewe, and the guy opened his mouth and ate them all, hahaha. I miss you so much. ”

"Today there is a sheep fell on the leg, Lao Zhou came to tie it with a stick, these days this guy can only be tied in the sheepfold, and then go out with the big team when he grows up, so pitiful, look at me and keep screaming. ”

"The lamb's wound was healed, I fed it for several days, and talked to it, and now it sticks to me every day and grazes with me. ”

"Tonight the sky is full of stars, do you have one of them? I really want to die, if I die, I can be with you. But I can't, I have to live, it's painful. ”

"Today, when I was grazing sheep, I saw a cliff, and after looking at it for a long time, I almost wanted to jump off, and suddenly a little lamb next to me barked at me. It climbed up a rock, but it couldn't get down, and it was begging me for help. I put it down, and I didn't want to jump anymore, maybe it saved me. ”

"Today the wind started, the wind was very strong, and it was whining, just like the sound of your tantrum at me before, which made me feel a little scary, and then I saw a few little birds on the ground, and their feathers had not grown, and they were about to starve to death, so I picked them up. ”

"The little bird has such a strong vitality, and it came back to life after feeding a few grains of rice, and it was still barking at me. ”

"No, the birds are so good to eat, I can't afford to raise them. ”

"These debt collectors, when they see me, open their mouths, am I their mother? How do they know that I have found worms for them? ”

"It's over, these birds were raised stupid by me, they only know how to open their mouths and wait for food, they have no ability to survive at all, and when they see insects, they only know to open their mouths, waiting for insects to crawl into their mouths. ”

"The stupid birds have grown up again, they were so ugly when they were young, but they didn't expect to be quite beautiful when they grew up. If you see them, you'll love them. ”

"Today is another day to admire the bird's appearance. ”

"The birds are so beautiful. ”

"It's nice for the birds to chirp. ”

"The birds are so cute. ”

"I never had time to play the guitar you gave me that year, and then you left, and although I always carried the guitar with me, I never had the courage to play it again. Today is your death day, and I think I've come out and played a song that you like. The bird kept standing on the guitar and listening to me play. Is it your incarnation?"

"I think I really came out, I won't be sad anymore in the future, I have to live well, but I will never forget you. ”

"Well, I won't message you again, this is probably the last one. ”

Of course, he also knows that a living person always sends a message to a past number, how weird it looks.

He is now out of the woods, and he doesn't have to rely on this ritual to continue to live. But that doesn't mean we have to forget her.

And the guitar she gave him, now he can play it almost every day, the birds can fly, they will forage for food, but they will often come over to accompany him, stand on the guitar and listen to him play.

It was all over, but just after he sent his last message, he received a reply:

"Come on, buddy! Congratulations on coming out and living a more active life in the future! I'm sorry to bother you.

This is a new mobile phone number I applied for two years ago, and then I signed up for WeChat, and then I have been receiving messages from you. I'm sorry to see your every feeling, and thank you for healing me.

Speaking of which, I was really sad for a while, I was betrayed by a scumbag and my best friend, I was worse than dead during that time, I smashed my old mobile phone and changed my new mobile phone number, so I saw your news.

I see your mood every day, and your pictures and videos, I don't know why, I feel as if someone is comforting me, warming, healing, and making me strong.

I've been silently watching you send messages, but I haven't replied to you, because I don't want you to be sad and lose this sustenance.

You are such a very nice man, very affectionate, I believe that your heavenly girlfriend must be able to feel it, and now to see that you have finally come out, I think she will also be happy.

Bless you, stranger. ”

Wang Caijun was taken aback, he didn't expect that his girlfriend's old WeChat account had already been inherited, and he didn't expect that he had been talking to a stranger for a few years.

However, now that he has come out, he doesn't feel anything, but chats with each other a little bit and encourages each other.

The world of strangers suddenly brings a little warmth to people.

In order to commemorate this mood and say goodbye to the past, Wang Caijun applied for a trumpet that no one had and put this experience on it.

I thought no one cared about it, but I didn't expect it to be seen somehow, and it also triggered a forward.

More and more people retweeted it, and countless people said that they were teary-eyed and blessed him to get out of the past and embrace a new life again.

In the past two years, more and more people have paid attention to depression, but it is not common to record the mood like this and finally get out.

The moods he posted, sometimes accompanied by a picture, sometimes accompanied by a small video, seem to connect him in the past few years, and let more people learn to understand the experience of depressed patients.

The number of retweets is getting bigger and bigger, Wang Caijun seems to have become a celebrity, and the sheep farm that once healed him has gradually attracted attention along with his fame.