Chapter 66: Your Past
The emptiness of the room at this time, the refraction of the moonlight. I saw Gu Shenghe's face clearly, his tired face.
Listening to his heartbeat, I hate myself now. I was so cowardly in the face of his bravery.
He guarded my innocence, but I couldn't guard his bravery.
The self-blame in my heart can't be described, and I thought I was doing the right thing, but I was actually causing trouble to others. It seems that I have never been able to do anything well, I can't coax my parents when I was a child, I can't maintain what I like when I grow up, and now I can't even protect the people I like.
Every time I saw Gu Shenghe, I felt that my whole body was full of energy, because he had always been like a robot that didn't need to be recharged.
Now looking at the disheveled appearance in front of him, he didn't even let go of a wrinkle on his shirt before. And the smell of tobacco on him, a man who had never smoked in front of me still had the smell of tobacco on his body.
I have always been a person who likes to cause trouble to others, when I was a child, my parents didn't want me to send me abroad to pass on to the boss, and I relied on Lin Yi'an to study outside, and it was troublesome for him to take care of me, and now I am really annoying to him. Now he told me that I had never been a burden, and that the emotions that had been neglected for many years suddenly burst out. "Gu Shenghe, can you not be so nice to me. ”
Gu Shenghe, who was already extremely uncomfortable, heard Zhao Huanhuai's words, and felt even more distressed about the child standing in front of him. "You must know that you are worthy of all the good things in this world, and you are worthy of my good to you. ”
I... I didn't know how to respond to what he said, my clumsiness seemed too obvious.
It was already late at night and there was no light in the room, and Gu Shenghe fumbled with the switch on the wall to find a place to turn on the light.
Zhao Huanhuai: "Gu Shenghe, don't look for the power outage in this community, there was no power when I went downstairs just now." ”
took out his mobile phone and found that it had been turned off without charging for a day, so he took Zhao Huanhuai's hand and held it tightly. "Don't be afraid, I'm here. ”
Although the room was dark, I was a little timid, but not scared. He remembered the incident he mentioned to him once, saying that he was afraid of the dark and never turned off the lights when he slept; when he ate the vegetables, he was uncomfortable eating chili peppers, and since then there was only a spicy taste in the dishes, and he did not see a single chili pepper; he said that he liked sunflowers, so he planted a large field of sunflowers in the yard; knowing that I liked motorcycles and wanted to race, he invited me to the coach of my dreams. The man in front of me always carefully guards my bits and pieces, I am He De, how can I get his favor.
I shook his hand instead, "I'm not afraid, because I know you're here." ”
I didn't have a day off and ran around in this city, and my body couldn't support it for a long time, and after finding Zhao Huanhuai, my heart suddenly relaxed. Gu Shenghe sat down on the ground, "I'm a little tired, sit down." ”
There was nothing in the whole empty room, no lights. Watching him sit on the ground regardless of his image, he seemed to recognize a different Gu Shenghe. "Well, it's been a busy day. I sat down against him.
Gu Shenghe leaned against the wall and closed his eyes, holding Zhao Huanhuai's hand tightly and not daring to let go. "Well, but it's all settled, you don't have to worry. ”
Although I believe in his ability, I don't understand why I still choose to run away. "Well, I'm sure you'll get it right. ”
Gu Shenghe picked up Zhao Huanhuai's hand and kissed it lightly on the back of his hand, "Now I can be regarded as announcing the world, you Zhao Huanhuai is my person." ”
I... , in this case, the only person who can express himself optimistically is Gu Shenghe. "Well, yes, I'm your man. ”
Gu Shenghe: "Thank you, it has stirred up ripples in my ordinary life, and sugar has been added to my bitter life." ”
Zhao Huanhuai: "It was you who made me understand the beauty of loving someone." Why did you leave me in the first place? ”
Gu Shenghe: "Because Xiao Li likes it." ”
Sure enough, you can't ask a sister this kind of question, "What about later." ”
Gu Shenghe: "Because I like it." ”
Well, it's all nonsense to ask. "When did you like me? ”
Gu Shenghe: "When you were coquettish to me in the study, I felt that you were very cute and a little moved." ”
This... , did Xiao Li teach me to tease his brother? "Well, next time I'm going to say I'm handsome, don't say I'm cute. "This is my last stubbornness.
Gu Shenghe: "Then when did you like me." ”
Well, after asking himself, he must have asked rhetorically. "It was when we slept together during the Chinese New Year. ”
Gu Shenghe: "Sure enough, the feelings are all out of sleep." ”
This... What kind of logical thinking is this? "Gu Shenghe, can you be serious. ”
Gu Shenghe: "If you weren't here now, I told you that you were in danger now, don't provoke me." ”
I... , what's the situation, why do I call it provoking him. Forget it, for the sake of my waist, "Then I'll shut up." ”
Gu Shenghe: "What happened to you when you were a child made you so evasive now." ”
I'll go, this bend is too fast, what the hell is this man's brain made of. "Why did you suddenly become interested in what happened when I was a child? ”
Gu Shenghe: "I want to know more about you." ”
The familiarity of each other seems to be particularly weak, so I don't really seem to know him at all. He thinks about everything for me, but I... "What do you want to know?" ”
Gu Shenghe: "I want to know everything." ”
This... , he too. "Okay, I'll tell you. When I was a child, I was sent abroad by my parents to study, and I have been living in someone else's house, and it was at that time that I met Lin Yi'an, who came to study abroad. My dad doesn't like me very much, and I have an older brother, but he has been frail and sick since he was a child, so my parents' care is on my brother. Later, I was passed on to the boss, because the boss has never married a wife and has no children, so I can help him support his old age. Later, my parents and brother died in a car accident, and I was still abroad at the time, so I didn't see them for the last time. At that time, when I was abroad, I had a very hard time, because I was stupid and couldn't learn because of the language barrier. I often go hungry, because my parents always forget to send me living expenses, so I always follow Lin Yi'an to eat and drink. Haha, isn't it a bit miserable, so I learned to please people. However, I still have low self-esteem, but Lin Yi'an has always been very good to me and took care of me like a younger brother. ”
Gu Shenghe had been silently watching Zhao Huanhuai, listening to him talk about his past.
"Another time, do you know why I love cycling?" As soon as he talked about cycling, his eyes began to glow, and he became excited when he spoke. "It was when Lin Yi'an and I were working in a restaurant that we met a group of racing drivers who came to dinner, and we were amazed by the cool look of their cars parked outside the door, and the leather clothes were really cool to wear, so Lin Yi'an and I were fascinated by motorcycles. ”
Gu Shenghe: "Then why do you want to give up cycling." ”
Zhao Huanhuai: "It's not like giving up, I can still ride." I just gave up that glory, and I didn't want to worry the people I loved. Racing is inherently dangerous, like the moment I was racing the front of the car I was a little bit panicked. I want to change to a hobby, one that is less dangerous and can also reassure you. Don't you think I have too many female fans who are easy to be jealous?"
Gu Shenghe, who was poked to the point all of a sudden, was a little embarrassed, pretending to be calm every day, but when he saw so many girls cheering for him, he was still very jealous.
Haha, looking at him like this, I should have poked the point. "Actually, I know you're all for me, so I should do something for you. And it was my fault that I didn't say goodbye today, I didn't tell you. I just want to alleviate a little bit of your concerns, I don't want to cause you trouble, who knows it's backfired. And this house was actually given to me by Lin Yi'an, saying that it was a place for me to have room for quarrels with you. Haha, I said at the time that he cursed us, who knew it would really come in handy today. However, this Lin Yi'an is still a little unreliable, he didn't decorate anything for me, and when I came, I was ready to get a bag to move in, but now I can only sit on the ground with you. ”
Gu Shenghe: "It's okay, I'll help you decorate." ”
Zhao Huanhuai: "Forget it, I still don't want this house to come in handy." ”
Gu Shenghe: "Well, I won't let it come in handy either." ”
Zhao Huanhuai: "I've said so much, it's time for you to talk about you." After sitting on the ground for a long time, my hard buttocks hurt, and I changed my position and padded the bag I was carrying underneath.
Gu Shenghe: "What do you want to know?" ”
Zhao Huanhuai: "Of course it's the same as you, I want to know everything." You say we don't look like we're playing truth or dare right now. ”
Gu Shenghe: "Well, everything I say to you is sincere. ”
Sometimes I really want to know where he learned these love words, and every time he tugs at my heartstrings. "Hmm. "Shy.
Gu Shenghe: "I don't have a story. Say this sentence in a serious way.
What," you bastard, you know how to talk to me and don't say anything to me. ”
Fool, my experience really doesn't seem to be worth mentioning compared to yours. "Okay, okay, I'll tell you slowly in the future, now as long as I take care of you. ”
"No, it's not fair at all. "I accidentally showed my little emotions again and made trouble unreasonably. directly pinched Gu Shenghe's arm and forced him.
Gu Shenghe: "Okay, okay, don't make trouble." He gently took his hand off and re-grasped it.
Okay, treat me like a child again. "Well, okay, okay, just forget it. ”
Gu Shenghe: "I am seven years older than you, and I should bear your vexatiousness." ”
Well, another old look to educate me. "Well, you're the big brother, I can't afford to mess with it. There is a generation gap between the two of us, and we can't talk. ”
Gu Shenghe: "It's okay, I'll spoil you." ”
This... , it's really that he can pick up anything, and he can successfully lead me away. "Gu Shenghe, can you sing, I'm a little sleepy. With that, she leaned on his shoulder and closed her eyes.
Gu Shenghe's slender fingers knocked out the rhythm on the floor one after another, and the sound of his deep voice was particularly beautiful.
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day.
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hide.
…
The song that was originally a little high-pitched was suppressed by Gu Shenghe's deep voice, and it became a song that coaxed Zhao Huanhuai to sleep.
Looking at him leaning on his shoulder, he slowly fell asleep.
Zhao Huanhuai whispered, "Gu Shenghe... You... Sing... It's so nice. He said this intermittently, and fell asleep on his shoulder.
After watching him fall asleep, Gu Shenghe also leaned against the wall and closed his eyes. Luckily, it's summer, and although it's a bit hot, it's fine late at night. "Good night, my little fool. ”