The book was launched on April 23 and went through a free period of 240,000 words for two months.

By June 22, the total number of words is now 1.33 million words, counting the 20,000 or 30,000 words that have been blocked and deleted one after another, and 1.1 million words have been written since they were put on the shelves.

From June 22 to now, it has been almost 160 days, with an average of 6,875 words per day, which is not very diligent, but it has not dragged its feet.

I am still very busy at work, and like most people, I am working hard to survive, struggling to make ends meet, without a house, a car, or a wife.

Life is not easy, although the results of this book are average, when it is on the shelves, there are 10 people who collect and 1 person who subscribes, and when it comes to the back, only one person subscribes to 20 collections.

There's nothing I can do about it, so I can only try to write it well.

I didn't say anything to most pirated readers, as long as they didn't come to the book review section to scold me.

Everyone has difficulties, not only me, it's not easy, and they all want to live well.

I saw in a forum that a volunteer teacher had leukemia and major depression and was about to commit suicide, but fortunately he was rescued.

I actually quite understand, and I have also had thoughts of suicide.

I was 18 years old, graduated from high school, and my mother was seriously ill and had to undergo two surgeries.

Just like the bloody scene in the TV series, I didn't go to college and went south to work in Shenzhen.

Of course, my grades are not good, and I am a child from the countryside who has never seen the world, and I was hooked on online games after I came to high school with good grades.

It's the poisoned milk powder that was particularly popular at that time, and there is no meaning to blame the game, and I can't control myself, even if there is no game, there will be something else.

I was a child until I was eighteen, both physically and mentally.

But after my mother was seriously ill and couldn't go to college, I didn't know how I grew up overnight.

My parents have changed from adults to old people in my eyes.

A father who works in the city, a mother who has to lie in bed for a year after surgery and then has to have another operation.

There's also a younger brother who's about to start high school.

My grandparents only have my father's son.

The whole family was pressed on me, and I didn't know how I thought so much at that time, I just thought about what to do with this family all day long, and I couldn't breathe at all.

I went to Shenzhen for 12 years, worked in Shenzhen for several years, and only dared to eat five yuan when I ate every day.

Two dishes and one rice, white radish, cabbage, bean sprouts, two yuan a piece, one piece of rice.

Five dollars, the minimum consumption is five dollars.

I have eaten it for three years in a row, both at noon and at night, sometimes I don't eat it in the morning, and sometimes I eat two steamed buns.

The kind of northern steamed buns, one is very large, and two are full for one dollar.

Of course, this is not bitter, there are many elderly couples in the factory who come to work, and the two of them eat five yuan, that is, two boiled cabbage, cabbage, bean sprouts and the like, and then rice is added.

After three years, I got pneumonia and tuberculosis.

When I got the chest X-ray, I was even more relaxed, and I didn't have to think about the future life of a large family.

At that time, I thought that tuberculosis was cancer, so I would not be able to take care of the rest of my life.

Later, the doctor told me that it was not an incurable disease, but it would take time, and it would take time to take regular blood tests, CT scans, and medicines every month, and it would generally be cured in 10 months.

The doctor asked me to go to the chronic disease prevention and treatment hospital in Bao'an District, but I didn't.

At that time, I lived like a machine every day, working 12 hours a day, except for sleeping.

I wanted to go to Foxconn to apply for a job, and then jumped off the roof of the building and left a hundred compensations for my parents.

At that time, I often heard news from Foxconn, so I had this idea.

But a month later, a colleague in the paint room of the factory had cancer, and he couldn't be cured and died.

I know him, a man in his 40s, with a bent back, his hair is starting to turn gray, he is old like a man who is almost 60 years old, and he has to raise a large family.

His wife, son, and daughter all came, and I saw it, and I don't know how to describe the atmosphere.

Depressed, depressed to the extreme, the man could barely smile and come out to talk to his colleagues.

But I still remember the expressions on the faces of his wife, son and daughter, which made people desperate, frightened, and afraid, and I didn't dare to look at it more.

I immediately took a taxi to the chronic disease prevention and treatment hospital in Bao'an District.

It was my first taxi ride in three years.

I started to don't want to die, so I went to the hospital on time every month for check-ups and took my medicine on time every day.

After almost a year, I was cured, and then I left the factory, away from that numbing place.

I went back to my hometown in the central provincial capital and found a job.

Although my mother's health was not very good after the operation, at least she was well and could do a little light work.

My younger brother was admitted to the second medical school in the province, and I want to provide for him to study in college for five years.

Although the pressure is greater, I have saved some money by working in Shenzhen for four years.

At the very least, there is hope, and my brother will be much more productive than me.

I never told him about the difficulties at home, he was still a child, and now he is still a child in college, I don't want him to have too much pressure on his body at a young age, like I was at the beginning.

If he wants to change his mobile phone, I will pay for it, and come back from vacation to take him out to play and watch movies, he should live optimistically and cheerfully at this age.

I also began to live like a human being, not a machine.

Because I didn't have any skills, the salary was not high and I was tired, so I began to think about doing some part-time work.

Last year, I should have written an online article for the first time in May, and I hit the street with two books, taking 600 yuan a month for full attendance, and the manuscript fee was three or four hundred, adding up to nearly 1,000 yuan.

It's less, but I'm satisfied.

Now this is the third book, and the results have improved a little, and with the help of everyone, I have entered the high-quality products, and the monthly manuscript fee has gradually increased.

Although there are now 19 pirated readers out of every 20 readers, I occasionally curse you in my heart, especially when it comes to publishing fees... Ha ha. (Covering face)

But I understand.

You and I are mortal, born in the world.

Running around all day long, there is no time to be idle.

I'm not writing such a bunch of cynicism, I'm not trying to convey any negative effects.

I just want to say that the most important thing is to live happily, no matter what difficulties there are in life, as long as you are alive, you must live happily!

Thank you for reading the article, thank you for the starting point, thank you to all the readers, I am very happy to live, writing online articles gives me hope, this hope is given by all readers.

Thank you all for your continued support.

I haven't been able to vent a lot of words, so I'm writing here, anyway, my relatives and friends won't see this book, and they won't know it's me if they do.

Finally, in the next book, it is easy to collapse in the back of the entertainment text, and the more you go to the back, the more difficult it is to write.

At the beginning, I had a lot of ideas, and it was easy to write, but after a million words, a lot of my head was almost hollowed out.

From the fact that many familiar names on the fan list have not changed for a few months, I know that there are many friends who have left.

I know that there must be something wrong with the book, and there is always only one reason why readers abandon the book: it is not well written!

However, I will try my best to write the remaining seven or eight hundred thousand words, so as not to disappoint my friends who have been chasing me, and I hope that everyone will continue to support me.

There is only one month left in 2018, and I wish you all a happy life in the new year and many years to come.

The most important thing is to live happily and not be crushed by the troubles in life!

Everyone!

Unconsciously wrote so many words with my mobile phone, and went to eat, I hope that the canteen aunt can grow a little bit in her craft today, and take a break at noon after eating!