Chapter 9: The Battle of Directors 2
Qin Fangyuan saw some management colleagues, one by one, holding the notice of being laid off by the personnel department and walking to the human resources department to sign the formalities, silently. Looking at their helpless faces, he felt a chill before it entered the winter.
On Wall Street, firing and hiring are the norm in the HR market. What he doesn't understand is that even on Wall Street, a place where capital is king and full of copper stench, a person is fired, he is not so ruthless and ruthless, he doesn't even have a chance to plead his case, and the leader doesn't talk to you, it's just a routine.
Qin Fangyuan packed up his personal belongings and looked down at the unobstructed Chang'an Street in front of the window for a while, this is not all of this city, in other places, not getting stuck in traffic has become an abnormal state. He sighed, went straight to the human resources department, signed a series of resignation procedures, and then went home.
When he returned home, he threw himself directly into the two-meter-wide bed, and suddenly felt very relaxed, and since returning to China for more than a year, he has been spinning every day, and he has almost no time for himself. He thought about it, turned off his phone, and went out for a few days.
At about 9 o'clock in the evening, he made an international call to Qiao Mei. Qiao Mei seemed to have just woken up and was about to get up and wash up and go to class, as soon as she heard that Qin Fang was away from work, she exclaimed excitedly like a child: "Oh, it's great to leave your job, come to the United States to accompany me!"
Qin Fangyuan knew that she had made the child angry again, so he comforted him for a long time, and then said, "I want to rest quietly for a while." I'll turn off my phone and stop contacting you. I'll be fine, don't worry!"
Qin Fangyuan went to Lijiang, Yunnan alone.
6. Everyone has an emotional debt
A week later, on the plane back to Beijing from Lijiang, Qin Fangyuan saw a news in the media that he could not forget: a well-known accounting firm in the world that had been in the audit for more than a month officially withdrew from the audit, and the specific reason was not said. The financial journalist wrote that the source was "according to people familiar with the matter."
Its main competitor, Huatian Media, was successfully listed on the NASDAQ, creating a listing myth in less than 3 years from its creation to listing. According to media reports, the founder of Huatian Media is mainly in the real estate and catering industries in the south, and Huatian Media is purely a listed company that plays with tickets. It is said that during this period, there was a suspicion of financial benefits, and the left hand was reversed to the right hand.
If the news of the audit department's withdrawal was confirmed, Qin Fangyuan thought that this matter was extraordinary, and he lay on his back in his chair, his mind racing. If you can't forget that the media can't be audited, and you can't get an unqualified opinion issued by an overseas accounting firm, the success rate of listing is basically zero.
He thought of Hu Xiaolei, a woman who was alone, strong on the surface but fragile on the inside. After all, this company belongs to her husband, after all, she has a close relationship, or in other words, half of her husband's assets belong to her in the legal sense, if it cannot be listed, what will happen? He also thought of Qian Feng again, this is Qian Feng's first project in this foreign fund, the investment is so huge, once it fails, what kind of fate will Qian Feng be? He also thought of remembering the media, if the capital market doubts the outdoor media, and the city gate fire affects the pond fish, their life will not be much better, not to mention that kind of illusion. His mood darkened, and Yu Yan's shadow flickered in front of his eyes, and silence came.
After getting off the plane, he called Qian Feng and said hello, but the phone rang three times and was pinched off, maybe in the meeting!
On the way back to the city, Qian Feng's phone call came about half an hour later, and after hearing Qin Fangyuan's meaning, he said lightly: "A little flaw, nothing wrong, thank you Mr. Qin for your concern." ”
Qin Fangyuan couldn't hear Qian Feng's true emotions on the phone, but he also sensitively captured that Qian Feng was not as careless or enthusiastic as he used to be, and suddenly became like a lake in Jiuzhaigou, undisturbed. It's not like Qian Feng's style.
Thinking of Jiuzhaigou, Qin Fangyuan has not been there so far. When he was in the United States, he promised Qiao Mei that he would have the opportunity to go to two places together after returning to China: one is the picturesque Jiuzhaigou, where he had seen Zhang Yimou's "Hero" when he was in China, and the surface of the lake where Tony Leung and Jet Li fought without panic, it was simply a fairyland on earth; and the other was to go to Tibet, which is the closest place for human beings to the sky. It's a pity that such an opportunity has never come, I don't know if Qin Fangyuan didn't fulfill his promise, or Qiao Mei didn't give him a chance?
On the third night of returning to Beijing, Shi Wenqing went to Qin Fangyuan's solitary residence to drink a little wine, bought duck neck, duck legs and duck intestines, and two bottles of liquor. Shi Wenqing said: "Tell you secretly, buddies - if it weren't for the fact that we are iron buddies, skipping classes in college together, going to study in the United States together, and picking up girls together, this peerless secret, I would have brought it into the coffin, and no one would say it." ”
Qin Fangyuan looked down on Shi Wenqing, who was becoming more and more unhappy and more and more embarrassed: "Don't talk about pulling it down, suffocate you." In fact, he knew in his heart that the more he didn't want to say something, the more Shi Wenqing wanted to tell him that in this world, at least for now, only Qin Fangyuan was his loyal listener. Even if Qin Fangyuan was in the United States back then, Shi Wenqing still called him across the ocean when he encountered this kind of thing. Qin Fangyuan knows very well that people with this kind of personality really can't hold back, there is a way to have prostatitis if they don't pee, and if they don't say anything, they become neurotic. There are also psychologists who have studied that this is a man's secret psychology, the more things that can't see the sun, the more they want to share with close friends, such as how many women have been.
Shi Wenqing couldn't stand it, so he said: "Alas, I don't know what's wrong, I'm doing that now, and it's over in three or two clicks, which makes the women very dissatisfied and makes me very frustrated." ”
Qin Fangyuan was happy when he heard it: "This is called retribution, either the blood vessels are hardened prematurely, or the indulgence is excessive! You, you belong to the latter, who makes your red flag at home not fall and the colorful flags flutter outside, there are people in the family, and they are still messing outside." ”
At least legally, and ceremonally, we are not husband and wife. Shi Wenqing protested.
"People are calling me. The last time I was from the film school, and now the one who is a program host on a TV station, your wife called me and said that she saw you flirting on Weibo and her mobile phone, and she was about to go crazy, and complained that I didn't tell her in advance, I was unprepared, and the damage was too serious. This makes me unable to say that you have trapped me in injustice!" Qin Fangyuan simply broke it, this is not once or twice, many times.
"How innocent do you think you are, Hu Xiaolei doesn't care, people are already married, so it's a good destination. What about Qiao Mei? And Yu Yan, you are left alone?" Shi Wenqing sneered.
When Qin Fangyuan heard that the fire was burning on him, he immediately fought back: "Look at you, calculate, how many women have there been since high school, I'll count them for you, Li Guihua, Luo Yan...... Let's not talk about the one that is a little farther away, let's just talk about the recent one, Xiaomei from the film school, her top bunk Guoguo, the post-80s female writer, and you, the flight attendant, who is 87 years old, how old is ......"
"Don't mention her, I'm in a hurry with you!" Shi Wenqing didn't care much about those women in the past, but when he counted the flight attendants, he immediately jumped up, "This is an eternal pain in my heart! I have a deep affection for every woman." ”
After taking a big sip of liquor, Shi Wenqing was ready to pour bitter water. At this time, Qian Feng knocked on the door and came in, he looked depressed, entered the door, took off his shoes, did not change his fluffy slippers, came in barefoot, sat on the sofa with his buttocks, leaned his head on the back of the sofa, and sighed: "What's going on?"
They all thought that they couldn't forget about the media, so they comforted him. Qian Feng waved his hand and said, "If only that was the case, it's not my problem alone." This is my own business, and it is a big trouble. ”
"What's the matter?" Qin Fangyuan's first thought was at home, "Is there something wrong with your hometown?" Don't worry, our buddies will help you with something!"
Shi Wenqing stared at Qian Feng for a long time, and smiled: "Is it a woman's business?"
Qian Feng raised his head and stared at Shi Wenqing: "My woman is pregnant!"
Qin Fangyuan also understood that the woman he had seen in Qian Feng's mouth was not his wife Roman in Canada, but the Yunnan girl from the Hunan restaurant in Nanluoguxiang.
The Yunnan girl is small and exquisite, less than one meter six tall, wears a pair of black-rimmed glasses, fair skin, and looks relatively quiet. Qian Feng met after a few dinners, and he still can't tell why he likes this ordinary Yunnan girl. As a rookie in the investment world, he should generally go around luxury places such as Oriental Grand Hyatt, China World Hotel, Kempinski, etc., and no one will associate him with a little girl in an ordinary restaurant in Guxiang.
This Yunnan girl admires Qian Feng very much. She knew the distance between herself and Qian Feng, so she left Beijing two years ago, went to Fujian, met a netizen, and got married. A year later, she divorced and returned to Beijing. The Yunnan girl called Qian Feng, and Qian Feng, who was in the empty period, got in touch again.
"You haven't divorced yet, look at what you've done. Qin Fangyuan counted Qian Fenglai, "I know that you and Roman will leave sooner or later, but if you are good with this girl, then you have to have no accidents, safety first." ”
Qian Feng actually enjoyed Qin Fangyuan's appearance of criticizing people in a dignified manner. Back then, for the sake of Hu Xiaolei, the two almost made a big fight, and they were about to use knives. When we meet, we smile and enmity and enmity ah, time is really a good thing.
As soon as the secret was sparse, Qian Feng said that he had paid great attention to it usually, but the fact was that he was still pregnant.
"This is a crime of bigamy in law!" Shi Wenqing put on a gloating look, "Actually, what's so difficult, either marry or do it." ”
Qian Feng pointed at Shi Wenqing and said, "You haven't done anything good since you became an investment banker. ”
Shi Wenqing was anxious when he heard this: "Isn't this asking everyone to give you ideas, why do you want to get involved in work? I haven't done anything good, what good things have you done? I can't forget that the media has a big hole, which is also called success?"
When Qian Feng heard this, he stood up, and he was very emotional, as if he was going to use force. Shi Wenqing has never been a good bird for fighting, and he also jumped up with a bang.
Qin Fangyuan pressed the two of them: "What are you going to do?" Sit down, solve the problem, solve the problem, don't talk away." ”
Qian Feng took a deep breath, suppressed his breath, and after sitting down, he was like a deflated ball, holding his head with both hands: "The problem now is that I don't want to marry her even if I get divorced, she is two months pregnant, and she ran back to her hometown and insisted on giving birth." ”
When Qin Fangyuan and Shi Wenqing heard this, the problem was much more serious than they imagined, and they had no idea for a while.
Shi Wenqing is still more experienced: "Then continue to do her ideological work and state the stakes, how to raise a girl after she is born?"
"Alas, it's all worked. Her cousin is a Ph.D. student at Tsinghua University, and he has also done ideological work, but he can't do it. Her aunt also went to talk about it in her hometown, but she and her mother kicked her out. ”
The reason why Qian Feng is reluctant to marry a Yunnan girl is not only because of the disparity in identity, but also because of the growth process of the Yunnan girl. When the Yunnan girl was 10 years old, her mother was abducted and trafficked to Shanxi, and her father died of illness when she was 12 years old, and she grew up with her uncle. The mother gave birth to a son in Shanxi, ran back to Yunnan when the child was 4 years old, and married a local man. This girl's biggest dream is to work in Beijing, and when she was a child, as long as she heard that a certain family had relatives in Beijing, she was very envious.
"I have analyzed that she is very secure with me, which may be related to her rough experience as a child. Qian Feng suddenly sighed, "Actually, she is very good, she has had a short marriage, and she is very considerate to me." When I got up in the morning, she squeezed the toothpaste, made breakfast, and whatever I was wearing, she would say, 'Husband, you're so handsome in this dress!'
"It's a pity that I don't want to marry her, my height, education and her upbringing make me unhappy. I consulted with a lawyer, and the lawyer's idea was that I could change my phone number, sell the house, and then disappear from the world. Even if it goes to the court, the court has to accept so many cases every day, and there is no time to deal with this kind of thing, so the parties can only find their own whereabouts.
"What kind of bullshit idea is this!" Qin Fangyuan and Shi Wenqing almost spoke in unison. They all understood that Qian Feng was the master who enjoyed beauty and didn't want to be responsible. In fact, are there few such people? Or is this not the secret psychology of most men?
Qin Fangyuan thought that this was the ugliness of human nature: What's wrong? This is a life, but the three men talked about it a little lightly.
Maybe that's life. Qin Fangyuan was stunned for a long time, not saying a word. Shi Wenqing opened another bottle of wine, poured it for Qin Fangyuan and Qian Feng, and then picked up the wine glass and clinked the glass without saying a word, and drank it all.
After a while, Qin Fangyuan clarified his thoughts and said to Qian Feng: "Things are already like this, I think you should go to her family and talk to her herself seriously, you have to talk with an open attitude, whether you get married or have a miscarriage, you must be open and honest." I believe that adults have reason, although feelings have temporarily overcome reason, the little girl can't turn around, her elders have gone through so many tribulations, they should be able to figure it out. ”
"Personally, I think that in order to successfully solve this problem, you have to prepare some money, and the problems that this society can solve with money are not problems. Shi Wenqing said, "This matter has become like this, it is inconvenient for you to go alone, in case the other party is emotional and moves, you are not familiar with life, I am afraid that you will be hurt." I have a very good buddy in Kunming, who has a wide network in the local area, enough buddy, let him accompany you. ”
Qian Feng thought for a while, got up and said, "Okay, thank you." I'll leave tomorrow, immediately, right away!"
7. The beauty sent to the door can not be wanted
At about 11 o'clock in the evening on the fifth day of Qin Fangyuan's return to Beijing, he was about to rest when he suddenly heard someone knocking on the door.
It was Xiao Nan who knocked on the door. As soon as Qin Fangyuan opened the door, Xiao Nan rushed into his arms and punched him a few times: "Where have you been?
Xiao Nan's series of actions caught Qin Fangyuan by surprise. He hugged her, patted her on the back and said, "It's okay, didn't I come back?"
Xiao Nan raised his head, and what Qin Fangyuan saw was a somewhat emaciated face, full of tears.
Xiao Nan said: "Many people in the company are looking for you. You left suddenly, and you didn't wait for me to come back. As he spoke, he gently slapped Qin Fangyuan's chest again.
"Did that person bully you again?"
"Who? Did you say Huo Zhongqiu?"
Qin Fangyuan nodded.
Huo Zhongqiu is Xiao Nan's subordinate. Bearing in mind that the media was asked by the board of directors to reduce the company's labor costs, not long ago carried out a small layoff, as its boss Xiao Nan put him on the blacklist of layoffs.
Huo Zhongqiu, who thought he could make a good living in the company with a good salary, was surprised by the layoffs. When he first joined the company, Huo Zhongqiu claimed to have mixed in the CCTV advertising department and had quite a lot of resources in the circle, but he had little performance in the first half of the year, and only did one business, that is, he used the company's own outdoor media resources to replace a batch of eggs.
That night, Xiao Nan was driving her new Guangqi Honda on Beijing's East Second Ring Road. Qin Fangyuan sat in the co-pilot, listening to Faye Wong's "Legend", fiddling with the game on the iPad mailed back by his American classmates, the game was "FBI Mind Reading", Xiao Nan has been trying to borrow this software to read the heart of the man next to him. Along the way, they were relaxed and idle, turning a blind eye to serious traffic jams. At this time, Huo Zhongqiu called her, Xiao Nan pressed the connect button, and when driving, he was used to setting it to a hands-free state, and Huo Zhongqiu's voice rushed over roughly, like a rough mad cow breaking into the quiet pasture, rampage, and the scene was chaotic for a while. Huo Zhongqiu drunkenly shouted in a rough voice on the phone: "You finally killed me, stinky! You cut off my job, I won't let you have a good time!" He threatened to finish with her, shaking out a lot of things about her: "Including you and Tom, as well as the little white face with Qin Fangyuan, I will shake it all out." Xiao Nan didn't have the slightest psychological preparation for this, he was confused for a while, his hands trembled a little, and the car began to shake a little. Qin Fangyuan heard it clearly, he quickly helped the steering wheel, hit the right turn signal, and pulled over safely in a hissing sound. Qin Fangyuan snatched the phone, this gentleman who usually looked polite and polite, said to Huo Zhongqiu word by word on the phone: "If you continue to entangle, I will fight you alone! If it is a real man, you must have the courage to take responsibility for any of your actions!"
Xiao Nan instinctively leaned to the right in front of Qin Fangyuan's chest, trembling a little due to anger, Qin Fangyuan couldn't help but hug him hard, and patted Xiao Nan's back: "Don't be afraid, there is me." After a long time, Xiao Nan returned to normal, she said: "It's okay, it's just a little troublesome." Qin Fangyuan asked, "Why do your subordinates treat their boss like this?" Xiao Nan said: "He was just fired by the company." ”
It turned out that Huo Zhongqiu had crossed the level to find Zhang Jiahong without authorization not long ago and wanted to set up his own door. The reason why Zhang Jiahong became the chairman of the board of directors is that in addition to being extraordinary, she has insight into the situation and has long been refined in the advertising circle, of course she knows the stakes. Xiao Nan remembered that the head of the media was still a big income generator, and she told Xiao Nan about it that night.
Since that phone threat, Huo Zhongqiu has never come to the door again, and he has not seen any other movement.
Xiao Nan hugged Qin Fangyuan tightly, her tall chest was close to Qin Fangyuan, and she could feel the changes and expansion of Qin Fangyuan's body. They both gasped, from small to large, from fine to coarse, from light to heavy, and the two couldn't help but start stroking each other.
"You want me, tonight. Xiao Nan finally spit out this sentence softly but resolutely.
Qin Fangyuan was shocked, he remembered what Tom said, quickly pushed it away, and took a few steps back.
"Afraid that I will eat you?" Xiao Nan was very puzzled by being pushed away by Qin Fangyuan.
"No, no, no. Qin Fangyuan waved his hand again and again, not daring to look at Xiao Nan's eyes, "I'm a person who has a girlfriend, you know." ”
This sentence is very lethal. Although, everyone in the company knows about Qin Fangyuan, including Yu Yan and Qiao Mei.
Xiao Nan was very sad and burst into tears. She is really in love with this man and really wants to give everything she has for him, even if she can't see the future, even if she has no name. Sometimes, a woman's love is so pure.
That night, at 3 o'clock in the morning, Xiao Nan was sent back to his residence by Qin Fangyuan.
8. The new CEO was bought a leg
Sending Xiao Nan away, Qin Fangyuan slept until more than 1 o'clock in the afternoon of the next day, and when he got up, he was groggy. He turned on his phone, and the text message prompt rang for more than 20 minutes, filling the phone's storage space, all sent by colleagues, greetings and worries. He was looking through the text messages one by one, and a phone call came in, it was Jin Zhongliang. Jin Zhongliang asked him to have dinner with him at the Yunnan Restaurant on the Houhai Tea Horse Ancient Road. The reserved private room is on the second floor, close to Houhai, and when you look down, the lights on the lake are flickering.
At about a quarter past seven o'clock in the evening, Jin Zhongliang came in with a disgraced face, and scolded viciously: "Little Red Guy!
"What's going on?"
"I was at home in the morning, and suddenly a big man rushed in and threatened me, warning me not to meddle in my affairs in the future, and not to be a fuzhigao. As soon as I heard it, I knew what was going on, and it must have been the woman surnamed Zhang who was looking for it. What do you mean by being nosy? I am the CEO appointed by the board of directors, and I have illegally kicked me out and sent people to my house to threaten me! What kind of world!"
Jin Zhongliang, who is in his fifties, has always been quiet and cultivated in Qin Fangyuan's eyes, and has worked hard in the workplace for many years.
"Call the police!"
"Report, the police came, but the kid ran away. The police were very good, made a record, and then said that the next time they came, they would not let the other party enter the door easily, and they would call the police quickly, and they would come over to deal with it. Alas, next time!"
Jin Zhongliang looked depressed and drank a large cup of Pu'er tea with his head held high.
The food came up, and the two chatted and drank Yunnan rice wine. After eating, Jin Zhongliang received a phone call, and without saying a few words, his face changed greatly. After answering the phone, Jin Zhongliang's expression was abnormal, and his body trembled a little.
Qin Fangyuan saw that the situation was not right, and reached out to support Jin Zhongliang's shoulder: "What's wrong?
"A stranger. Jin Zhongliang took a deep breath and gradually returned to normal, "The other party said that I should not be nosy, not to participate in the affairs of remembering the media, and said that someone has already bought my leg, let me watch it!"
"This is the underworld!"
"The point is that they tell me which school my son goes to in Beijing!"
Qin Fangyuan picked up the phone and dialed 110, saying while calling, I don't believe that socialist countries are not as good as the United States, and there is no personal safety, how can we build a harmonious society? I called the police, but in the end I gave up because I couldn't find the other party's phone, because the caller ID did not have a number.
Kim Zhongliang decided to give up his position as CEO, and he called Lao Yan. Lao Yan didn't say anything, and his mood was not much better.
9. Political and business relations: inseparable, unreliable, you have to grasp a degree
Zhang Jing came to Beijing, his face was gloomy, and he said to Qin Fangyuan: "I guess I was deceived." ”
Qin Fangyuan knew that it was the case when he heard it.
Soon after that return, Zhang Jing rushed to Beijing, carrying a check of 6 million yuan and 500,000 yuan in cash. He gave the check to Huang Fengyu, and made an appointment with Secretary Wang alone, and the phone number was also quietly remembered by Zhang Jing the moment he borrowed the other party's mobile phone after calling Huang Fengyu's Secretary Wang. According to Huang Fengyu, to do this kind of thing, the person concerned cannot directly contact the official, which is the industry rule.
Zhang Jing paid the check, and for further confirmation, he made a separate appointment with Secretary Wang and gave him 500,000 yuan in cash. Secretary Wang drank a lot of alcohol, and one person drank at least two catties of Moutai. After the meal, Zhang Jing sent Secretary Wang home, and he also remembered the house number of his house by the way.
The other party promised to settle the matter within a month, but more than two months have passed, and there is no progress in the matter. A few days ago, Huang Fengyu's mobile phone suddenly stopped, and no one answered Secretary Wang's mobile phone, which scared Zhang Jing.
"Do you know Huang Fengyu's home?"
"Know, the villa area of Tiantong Yuan. ”
They rushed there, knocked on the door, and it was opened by an elderly man with a Shanxi accent. When I heard that Huang Fengyu was looking for him, he said that this person had moved away, and several groups of people were looking for him recently.
"Isn't this his house?"
"No, it's my son's, this guy is a tenant. The old man's tone was affirmative.
Qin Fangyuan heard it with his own ears, and Huang Fengyu proudly told him that he was in Beijing, and there were several villas like this. This set he likes the most, far from the city center, less pollution, and spent tens of millions to buy it.
Qin Fangyuan had a premonition that they had been fooled!
Zhang Jing said: "Secretary Wang's phone is turned off. Let's go to his house!"
rushed to Secretary Wang's house, knocked on the door, and it was an old lady who opened the door. When the old lady saw that the two people who knocked on the door were polite, she opened her mouth and said, "Look for Dawei? Did this brute get money from you again? There are many people looking for him. He rarely came to stay, and even when he did, he was drunk every time, and he came in for a while and left. Look, he picked up the two of us from our hometown in the Northeast, and we didn't have a stable life. ”
Zhang Jing's face changed greatly, and he spoke a little tremblingly: "Auntie, auntie, do you know where he still has a house?"
"I don't know, we can't see him, and we don't know what he's doing all day. ”
"Isn't he working in Zhongnanhai? He is also the secretary of a certain leader. ”
"He's still a secretary? He didn't graduate from junior high school, he ran out at the age of 17 and got mixed up, and he hasn't seen anything famous for decades. You won't be deceived by him, will you? You have to be careful! This brute has lost all our old faces, and has come to Beijing to change us several places, alas!" "My aunt is a sincere person, and she scolds her son mercilessly."
The closer you get to the truth, the darker your mood becomes.
Coming out of Secretary Wang's house, Qin Fangyuan said, "I have to call MCA immediately." ”
He called MCA's phone, and MCA burst into flames when he heard it: "This grandson, even you have lied to me, and I am also looking for him." ”
There is no greater mourning than death. Qin Fangyuan helped Zhang Jing: "Brother Zhang, we have to report the case." ”
"How can you report it? Cash doesn't constitute evidence. ”
"Isn't there a check? We'll have to find a lawyer to handle this. ”
Zhang Jing said: "That's all it can be." ”
Zhang Jing reported the case, but the case was never filed because the evidence was insufficient.
Qin Fangyuan showed incomparable guilt.
Zhang Jing said: "I don't blame you for this, you are also kind enough to help Zhang Luo, only blame me for being greedy, I am old, and I am still so imprudent in doing things." Fang Yuan, to do things in this circle, you have to guard against ** everywhere! Political and business relations, Feng Lun, the boss of Vantone Group, said it well, it is inseparable, it is unreliable, and it has to be grasped to a degree. ”