It turns out that winter does not need to be betrayed by the cold, and the streets and alleys of the capital are drunk and erosive.

I devoured the oxygen you breathed, and I never gave up until I was suffocated and numb.

The vehicles coming and going in Sijiu City once had the direction I longed for.

Clubbing hangover hides the deepest desolation in your heart, and when you are tired of walking, you look back and see that it is snowing in Beijing, the city behind you.

Don't hesitate anymore, let go of all the sorrow in your heart, the barren mud can't stop the straight direction of Chang'an Street.

Wave the sniper rifle of love in your hand, let all the pain and sorrow die in an instant, raise your head and continue in the direction of your heart.

The smoky room, full of smoke farts, Yang Fan put down his pen, looked up at the ceiling, the bedside light was faint and dim, the handsome and resolute face hung a trace of loneliness, the cigarette burned alone in his fingertips, took a deep breath, and tears quietly slipped down his face.

Today is Yang Fan's 22nd birthday, no cake and no blessing, the school informed him that he was withdrawn from school in the morning, because there was no report for the first week of school, the school found his parents from Inner Mongolia to Beijing, forgave him for the first time, and skipped 2 classes after resuming classes.

At dusk at the Laobian Dumpling Restaurant near Xiaoyue River, Yang Fan had a farewell dinner with his parents, his father was a veteran, with a height of 1.8 meters, a bronze face, and a pair of eyes that were deep and stern, giving people the feeling of not being angry and arrogant.

The dumplings on the table were already cold, and the three of them sat like this, and the air was wafting through the silence before the storm.

"Jianjun, the dumplings are cold, let's be hot. Mother Qin Ru looked at Father Yang.

"It is said that filial piety comes from under the stick, I beat you for 17 years and beat you to the army. Originally, there was a chance to do it, but you gave up, I don't know what kind of evil is serious, you have to go to Beijing to take the art academy, we are just an ordinary family in a small place, what are the big dreams of the Spring and Autumn Festival, this time I woke up from a good dream, as a demobilized soldier The discipline rules have been completely forgotten? I don't want to ask you why you are absent from school, do you want to go home with us or stay in Beijing at this point. ”

Yang Fan raised his head, but what he thought in his heart was that this old man was wrong today, if he had greeted him earlier.

"I want to go back without face, so that my old family will know that I was expelled from school, how shameless it is. “

"You bastard, you have grown up and your wings have hardened, right, you still have face, and you can eat and drink with face? You have been in school for the past few years, and you have no money to squander in Beijing. “

Yang Jianjun slapped the table.

"Dad, I've grown up, and I used to be a child's father. If I stay, I will die in this city, and I will glorify my ancestors!"

Yang Fan looked like a righteous Ling Ran, but in fact, his brain was blank at this time, and all his actions and words were driven by a kind of adolescent rebellion.

"Okay! You kid has a kind, remember what you said now, you don't need to steam steamed buns or anything, even if you don't starve to death, even if you are a gentleman, don't ask for money in the family after a month, and clearly tell you no!" Yang Jianjun walked to the exit of the hotel without replying.

"Since you plan to stay, do your best. The family has no money and no power to ask you to continue studying, this is the 1,000 yuan left by your father, you and his temper are as stubborn, and you may be able to stay if you apologize at school in the morning. “

Qin's mother stuffed the money into Yang Fan's hand and followed Yang Jianjun out of the hotel.

After settling the account, Yang Fan hurriedly chased out and saw his mother supporting his father, this man who was strict since he was a child, and he could feel his hands and not speak when he made mistakes, his originally upright body was a little rickety, like an old man.

Yang Fan had a string called remorse in his heart that was plucked by reality, watching his parents get into the taxi, he wanted to catch up, but his legs were nailed in place, the car drove away, and his father looked back at him with tears on his face.

A parting without talking, not listening, and not reluctant to part, Yang Fan returned to the basement he rented near the school like a walking corpse, which used to be a nest for drinking and chatting with fox friends and dogs.

"Revolutionary soldiers should keep in mind that the three major disciplines and eight points of attention · The phone rang, and Yang Fan threw away the cigarette butt that had been burned.

"Fan'er! Isn't it possible to come to GT today? Dude has thought about a few awesome cocktails today, and that is a cool word, and that sexy big honey dj promised to see how qualified you are tonight, whether you can be her apprentice, it depends on your performance, and the fashion point of dressing. “

Wang Xiaotian, the doggest of Yang Fan's fox friends, was smiling shyly on the other end of the phone.

"Nima, Wang Fatty, can you please stop calling me like a soul, Fan'er! Your graveyard is about to smoke, I'm in an extremely bad mood today, I'm ready for wine, and I'm going to play with other eggs." “

Yang Fan opened the wardrobe, a desert camouflage cotton jacket, a pair of NIKE shoes with worn edges, and a pair of white jeans that were originally black and washed.

Washed up indiscriminately, looked at the shriveled cigarette box, the cigarette butts all over the ground, smiled helplessly, and continued to take out a box of Changbai Mountain on the bedside table, for many years he only smoked this brand, a kind of sustenance, a kind of nostalgia for his eventful years, the miss of Baishan and Heishui, and more importantly, 5 yuan is cheap and affordable.

Usually Yang Fan goes to the bar where Wang Xiaotian works to earn some pocket money to fill the needs of daily life, in fact, the expenses contributed to the game have made him unable to make ends meet, but he will still make up money to buy some information and materials related to DJ, the original plan was to quit Internet addiction, find a professional DJ as an apprentice, increase some income to reduce the burden on the family, but unfortunately everything has come to naught.

Most of the GT trips are usually 11 routes, which is called to feel the urban culture of Beijing at night, but in fact, there is no money to clean the face.

I took a taxi today, and after waiting for a long time, I finally had a 1 piece of 2, and I told the driver to go to the GT bar.

"Young man, model, this looks good, it is said that the girls who go to play are very beautiful, and the consumption grade is also high, and now they all talk about the market economy, and capital operation determines everything. ”

The most popular profession in the world is definitely taxi drivers, and the best in Kan is the driver of this city.

"Master, I have a little headache, let's make some movement. ”。

"Walking in the lane of the Second Ring Road, the air is full of the smell of night, there is no disturbance, only the street lamp is enchanting alone, lighting a lonely cigarette, so that love can return to the embrace. How many people live in this city of hope and slowly die, good night Beijing makes all the pain and troubles, like the fading lights are not smiling, walking through the streets that do not know the name, greedily looking for the smell of you, there is no chatter in the past, the memories are full of the good you used to be, inhale the smoke deep into your lungs, and fall in love with this deadly poison without reservation, are you okay here?"

The magnetic mezzo-soprano, the host's expression seems to slow down the rotation of the clock, Yang Fan just listened quietly, looking at the lights outside the car window, the traffic is busy, although the night has already shrouded the city, but everywhere is a vibrant scene, the stars in the sky are also blinking from time to time, this situation is full of a sense of loss in his heart, he knows that the rootless life of the North Drift has begun at this moment.