Chapter 36: You Think You're the White Lotus?
When you want to escape a city, it becomes a net that covers the sky, the earth, and finally, there is nowhere to run and nowhere to hide!
I don't know when the night falls, in this city, there are always people shuttling through the mediocre crowd, the neon colors, the ever-changing light, piecing together a dreamy mirror, so that the immersive people can't distinguish between dreams and reality!
Yu Xiaowan stood on the highest overpass in the city and looked down, but there was not a familiar figure flashing in the endless flow of people!
She picked up her mobile phone again to call Ye Feifei, and there was no accident when the prompt tone from the computer lady came: I'm sorry, the number you dialed cannot be reached for the time being, please dial again later......
This afternoon, she didn't know how many phone calls she had made to Ye Feifei, but it was always this prompt tone, there was no one in the apartment, no one in the roadside stalls and cafes she frequented, and no one in the free park where she frolicked together.
- Ye Feifei, you big fool, where the hell are you? I really wanted to call the police, but I didn't file a case for less than 24 hours after I disappeared!
She exhaled in a frustrated breath, walked off the overpass in despair, and continued to search!
The dim lights of the city overlapped, and there was infinite exhaustion and overflow, but in the face of worry, it had become insignificant!
She thought, this is the longest road she has ever walked, over and over again, looking for it, there is no end!
In the end, she found Ye Feifei in a remote corner.
I saw Ye Feifei huddled alone with her legs curled up next to the flower bed, sobbing constantly, this is the backlight, the lights on the street floated blurred light and shadow, and her face couldn't be illuminated!
However, just such a shadow is enough to make Yu Xiaowan, who has been extremely tired for several hours, feel distressed, the kind of pain that is pulled hard!
She's scared!
Yu Xiaowan remembers that her best friend has always been fearless, she is the most proud person in the world, she is beautiful, and she has unparalleled talent, she is never really afraid!
"Fei Fei......" Yu Xiaowan felt helpless, like a blind man walking in the dark night, with no one to support and no crutches!
She approached Ye Feifei gently, crouched down in front of her, reached out to pry away her flowing black wavy curls, and looked at her with gentle and peaceful eyes.
"Feifei, what's wrong with you? Is it that Mr. Shen...... He ......" Yu Xiaowan was a little choked up and couldn't continue, at this moment, it was so difficult to raise a reluctant smile, but she still tried hard to comfort, "Fool, it doesn't matter if you don't have money, what can be solved with money is not a problem...... It's okay, you're not alone, you still have me, I'll always be by your side...... Always...... ...... all the time"
Ye Feifei raised her eyes, her eyes, which had obviously dried up from crying, suddenly flooded again, as if she couldn't control it no matter what, she babbled about everything she encountered today, and then the more she cried, the more turbulent she became, she muttered and asked: "Xiaowan, you say, how can you forget a person who no longer belongs to you, we love each other deeply, but I am not worthy of him, and it may block his future...... I've never felt inferior like this, I don't want to jeopardize his career, and I can't be the one who can look at the world side by side with him, so I can only let it go...... You tell me, how can I forget completely? If I can't forget, it's really uncomfortable...... It's so painful, it's better to die......"
She spoke incoherently, those sorrows, those despairs, those pains, there was really nowhere to vent!
- Let go, I thought it was my free and easy, I thought I could be noble, but it turned out to be so painful!
Yu Xiaowan suddenly felt a kind of humiliating anger, the anger burned violently in her heart, every tear of Ye Feifei was the oil poured on this fire, in the thick smoke, she suddenly felt that the world was spinning!
- Ye Feifei, why are you so stupid?! so stupid that I want to beat you to death immediately!
She suddenly stood up, looked at Ye Feifei condescendingly like a grim reaper, and roared: "Since you can't do it, why do you still want to run away as a hero?! Why do you have such stupid fulfillment? Are you suffering from masochistic parasia?
At this moment, she suddenly regretted this night's search, she should have thrown this kind second goods in this corner where no one would come, and let him fend for himself!
At this moment, the world was spinning, and it was impossible to save the anger and hatred in her heart, "Ye Feifei, do you think you are the Holy Mother? Do you think you are the White Lotus? Is it useful? Will someone in this world come to save the Holy Mother and the White Lotus? Will there be a second person who will take care of you besides me, a fool, now?"
Probably roared too hard, her voice was a little hoarse: "Ye Feifei, you have changed, since you fell in love with Shen Sirui, you have changed, people have a lot of money, will there be a shortage of women around you? But you pounced on it, and the result?!Will people abandon their careers and elope with you? Ye Feifei, you didn't know this before, how did you make yourself like this now, is it worth it? What about your coldness? What about your stubbornness? What about your terrible and respectable self-esteem? To hell with it?! This is your own choice, if you can't bear it, why choose it like this, since you have pretended to be chic, you are now squatting here and deserving to die of heartache, no one can save you!"
She looked at Ye Feifei sadly, and continued to explode on the spot, "I really don't understand, how can there be a 'virgin' like you in the world? Learn from those heroines to be the Virgin, I tell you the truth, you sober me up, the White Lotus and the Virgin will not meet Prince Charming, this world, if you don't even love yourself anymore, don't ask others to love you!
At this moment, Ye Feifei really took everything seriously, she cried even more broken, suddenly bounced up from the ground, hugged Yu Xiaowan tightly, and begged bitterly: "Don't ...... No...... Xiaowan, don't abandon me...... I have nothing left...... If you don't want me anymore, I'll really have to die...... Don't...... I beg you......"
- Fools!
It only took three seconds to be ruthless, and she softened, she hugged Ye Feifei's body that was about to slide down, and her tears could no longer be controlled, she muttered: "Idiot, I know, you feel that you have burdened Xia Yichu and sympathized with her mother, that's why you are like this! Shen Sirui doesn't like you much, in his eyes, there are too many things to pay attention to, love, it's really not important, he's not your prince charming, fool ......"