"So I don't blame you, I know you feel sorry for me. But Nanfeng, I can't help it, I really can't help it, I've liked him for so many years, I've liked him since I knew that men and women were different, and for more than ten years, I've tried to let myself go, but I can't let go. I probably owe him in my last life. Xie Feifei smiled bitterly, her voice was low, in the silent night, Nanfeng's heart seemed to be wet with dew, wet and damp.

Nanfeng sighed silently, Zhou Yangzhi and Xie Feifei were destined to be an inescapable catastrophe.

He was two years older than her and moved across the street from her house when she was twelve years old and became a neighbor. Twelve-year-old Xie Feifei is still a tomboy, playing with a group of boys in the neighborhood all day long, there is a hundred-year-old locust tree in the community, thick and big, luxuriant branches, summer evening, knowing that hiding on it cheerfully shouting, disturbing a group of children playing card games on the stone table under the tree are upset, so they guess boxing in the way of rock-paper-scissors, and whoever loses will climb the tree to catch up. Xie Feifei was not very lucky, lost, ran home and got a clothes pole as a tool, she climbed this tree when she was a child, she quickly climbed it with a light car, and stabbed it with a clothes pole on the branch for a long time, knowing that she didn't drive away, suddenly caused someone below to scream, pointing at her ass and saying loudly, Xie Feifei, it's terrible, your butt is bleeding!

She wore a pair of white cropped pants that day, and the blood stains that slowly soaked away were especially obvious. Being so startled by this, she was so frightened that she almost fell down, and then a particularly calm voice sounded, don't panic, hold the tree trunk, and come down slowly. The voice was very gentle, like a gust of wind blowing in the fields of midsummer, separating a group of noisy and chaotic exclamations, Xie Feifei's heart was soothed by the gentle and calm voice, and she followed the instructions of the voice, slowly, slowly, and safely landed.

As soon as she stood firm, she couldn't wait to reach out and touch her buttocks, and when she saw it, her fingers were red, and she cried "wow", and the voice suddenly appeared in her ears again, don't cry, it's not hurt...... He stood in front of her, looked at her strangely, suddenly took her hand, brushed aside the boys gathered in front of her, and walked away quickly.

On the way home, Xie Feifei sobbed and kept asking him, why am I bleeding if I am not injured...... Why...... Am I dying......

He blushed slightly and whispered, "Go home and ask your mother." But her mother was not at home when she went to work, and she squatted at the door and refused to go in, and began to cry again. He was helpless, turned around and went into the house, and after a while, he took the bag and came out and stuffed it into her hand, don't cry, you are not injured, and you will not die, you are here...... Menarche...... This is my sister's ...... For you...... He quickly turned, entered the house, and quickly closed the door.

Xie Feifei, who realized it later, was stunned, and a black mushroom cloud flew over his head, and his face turned red instantly.

In this life, there are many, many firsts, and maybe not every first time will be remembered by you, but for women, menarche is the same as the first night, unforgettable, and will be remembered for a lifetime. And the name Zhou Yang, in Xie Feifei's life, came with her menarche, so that she could never forget it after remembering it.

"Okay, don't talk about it, it's late, go to bed early, I have to go to work tomorrow!" Xie Feifei got up, pulled Nanfeng up, and turned on the light.

"I'm going to take a leave of absence tomorrow. ”

"What's the matter, something's wrong?" Xie Feifei was surprised, you must know that unless there are irreversible factors, the desperate Saburo Nanfeng classmate will never ask for leave easily, because asking for leave will deduct money!

"It's okay, but I'm not feeling well and want to rest. ”

"What's wrong with you? Where are you uncomfortable? Have you seen a doctor?" Xie Feifei said hurriedly.

"Acute gastritis, I've had an injection, and now it's much better. She didn't dare to say that she had stomach bleeding, for fear that Xie Feifei would mention changing jobs again.

Sure enough, she said: "Drink and drink, so I have long advised you to change jobs, although you have a commission for doing business, but Nanfeng, if you drink again, you will really drink yourself to death!" She touched Nanfeng's face and said to herself: "I'm really not a good sister, you must have been very uncomfortable when you called me, but I ......"

Nanfeng interrupted her with a smile: "I'm not fine." Hey, go take a bath, I slept with you tonight, I slept during the injection, and now I have insomnia, you talk to me talking. ”

"Okay, we haven't slept together head to head for a long time, I'll take leave tomorrow, and I'll have a good chat with you tonight." Xie Feifei blinked.

When he was in college in Liancheng, Nanfeng and Xie Feifei shared a dormitory, bed next to bed, and for many nights, the two of them whispered head to head. There are four girls in the dormitory, the two of them have the best relationship, in addition to the same personality, there is another reason, Xie Feifei is from Haicheng, Nanfeng's mother is also from Haicheng, when her grandmother is still alive, she spends every summer vacation in Haicheng, which is another hometown, so she feels very kind.

"Nanfeng, really, you should consider changing jobs, there is a designer in our company who has just resigned and needs to be hired, I can introduce you to the past. Xie Feifei works as an architectural designer at NY Design.

In the dark, Nanfeng was silent for a moment before he said softly: "You know, I've only been in college for more than a year, and all I learned is a little skin, and I don't have a graduation certificate, how can I do design?"

"The certificate is not the most important," Xie Feifei turned sideways, "Do you remember, when we first entered the Department of Architecture of Lotus University, the professor publicly said that you were the most talented among the students he had taken in recent years! She sighed, "I think it's a pity that you don't do this." ”

Nanfeng said: "No matter how talented you are, diligence can make up for your clumsiness, in the same way, no matter how powerful the blade is, if it is shelved for a long time, it will rust and be discarded." She bit her lip, "And you know my situation best, my mother needs a large amount of medical expenses every month, and being an ordinary little designer is not enough at all." ”

Xie Feifei said: "I said before that I can help you take care of your mother together, and this still counts ......"

Nanfeng interrupted her: "Feifei, over the years, you have taken care of me as a sister, okay, I accept your affection, but my mother is not your responsibility." Do you still think I owe you too little?" she smiled, "I owe you, I can't pay it back in this life, do you want to make an appointment for my next life?"

Back then, she took her mother to Haicheng, her mother was an only daughter, after the death of her grandmother, some collateral relatives naturally neglected to contact, the city that was so familiar, instantly became so strange and indifferent, all her savings were spent in the hospital, and she couldn't even afford to rent a house, in desperation, she dialed Xie Feifei's phone, at that time, she was in her third year, and they had not been in touch for a year, but Xie Feifei immediately rushed back to Haicheng after hanging up the phone, and gave her the key to the idle two-bedroom old house at home. She didn't ask anything about the year she lost contact with her after taking a leave of absence.

Xie Feifei pushed her: "Fleshy!"

Nanfeng smiled and changed the subject.

The night, in the whispering of the two couples, gets deeper and deeper.

"Feifei. ”

"Hmm......" The voice gradually lowered, and he was confused.

"I met him again today. The south wind heard his own voice, very light in the dark night, and there was a slight tremor in that lightness.

Silence.

"But......," she paused.

"I pretended I didn't know him......"

Still silent.

Nanfeng tilted his head, looked at Xie Feifei's heavy sleeping face, and shook his head.

The sky outside the window was about to light up, but she couldn't sleep.

She closed her eyes slightly, and the events of that night were like a flash, replaying frame by frame in her mind. It was not until this moment that the whole world was silent, perhaps because there was no way to avoid it, that she finally dared to face all the memories related to him that she had provoked in her heart because of her reunion with that person.

The moment she raised her eyes, she really thought it was an illusion caused by drinking high, how could it be him?

Over the years, she never imagined that one day, she would meet him again, in this lifetime.

Maybe it's because I don't dare to think about it.

Since that night five years ago, she has sealed all the memories related to him with tears of despair, and she thinks she has buried it deep enough, forgotten it completely.

How powerful is memory, it is the most peculiar thing, it never acts with your own thinking and self-control, as soon as it smells the slightest familiar smell, the images associated with it will automatically noise and make you unavoidable.