"No, you're not Heather Cross. You're a coward. ”

Lan Li looked angrily at the figure on the hospital bed, and she closed her eyes peacefully. Giving up resistance, giving up struggle, and giving up hope, she refused to be sober again, and she refused to fight again. She held on for too long, she was so tired and tired, she just wanted to close her eyes and rest for a while.

He knows, he knows. He's been through it before, he's been in the same state before, it seems that if you give up, everything will be easy.

However, the easiest thing in the world is to give up, anyone can give up, but not anyone can insist, after giving up, there is a hundred, there is nothing; persevering, you may not be able to see the rainbow, nor may you be able to have hope, but at least you can embrace a possibility.

It is precisely because of the experience of life and death, it is precisely because of the experience of reincarnation as a human being, at this moment, Lan Li is even more angry and helpless, "Heather, fighting, it may mean pain and suffering, but, give up, there is nothing." ”

At this moment, Lan Li revealed the most precious and secret secret in his heart: he was once Chu Jiashu, and he had experienced everything Heather had faced.

However, Heather still did not respond. Lan Li was greeted by silence, a dead silence.

Emotions lost control in an instant, Lan Li stood up suddenly, but he didn't want to knock over a stack of books on the table next to him, scattered all over the ground. The sound of "bang-la-la" echoed in the quiet ward, breaking the silence, Lan Li's reason dragged him back to reality, the surging emotions gathered again, his chest was tight, and he let out a long breath, Lan Li squatted down and put away all the books.

A piece of sticky note paper fell, Lan Li picked it up, and was about to clip it back into the page, but his eyes fell on Juanxiu's handwriting on the sticky note.

The font is crooked and twisted, as if it came from a child who has just learned to write. However, Lan Li knew that it was Heather's handwriting. Exercising and writing is the simplest and most basic part of Heather's daily physical therapy, and the doctor will even ask Heather to write a diary to record her mood and thoughts.

It's not a diary, it's a ...... Lan Li didn't know what it was. Essay?

There are a lot of messy drafts on the sticky note paper, fragmented text fragments, haphazardly written on both sides of the front and back, among which there are only a few sentences that can form a complete sentence, but in the chaos, firmly grasp the eye.

"I love you too much, but you never know, too afraid of parting can only pretend not to care, I have so much desire for you, but I have never revealed it, but I want to stay with you silently, until each other is white. ”

The curves and turns of the words are so stiff and so hard, and they seem to pour all the strength of the body and all the weight of the soul, and the longing and romance between the lines are so strong that people are breathless. The most simple language, but with the deepest emotions.

Crush, one of the most powerful and powerless words in the world, can get people into heaven, but it can also push people into hell. This is a solo dance that belongs to oneself, dancing and blooming wantonly in its own space, but no one knows. So beautiful, yet so lonely.

The power was so strong that even my heart trembled slightly.

"When you look back at me, at that moment I forget my age, I just want to dance with you at this moment, your charm that never fades, let me promise that you will only be more moving in the future, you inexplicably make me want to have a home. ”

Involuntarily, fragments of memory came to mind.

When he first came to Mount Sinai Hospital, he was guided by Anita to tour the hospital's main departments and facilities, listening to explanations of the precautions.

In the rehabilitation room, a little girl was losing her temper, stubbornly shaking off everyone's help, and also throwing off the support of the parallel bars, firmly and resolutely relying on her own feet to move forward, her steps were a little staggering, staggering, but there was no problem, slowly, slowly and steadily moving forward.

However, one accidentally tripped over his left foot and almost fell down. Lan Li happened to be nearby, and hurriedly reached out to help the girl, but before she could stand firmly, the girl pushed Lan Li away angrily, and roared sharply, "I can, I can do it myself! Who needs your help? I'm a normal person, I don't have any problems! Don't treat me as a patient!"

The girl's parents rushed over in a panic, but the girl pushed and shoved with her teeth and claws, refusing everyone's help.

Lan Li, who was the closest, also hit the pond fish, and was hit on the shoulder and head. After Lan Li confirmed that the girl was standing, she let go of her hands and said with a smile, "It's not just the patient who needs help. Every normal person may need help. After saying that, Lan Li politely gave up his position, and under the leadership of Anita, prepared to leave.

The girl's mother shouted, "Young man. Lan Li turned his head, "Sorry, and, thank you." ”

It was the first time he and Heather had met, the girl covered in thorns, the girl who fought hard and refused fate, the girl who stubbornly preferred to fall rather than admit defeat.

"I want to stay with you, through the side of death, because you are always there, when I need it most. I will love you until I take my last breath, until death takes me away. ”

Sixteen-year-old Hua Ji, she spent nearly half of her life in the hospital, her hands and feet were bound in this small world, she could not see the light of the future, nor could she see the meaning of life, and even the right to love and be loved was deprived.

She wants to be like every girl, like the most handsome boy in school, secretly in love, because of the other party's eyes and the deer bumps, because of the other party's shoulder rubbing and heartbeat; she wants to be like every girl, secretly put on makeup and dress up, show her best year, enjoy the beauty of youth, wanton carnival; she also wants to be like every girl, looking forward to the beauty of love, fantasizing about meeting her other half, holding each other's hands tightly, and walking towards the end of life.

But, she can't, and can't see.

She can only carefully cherish her longing and expectations, her beautiful vision, deep in her heart, and even dare not easily reveal her envy and yearning emotions. Hold on until the moment of death, how magnificent, how magnificent, but so far away.

The eye fell on the bottom of the sticky note paper, and then the familiar and unfamiliar words crashed into the bottom of the eye, "Blue Rite, Blue Rite, Blue Rite, Blue Rite, Blue Rite, Blue Rite...... "Cycle, Cycle, Cycle.

One name after another, one analogy after another, quietly tells the girl's heart, timid and shy, sweet and bitter, beautiful and romantic, a simple word, but it can contain the most powerful and tender emotions in the world.

Suddenly, Lan Li's nose was sour, and all the defense lines were completely defeated, and he surrendered helplessly, just squatting in place, unable to do anything. At this moment, Lan Li was so helpless and so dazed. He was stunned here, laying down his weapons and guarding himself, and his heart was sad.

He didn't know, he never knew.

Carefully put the note back into the book, then put the book back on the table and sat down in the chair again. Quietly looking at the young and immature face, pale without a trace of blood, peaceful and quiet, the corners of Lan Li's mouth couldn't help but outline a smile, and greeted softly, "Hey, Heather, in case you forget my voice, I'm Lan Li." ”

"Remember, you said you would never let go. "The last time we were in the pioneer village, we watched 'Buried Alive,' met Lily Collins, and dealt with a gun-wielding gangster, and then I wrote the song 'Go Forward,' remember? You're never going to let go. ”

"Go Forward", this song was originally written by Lan Li for Heather, and the lyrics sing:

"My dear, don't worry anymore, when the world is cold, when the heart is heavy, I will hug warmly, never let go, never, until the blood dries up, I will not leave an inch, don't worry anymore, I firmly believe that we will move forward bravely. ”

So, when Heather left, she whispered in Lan Li's ear, "I'm definitely not going to let go."

"Now, it's time to deliver on that promise. Lan Li reminded and teased softly, "We are all people who keep our promises, and you don't want to leave with a reputation of 'treachery'." ”

Looking at Heather's pale face, the dark blue veins flowed slowly under the skin, and it seemed that the vitality was dissipating little by little, gently pulling the heart, and the slight pain continued to come, not fatal, but unbearable.

"Remember 'me who fought cancer'? Adam didn't give up, and you shouldn't give up. Lan Li slowly stretched out his hand and carefully covered his right hand on the back of Heather's left hand, the white skin still had a faint temperature, but there was a slight throbbing in Lan Li's hot palm, which made people shiver.

Lan Li said in a deep voice, "Adam has a new life, and so can you. For example, your dream is to sing my songs on the stage of American Idol, but I am waiting quietly, and for example, my movie, "Detachment" is about to be released, and what will happen to the box office without you......?

The sound stopped abruptly here, dragging out a long tail note that trembled slightly.

Lan Li couldn't help lowering her eyelids, hiding her embarrassment, "For example, a concert." Maybe one day in the future, I can go on stage and put on a concert. I don't think there will be an audience, maybe not a single ticket will be sold, but, it doesn't matter, as long as there is an audience, as long as you are willing to be in the audience, I am willing to complete the concert, what do you think?

The soreness on the tip of his nose was bitter, almost difficult to swallow, but Lan Li showed a big smile, bright and bright, hooked Heather's little thumb, and gently pulled, "Heather Cross, let's make an agreement like this, okay?"