I looked at the back of Pingping leaving, and I couldn't help but cry again.

Zhang Bei hurriedly wiped my tears with a tissue, but I angrily hit his hand.

I cried and said "you give me back my dog, you give me back my dog......"

Zhang Bei sat on the edge of the bed, and he insisted on holding me in his arms despite my resistance.

He gently stroked my head, and I lay on his shoulder and cried loudly.

I kept hitting him on the back with my hand, but he didn't say a word and let me lose my temper.

Tired of crying, tired, I buried my face around his neck, Zhang Bei stroked my head and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, Shizuko......"

I lay in his arms and didn't speak, Zhang Bei pushed me out of his arms, and then held my shoulders, looking at me with love and distress in his eyes.

My eyes were red with tears, and the tears were still flowing out.

After all, after raising it for so long, there are still feelings, and reluctance and sadness will always last for a while.

Zhang Bei held my face with his hands, and he lowered his head and left his kiss on my lips and forehead.

In the end, he looked at me and said gently, "Shizuko, aren't we sad, okay, Xiaoxiaobei is now at his mother's place, it will live well, if you want it, we can go see it." ”

At this point, I couldn't change anything, so I had to nod obediently at Zhang Bei.

Zhang Bei looked at me with a relieved face, then supported my body and asked me to lie down on the bed, and he covered me with a quilt.

After that he got out of bed and left the bedroom.

After a while, I saw him move a chair and come over, and he still had a book in his hand.

He set the chair in front of me, then sat down slowly, placing the book in his hand on his lap.

He looked at me and smiled and said, "Shall I read to you?"

I didn't speak, just nodded at him.

Then Zhang Bei began to read to me.

"When I was ten years younger than I am now, I got an idle career, going to the countryside to collect folk songs. Throughout the summer of that year, I wandered like a sparrow flying wildly, in the countryside full of knowledge and sunshine.

I like to drink the bitter tea of the peasants, whose buckets are placed under the trees on the ridges, and I have no qualms about picking up the tea bowls full of tea dirt and scooping the water, filling my own kettle, talking nonsense with the men working in the fields, and sneering at the girl's snickering at me. ”

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"At the beginning, we were just surrounded, the People's Liberation Army did not come to attack us immediately, we were not very afraid, and the company commander was not afraid, he said that Chairman Chiang would send tanks to rescue us.

Later, the gunfire in front of us became louder and louder, and we were not very afraid, but we were all idle and had nothing to do, and the company commander did not order us to open fire. There was a veteran who thought that the brothers in front of him were bleeding and dying, and it was not a solution for us to be idle, so he went to ask the company commander, "Shall we also shoot a few shots?" ..............................

The book Zhang Bei read to me was "Alive". When I was in college, he recommended a book to me.

It's been a long time since we've read this book, and when he reads it again today, I feel like I've got a new idea.

Why am I so resistant to sending Xiaobei away?

It's not because of Xiaoxiaobei, it's completely because of Xiaobei, I regard Xiaoxiaobei as Xiaobei's stand-in.

After Xiaobei passed away, when I saw Xiaobei again, I thought Xiaobei was back again, but now Xiaobei has been sent away, which makes me realize a problem that I have never dared to face.

That is, Xiaobei has left my life, completely gone.

What I can't accept is not Xiaobei's departure, what I can't accept is Xiaobei's departure, what I feel guilty and unforgivable is that I can't afford to leave Xiaobei's life.

As it is written in the book "Alive", "We will come to this world, we will have to come, and we will eventually leave this world, we will have to leave"

Xiaobei's departure is to have to leave, and death is not the loss of life, but the step out of time.

Last night's dream, it wasn't that Xiaobei was angry with me, it was telling me that it didn't leave me, it just walked out of the time with us.

Listening to the sound of Zhang Bei reading, I slowly fell asleep again.

This time I dreamed again, I dreamed of Xiaobei again, this time it came to my side, rubbing back and forth on my body, I had a special fun with it.

It smiled at me, it arched me with its head, it kept licking my face.

I know, I understand what Xiaobei really wants to say to me.

Xiaobei, I will be fine, I will live happily.

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After battling the disease for a week, the hives on my body gradually subsided, and I became more and more energetic day by day.

When my father-in-law saw that I was in good health, he proposed to go back to Luoyang with my mother-in-law.

Zhang Bei wanted them to stay in Beijing for a few more days, but his father-in-law said that he missed a few old guys from his hometown, and he was addicted to chess in the past few days in Beijing.

"No, I bought a high-speed rail ticket to go back tomorrow, no one has been playing chess with me here recently, when I came, your Uncle Li gave me a war book, if I don't go back, he still thinks I'm afraid of him!"

"Then I'll take you to the high-speed rail station in a moment. Zhang Bei said.

The father-in-law nodded at Zhang Bei, and the mother-in-law sat on the sofa with a reluctant face, looking at the photos of Pingping and An An.

I know why my father-in-law is in a hurry to go back, he is not in a hurry to go back and fight chess with Uncle Li.

He was afraid that his mother-in-law would have been here for a long time, and his mother-in-law and I would have some conflict, so it would be difficult for Zhang Bei to be caught in the middle.

Mother-in-law has always been unhappy to let Zhang Bei be a family cook at home, Zhang Bei is her pride, and her son should spread his wings outside.

And she can't get used to Zhang Bei being so used to me, because during her time here, my clothes inside and out were washed by Zhang Bei.

Zhang Bei is also responsible for the hygiene of the family, and I can be said to be favored by Zhang Bei is that his ten fingers do not touch the spring water.

Once my mother-in-law knocked on the side and said to me, "Shizuko, you are so blessed, I have been married to Xiaobei's father for so many years, he hasn't washed a single piece of clothing for me, he and Xiaobei's clothes are all washed by me, I am busy with the company, busy with the family, unlike Shizuko, you have a husband who loves you so much." ”

My face turned red all of a sudden, and I said with an embarrassed face, "Isn't that your education good, Mom?"

My mother-in-law smiled at me, then got up from the couch and went back to her room.

This mother-in-law and daughter-in-law are also natural rivals in love! I suddenly thought that if I waited for Pingping to grow up, when I saw him taking care of other women wholeheartedly, would I be like today's mother-in-law?

In fact, when I think of this, I don't feel uncomfortable in my heart, after all, I snatched a piece of meat that fell from her body that she cared for and pampered with all her might.