The diary in Jin Xing's hand was exactly what she used when she pursued Li Xijue, and she casually turned a page, which read:

"I frantically searched for a diary about that day, what had happened that day.

For so long, my memories of each day have relied on this way.

Why do hands tremble?

Why am I angry? Or am I having a weak heart?

Until I saw those eight lines and remembered everything that happened that night. None of this turned out to be fake.

It was only twenty days before I saw it, and it suddenly dawned on me that it was all over at the beginning.

It's going to feel ridiculous, and it's pathetic. Tears that have been forgotten for a long time visit.

The mud on that wall was peeling off, and it was pulled hard, with blood, and it was ruthless!

That's when I realized that there were a lot of things I didn't deserve so far. The article I so strenuously denied, how it stung me in the first place, is now stirring the softest places with a thousand times more force.

With this coldest and shiniest knife, stick it in and pull it out.

It was only at this moment that I realized that I could no longer be so cruel to myself.

How to reject an answer?

Go and end everything about it begins. ”

Jin Xing was a little unbearable, but she quickly turned the next page.

"I was going to go to school tomorrow to watch the carnival, but Qiqi returned to Jiangning, and I was trapped in the school because I had to return the equipment, and the plan fell through.

I don't know what I'm thinking, I have a choice in front of me, but I covet that kind of temperature but it's not something that the person I want can give, so I don't dare to touch it.

Everything is coming to an end in the end, in July, if you want to leave everything here and go to Shanghai, you can't stay in Ningbo for an impossible place, silently collect it into a kind of nostalgia in the bottom of your heart, and take it to give yourself a new beginning.

Reality presses down, always do what you like, love the people you want to love.

Forgive me for loving freedom and wandering all my life, or the same sentence, the destination of the ship is the sea, how can it stay for the stake of the way.

Regarding graduation, I've been looking forward to it for a long time, and there's nothing to be sentimental about, after all, beyond the siege is a new world. Good night, twenty-three-year-old you. ”

Hands, when touching the past, will keep trembling, at that time, all she thinks about is about that person, although the name of that person does not appear in this text, but between the lines, it is all looking for the breath of that person.

And when she was the saddest, that person was not by her side.

"When my breathing slowly faded and I started to cry, I felt like I was going to die, and I was screaming for my mom in a blur, just as she had left me at my grandmother when I was three.

Rolling on the bed uncomfortably, his body was cold, he wrapped his body tightly with the quilt, kept rubbing his hands and feet, and his hands and legs twitched from time to time.

I began to understand that the most important thing for me in this life is to live, how painful it is to die, and when my body temperature gets lower and my heart beats lower, it is an instinct to save myself.

I also began to understand that the most important people to me in this life are my loved ones.

Later, I woke up, my heart pounding, and I was glad that I was alive. Grandpa called me, I didn't receive it, no one answered for a long time, I started to worry, because the day before I was the last person to call him, I was afraid that something would happen to him, so I called my dad like crazy, to my aunt, to my brother, to my brother, to my sister, to my acquaintances in my hometown, and wanted someone to come to the house to have a look, because he was the only one in the house, and they said that grandpa would go back well in the afternoon, and I was always worried about what would happen.

Between half past seven and half past nine, I made a two-hour phone call and cried for two hours, and after my grandmother died, I was very afraid of such things.

Later, my aunt found my grandfather, and my father called me and said that it was okay, and I was a little blamed for being troublesome, and I cried and said, what if something happened.

I don't think anyone will understand. My brother told me to relax and not to think cranky. I don't think anyone will understand, and people who have never been superstitious will be superstitious because of their sudden fever. ”

Tangled life experience, probably because of this, made her like a moth to Li Xijue, although in the end, she didn't get a good ending.

She turned another page and looked at the ridiculous words, all about that person, for example, when she had wanted it so badly.

"You live a carefree and boring life, probably because there are many people who love you, and the difficulties of life are filtered to you through them and become insignificant. It's just that living under the blessing of love will make life boring. Everything grows everywhere, and choices come into shape. See more people, do more things, permeate the vine of life everywhere in the world, and the soul will dance when you touch the "want" that makes the soul vibrate, the "want" that you will devote your life to. ”

Even if she is full of bad language now, but for the former Jin Xing, she is also a little girl with a literary heart, there will be sadness, sadness, and sadness.

Even though she covered everything up today, she was still shocked to see the words she had written by herself.

"I've heard that curiosity kills cats, and I'm so keen to discover. These bad emotions arise unintentionally.

I thought he was doing it on purpose, and I thought I was insensitive, but I wasn't.

Master said that sad things should never be mentioned.

I also began to refute the man, that only a dead person can be able to do everything without being surprised, because only a dead person has no emotions.

Although, this sentence, is said to the air.

The subtlety is that I didn't go to dinner on the pretext of enjoying such a bad mood, and I really didn't have the mood, and I still consumed, consumed these unpredictable emotions.

It's not a wonderful feeling at all, but I haven't seen it in a long time.

He must have done it on purpose, but he is like this, I can't do anything about it, in fact, he doesn't refuse to be deliberate, but he refuses to be deliberate on himself.

It started to rain outside, and as I had done in the morning when I saw Motoko off, I closed the window, and the lights inside were a little dim.

I've been thinking about one thing for the past two days, but in fact, my heart is calculating.

Who is this person I touched?

It's easy to accept second-hand life, but it's hard to accept second-hand souls.

I hope that we can all be our truest selves, and that's all that matters. ”

Closing the notebook, Jin Xing didn't want to read it anymore, because it would be really too hypocritical to look at it now.

She casually tucked the notebook into the cupboard, in the middle of a book.

For a few days, Jian Yiyi and they all went to squat, but they didn't see Jin Xing's figure again, at first they were still noisy, not doing business for the club, but after two days, they also felt a little tired, so when they arrived at the club, they sat on the sofa in the middle of the hall like an uncle, waiting for Jin Xing's arrival.