On Monday afternoon, I was going to go to the demolition site with Gu Shengnan, but after Mr. Qi told me about the incident, I refused Gu Shengnan's request.

Gu Shengnan looked at me blankly, I glanced at Assistant Wang behind Gu Shengnan with slanted eyes, and saw Assistant Wang's eyes dodging, looking nervous at a loss and afraid that things would be revealed, like a primary school student who made a mistake.

Looking at Gu Shengnan's dazed appearance and Assistant Wang's frightened look, I roughly understood that Gu Shengnan should not have known what Assistant Wang told President Qi.

Even if I don't know it, I will still blame Gu Shengnan for this incident, because it is he who will let Assistant Wang threaten Mr. Qi like that, and then let Mr. Qi persecute me.

"Today, I'm a little tired, so I can't go with you. I watched Gu Shengnan leave the company after saying this.

It's late autumn, and it's drizzling outside, and the ground is full of fallen leaves. Today, I don't know what's wrong with me and don't want to drive, so I just want to walk slowly on the road like this.

I carried an umbrella and walked in the direction of home.

While waiting for the traffic light, a fallen leaf suddenly fell from the sky, and I reached out to catch it. The leaves were covered with rain, and the fallen leaves were hollowed out by insects.

???? The strange thing is that the leaves are not broken, I looked at the fallen leaves and couldn't help but chuckle, "Are even insects so artistic these days?"

I took the fallen leaf through the traffic lights and the bustling crowd and returned to my apartment.

When I arrived at the door of the apartment, Xiao Fan was already waiting at the door, she bought wine and food, she shook the wine and food in front of me and smiled proudly, "I want to drink today, I guess you should want to too, so I went to buy wine." ”

Indeed, I really wanted to drink today, I smiled at her and opened the door.

When I got home, I gently put the hollow leaf that fell from the sky on the table, and Xiao Fan put the thing on the table as well, and she saw the strange leaf at a glance.

"Shizuko, where did you get this leaf?" Xiao Fan exclaimed, picking up the leaf.

"Falling from the sky!" I said as I took off my coat.

"This leaf is too peculiar, isn't it? like a work of art, do you think this is some hint from God?" Xiao Fan said mysteriously as he approached me.

"You've watched too many TV series, haven't you?What are the hints of picking up leaves?Isn't it normal to have leaves floating in autumn?" I pushed Xiao Fan's face away from me.

"Really, why don't you see such a peculiar leaf falling into the hands of others? Why did it fall into your hands?" Xiao Fan continued her whimsy.

"You have a lot of imagination, you can change your career to become a screenwriter, don't you want to drink? I took out 2 goblets from the cupboard, one was stuffed into Xiao Fan's arms, and the other was in my hand.

I brought a seahorse knife to open the red wine that Xiao Fan bought, and then poured a glass by myself.

"Xiao Fan, you didn't actually quarrel with He Jun, did you?" After three rounds of drinking, I looked at Xiao Fan and asked.

"Shizuko........" Xiao Fan looked at me and was speechless for a while.

"I've already seen it, your acting skills are not up to par! You still need to practice, let's say, what do you want to do lurking around me?" I drank the red wine in the glass, looked at Xiao Fan with a stunned face and asked.

"Actually, I'm just here to persuade you not to leave here..... And ......"

"And to be a lobbyist for Gu Shengnan, do you really think the two of us are suitable?" At this time, I was already a little bit better, and my speech became more and more straightforward.

"Yes, I really think the two of you are quite suitable, besides, Zhang Bei is already in the past, Shizuko, you can't live in the past forever, our life is in the future, not before!"

“...............”

"Shizuko, we don't mean that you have to do anything with him, but at least you can give him a chance, right? It can be regarded as giving yourself a chance, what if you have a different harvest? Maybe Gu Shengnan is the one who will accompany you through the rest of your life?"

I closed my eyes slightly, rested my right elbow on the table, and my right hand on my forehead, resting most of my entire body weight on my right elbow.

"Xiao Fan, should I really forget Zhang Bei? Is he really going to disappear from my world?" tears welled up in my eyes, across my cheeks and onto the table.

"Shizuko, forget about him, it's been 5 years, if there was anything else you could have, he should have come back to you a long time ago, but he didn't, forget about him, and start your own new life. Xiao Fan walked up to me, hugged me in her arms, and comforted me.

I lay in her arms and cried bitterly, Zhang Bei didn't come on my birthday, and he didn't give me any reply.

That day, there was only the blessing of Ran Zhu and Gu Shengnan, not his.

Is this really the end of it? Is the man I have loved for 6 years and thought about for 5 years really, really, going to disappear completely from my world?

When we meet again in the future, will we be like strangers, and we won't recognize each other even if we pass by? What does his wife look like? Does his child look like him or like his wife?

Does he still not eat spicy food? Does he still hate wearing white clothes so much? He still can't play basketball? He can't draw comics? Has he ever been to Japan to look for the footprints in Miyazaki's comics?

In the dead of night, did he ever think about me? Even once?

Is it really the end of our life? In the future, the one who worries about me, takes care of me, and waits for me every day to come home will not be another man???

This night I tried to say goodbye to my past, and I was going to lock up everything about him, and I built them a hut and locked them all in.

This night I told myself repeatedly that my future is without him, my future is without him.......

It's really hard to force yourself to forget someone, and the pain in my heart is a thousand times more painful. It's like someone has forcibly separated my flesh and bones with a knife.

Even if I broke up with Zhang Bei before, I didn't feel so painful, because I knew that I could still miss him, and I could still recall my past with him.

If I decide to accept another man's feelings, I can't, I can't think about him, I can't remember my past with him, I'm going to forget about him completely.

I finally understood at that moment what it meant to be in pain.

I covered the only photo of myself and Zhang Bei deeply in Yuehun mouth, which was the last goodbye to the past.

The moon is round and bright tonight, and the stars in the sky are twinkling and twinkling, and I will not be able to look at the night sky like I do now.

I cried to the stars in the sky and said, "Zhang Bei, they all said that Gu Shengnan is suitable for me, and you will never come back, so I have decided that I will completely forget you, and I will start my new life." ”