Holding the cigarette in his mouth, Lan Li subconsciously took a puff, only then did he realize that the cigarette was not lit. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info he was a little impulsive and wanted to ignite it.

The short contact just now, the beginning and the end were only three or five minutes, everything was so familiar, as if Lan Li had never left, the time of eighteen months disappeared in an instant, and he returned to the years of depression and confusion, forbearance and struggle in his memory.

"You're not a genius, never have been. "You're not stupid, at least you should know how to give up. "Dreams? That's an illusion that only losers and poor people believe. ”……

Those cold and piercing words, constantly echoing in the ears, from childhood to adulthood, always cruel, always indifferent, always cruel, never seem to disappear, like algae wrapped around the ankles, like a shadow of nightmare, like a sharp sword hanging overhead, forever lingering.

I searched the pockets of my pants and clothes, but I didn't find any trace of a lighter, and after the panic reached the extreme, I settled down, closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and took a deep breath again.

Perhaps, he is not an acting genius, maybe, the dream will not come true after all, perhaps, persistence is just a stupid and useless resistance, perhaps, Hollywood vanity fair will swallow him in the blink of an eye, perhaps, "Pacific War" and "buried alive" Perhaps, people still have to learn to compromise with life after all; Perhaps, the beauty of man's transformation of society only exists in utopia, and in real life, it is society that changes people; perhaps, no matter how many edges and corners will be smoothed out after all; perhaps, giving up as soon as possible is the kindness to oneself; maybe, perhaps, perhaps...... Maybe it's all true, hard facts.

But, he doesn't regret it.

Looking back at the footprints he had walked all the way, his steps were staggering and bloody, but he was happier and more satisfied than ever. He spent ten years regretting, a lifetime of wandering, and a lifetime of groping, and this time, he will not hesitate or hesitate again.

Even if the end is an abyss, he will not give up.

He is no longer Chu Jiashu. I opened my eyes again, took the cigarette off my mouth, and the boiling thoughts in my mind resettled, and little by little became clearer, and the long-lost calm and touch returned.

Looking at the streets of London in front of him, strange and familiar scenes, he gradually began to appreciate the city.

Rethinking the scene just now, Lan Li found that his thinking had deviated a little, or rather, his foothold had deviated, and the focus was not on the exhaustion accumulated from applying for a visa, nor on the speculation about the relationship between Jacob and Sam, Anna and Simon, but on the shaking of his faith.

Jacob and Anna both clearly knew that there was a problem between them, but they didn't know what the problem was, and naturally they didn't know how to solve it, and their inner irritability took over, and they began to constantly blame, blaming each other for the visa problem, blaming each other for cheating, blaming each other for being tired, accusing each other of not understanding themselves, and even like Anna, accusing Jacob of talking too loudly......

Are these the root of the problem? Maybe it's all or maybe it's neither.

This kind of dilemma and confusion made their faith shaken.

Once upon a time, they were so firmly convinced that love could overcome everything, that distance could not separate them, that the obstacles of life would eventually be broken, that they would eventually come together even if they crossed mountains and mountains, even if there were thousands of obstacles, but now, they began to question their original beliefs: can they still make it to the end?

It's like a placebo in medicine, the doctor tells the patient that it's a miracle drug, and that there is a good chance of curing the disease, so the patient's condition does get better, and even the cancer is cured - although the odds are extremely small, but it does happen. People call it the power of faith.

However, when this "faith" collapses, the entire world that was built before will fall apart and disappear.

Jacob and Anna still love each other deeply, but their belief that they can overcome everything is gone, they try to find what went wrong, longing to be able to accompany each other to the end, but it has evolved into mutual accusations, especially the irritability and anger, dullness and confusion, and the details of every emotion are magnified to the extreme, and even begin to become ugly.

They are all trying, but they are all frustrated, they are all angry, but they are all feeling helpless.

This reminded Lan Li of the mood when he watched "Love is Crazy": they loved each other so much, but they had to choose to break up.

Looking up again, there was no longer Elph and Matthew at the end of the street. If his faith is shaken, then where will his life go?

Retracting his gaze, Lan Li returned to the upper floor, pushed open the door of the room, everyone was still crowded in the not spacious hall, sticking to their posts, no one relaxed or lazy, Lan Li nodded to everyone, and apologized, "Sorry, I delayed a little time." I'm ready to shoot now. ”

Drake grabbed Lan Li and shook his head, Lan Li didn't know why, cast a puzzled look, Drake pointed to his hoarse voice - after taking the risk to speak just now, he was basically speechless now, he pointed to the location of the kitchen again, shook his head, stared at Lan Li, and tried to explain something to Lan Li.

But Lan Li was confused.

Brian Stennis, the assistant director, who was standing next to him, had to step forward and explain in a low voice, "Felicity is not in good shape, very bad. She sat there without saying a word, and hadn't moved since you left. Drake tried to communicate with her, but she dropped her glass on the floor. ”

Lan Li can imagine everyone's shock, because Felicity is usually a friendly and gentle character, and suddenly she can't suppress her irritability, which probably scares everyone enough.

However, Lan Li also understood Felicity's feelings, as if she was trapped in a transparent cocoon, she could clearly see everything outside, but no matter how much she struggled, she couldn't break through. It's a really bad feeling that your brain is completely messed up and you can't clear your mind, and if you try to perform, you just end up getting more and more confused, completely losing your rhythm and touch.

But even if Lan Li wanted to help Felicity, there was nothing she could do.

Acting is a very personal matter, and others can teach methods and know-how, but in the end, it is up to the performers themselves to understand and digest and then reinterpret them. The same character, even the same emotion, different actors at different times present different feelings - this is also the charm of stage plays, a "Hamlet" has been watched for half a century, but people still enjoy it, because of this.

What's more, Lan Li is also in the groping stage on the road of performance, and he is far from reaching the height of guiding others.

Felicity needs to get out on her own.

Lan Li was silent and thought about it, maybe he couldn't direct the guidance, but he could give some guidance and pass on his own understanding of the scene to Felicity. But the problem is that Felicity is now irritable, her brain is chaotic, and there is no way to calm down and think. Conversations don't solve the problem. So, they went back to square one.

"......" Drake raised his chin and pointed in the direction of the kitchen, giving Lan Li a look, this time Lan Li understood, Drake hoped that Lan Li would do something to solve the current problem.

Lan Li shrugged his shoulders, indicating that he couldn't do anything.

Drake rolled his eyes, pointed to his watch, and then to the camera, and it looked so funny, like an acrobat in a circus.

Lan Li understood that Drake was saying that when he performed before, he was able to play a guiding role and bring out the best in the actor actor, Felicity was like that, and so was Jennifer. But Lan Li is not a magician, he can't make something out of nothing, when Feliciti is in a state, he can guide, but now Felicity is not in a state at all, and he is helpless.

"What then?" Drake said with round eyes and extremely hoarse, almost silent, as if a ball of steel wool was stuffed in his throat, which made Lan Li laugh a little. Seeing the smile on the corner of Lan Li's mouth, Drake was annoyed and angry, and wanted to get angry, but then he imagined it, but he also felt that such a state was too funny, and couldn't help laughing.

The problem is that Drake can't even laugh. After laughing, he began to cough, and then his throat hurt sharply as if it had been blown by gunpowder, and he had to quickly pick up the water cup next to him and pour it in large gulps. It was funny.

The atmosphere on the set immediately became joyful.

In fact, the crew is under tremendous pressure, not only because this scene is crucial, not only because Lan Li and Felicity are both experiencing bottlenecks, but also because this house is also borrowed by Drake from a friend, tomorrow is the last day, after that, there is no way to even pay for it, but the problem is that tomorrow they still have two scenes of Anna and Simon that have not been filmed, and the time is getting tighter, and they are now stuck here.

But at this moment, everyone still chuckled, temporarily letting go of the worries and pressure in their hearts. Lan Li looked left and right, his eyes scanned over everyone's happy expressions, and an idea popped into his mind.

Perhaps, music can be a bridge between Felicity and Anna. Now that Felicity's brain is in such a mess that she can't think at all, and the way she communicates in language is blocked, what about music? The language and metaphor of musical notes can always be a powerful tool for breaking down barriers and barriers, creating a connection between the intellect and the emotion.

Not sure if it works, but at least try it.

"Can you find a keyboard at your friend's house?" Lan Li looked at Drake, then saw a blank look on his face, and he chuckled, "If you want to get into shooting quickly, then find a keyboard." ”