Standing on the stage, Damien wept bitterly, looking extremely embarrassed and embarrassed, all his emotions were displayed in front of the audience, his vulnerability, his struggle, his joy and his happiness, all so real and so heavy, weighing heavily on his shoulders.

"When I first made this film, I just wanted to ...... it"

Damien's emotions finally reorganized, with a thick cry, upside down, incoherently continued to deliver his acceptance speech, sitting under the stage, Lan Li was a little distracted, looking at such Damien, happy but also faintly moved.

In the previous life, the impression of Damien has always stayed at the stage of receiving praise from the entire Hollywood with "La La Land", behind the shyness of not being good at rhetoric and socializing, is a dull otaku who is dedicated to artistic creation, and the confidence and firmness in his heart can flow through the lens.

But those are just glimpses of the light under the spotlight.

In the distant future, Damien will finally be able to fit into the track of the previous life and become the focus of attention under the spotlight, but on this road, those ups and downs and tribulations are blurred in the dazzling light.

In Damien's near-collapse acceptance speech, the 30th Sundance Film Festival finally came to an end.

"Burst Drummer" won the Grand Jury Prize and the Audience Choice Award, and was undoubtedly the biggest winner of this year's festival. It is now foreseeable that thanks to the blessing of Blue Rite and the support of Sony Classics, this work will inevitably attract more attention after its release, and as for the prospects of the awards season, it depends on the operation of Sony Classics.

After the award ceremony ended, the bustling heat wave still lasted for nearly an hour, and the guests present discussed and chatted with each other lively, and the atmosphere was jubilant and joyful.

As the biggest winner of the night, Damien was naturally the center of attention, and the endless crowd was so dazzling that he didn't even have time to sort out his emotions before falling into a series of encirclements. The mode of celebration after the ceremony, Sundance is not much different from the Golden Globes and Oscars.

Damien managed to find a gap, and secretly left the scene, leaving the noisy and crowded indoor environment, and crashed headlong into the cold and cold outside, the crisp air poured into his dull lungs, and although the shivers were one after another, he was finally able to feel the fresh air, which was to feel the breath again.

Then, Damien saw Lan Li.

At this time, Lan Li stood not far from the door of the main venue, and there were two young people who looked like movie fans and audiences standing in front of him, and a faint chuckle could be heard between conversations, and the harmonious atmosphere was like a gurgling hot spring water bubbling in the same way, with a little warmth in the tranquility, which made Damien tilt his head and watch quietly, it seemed that Lan Li always had such a magic power, making the blade of time gentle.

The two young men didn't stay long, and waved goodbye to Lan Li with brisk steps. Lan Li was left alone again.

Damien stepped away, and when he came to Lan Li's side, he realized that he didn't know what to say, he just wanted to get close to Lan Li, and he did just that.

Lan Li turned his head to look at him and smiled, "The party is over?"

Damien shook his head helplessly, trying to complain that Lan Li had left him behind, but he couldn't say the words of complaint, and could only release the laser towards Lan Li with an extremely resentful gaze.

Lan Li's smile rose more and more, "You should learn to adapt. After the movie is released, there will be more similar occasions, and today it can only be regarded as a rudimentary level. It's even more serious if the Sony Classics are ready for awards season, and you might be partying two or three in one night. ”

"What about you?" Damien widened his eyes and looked at Lan Li in disbelief.

Lan Li didn't answer, but just glanced at Damien meaningfully, and a smug look slipped through his eyes.

Damien immediately caught Lan Li's eyes and said dumbfounded, "You...... Are you showing off?" After finishing speaking, he muttered to himself, "I thought we could share the burden together, shouldn't things be like this, why can you be lazy, I have to attend, I'm not good at it, I don't know what to do, I really think you're more suitable than me", those muttered vague words collided between his lips and teeth, and he couldn't say it clearly, and after he finished complaining to himself, he was in a good mood.

Suddenly there was silence.

The pale yellow street lights supported the dark night sky, and there were no snowflakes, but there was a bitter chill in the air, slightly stinging the exposed skin, and the world was quiet.

"I'm separating. ”

Damien spoke suddenly. He had not intended to mention it, it was his personal matter, and he did not think it necessary to mention it specifically, but he had just had an impulse to say it. Surprisingly, he thought he would be uncomfortable, but in fact he relaxed.

"None of us wanted to get to this point. We all try to solve the problem. But in the end, it still didn't work out. I moved out at Christmas. ”

Damien continued calmly, without the ins and outs, without the beginning and end, not even the subject or pronoun, and Lan Li did not comment, but listened quietly.

Although Damien is not yet 30 years old this year, he has actually been married for more than three years.

Damien and his wife also met and dated while studying at Harvard, just like Justin Hurwitz, who made the soundtrack for "Burst Drummer". Jasmine-McGlade, also a writer and director, also struggled in the early stages of her career, and in 2009, Damien's directorial debut, "Guy and Madeleine on a Park Bench," was written by the two couples who were still dating, and then Damien was the director and Jessamine the producer.

After that, Jessamine also directed a feature film, "Maria, My Love", which was released in 2011 and unfortunately did not make any repercussions.

For the past five years, Damien and Jessamine have been chasing their dreams, only to be hit in a row in the harsh reality. Previously, Damion went to Oscar Night to wait for the rabbit, and there was no final struggle behind it, and both he and Jessamine had been forced into a dead corner of their lives, almost out of breath.

They are all persevering, they are all trying, they are all stubborn, but the dark tunnel of life has never seen any light and hope, they are all making each other exhausted, gradually unable to recognize themselves as they are, and even the emotions that maintain each other have lost their taste.

In the end, someone has to make a choice, either compromise or give up or ...... Part company with.

At Christmas, the conflict between them finally broke out, hurting each other all over the body, and then fleeing like lost dogs.

Who's wrong? No one is wrong, but they have come to this point in the end.

At tonight's awards ceremony, Damien fell apart because of Sundance and because of Jasmin: If this trophy had been brought forward by a year, wouldn't things have been different?

"When I stood on stage tonight, my mind was full of the last scene of 'Love is crazy'. Damien's words stained the cold and loneliness of the night, and the deep sense of loss could not be shaken, "Jacob and Anna finally came together, but they were both exhausted, and neither knew if they had made the right choice. ”

In Jacob and Anna, he sees a projection of himself and Jessamine, and then the emotions are completely broken.

Lan Li turned his head to look at Damien, "There is never a right or wrong choice about feelings, just looking for missed and reunited moments in each other's lives, and then leaving those most beautiful, painful and intense times in memory, that's all." ”

Damien rubbed his head vigorously, and the bubble noodle curls grew more and more messy, "I know, I just ...... I just couldn't help but wonder if Jessamine had believed in me more and believed that the film would have been a success if 'Burst Drummer' had been able to shoot in the first place, or if I had made a short film about 'Burst Drummer' and found an investment at Sundance, our lives would have been less stressful......"

Lan Li once again cast his gaze into the distance, staring at the hazy light in the distance, "So, if you could really do it all over again, would you choose to give up your dream? Or, would you still choose to become a director?"

Damien was stunned like this, countless possibilities couldn't help but appear in his mind, but he couldn't find the answer after all, and his smile became bitter, "I finally know why everyone likes Hollywood movies, because everyone likes a 'happy forever' ending, just like a fairy tale." ”

"Isn't that why everybody loves movies, because movies are the real tools for dreaming. Lan Li said with a smile.

"Dream making. Damien muttered softly, "Dream Dream ......" and then he turned to look at Lan Li, "You know, before I created 'Burst Drummer,' I was writing a script that was based on the story of me and Jessamine, about two young people chasing their artistic dreams in New York, but...... It's a pity that no one is optimistic about this script, because it's too egotistical and too ......."

Damien paused suddenly, "Whew, anyway, I paused the script, and then I went to Los Angeles, and then I met you." The script was still missing an ending, but I now know how to end it. I thought, go back and finish writing the script, would you like to star in this work?"