My heart is throbbing now, my legs are shaking, and I can be sure that my senior sister has appeared. Xiaoxue is very smart and sensible, she can't be so intimate with a strange woman, it must be a senior sister.

I don't know why Senior Sister suddenly appeared, and I don't think about it, anyway, I'm just going to find her, and nothing else matters.

It took half an hour to drive from the suburbs to the city. I became more and more anxious, and asked the owner to drive faster, he secretly scolded his mother, but he swallowed his breath for a thousand yuan.

I finally arrived at Dongfeng Primary School, but at this time I couldn't see any students, and I looked around blankly, as if I had come in vain.

The owner asked me for money, but I didn't have any money. I found myself too impulsive, rushed here, and owed money.

I said you wait here until I come back. He scolded: "Damn, I knew you had no money, you ran away in vain, Lao Tzu can't beat you!"

He punched me right away, and I smelled blood.

"Fuck you, you ran out of the mental hospital, I don't have any money for soiling Lao Tzu's car!"

He kicked me a few more times, and I continued to look around, but there was no one everywhere, this area was not prosperous, and it was difficult for elementary school students and even adults to see it.

The owner punched me in the chin again, and I was bleeding in my mouth, and he wanted to strangle my neck, so I stared at him coldly: "That's enough." ”

He was stunned for a moment: "It's enough for you to be paralyzed!" Another kick came, I grabbed his calf and pushed it hard, he took several steps back and sat on the ground, his face changed in pain.

"Enough. I said coldly, and he was immediately afraid, and I turned and ran down the street.

Xiaoxue may have been picked up by Ye Haoran's people, or Xiaoxue is no longer in Dongfeng Primary School, maybe Shanshan will not teach here.

I ran down the street, blood on my lips and dirty sewage, and the occasional pedestrian shy away.

Later, when I came to the bustling street, it was dark, and there was a noise of pedestrians all around. I watched aimlessly, hoping to see Senpai, even if it was ridiculous.

A belief sustained me and made me not want to stop there. I frantically searched both sides of the street, and the more I looked, the more panicked I became. Actually, I shouldn't be so impulsive, I should contact Ye Haoran and look for it slowly step by step, maybe I've seen the senior sister by now, but now I'm looking aimlessly on the street, and I feel that the senior sister must be somewhere here.

Then I saw her.

I was in a trance for a moment, and I really saw her, she was in a café, holding her chin and looking at the light snow next to her.

I rubbed my eyes vigorously, yes, it was her. I seemed to be dreaming, I walked over with some stiffness on all fours, it was indeed her, the haunting senior sister.

She is no longer eighteen years old, and now nearly nine years have passed, and she is twenty-seven, like a puddle of sake, exuding a calming aroma.

I approached the glass window of the café like a thief with a weak heart, and the passers-by next to me were fanning their hands, as if they thought I stinked.

I stopped and saw her side clearly, almost exactly the same as Xiaoxue, cute and charming white cheeks, a smile at the corner of her mouth intentionally or unintentionally, she was a bad smile back then, that bad and bad Nizi, hooked a bad smile to tease me: "Hey, lick the ice cream." ”

My throat was dry and my eye sockets were uncomfortable. The senior sister's boots swayed gently, she was as elegant as a white swan, and Xiaoxue leaned on her arms and laughed like a little swan.

I couldn't hold back my tears after all, no matter how many times I fantasized about it, I never thought that I would meet in this situation.

A senior sister like a white swan, and a mentally ill me.

I took two more steps forward and got closer, Xiaoxue whispered in the ear of the senior sister, and the senior sister giggled, and after laughing, she turned her head slightly to look outside.

There was no sound for a moment, and I stood outside the glass window looking at her while she looked at me inside.

I had a lot of blood on my mouth, and I wanted to hide from it, at least dress up, but I didn't move, and looked at her like a psychotic beggar.

Her boots stopped shaking, her lips opened slightly, her delicate eyelashes blinked twice, and then she turned her head nonchalantly and walked slowly away with Xiaoxue in her arms.

I felt like someone had drained me of my strength, and I watched her leave, and then came out of the doorway.

A BMW was parked in front of the door, and two bodyguards got out. The senior sister handed Xiaoxue to them, and her voice was very soft and soft, which was the voice I had been thinking about for nine years.

"Xiaoxue, go back to Uncle Ye's house obediently, don't be naughty. ”

She said this, Xiaoxue hugged her and kissed her, her face was full of joy: "Hmm!"

The BMW drove away, and the senior sister walked silently along the faint street. I didn't know what was wrong, I was cowardly, and I followed her like a fool, my eyes fixed on her back.

She kept walking unhurriedly, and came to the street where no one was around. I kept following it, trying to catch up, but for some reason my steps were as heavy as lead, and it seemed that if I picked up my pace, I would fall.

The sky was getting darker and darker, and the street lamps could not bring light, so the night was so deep that the dead darkness pressed on me.

The senior sister suddenly stopped, and I also stopped, I opened my mouth to call her, but now I felt like I had returned to nine years ago, I was that fifteen-year-old young boy, looking at her like a fool with love and guilt for her.

She turned her back to me, ten meters away from me, and then pulled out a cigarette and lit it lightly, blowing a puff of white mist into the air.

At the age of eighteen, she also liked to smoke, and for fun, she would inhale the smoke into her mouth and then spit it out through her mouth, which she said didn't hurt her lungs and looked cool. She doesn't seem to have changed now, what has changed is the traces of time.

I trembled a little and took a step towards her. She spat out another mouthful of white mist: "Hey, stop there for me." ”

I stopped immediately. She spoke, and I breathed like a fish in the water: "Senior sister......

"What are you excited about? Isn't it that I didn't know what to do with you when I was a child, look at your bear-like appearance. ”

I was stunned, and the water left again.

"The last time someone followed me, I knew you were looking for me, I heard that you are holding it now, send someone to arrest me?"

I said it was a misunderstanding, it was Huang Junyao...... I can't go on anymore, because of the extreme disappointment in my heart, why is this happening? Why is the senior sister so cold.

Nine years later, I was still fifteen years old, but she was twenty-seven.

I want to cry, what do you say I have to say? I burst in my mouth, I blow up, but I still cry, I hold you numbly.

I couldn't stop crying, and the senior sister let out a chuckle: "Fool." ”

She refused to look at me head-on, and I felt very weak in my heart, so I slowly crouched down and looked up at her twenty-seven-year-old back.

The guy who was bad and, the guy who teased me with his big white legs all day, the guy who drizzled ice cream on his chest, the guy who gave me my first time.

I lowered my head, my senior sister paced a few times, her boots made a muffled sound on the ground, she looked at the tall buildings in the distance, and the white smoke slowly wrapped around her fingers.

"Hey, break up. ”

She said again, my heart hurts, I don't have the concept of breaking up, now I think about it at the beginning we were indeed in love, and now she says to break up.

I didn't respond, my throat was dry and sore, and the wings of my nose were full of stench.

"Be mature, do you think there will be women waiting for you for nine years? How can I live without getting married? I have forgotten all that past, and occasionally I think of it and laugh it off, don't treat reality as a movie, nine years, what love and hatred can't be separated, right? ”

She was laughing like she was talking to a child. I looked at her weakly, then said in a trembling voice: "You turn around, I want to take a good look at you." ”

She stopped halfway through her cigarette, then took another deep puff and exhaled slowly: "What's so nice about it." ”

I said I just want to see you, and I'm not reconciled. She seemed to be laughing, but she didn't, and then she walked away: "Live your life well, I'm going back to live with my man." ”

I couldn't stand up, I didn't have the strength to stand up. The senior sister walked away step by step, and disappeared when she turned the street.

I thought to myself, what a fool, who is stupid? I'm stupid.

I sat for a while, then I got up and walked back, and when it was over, my heart was empty, and my eyes were empty, and I walked down the street like a dead man walking around.

A couple next to me passed by me while talking: "Husband, you won't abandon me, look at the woman at the corner of the street, how miserable she is crying..... Hey, it stinks, where did you come from, dead beggar, get out of here!"

My mind was empty, and I just felt that they were disgusted with me and told me to get out, so I smiled miserably: "What if you don't get out?"

The man kicked over: "Fuck you, it's still on the bar!"

I grabbed him by the foot with one hand and slashed his throat with the other, and he turned blue and fell to the ground coughing vigorously. The woman was terrified, screaming and running away.

The man coughed and shrank back, as if he had seen a ghost. I walked silently through the dusky streets with my head bowed.