In the first half of the night, the sweat soaked the clothes, and in the second half of the night, the wet fit was close to the body, cold and uncomfortable.

Li Yuanwu got up cautiously, looked at Li Xian who was sleeping on the side, and was worried that he would catch a cold at night, so he took off his coat and gently draped it on his body.

"Dad, I didn't sleep. Li Xian suddenly said in a deep voice, then threw down the coat on his body and put it aside.

Li Yuanwu was startled by the sudden voice, and immediately reacted and sighed silently. In such a situation, it is really incredible to be able to sleep into it.

"Xian'er, aren't you really going to go overseas with me?" After a while, Li Yuanwu asked cautiously.

Li Xian's body twitched obviously, and he gritted his teeth and said, "I'd rather die in Lingang than hide like a dog overseas for the rest of my life!"

Li Yuanwu's expression was gloomy, and a look of struggle slowly appeared on his face, and it took four or five minutes before he gradually calmed down, leaning his back against the wall covered with cobwebs, and his voice was unusual: "Xian'er, Dad has something to say to you." ”

As a father, Li Yuanwu tried his best to pull Li Xian back. It is true that he is greedy for life and afraid of death, but it is precisely because of this that he can see through Li Xian's futile struggle. However, Li Yuanwu believed in his son so much that he didn't realize it at all, and he couldn't mention some things about Li Xian at all.

He had unwittingly sounded the death knell for his own death.

Reaching out and touching the pocket of his clothes, Li Yuanwu took out a pack of cigarettes from his arms, took out a crumpled cigarette and put it in his mouth.

Then he dug into his trouser pocket, but did not find a lighter, so he simply kept holding the cigarette in his mouth, and raised his head, with a faint look of memory on his face unexpectedly.

"Your father and I have never been serious, eating, drinking and gambling when we were young, you should know this, and I have nothing to hide. More than 20 years ago, the driver drove me under the Tianshui Bridge and bumped into a woman. ”

"I don't know if I actually hit her, but the woman wasn't hurt anyway, it seemed like she had twisted her foot. Li Yuanwu laughed, "I looked at her through the car window, she looked like a coquettish, cheap and profligate dress, but whether it was her figure or face, she was better than those little girls in Ledu." ”

"She saw that our car was good, and she thought that we should be rich, so she thought about blackmailing us. In the past, I wouldn't have been in such a good mood, but at the time, I saw that this girl was quite funny, so I asked the driver to take her to the hospital. Speaking of this, Li Yuanwu paused slightly, "Then on the hospital's illness, I will deal with her." In fact, if you really talk about this, you can't blame me all, she flew at me as soon as she got in the car, rubbed me with her thigh, and was not idle for a moment. ”

Li Xian's words were filled with disgust: "What are you doing with me, do you think I'm interested in your ** account when you were young?"

His face changed slightly, and Li Yuanwu's voice was low: "Xian'er, there are countless ** accounts here for my father, but this one is the only one I want to tell you." This woman is related to you, she is your mother. ”

"I don't want to hear it!" Li Xian sat up straight, crouched on the side of the ** and gasped for breath.

Li Yuanwu took out the cigarette that was biting into his mouth, gently stroked Li Xian's back, and calmed him down: "You have grown up, and you are better than me as a father in all aspects, and some things are better for you to know." ”

"This slut later became my woman, and I was with her seven or eight times a day. Her frenzied screams seemed to pierce the roof. I don't know if I like her, maybe she's better at serving, but I'd rather be with her than the little girls in Ledu. Every time I finished it, I would leave her a stack of tickets, and I knew in my heart that she was for this. What bullshit love, it's all a child's play. ”

"I was with her for about a year and then I lost interest and was a little bit... I'm tired of playing. But she obviously tasted the sweetness from me, sticking to me and not forgiving, and then she said to me on the phone, you come to my house, my family has no conscience, let's do it at my house once. ”

Li Yuanwu laughed: "I don't know how the ghost sent the gods to go, her house is really dirty, not much worse than a dog kennel, greasy everywhere, and half of the dried bacon is hung at the door." But I've never played in this kind of place, and that day she worked very hard and changed her way. The two of us got together, tossed around four or five times, and when I was exhausted, the man came back and bumped us into each other. ”

The body shrank back, and the smile on Li Yuanwu's face slowly sank: "Her man is a butcher who kills pigs in the vegetable market, he is tall and big, and he practiced boxing and kicking for a few days when he was young. He knocked over the two bodyguards I had brought, rushed into the house with knives, and almost chopped off my head. ”

As he spoke, Li Yuanwu stretched out his finger and pointed to the scar under the corner of his eye: "This is what was left at that time, if you hide a little slower, your father and I will die long ago." ”

"And then?" Li Xian asked softly, turning his head and looking at Li Yuanwu with an unprecedented gaze.

"Later... Later, I took advantage of the bodyguard rushing up to hug him and slipped out from the side. I heard the butcher yelling in the house, and then she rushed out and hugged me and told me to take her away or her man would beat her to death. Li Yuanwu's face changed, "I was shocked and scared at that time, where could I manage so much, I kicked her away and got into the car, and let the driver drive away immediately." ”

"When I got home, the more I thought about it, the more angry I became, so I got someone to tie up the butcher and beat him to death in front of me. From the beginning to the end, he never begged for mercy, and cried all the time when he was dying, probably because he hated himself for not listening to his parents' advice, and he just married a bitch and went home. Li Yuanwu took a deep breath and was silent for a while before he whispered: "So the rumors outside are true, this matter was spread in Gangbei at that time, and the major families used it as a joke, and they couldn't do it if they wanted to cheat." ”

Li Xian said coldly: "It's boring, and then you married that woman back?"

Li Yuanwu frowned, stared at Li Xian and asked, "Don't you want to know your mother's name?"

Seeing that Li Xian didn't answer, Li Yuanwu sighed lightly and continued: "Later, after another three or four months, she came to find **** by herself." At that time, I could hear people talking in my family, and I was naturally annoyed. I wanted to kick her out, but she said she was pregnant with my child, and I was tempted. ”

"At that time, Li Qing was already born, I was not the eldest son, and if I didn't have a son, I wouldn't be able to compete with Li Yuanwen. And Li Qizhi has always disliked the Li family, and I always felt that if I added another grandson to him, maybe his attitude towards me would be better. ”

"After weighing it, I let her in the door, and then I gave birth to you spontaneously. ”

"After having you, I have become more disciplined in my life and work, and I remind myself all the time that I am a father. Li Yuanwu smiled self-deprecatingly, "And gradually I also realized that I really seem to like her a little." You know, when I saw her breastfeeding you, I wanted to cry several times. ”

"The way she looks at you is very different. No flattery, no flattery, very pure. At that time, I felt that even if she was not recognized by the Li family, it was nothing, and I was willing to protect her, accompany her, and live a lifetime. The corners of his mouth slowly hooked, and Li Yuanwu's eyes looked at Li Xian in a daze, "But do you know? When you were one year old, I had a serious illness. During the examination, I found out that I was born with a birth defect and could not give birth to a child at all. ”

Li Xian was shocked by this sudden remark, his eyes widened suddenly, and his body shrank back: "What... What?"

"Xian'er, you are not my son at all, you are her and that butcher's seed!"

"You are talking nonsense!" Li Xian suddenly shouted, obviously not recovering from this sudden blow, he covered his head with his hands, and fell directly to the ground from the ** pad, wiping the water stains all over his body.

The corners of Li Yuanwu's eyes twitched, and the blue tendons on his forehead burst out: "Do you know what I did later? I strangled her to death! I was really mad, she begged me for mercy with tears, saying that there was no other place to go, and everyone around her scolded her for being a slut, if she didn't come to me, she and the child in her belly would have to starve to death." He also said that as long as I let her and the child go this time, she will treat me well in the future, and she will do whatever she wants for me. Even so, I strangled her without the slightest hesitation!"

"After strangling her, I want to strangle you. But when I rushed to the baby's ** side and saw you, I... I..."Li Yuanwu raised his head, tears in his eyes, "I really can't do it, you are clearly my son, your eyes, eyebrows, nose, and mouth are all like the Li family, how can you be a wild seed? I think you will call me dad when you grow up, I will invite you to hire the best teacher, I want you to live carefree, how can I strangle my own son?"

As he spoke, Li Yuanwu also held his head, threw himself on the dirty ** mat, and cried.

Li Xian let go of his arm, slowly raised his head and stared at Li Yuanwu, tears couldn't help but flow out of the corners of his eyes: "What do you mean by telling me this today? Do you think I'm not miserable enough? Or do you want to show how selfless you are?