The apartment that served as the filming base began to get busy, all the work this morning was over, and the next thing was to transfer the set and continue to devote themselves to the follow-up shooting, and the crew began to pack up the equipment, and in the trivial sound of the collision, the dullness and depression became more and more obvious.

But the two actors didn't move.

Lan Li and Carey still sat in place, keeping Levien and Jane's movements, everyone around them was moving, engaged in their busy work, but their time seemed to stand still, and the same world was divided into two parts, one running wildly and the other stopping.

Kerry stared intently at Lan Li, his mind constantly replaying the performance just now.

In fact, more than half of the scenes deviate from the script, and the emotional surges and changes of Levien and Jane are all the result of improvisation. According to the setting, Jane never really loved Levine, and Levian's mind was never discovered, but during the real performance, between eye contact, the heartbeat of that moment became real, and everything became natural.

Carey genuinely believes that Jane actually loved Levine, not loved her.

She envied Levine's talent, as well as wanton and pride, and even jealousy, as if the wind could never be fathomed and could not reside, free, unrestrained, and the fatal attraction was enough to make people's hearts pound, but Levien couldn't give her the life she wanted after all, so she chose Jim, even if she still loved Levine deeply.

So, when the beloved Levion washed away the lead, and the vicissitudes of life became gray little by little, Jane's mood was mixed and indescribable. She compromised, and now it was his turn too?

Such a full and intricate emotion, in the process of performance, Carey does not need to be carved and interpreted at all, it is naturally revealed, as if the whole person is immersed in that emotion, at that moment, Jane becomes real and vivid, no longer just a character in the story of Levine-Davis, but a real existence with his own life, his own personality and his own story.

It's a peculiar acting experience, and it's also a performance experience that Carrey hasn't experienced before.

She recalled Marcus's comments about Lan Li, the video of the Pioneer Village singing, the entire Don Quixote album, and the first day the crew met, and her curiosity sparked.

"May I ask you a question?" asked Kerry abruptly.

Lan Li raised his eyes, little by little out of the atmosphere of the movie, "Does Marcus know?"

A rhetorical question without warning and clue, Kerry didn't keep up with the rhythm for a while, blinked, and his eyes fell on Lan Li for a while, before he reacted-

Lan Li is still Levine, not completely freed, and their current posture has always maintained the relationship between Levien and Jane, in a trance, the triangle relationship in the movie seems to be projected into reality, Jim did not know about Levien and Jane's private affairs, so at this time Lan Li asked Marcus what to say......

Kerry was angry and funny, "This gentleman, you're not my type. ”

Lan Li didn't answer, just shrugged his shoulders, looking noncommittal, as if to say: That's not necessarily.

That confident look made Kerry chuckle, "Do you always talk to girls like that?" I thought you would use a more elegant and advanced method. ”

"Even if it's a nobleman, it's the same under the skin. Lan Li's answer made Kerry snap her fingers, and she nodded seriously, "I like this answer." ”

Then Lan Li returned to the original topic, "What's the problem?"

This time, Kerry kept up with the jumping speed of Lan Li's thinking, but after a little gag, there was no longer the atmosphere at the beginning, Kerry himself realized that the problem was a little naïve, and showed a shy smile, but still asked, "I just want to ask, have you thought about giving up?"

Abandon.

Just like Mickey and Levine, they chose to give up in the end. But no one can tell whether they have given up their careers, their dreams, their lives, or ...... They have given up on themselves, or when they choose to give up on themselves, their lives have come to a halt.

There are those who are alive but are dead, and there are those who are dead and still alive. Others live without dying or alive.

In Lan Li's body, Carey completely ignored age and experience, she just saw an actor, an actor who used his life to interpret acting and art, the truth between gestures and smiles, but left a lingering aftertaste, she couldn't even tell whether this was expressionist acting or methodist acting, the only thing left in her mind was shock, indescribable but inextricable shock.

So, Kerry became curious.

How did such an actor survive in Hollywood, and how did he carry the weight of life as the heir of a hereditary aristocratic family?

All the confusion is reduced to the simplest question.

It seemed to be an extremely difficult question, but Lan Li did not hesitate or pause at all, and simply gave the answer, "Of course." ”

The answer was so crisp and taken for granted that Kerry didn't react for a while, and couldn't help but be stunned, and asked reflexively, "Are you serious?"

Lan Li chuckled, "Absolutely." He nodded slightly, his thoughts were still on Levine's point of view, not detached, but the part about self-doubt and self-anxiety remained true, "Persistence is never easy, everyone is more or less confused, is their own persistence correct?

"More importantly, are you right?" is a simple sentence, but it contains countless deep meanings. For actors, especially actors who calm down and slowly study their acting skills, almost everyone has asked themselves: Am I really talented? Are those so-called talents blind confidence that they take for granted?

Until standing on the stage of London's West End, Lan Li was still questioning herself. From the mediocrity of the previous life, but also from the paranoia of this life, the words of George and Elizabeth always make Lan Li fall deeper into thought.

"A person can choose to persevere without talent, but he must understand what he is doing, otherwise, all perseverance will lose its meaning, and then giving up is a relief. "It's like Strickland in 'The Moon and Sixpence.'" So, yes, I once thought about giving up, and more than once. ”

"But why didn't you really give up?" asked Kerry again.

"If I say, because I am unwilling, do you believe it?" Lan Li chuckled, the exhaustion and vicissitudes between his eyebrows were slowly dissipating, the temperament belonging to Levine was disappearing, and the light belonging to Lan Li was emerging, and the chic and free in his bones gave a face two qualities.

Perhaps, this is the biggest difference between Le Verne and Blue Lane.

Kerry nodded earnestly, "I believe." ”

Lan Li shrugged his shoulders slightly, "Sometimes, holding on for too long seems to have become a habit, and giving up has become more difficult. There are many reasons, maybe because of unwillingness, maybe because of paranoia, maybe because of fear, maybe ...... Just because you want to keep going. But no matter what, there is no right answer or no way to know. ”

Kerry didn't speak any further, and fell silent, caught up in his own thoughts.

Kerry and Lan Li, Lan Li and Kerry, they can see themselves in each other.

Kerry dreamed of becoming an actress since she was a child, but her father, who is a hotel management consultant, and her mother, who is a teacher, are not supportive, insisting that Carey must finish college and seek a more certain future, which hinders her dream.

In 2004, at the age of nineteen, Carrey, at the recommendation of the wife of the famous actor and screenwriter Julian Felloes, auditioned for "Pride and Prejudice".

Due to her non-professional background, Carey must continue to work hard and learn on the road of acting, and return to the West End of London, starting from scratch and polishing herself little by little, but in the dead of night, she can't help but wonder if she has the talent to become an actor.

It wasn't until 2008 that she won the opportunity to perform in "Growth Education" through auditions, which opened the door to her acting career, and in the next few years, her career ushered in a period of rapid development, and she was like a fish in water in Hollywood, with many opportunities.

Everything seems to be on track, her dreams have become real, everything she once dreamed of has now come true, it stands to reason that she should be content, she should be confident, she should be calm-

But last year, because of the "Great Gatsby", Carey fell into self-doubt again, and in less than four years after entering the world of Vanity Fair, she seemed to lose herself again, began to doubt her original intentions, and began to doubt her abilities, as if ...... It's like Levine Davis.

Therefore, on the first day the crew met, Kerry saw herself in Lan Li's body - or Levien's body, and her mood was slightly out of control.

After the filming of today's scene, Carey seemed to have tasted something, but it seemed too complicated to sort out, and she needed to calm down and think about it.

Looking at Lan Li in front of her seriously, he is younger than herself, more experienced in acting than herself, and more outstanding in performance than herself, but he has never lost himself, which also inspired her again, a pool of stagnant life became interesting again, the smile on the corner of her mouth rose, and she asked a question again, "So, what are your plans next? This work is about to be completed again." ”