Chapter Twenty-Nine: What I Want
The room was pitch black, with only two entangled people on the bed. But if you look closely, it is not difficult to see that this entanglement does not have the feeling of interaction and blending, but rather seems to be strong and dodging. It's just that...... The lips never parted. Until the half-ring, Lin Yun'er's face turned red, and she gasped and turned her head sideways to avoid him.
"Ah......h Not. Han Mingjin leaned over and kissed her again, only this time it seemed to be more intense. Holding her tightly, the hand on her back was not rubbing, but leaning against herself, without a single gap. That idea of possession was all reflected directly with his movements, and Lin Yun'er couldn't resist it in the past, and now she doesn't seem to have much to do.
It's just that when he found that the resistance was getting smaller and smaller, Han Mingjin quietly retreated. Looking at the eyes that were a little blurry but still clear, as well as the aroma that spit slightly to the tip of his nose, Han Mingjin narrowed his smiling eyes and kissed him again: "It's for you." You know you've done so many things wrong, and you dare to lose your temper with me?"
Lin Yun'er paused, breathed steadily, and slowly lowered her head: "I just don't want you to be so good to me, even if I hurt you so much, it's still like this." Han Mingjin raised her head slightly, looked at her guilty eyes, and chuckled: "Then do you think you are wrong......? Will you intercede for him again?"
Lin Yun'er hurriedly shook her head: "No! I won't! Even if I do it a hundred times and a thousand times, I will ......" stretched out her index finger to block her lips, Han Mingjin's eyes were relieved, but there was also helplessness: "You will." Even if you do it a hundred times or a thousand times, you will still intercede for him. That's who I know. The Sister Yun'er who blocked the mop for me. ”
Lin Yun'er was stunned, but Han Mingjin had already reached out to brush away the hair covering her forehead, and rubbed the small scar intently: "Maybe." Don't mention my feelings, Sister Fany, who has already understood the truth of that day. In fact, I reject you even more now, or hate you even more. You begged me to let him go for the sake of a stranger who had only known me for less than half a year, and when the truth came out and he admitted to using you to hurt me. Let go of that brother who almost died in love with you, and even carried so much for you. [ If you are looking for materials, you will go to " target="_blank">] In their hearts, they will feel that I am not worthy. Even if...... Everyone grew up. ”
Lin Yun'er bit her lip, trembled and lowered her head silently. Han Mingjin sighed and gently took her into his arms. Looking up at the wall: "Remember the question I asked you? I asked if you were a virgin." You say you still are. Do you think I can still ask these questions in such a depressing atmosphere, and I still can't get rid of my nonsense character...... Actually, I didn't. ”
Gently patting her on the back, Han Mingjin muttered, "I just wanted to be sure that you didn't have feelings for him between men and women. That's enough. Because I know, I have always known, that my favorite Sister Yun'er has always been kind. She couldn't have watched anyone die in front of her eyes, especially the one who was going to kill him. Or me. ”
"Mingjin ......" Han Mingjin came back to his senses and looked at the fawn eyes looking at him, which were already full of tears at this time. Han Mingjin smiled and shook his head: "Actually, it's my fault." I always want you to live happily in the environment you like, and I don't want these dark, violent and bloody things to have anything to do with you. But I forgot. I want to get close to you and these things, and you are destined to not be able to escape. ”
Lin Yun'er looked at him blankly. Tears have slipped from his eyes: "I do this to you...... Is it still kind?" Han Mingjin wiped away her tears and asked softly, "Then you ask yourself." Why do you ask me to let him go?" Lin Yun'er subconsciously said: "I just don't want you to kill people anymore, and I don't want anyone to die." ”
Han Mingjin nodded: "Then why do you still doubt yourself?" Lin Yun'er bit her lip: "Because of everything I did, I never thought it would be unfair to you." I didn't even realize it would cost you your life. Han Mingjin looked at her, rubbed her hair, and held her in his arms with a half-sound, letting her tears stain her chest.
"Whether it's in the eyes of your fans or in the eyes of the people around you. You are all kind and lovely little Lu Yun. But that's their perception, not mine. True kindness should not be just superficial, it should not just be a clean smile, clear eyes, not just polite and humble. Sister Yun'er, who is really kind, will protect anyone without reason, whether she is close or not familiar with it at all. Sister Yun'er, who is truly kind, will sacrifice herself to help others. And I'm ...... It is also in the realm of being sacrificed by you. I want to tell you that because you treat me as a part of yourself, I am willing to sacrifice for you. ”
"Famous ......" Lin Yun'er looked at him, her smiling eyes narrowed and she was still as cute as when she first saw him. But when she said such a thing in such a calm tone, Lin Yun'er's heart couldn't stop trembling. Including the hand rubbing his cheek, it was the same: "Fool...... Me too. Sacrifice yourself to protect the person who hurts you. I'm a fool, stupid. Hopelessly, you are willing to sacrifice yourself to fulfill me, and so are you. We...... Both. ”
Han Mingjin's eyes changed and hugged her tighter. Lin Yun'er buried herself in his arms, shook her head with a smile: "When you say this, I also think that I did it because of kindness." But even I'm not sure, others ...... They think I'm the most hated and vicious person, right? Will feel ......."
"Why do you care about this?" Han Mingjin rubbed her cheek: "You have to be yourself, not the person you want you to be." What can they do with their understanding and incomprehension?" Lin Yun'er frowned: "But ......" Han Mingjin shook his head: "Am I less misunderstood? I'm afraid that when the social service smashed eggs, they were also there. But so what? What will they change for me with their wanton abuse and hurt? No, nothing. When I choose to do this, I am destined to have someone who understands, supports, opposes, or even treats it maliciously. Or maybe I'm really doing something wrong, it's my own business. It's okay to scold me, it's okay to hurt me, anything. But it won't change me. I thought about the consequences before I did it, but I decided to do it anyway, and would I give up because of anyone's criticism and misunderstanding?"
Holding Lin Yun'er, who was a little crying, Han Mingjin asked softly, "Sister Yun'er." You finally give up interceding for him, even if he dies, you don't care anymore. Tell me, are you giving up because of other people's misunderstandings and criticisms?" Lin Yun'er choked and shook her head, hugging him tightly: "No...... No. I'm here for you...... I don't want anything to happen to you. Besides...... I can't care about anyone else. ”
Han Mingjin smiled and patted her on the back. Let her cry in her arms. Until halfway through, Lin Yun'er gradually stopped crying, and looked up at him with squinted eyes that were a little swollen with crying: "Mingjin...... I'm sorry...... Thank you. Han Mingjin was silent for a while, and nodded with a smile: "I...... Not accepted. Lin Yun'er was stunned for a moment, and her face turned white instantly.
Han Mingjin shook his head and chuckled: "Actually, the words I said just now are to comfort you." But there is one thing I lied to you. Rubbing her cheek, Han Mingjin muttered: "I want you to be relieved, and I understand why you do this without caring about other people's misunderstandings and criticisms." But...... I didn't want to let you go so easily. ”
"Name...... Fame. Han Mingjin wiped her tears: "Because of you." I took it over and over again. Because of you, you can kill him, I didn't kill him. I didn't want to make you feel guilty and blame yourself, maybe you think I chose to let everything go because of greatness. But you don't realize it. There is never a saying of paying silently. The kind of infatuated person in the TV series does not exist, even if it exists...... It will definitely not be my Han Mingjin. ”
Lin Yun'er opened her mouth slightly: "Then ...... you" Han Mingjin looked at her little face with a smile, and said with a half-smile: "What a person wants or doesn't want, there is no reason to follow." If you scold me, you will return it, and if you beat me, you will fight it back. Hurt me...... It's going to find a way to hurt him more. ”
Suddenly turned over and pressed Lin Yun'er underneath, looking at her slightly flustered and puzzled, Han Mingjin stepped forward, his voice was a little low and hoarse: "Everything you did to me." All the misunderstandings, hurts, and ignorance given, let me return them in the same way. I can't. Not just because of the distress, but also because of that. It won't make me feel better. But you owe me so much, and I am not destined to let you go like that. Because from beginning to end, what I want most from you is probably what others don't care about the most. ”
Lin Yun'er subconsciously avoided his eyes, although she had a premonition of what he wanted at this time, she still murmured, "Yes...... What is it?" "It's you. Biting her earlobe and smelling the incense in her hair, Han Mingjin whispered: "Who wants you to repay me for something? Who wants you to repay the guilt you have for me......? As long as you. ”
"Your eyes, nose, lips, neck, and ......" There was something else Lin Yun'er couldn't hear, but she knew. Because although Han Mingjin didn't say it, he showed it with practical actions. With her hands on her chest, Lin Yun'er seemed to be able to subconsciously recall his messy actions.
"Fame...... No...... Don't ...... "If it really was, then he wouldn't stop disobediently." But at this moment, Han Mingjin really stopped. Just bit her lip, squinted her eyes and said, "How long has it been Sister Yun'er, how long has it been since I hugged you and kissed you like this." ”
"Mixed ...... Bastard. Han Mingjin chuckled to her ear, but his hand did not stop: "Sister Yun'er." I wanted to let you go. You're beside me, crying more than laughing. I thought you would be happy without me, but after so much experience, whether you understand it or not, I do. ”
Holding her face, Han Mingjin asked her to face herself: "Whether I really like or love it, but I am destined to be inseparable from you." And you...... It is impossible to leave me again. No matter what happens in the future, I ...... to you Won't let go again. I won't want you tonight, not because you're unsure of my heart. Rather, I'm going to save it until the end, waiting for you to take the initiative to ...... yourself Give me. ”
"Ah" scolded like a monster, Lin Yun'er, whose face was pink and her eyes were confused, and the words that came out of her mouth were also like coquettishness. Han Mingjin gently unbuttoned her coat, revealing the underwear inside: "I won't do anything to you." But except for the last layer of relationship, I have to eat everything that should be eaten...... Just like before. ”
The moon, which was obscured by clouds outside the dormitory when he was young, chased here, and looked at the entangled figures of the two people in the room, dispelling the clouds that blocked it. Because it had a hunch that this room, which had been abandoned for a long time and had been unpopular for a long time, and that many things had happened, would return to its old atmosphere...... Entangled atmosphere.