Chapter 21: Not Qualified to Have My Child
My child is gone, and how important a child is to a 28-year-old woman, I think I just need to go to the gynecology hospital to see it.
And before I could feel its presence, it left me.
But who can I blame? I was just one of so many people who had been killed in that disaster.
After Gu Qingchuan told me about this, he sat on the edge of my hospital bed without saying a word, and he has been sitting there for almost two hours now.
I looked at him in a daze, and suddenly thought that if the child was really born, would he be more like him.
We have been silent for too long.
"Gu Qingchuan, let's break up!" I said the first sentence in a long time with a hoarse voice.
"Let's break up!" This should have been said five years ago, but we didn't have the courage, I couldn't bear it, he was unwilling.
Love itself is a matter of two people, but we were separated by my mother first, and now we have another child, how can we be together as if nothing happened?
I want to hug Gu Qingchuan, the place that once gave me warmth, I want to hug him all the time.
"Gu Chuan, hug me!"
Gu Qingchuan moved to my bedside and hugged me, only to realize that he was also injured everywhere.
My heart choked up inexplicably, why others always have infinite sweetness and happiness in love, but when they come to us, they make each other scarred and physically and mentally exhausted.
He hugged me tightly and started saying "I'm sorry!" in my ear.
I thought he was also apologizing for the loss of his child, so I hugged him tighter, as if I used all my strength to respond to him, as if this was really our last hug, so we both wanted to pass on the last warmth to each other.
I don't know how long it has been, I heard my mother's voice at the door of the ward, and before I could get up from Gu Qingchuan's arms, I saw that my mother had already poured a bucket of hot chicken soup on Gu Qingchuan's body, I pushed Gu Qingchuan away hard, but in the end he was still drenched.
He stood by my bed drenched, innocent like a child who had made a mistake, and the burned area had begun to turn red.
My heart hurts to death.
"The surname is Gu, when are you going to harm my daughter?" After speaking, my mother began to rush up to beat Gu Qingchuan.
My mom started slapping around again, just like she did twenty years ago, when she was really a shadow of my childhood.
"Mom, what are you doing?" I said in a loud voice, almost roaring, and even my temples hurt a little.
Gu Qingchuan looked at my mother with a pair of cold eyes, obviously the two of them didn't know each other before, but looking at them at this moment, it seems that there is a hatred between the ages and thousands of years, and the hostility between the two people can be seen from a distance.
"Xia Yan, are you also crazy, how many times have you told you to stay away from this plague god, but how can you still conceive his child?"
I sneered: "Mom, how long will it take for you to understand? He is not Xu Yawen, you don't have to treat him with the same attitude as Xu Yawen, and besides, I will never become you!"
"What's wrong with being pregnant with my child? She doesn't have the qualifications to give birth, and I have already helped you dispose of the child, so Ms. Chen of the province took her daughter to have an abortion!"
I was stunned.
I subconsciously kept telling myself that the child was gone because of the earthquake, because I was too nervous and emotionally unstable, so it was gone, Gu Qingchuan said this, just to stab my mother.
But I remembered that he had just apologized in my ear over and over again, and it turned out that he was not apologizing for losing my child, but for beating my child.
My heart ached and I could barely breathe.
Why do I feel that he still loves me, takes good care of me, and is sometimes gentle with me, but why is he so ruthless?
Could it be that even the child is a tool for him to take revenge on my mother?
"So, you've all known each other for a long time, So, how much are you hiding from me?" Suddenly, Xia Xue's voice broke the stalemate between the three of us, and then I realized that Xia Xue came with my mother, and she was standing behind my mother all the time.