Chapter 12: Low self-esteem
When I went to the countryside on Saturday this week, there was a cheerful and talkative boy like Ju Ze in the car, and the atmosphere in the car was very lively.
Miao Fang knew what he was thinking about Fan Shasha, and at first she deliberately wanted to tease him, and deliberately said in front of Fan Shasha: "Ju Ze, what happened to your rainbow-haired girlfriend last time?"
Ju Ze looked panicked, and quickly explained: "No, Sister Miao, don't get me wrong, I have nothing to do with that girl, once I went to eat that creative hot pot, I sat on one side, there was a person opposite, there was a baffle in the middle, and when the baffle fell, I saw her." Unexpectedly, she misunderstood and said that we were destined...... I'm very pure, Sister Miao, I'm just a weak, pitiful and helpless programmer, you know that we programmers are all straight men, how can there be a girl......"
"Oh," Miao Fang said in a long voice, "what happened to the little girl with short hair and studs who looked like a man last time?"
"Sister Miao, please spare me, it's all a misunderstanding...... Ju Ze hurriedly turned back to Fan Shasha who was sitting in the back row and said, "Sasha, don't believe it, Sister Miao is joking, it's not like that." ”
Fan Shasha was a little speechless: "What are you explaining to me?"
"That's right, what are you explaining to Sasha?" Nurse Wang also joined in the troublemaker, and teased him with Miao Fang.
Shen Yiming, who was sitting in the last row, silently plugged in the headphones, not wanting to listen to these words anymore, Li Wanyi beside him grabbed his headphones with one hand and asked curiously, "What are you listening to?"
"Nothing. Shen Yiming shook his head.
Li Wanyi didn't continue to ask this, and whispered to him: "Look, I'll just say that Ju Ze is interesting to Fan Shasha, and everyone can see it." ”
Shen Yiming smiled faintly: "I'm in my twenties, and I want to start a family, isn't that normal? Some of my classmates got their graduation certificates and marriage certificates on the same day." ”
"Haha, I'm just curious, gossip, I don't know what kind of family this Ju Ze is, I see the clothes he wears, they are quite trendy in this small county. Li Wanyi chuckled quietly.
Shen Yiming shook his head: "I don't know either." "Then you have to plug in your headphones and continue listening.
Li Wanyi took off his headphones again, and now the group of people in front of her were talking around Ju Ze, Li Wanyi was so anxious that she was bored, and she wanted to chat with Shen Yiming, so she stirred up the topic and said: "By the way, your shoes are not bad, why do you have the money to buy these shoes that are a thousand years old?"
Shen Yiming's eyes sank: "My sister bought these shoes for me." ”
And it's fake, they bought it at a stall, fifty yuan a pair.
Li Wanyi said in surprise: "You still have a sister? I thought that the post-90s generation was an only child." I really envy you for having brothers and sisters, I've been alone since I was a child, but I'm lonely. ”
"Why are you lonely, you're a single girl, so you don't have any friends?" Shen Yiming's tone was not very good.
Not only did he have an older sister, but he also had three older sisters. Even though all three of his sisters were kind to him, and his parents were kind to him, he was ashamed of such a family.
He grew up so much that his family gave him very little education, and he lived in school from junior high school until college. All the things he knew, the cultivation of his concepts, were all learned in school and society, and very few came from the family.
If he had grown up in that family and accepted the preferential treatment of boys in patriarchal families with peace of mind, he might not have developed his current character, maybe he would have been the boys from typical patriarchal families mentioned on the Internet, arrogant and arrogant, gnawing at his parents when he was a child, and gnawing at his sister when he grew up.
It is precisely because he grew up outside that everything he learns is given by teachers and classmates, so he knows that patriarchal families are despised in the eyes of many people, so he himself looks down on his family. What's more, he has three sisters in his family, not one, it is a legendary family that does not give birth to a son, and it is a family that has been fined for overbirth and bankrupt.
As a vested interest in a patriarchal family, he also has low self-esteem, even more so than his sisters.
He never dared to say that he had so many sisters outside, because he was afraid that people would say that he was a phoenix man, and he would not even be able to find a girlfriend when the time came.
Even though he wasn't, he never asked his sister for anything and never bothered to take the family's money. But others still see him that way.
He left his hometown to work so far away to escape from home.
And Li Wanyi's words sounded like a naked show-off, showing off that she was an only child, and attacking him in disguise.
No matter how sluggish Li Wanyi was, she realized that Shen Yiming was in a bad mood, and watched speechlessly as Shen Yiming plugged in the headphones again and ignored her, but she didn't know what she said wrong.
Li Wanyi glared at him, scolded "what the hell", and then ignored him and sat next to another doctor.
They plan to act separately today, last time Fan Shasha and Shen Yiming unexpectedly approached Niu Zhongyong, Wan Minan felt that he still asked the two of them to persuade and talk to the old man, maybe he could open the old man's heart, and then the old man would be willing to go for surgery, so Miao Fang, Shen Yiming, and Fan Shasha were divided into a group.
When Ju Ze heard that he didn't get him and Fan Shasha together, he thought to himself, wouldn't he just participate in vain? So he immediately said to Wan Min'an: "Section Chief Wan, you let me try it too, I can't do it next to me, and I have a lot of ways to please the elders." ”
He gave Miao Fang a look as he spoke, he had developed Miao Fang into his own person through "Sister Miao Miao" on the road in the car.
He has a sweet mouth, and he is smart, and after in-depth contact, Miao Fang really has no prejudice against him before. Come to think of it, Fan Shasha and Shen Yiming are both introverted, she, extrovert is extroverted, but she is straightforward and easy to get angry, and persuades an old man like Niu Zhongyong to go for surgery, maybe Ju Ze is really good.
So he also persuaded Wan Min'an: "Chief Wan, you let Xiaoju try it, I think it's okay." ”
"Okay. Wan Minan smiled and deliberately scared him and said, "It's okay, but if you can't persuade Grandpa Niu to go out for surgery, you will have to take the responsibility." ”
Ju Ze immediately said: "Section chief, rest assured, since I have participated in this group, I will not evade all the responsibilities." ”
So after the car put them at the bottom of Panshui Village, the rest of the people set off for the next stop.
Miao Fang took them up the mountain, Ju Ze immediately went up to take the medicine box in Miao Fang's hand, and said with a smile: "Sister Miao, how can you let you do this kind of thing? Give it to me quickly, I'll get it." ”
Miao Fang gave it to him, and couldn't help complaining: "You licking dog ......"
Ju Ze didn't care at all, still with that smiling face: "It's right to do things for Sister Miao." ”
Miao Fang glanced at him, where is it for her, Ju Ze just saw that she was getting close to Fan Shasha, so he deliberately flattered her, so that she would not speak ill of him in front of Fan Shasha in the future.
When Shen Yiming saw it, the corners of his mouth hooked up with a sneer, and said to Ju Ze: "If you don't work in an institution with simple interpersonal relationships like a hospital and go to an outside company, then you must be a master in the workplace." However, in places like hospitals, there are still more strengths. ”
Ju Ze also smiled at him, although he understood his sarcasm, he didn't care, and said, "Yes, you're right, but I don't have that big vision, I just want to do my job well." ”
Shen Yiming stopped talking to him, turned his face to Fan Shasha and said, "Sasha, have you told the section chief about the power strip?"
Fan Shasha nodded: "I have already brought it, in my bag, I can give it to him when I see Grandpa Niu later." ”
Ju Ze quietly watched Shen Yiming and Fan Shasha talking, and when talking to him and others, he felt more nervous and tentative, which is mostly seen when introverted little boys want to chase people.
No wonder he is so hostile to himself, and his rivals are naturally very red when they meet.
Ju Ze turned his face and smiled faintly.
It was still the same road that he walked last time, when he passed through that narrow passage, Shen Yiming was the first to pass, as soon as he walked there, he turned around and wanted to reach out to pull Fan Shasha over, but he saw Ju Ze following behind Fan Shasha, blocking the outside with one hand to prevent Fan Shasha from falling.
Shen Yiming didn't speak, and quietly withdrew his hand.
The four of them soon arrived at the door of Niu Zhongyong's house, and Niu Zhongyong was still sitting at the door alone in a daze like last time.
He saw four men coming, and his eyes lit up, but soon they darkened again, and he kept his face open, and his eyes were away, ignoring them and not looking at them.
Miao Fang was very happy in his heart, this is also a kind of progress, when he came before, he waved his cane to drive them away. I still ignore them now, but at least I won't attack them.
Fan Shasha was also very happy, because Niu Zhongyong did not wrap the wound in cardboard this time, looking inside from the outside, the inside of the room was also bright, and he opened the windows to breathe, which proved that he listened to their words.
"Grandpa Niu, we've come to see you, how is your wound doing?" Miao Fang moved closer to him, then stopped about a meter away and asked him, "Grandpa Niu, can I help you change the dressing?"
"No!" Niu Zhongyong was still unwilling.
Miao Fang turned around and gave the three people behind her a look, Fan Shasha walked over, took out the power strip in her bag, and said, "Grandpa Niu, your power strip is old, and it's not safe to spark, let's replace it with a new one for you." ”
Niu Zhongyong pouted: "No, it's good for me to use the old one." ”
"The old ones aren't safe. Fan Shasha said, no longer waiting for him to refuse, and went directly into the room to replace the power strip.
Ju Ze also walked over, squatted down to eye level with Niu Zhongyong, and said to him with a smile: "Grandpa Niu, will it be boring for you to sit here?"
Niu Zhongyong ignored him and didn't look at him.
Ju Ze continued to ask: "Your grandfather, do you push pai gow?"
Pushing pai gow is a domino game, which is very popular in the local countryside, and when Ju Ze's grandfather lived in the village, he would go to someone to push pai gow every afternoon, so he guessed that Niu Zhongyong should have also played this game.
As a result, Ju Ze really guessed it, he looked at Ju Ze, although he still didn't speak, but Ju Ze looked at the look in his eyes and knew that he was right.
When Niu Zhongyong was young, he did love to push pai gow with the people in the village, but then the rotten foot disease became more and more serious, and the smell was also big, and others saw him and hid far away.
So he didn't participate in it later, but occasionally he would hide behind and take a look, and later, he knew that even if he looked at it, he would be disliked, so he didn't even look at it.
Ju Ze took out his mobile phone, pressed it a few times, and then brought up a game interface, and said to Niu Zhongyong: "Grandpa Niu, how about I accompany you to push pai gow? ”
He usually accompanies his grandfather at home, and that's what he does.