Gu Fangyan has experienced an unprecedented dullness in the recent period, and he has nothing to do except review, and he is not alarmed.

He locked himself in a two-bedroom room for a whole week, barely communicating with the outside world, during which Qin Xiachu also contacted him if he needed help reviewing his homework, and he always found an excuse to refuse.

During this time, he put the whole world out of his way, going in and out of his bedroom every day, rummaging through the bookshelves and piling up a large stack of revision materials into the Leaning Tower of Pisa. The key points that needed to be marked were covered with pages, and he lay on the bed and looked aimlessly, and when he felt tired, he turned over and looked at the ceiling in a daze, and sometimes looked at the two-dimensional posters posted on the wall.

In the past few days, Gu Fangyan has really experienced the feeling of being a dead house, the big bucket of soda in the refrigerator, reliving one drama after another, he rummaged in this dozens of square meters of house, wanting to find the small waste materials that used to live in a snail's house, and wanted to find the time of peace and joy when there was nothing to do.

It turned out that so much time had passed unconsciously, and in the blink of an eye, he was about to go through the college entrance examination, step on the first stepping stone in his life, and then leave this red brick hut, and then leave the city, killing his boring years in the process of becoming an adult.

Damn, when I thought that I was about to grow from a weak and mournful young man to an old and mournful greasy uncle, the hairs on Gu Fangyan's whole body stood up. Either life is a process from the cradle to the grave, he has been crawling on this road for more than ten years, but he has not even encountered the opportunity to step on shit luck.

Forget it, how do you feel more and more sad when you think about it...... In order to avoid losing her love for life one day, Gu Fangyan often opens the curtains in her bedroom at night and allows the night light to pour into the room along the balcony.

It was the most pleasant time of the day, no matter how much fatigue and toil, it would disintegrate under the starlight, and the inferiority complex and grievances that grew in the depths of his soul would inadvertently disappear. He could even perceive a subtle sense of well-being...... Make you willing to give something to share with the world.

There may be some inferiority complex that is really innate, it is so deep that it penetrates so deeply that maybe even you can't explain it yourself. You always try to run away from something, but it always follows you, like a roundworm that lies dormant in flesh, striking you when you are unprepared.

Gu Fangyan opened the curtains of the bedroom as usual, and the night sky was like inky satin, with a few dots of light in it. He sat on the desk with his head propped up, looking at the dim stars like a child.

What to think, in fact, there is nothing to think about. Gu Fangyan sometimes fantasizes that the woman who is far away will one day fly to the city to see him, standing in the wake of the airport plane, dragging large bags and small bags of luggage, and then following the memory to find the old residence area crawling with creepers.

It's strange to think about it, but it's scary to think about it deeply, Gu Fangyan can't imagine how embarrassing they will be if there really is such a day. He was really afraid of the embarrassment, and his mind was full of thoughts about dying on the spot.

He opened the laptop on a whim, and the broken notebook was almost on the verge of being scrapped, but he was reluctant to throw it away. After turning on the camera, what catches your eye is a group photo of a family of three, which has been kept here for a full eleven years.

Gu Fangyan looked at the man in the photo and then at the woman on the side, she was tall and slender, with curly hair and a high nose bridge, and slightly deep eyebrows. After watching it for a long time, you will even think that she is a Eurasian mixture.

Sometimes he really felt strange, he had lived with the woman in front of him for so long, and to this day he could always feel a creepy strangeness.

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June 6th, evening.

Gu Fangyan went to bed early, and the hour hand turned to ten o'clock in the evening.

There was a silent night that had never been there, but he couldn't sleep inexplicably. Maybe it's because the biological clock hasn't rang yet, or maybe there's still a little nervousness in his heart, in short, there are too many things in his head that are too chaotic, and his thoughts are extremely clear.

Unconsciously remembered what Ling Chenxuan said to him when he left, saying that it didn't matter to him what the college entrance examination was, and he would have to spend the next few years at the Daomeng branch. Although it is a bit of a pity that I did not go to university, it is said that the branch school system is very conscientious, and the various rules and regulations are as close as possible to that of a standard university.

Think about it carefully, after a few years, he Gu Fangyan graduated as a qualified exorcist, if you really want to break away from the collective and run the rest of your life, the branch will also issue you a special graduation certificate, and you will not be unable to find a job in the society after that.

It's quite conscientious...... But the more thoughtful he is, the more uneasy he feels, and he always feels like he has joined an unknown organization, as long as you cooperate with everything, everyone will be happy, otherwise his head will move.

Unconsciously, I seem to have buried my mediocre life in the future, if one day he Gu Fangyan burps without knowing anything, and disappears from this world without a trace.

No, no, I shouldn't think about this now...... Gu Fangyan forcibly pulled back his thoughts, what is the mathematical formula for finding the root of trigonometry? Damn, it seems to have forgotten again......

The mobile phone next to the pillow suddenly sounded a crisp prompt sound, Gu Fangyan pinched the phone and glanced at it, it was another condolence message from a boy who usually gets along well. Gu Fangyan wondered in his heart, he didn't necessarily say a few more words when he met, why did he come to send condolences and blessings one by one at this time?

Maybe most of them are just trying to be down-to-earth, and some people are like this, knowing that others are not as good as studying, he also falsely warned that hey, don't be nervous tomorrow, don't worry, I don't know anything, what multiple-choice questions are not just an ABCD thing......

Gu Fangyan scolded in his heart, did you think of me as a tool man at this time?

He didn't reply, as before, and after checking again if the alarm was ready, he rolled over and closed his eyes violently.

In fact, he was also a little expecting someone to send him encouragement, but that person didn't seem to care about this form of networking.

Well, if you can't ask for anything, you can't ask for anything, and it's useless to have hope in vain.

"Sleep. He said to himself.

Outside the window is the hollow night, and since there are no tall buildings around, starlight is the only neon in the city at night.

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At about six o'clock in the morning, Gu Fangyan jumped up from the bed, looked at the time and fell asleep, shrugged down and moved to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.

As soon as the gas was turned on, the oil pot was steaming, Gu Fangyan yawned and beat an egg into it, and the milk had been put into the microwave oven in advance. He doesn't prepare a fancy breakfast, but he doesn't treat himself badly, as he said, life has to be a little ritualistic.

The head teacher often said that the college entrance examination was a battlefield for students, and now it was time for him to carry a gun to the battlefield. In order to avoid dying on the spot, this time he had enough ammunition.

Out of the door, the street is much more deserted than usual, there are not many vehicles, and more people like him walked to the examination room with plastic film in his arm, the only difference is that the whole family around others mobilized to see him off, and the scene was so spectacular that it seemed to go on an expedition.

It is indeed an expedition, the candidate plays the role of a general, and many soldiers behind him wave their flags and shout for him. Combined with the lonely and bleak atmosphere on the street, it is really awe-inspiring.

Gu Fangyan shrunk his neck, and the peace of mind that he had finally brewed began to shake again.

After that, he hurried back and forth like all candidates, doing something as long as you are fully committed to it without feeling time passing, the schedule of the day is faster than you think, and before you know it, he has completed half of the exams.

When he returned home in the evening, Qin Xiachu took the initiative to contact him for the first time.

"It's a little harder, but I really tried my best. To this, Gu Fangyan replied like this.

"Okay, I think it's pretty simple. Qin Xiachu playfully sent a cool emoji.

Looking at the little yellow man with sunglasses, Gu Fangyan's typing hand trembled slightly, Auntie, you are talking to death!

"Come out to party after the exam, no, I'll take you to a good place. ”

"Where is it?" Gu Fangyan tapped on the keyboard.

"The bar, have you ever been to it, it's the kind of light bar that you can sit for an afternoon by ordering a bottle of wine, it's not noisy, and it's quite atmospheric. Qin Xiachu smiled and said, "How is it?

The heart is moving, the heart is moving. Gu Fangyan muttered silently in his heart, sitting in the same bar as Qin Xiachu, but this kind of good thing can't be his turn, he knows that Qin Xiachu is kind, but everything stops at the point, there is no need to run to join in the fun.

"Look, I'll go if I can. In the end, he gave a vague answer.

"Oh. The other party seemed to be dissatisfied with his answer, and replied faintly.

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June 8, afternoon.

The moment Gu Fangyan walked out of the examination room, the evening breeze blew towards him, and his brain was directly confused.

Later, he often recalled that afternoon, the breeze was not dry, although the scorching sun of Wuhan at that time could dry people, he still felt unexpectedly happy, as if he had finally explained an extremely important matter to everyone.

That's it...... Gu Fangyan once made up 10,000 feelings after the college entrance examination in his mind, and at that time he should be as happy as a son, the kind of lawless who does whatever he wants, and then carnivaled with his classmates all night that night, raising a glass and laughing and scolding the sky.

But when he really waited until this moment, he found that he couldn't get excited at all, his mind was empty, and his heart was inexplicably filled with a kind of dazed melancholy. It's as if at this moment you're really out of the organization, the school that tormented you for three years is no longer relevant to you, those old friends are gone, and you're alone again.

Rather than spreading joy all over the world, he wanted to find a quiet place to sit for a while, and then silently watch everyone disperse, along with the joy they carried.

Then he suddenly grinned without warning, because he suddenly thought of the new one he had been chasing recently and updated tonight. It turns out that a person's happiness can really be so simple, so why is he pretending to be melancholy like a fool, let's go!

A drizzle fell in the sky, and he hurried home happily with plastic film in his arm, there were still many parents waiting for people at the school gate, Gu Fangyan couldn't help but think of that sudden rainstorm afternoon, when there were so many parents and so many students at the school gate, they hurriedly threw themselves into the arms of adults, obviously happy in their hearts, but they still had to pretend that they didn't care.

Gu Fangyan was walking alone, and suddenly stopped.

He saw a girl leaning quietly against a dark blue Mercedes sports car in the midst of the surging crowds on the side of the street. She wore a white off-the-shoulder T-shirt with denim short, and her pure white sneakers were spotless, and even the laces were neat.

With slightly curly light chestnut hair reaching to her waist, and a lock of bangs on her forehead swaying slightly in the wind, she seemed to be waiting for someone, looking into the distance boredly.

Gu Fangyan was directly stunned in place, and the silhouette of the girl not far away was so beautiful that it made people's hearts palpitate under the dusk and rain...... They had been separated for a long time, but when they met again, they still caught him off guard.