Chapter 40: Perpetuation and Separation
Jian Hao grabbed Shi Xiaonian's wrist, he didn't drive, but walked in the crowd. He didn't notice it, because he unconsciously used too much force, and Shi Xiaonian's wrist was a little red when he grabbed it.
Sensing the pain in his wrist, Shi Xiaonian frowned. She originally wanted to shake off Jian Hao's palm, but seeing so many people nearby, she didn't want to brush Jian Hao's face, so she kept holding back.
But Jian Hao still didn't feel Shi Xiaonian's displeasure, when he grabbed Shi Xiaonian and walked through a remote alley, Shi Xiaonian shook off his hand, she stood in place, biting her lip and not speaking.
Jian Hao thought that Shi Xiaonian was playing tricks, he calmed his face and said in a stern tone, "Go back with me." ”
"I don't. Shi Xiaonian said softly, her voice was not loud, but there was an undoubted meaning in her tone.
"Come back with me. Jian Hao was just about to reach out to grab Shi Xiaonian's wrist, but Shi Xiaonian dodged, she took a few steps back and said sharply at Jian Hao.
"Enough, Jian Hao, how long do you want to force me?!" This sentence was shouted out by Shi Xiaonian, and the voice spread all over the alley, Jian Hao didn't expect that Shi Xiaonian would say this.
"I'm forcing you, I'll let you go back with me, is this also reluctant?" Jian Hao stared at Shi Xiaonian with incredulous eyes, Shi Xiaonian smiled in a low voice, her smile mixed with a hint of bitterness.
She looked up at Jian Hao, and after a while, Shi Xiaonian said, "Jian Hao, let's separate, let's be calm and calm." ”
When Shi Xiaonian said this, Jian Hao didn't react. What does Shi Xiaonian mean by this, is she tired of living with him and wants to break up?
Jian Hao asked, "Why? What did I do wrong? Or did I feel sorry for you?"
Facing Jian Hao's questioning, Shi Xiaonian didn't answer, she shook her head: "Don't ask me, I don't know myself, Jian Hao, I don't have any feelings for you, at least for now." ”
Shi Xiaonian's words made Jian Hao stagnate, what did Shi Xiaonian mean when she said this? She had no feelings for him anymore? Isn't she in love?
Jian Hao's face was very serious, he looked at Shi Xiaonian and took a deep breath: "Can you give me a reason?"
Shi Xiaonian shook her head, it wasn't that she didn't want to give Jian Hao a reason, it was just that even she didn't know why. Maybe she really doesn't love it, that's why she feels tired of her days, and she really doesn't know how she should love Jian Hao now.
Her habits are unpredictable, and she can't guess his temper, rather than not knowing anything and being together in a mess, it is better to separate and let each other calm and calm, maybe after a long time, Shi Xiaonian will understand?
But Jian Hao couldn't accept it, he didn't understand why Shi Xiaonian did this, he didn't do anything wrong, and he didn't do anything to be sorry for Shi Xiaonian, why did Shi Xiaonian say that they would separate?
He doesn't accept it!
However, regardless of whether Jian Hao accepted it or not, Shi Xiaonian had already made up her mind, she didn't want to stay with Jian Hao anymore, she turned around, didn't look at Jian Hao, and left resolutely.
Where would Jian Hao let Shi Xiaonian leave like this, he chased after him, grabbed Shi Xiaonian's hand, and asked, "Shi Xiaonian, are you serious?"
"I'm not laughing. Shi Xiaonian said expressionlessly, and seeing her like this, Jian Hao understood it thoroughly.
Shi Xiaonian really doesn't love him anymore, she wants to leave.
Jian Hao would not force Shi Xiaonian, he stood in place, his head was lowered, no one could see his expression, his hand had not been released from Shi Xiaonian's wrist, and Shi Xiaonian had not broken free. It doesn't make sense for her to break free, unless Jian Hao lets go of it with her own hands.
He will let it go, Shi Xiaonian believes that from the beginning to the present, at least, when Jian Hao is facing a decision, she has not guessed wrong.
And while she waited patiently, Jian Hao really let go of the hand that was holding her wrist little by little, and when that hand left Shi Xiaonian's wrist, Shi Xiaonian closed his eyes and smiled miserably.
Even though she already knew the result, but before the result came, she still had hope in her heart, even if she was asked to guess wrong, even if Jian Hao didn't let go of her hand this time, but Jian Hao didn't.
Shi Xiaonian left, she didn't look back, her back was stiff and resolute.
Jian Hao watched Shi Xiaonian go away and disappear into the darkness, he lowered his head and knelt down.
His heart hurts, in his life, he has never loved a woman like this, this heart-rending feeling makes him almost unable to breathe.
……
Shi Xiaonian didn't wait for Jian Hao to come back, she started to pack her things after she got home, she wanted to leave before Jian Hao came back, she was afraid that when she saw Jian Hao, she would hesitate a little and be reluctant to leave.
She doesn't want to do things so mother-in-law, since she has decided something, she won't look back.
She's gone.
Shi Xiaonian walked on the street with his suitcase, surrounded by bright lights, looking at the dazzling neon, Shi Xiaonian's eyes were a little confused.
She didn't know where she was going.
She didn't want to go to Luo Shanshan, because she didn't want Luo Shanshan to worry about her, and she couldn't go to the hospital.
But tonight, the hotel was her best choice.
Shi Xiaonian went to the hotel to book a room, which is a business suite, and the environment is not bad. She came out of the shower, sat on the bed, opened her laptop, and began to browse the Internet for rental information.
She was looking for a house that was closer to the company and more convenient to go to the hospital. The rent in such a location is not cheap, but Shi Xiaonian thought about the salary he currently earns, and he can still afford to spend like this.
She didn't hesitate and immediately got in touch with the landlord online.
The two made an appointment to go to see the house tomorrow afternoon, Shi Xiaonian will go to work in the company tomorrow morning, but she has time in the afternoon, of course, it can't be too early, about half past four, she and the landlord said so.
In the afternoon of the next day, Shi Xiaonian came out of Xu's Mansion after work, and met Li Minhao head-on, Li Minhao was finally discharged from the hospital, he saw Shi Xiaonian, and immediately said teasingly: "Sister-in-law, it's not time to get off work yet, where are you going to go in such a hurry?"
"Do you want to take care of it?" Shi Xiaonian glanced at Li Minhao, she didn't know if Li Minhao knew the news that she and Jian Hao had separated, of course, whether Li Minhao knew it or not, this did not prevent Shi Xiaonian from communicating with him.
Jian Hao is Jian Hao, his brother is his brother, and now Li Minhao's status in the company is Shi Xiaonian's subordinate, so Shi Xiaonian distinguishes these very clearly.
"Yo he, such a big anger, is it because of a quarrel with Ah Hao? But it is said that the husband and wife quarrel at the head of the bed and at the end of the bed, sister-in-law, don't be too careful. Li Minhao tried to comfort Shi Xiaonian, he really didn't know the news that Jian Hao and Shi Xiaonian had separated, otherwise he wouldn't have spoken to Shi Xiaonian in such a tone now.
"I'm like this, do you have an opinion?" Shi Xiaonian shook her head, she glanced at the time, and stopped arguing with Li Minhao, she was about to leave.
"Sister-in-law, where are you going, I'll give you a ride, right?" Li Minhao said behind Shi Xiaonian's back, and Shi Xiaonian refused with a smile.
"No, I have my own car. Shi Xiaonian shook the car key in his hand in front of Li Minhao, Li Minhao pulled the corners of his mouth, it was rare for him to be a woman's driver, Shi Xiaonian actually refused.
Oh my God, there is no reason in this world!
The place agreed between Shi Xiaonian and the landlord was downstairs in the house where the landlord lived, and Shi Xiaonian arrived there on time, and the landlord was already standing on the side of the road waiting for her.
Shi Xiaonian glanced at the landlord, the landlord was about forty-five years old, with white hair on her temples, her figure was a little thin, and her kind face was full of traces left by the wind and frost years, but when Shi Xiaonian saw her, she felt that the landlord was a good person.
This was her first instinct, and there was no basis for it. Shi Xiaonian parked the car next to the landlord, lowered the windshield window and talked to the landlord. The landlord is very talkative, she introduced herself to Shi Xiaonian, the landlord's surname is Zhang, and he is from the Northeast.
Shi Xiaonian called the other party Aunt Zhang, Aunt Zhang asked Shi Xiaonian if she lived alone, whether she would find roommates or something, and also asked about Shi Xiaonian's recent situation, as long as the landlord and aunt didn't ask about anything special, Shi Xiaonian told her.
Aunt Zhang asked Shi Xiaonian the last question was whether she had a boyfriend, Shi Xiaonian thought for a while, and she shook her head.
Aunt Zhang didn't say anything, she comforted Shi Xiao Nian and said, "A beautiful girl like you will definitely be chased by many men in the future." ”
Shi Xiaonian didn't pay too much attention to her words, because Shi Xiaonian really didn't care about love at all now, she felt that she was very good by herself now, she could do whatever she wanted, she wanted to be crazy, she wanted to play and make trouble, and no one cared.
Aunt Zhang chatted with Shi Xiaonian for a while, mainly about rent and utility bills, and Shi Xiaonian saw that the landlord's request was not too much, so she nodded directly and agreed.
Aunt Zhang lives here alone, she said that her son and daughter-in-law have gone abroad, and her wife died a few years ago, Shi Xiaonian said that she will often go to Aunt Zhang in the future, Aunt Zhang said okay, anyway, she lives on the first floor, and she can often go to her to sit there when she has time.
Aunt Zhang left, only Shi Xiaonian was left alone in the room, Shi Xiaonian looked at the room with a bright window, it was a little empty, she planned to buy some furniture and daily necessities tomorrow, of course, don't buy too many things, because she is not sure how long she will live here, at most a year and a half, at least three or four months, anyway, let's settle down first.
Jian Hao called Shi Xiaonian, but Shi Xiaonian didn't answer, she felt that she and Jian Hao had nothing to say, at least for now, let each other calm down, think about what went wrong in love, sometimes people need to think about it in order to better solve the problem, so that the love will last longer.